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bideshe priyojon
Part I
kalyaniya maa
Kj¨vYxqv gv
Letters in Bengali
Muhammad Abdul Malik
1
Bideshe Priyojon: Collection of letters in Bengali
Part-1: Kalyaniya Maa
Author: M. A. Malik (1913-1996)
ISBN 978 91 973 707 XX
CD Bok Manus, Internationella Kojan, Sweden, 2013
in The User-Oriented Bengali Easy Orthography
(J. Computer and the Humanities, vol. 33, p 241-45, 1999,
Kluwer Academic Publishers, Netherlands)
we‡`‡k wcÖqRb : cÎ msMÖnÕ
cÖ_g LYWÕ : Kj¨vYxqv gv
cÖKvk: 2013
gznvggÕ` Ave`zj gvwjK
2
(1913-1996)
BwZ K_vi c‡ii K_v
c·jLK gynvggÕ` Ave`yj gvwj‡Ki RbgÕ ¯’vb Z`vbwZb wÎcziv wRjvi Bjvnvev` MÖv‡gi
`wÿb-ckwP‡g ‰cqvcvovq| MÖvgwUi `wÿb-c~‡e© DULvov, ‡hLv‡b kvnRvjv‡ji GK mvM‡i`
ag© cÖPv‡ii Rb¨ emwZ ¯’vcb K‡ib| c·jL‡Ki cÖwcZvgnÕ RMx` Avjx I Zvi AbyR Rnzi
Avjxi RbgÕ ¯’vb gqbvgwZ| we‡kl Kvi‡Y GB `yB fvB Zv‡`i gvZvg‡ni evox ga¨bM‡i
e‡ov nq| gqbvgwZi `k wK‡jvwgUvi DZZÕi-ckwP‡g Bjvnvev` MÖv‡gi ‰cqvcvovq RsMj
mvd K‡i k¦vc` cÖvYx‡`i gv‡S Zviv evox I Rwg K‡ib ag© cÖPv‡ii Rb¨ bq, Rxebavi‡Yi
Rb¨| c·jL‡Ki cÖgvZvgnÕ ‡Muvov jv-gvRnvex Cgvg, hvi evox ‡MvgZxi av‡i ‡eov‡Lvjvq,
mgeÕfZt kvnRvjv‡ji ‡Kv‡bv mvM‡i‡`i eskai wQ‡jb|
c·jL‡Ki KwblV wcZ„e¨ Ave`zi ingvb gvlUv‡ii m~‡Î cÖvcZÕ cvwievwiK MzcZÕ Kvwnbx:
GK mgq wÎcyivi gnvivRv e„wU‡ki AvbyMZ¨ ¯^xKvi K‡i Zv‡`i g¨vb‡WU Abyhvqx wbR e¨‡q
gqbvgwZ‡Z e„wUk ‡iwm‡WbU emv‡Z ¯^xK…Z nb| gqbvgwZ cvnvo I cvk¦©eZ©x GjvKvevmx‡`i
DP‡Q` Kivi wb‡`©k Rvix Kiv nq| MÖvgevmxiv nzKzg `L‡j evav w`‡j Pvi Rb ‡cqv`v Lyb
nq| GB NUbvq RMx` Avjxi wcZv AvivB cjvqY K‡ib Ges Abycw¯’wZ‡Z cÖvY-`YwWZ n‡q
‡PŠ``Õ eQi e‡b-RsM‡j jywK‡q wQ‡jb| gqbvgwZ ‡_‡K DP‡Q`K„Z Zuvi AvZg&xq‡`i
A‡b‡KB Kzwgjjv, RvsMvwjqv, jvjgvB I evNgvivq P‡j hvq| cvwj‡q _vKvi ‡gqv` ‡kl
n‡j Amy¯_ AvivB k¦kyivjq ga¨bM‡i wM‡q `yB eQi ci gviv hvb, -‡mLv‡bB Zvi mgvwa|
Zvici RMx` Avjx I Rnzi Avjx gvZzjvjq ‡Q‡o ‰cqvcvov Avev` K‡ib| RMx` Avjxi
‡cŠÎ Ave`zj nvwg` gybkxi (1893-1975) ‰RlVÕ cyÎ c·jLK Ave`yj gvwjK AÎ
GjvKvi cÖ_g gymjgvb MÖvRy‡qU| ‡kl Rxe‡b AvivB ‰cqvcvov msjMbÕ kÖxcy‡ii RsM‡j
eZ©gvb C`Mv‡ni cv‡k weivU AvgMvQ Z‡j ‡Wiv evu‡ab, ‡h MvQwU c·jL‡Ki wcZv Zv‡K
evj¨Kv‡j ‡`Lvb (nvjLvZv, 1990)| c·jL‡Ki k¦kyi Ave`zi ingvb f~Tv (1894-1972)
wQ‡jb Ave`zj nvwg` gybkxi mZx_© I ¯^bvgL¨vZ iIkb nvRvixi ‡cŠÎ Ges Bjvnvev‡`i cvuP
wK‡jvwgUvi DZZÕi-ckwP‡g kvKZjv MÖvg wbevmx|
3
gnv‡dR cvZv- 0KLM
4
m~PxcÎ
wPwV bs
brev – I
ZvwiL
¯_vb
c…ôv
6-6-1983
XvKv
11
18-5-1985
XvKv
13
brev – III
1-3-1987
XvKv
15
brev – IV
17-3-1987
XvKv
17
brev – V
1-4-1987
XvKv
19
brev – VI
8-4-1987
XvKv
21
brev – VII
16-4-1987
XvKv
23
brev – VIII
19-4-1987
XvKv
25
3-5-1987
XvKv
27
brev – II
brev – IX
5
wPwV bs
ZvwiL
¯_vb
brev – X
4-6-1987
XvKv
29
brev – XI
12-6-1987
XvKv
31
brev – XII
20-6-1987
XvKv
33
brev – XIII
28-6-1987
XvKv
35
brev – XIV
9-7-1987
XvKv
37
brev – XV
21-7-1987
XvKv
39
brev – XVI
14-8-1987
XvKv
41
9-9-1987
XvKv
45
brev – XVIII
28-9-1987
XvKv
47
brev – XIX
12-11-1987
XvKv
49
brev – XX
8-12-1987
XvKv
51
brev – XXI
8-4-1988
XvKv
53
25-5-1988
XvKv
55
brev – XXIII
2-6-1988
XvKv
57
brev – XXIV
20-6-1988
XvKv
59
3-7-1988
XvKv
61
21-7-1988
XvKv
63
6-8-1988
XvKv
65
brev – XXVIII
19-8-1988
XvKv
67
brev – XXIX
30-8-1988
XvKv
69
brev – XXX
13-10-1988
XvKv
71
brev – XXXI
28-10-1988
XvKv
73
brev – XXXII
31-10-1988
XvKv
75
brev – XVII
brev – XXII
brev – XXV
brev – XXVI
brev – XXVII
6
c…ôv
wPwV bs
ZvwiL
¯_vb
brev – XXXIII
16-2-1989
XvKv
77
brev – XXIV
7-3-1989
XvKv
79
brev – XXXV
21-4-1989
XvKv
81
9-5-1989
XvKv
83
brev – XXXVII
20-5-1989
XvKv
85
brev – XXXVIII
12-6-1989
XvKv
87
brev – XXXIX
25-6-1989
XvKv
89
6-7-1989
XvKv
91
brev – XLI
20-7-1989
XvKv
93
brev – XLII
25-7-1989
XvKv
95
brev – XLIII
3-8-1989
XvKv
97
brev – XLIV
16-8-1989
XvKv
99
5-9-1989
XvKv
101
brev – XLVI
19-9-1989
XvKv
103
brev – XLVII
12-10-1989
XvKv
105
brev – XLVIII
23-10-1989
XvKv
107
brev – XLIX
13-11-1989
XvKv
109
brev – L
14-11-1989
XvKv
111
9-12-1989
XvKv
113
brev – LII
20-12-1989
XvKv
115
brev – LIII
10-1-1990
XvKv
117
brev – LIV
13-3-1990
XvKv
119
brev – LV
28-3-1990
XvKv
121
brev – XXXVI
brev – XL
brev – XLV
brev – LI
7
c…ôv
wPwV bs
ZvwiL
¯_vb
c…ôv
brev – LVI
8-4-1990
XvKv
123
brev – LVII
7-5-1990
XvKv
125
brev – LVIII
15-12-1410 wnt
XvKv
129
6-9-1990
XvKv
131
brev – LX
24-9-1990
XvKv
133
brev – LXI
13-10-1990
XvKv
135
brev – LXII
28-10-1990
XvKv
137
brev – LXIII
8-11-1990
XvKv
139
brev – LXIV
20-11-1990
XvKv
141
8-10-1990
XvKv
145
brev – LXVI
30-12-1990
XvKv
149
brev – LXVII
16-1-1991
XvKv
151
brev – LXVIII
9-2-1990
XvKv
155
brev – LXIX
6-3-1991
XvKv
159
brev – LXX
31-3-1991
XvKv
163
brev – LXXI
7-5-1991
XvKv
167
brev – LXXII
30-5-1991
XvKv
169
brev – LXXIII
6-7-1991
XvKv
173
brev – LXXIV
18-7-1991
XvKv
175
brev – LXXV
10-8-1991
XvKv
177
brev – LXXVI
1-9-1991
XvKv
181
brev – LXXVII
22-9-1991
XvKv
185
brev – LXXVIII
15-10-1991
XvKv
189
brev – LIX
brev – LXV
8
wPwV bs
ZvwiL
¯_vb
brev – LXXXIX
8-11-1991
XvKv
193
brev – LXXX
10-11-1991
XvKv
195
brev – LXXXI
8-12-1991
XvKv
199
brev – LXXXII
7-1-1992
XvKv
203
brev – LXXXIII
28-1-1992
XvKv
207
brev – LXXXIV
21-3-1992
XvKv
211
brev – LXXXV
26-4-1992
XvKv
213
brev – LXXXVI
30-5-1992
XvKv
217
brev – LXXXVII
18-7-1992
XvKv
219
brev – LXXXVIII
19-8-1992
XvKv
221
brev – LXXXIX
28-12-1992
XvKv
225
brev – XC
30-3-1993
XvKv
229
brev – XCI
27-7-1993
XvKv
233
brev – XCII
28-8-1993
XvKv
237
brev – XCIII
26-9-1993
XvKv
239
brev – XCIV
23-10-1993
XvKv
243
brev – XCV
1-12-1993
XvKv
247
brev – XCVI
26-3-1994
XvKv
251
brev – XCVII
2-6-1994
XvKv
253
brev – XCVIII
27-8-1994
XvKv
255
brev – XCIX
23-10-1994
wmsMvcyi
257
21-1-1995
wmsMvcyi
259
brev – C
9
c…ôv
c~e‡© jLÕ
(iBengali)
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10
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – I
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 6-6-1983
gxby gv,
‡Zvgiv †`vqv I †mœn wb‡qv ! G Rxeb mvqvn‡Y AvR wb‡R‡K g‡b nq GKvbZÕ wbt¯^ Avi
GKv| Zey †h‡bv g‡b nq Av‡iv wbtmsM, Av‡iv GKv _vK‡Z cvi‡j ¯^w¯Í †cZvg ! wKbZz
†Kv_vq cv‡ev †mB VuvB, "A cottage lone and still with bowes nigh
shadowing my owes to still until I die.Ó
†Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ Avi KL‡bv †`Lv nq wK bv Rvwb bv| bvBev n‡jv ! `ÖyZZg hvb, -BPQvi
evnb †h gb, †m ‡Zv cÖwZ wbqZB †Zvgv‡`i †`‡L Av‡m my`~i myB‡W‡b| †mLv‡b GLb
MbaÕnxb ivwk ivwk dzj dz‡U| Avi wcKzgwY †QvUUÕ †QvUUÕ cv‡q Qz‡U hvq †m me Siv dzj
Kzov‡Z| Avi GK mgq †m †`‡k Mv‡Q Mv‡Q ei‡di dzj dz‡U mv`v ae a‡e! Avnv ! `~‡ii
wRwbl K‡Zv myb`Õi !
wcKzgwYiv GKw`b e‡ov n‡q hvq, -`~‡i m‡i hvq| GKw`b †m †Q‡o †h‡Z Kuv‡`, - †m
GKw`b †Q‡o †h‡Z bv cvi‡j Kuv‡`| GUvB Rxe‡bi ag©, -GUvB `ywbqvi jxjv|
†Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv ? fv‡jv Av‡Qv Rvbvi Rb¨ D`MÖxe _vwK| fv‡jv Av‡Qv Rvb‡j Lykx nB|
bv _vK‡jI ‡Zv wKQz KiYxq bvB| †Lv`vi Kv‡Q †`vqv Kwi †Zvgiv †h‡bv fv‡jv _v‡Kv|
†Zvgvi Lvjvi kixi w`b w`b Lviv‡ci w`‡KB, -Aek¨ wReev GL‡bv AK¬vbZÕ| †Zvgv‡K ‡Zv
‡Kv‡bv w`b wPwV wjwLwb| Aek¨ cÖ‡qvRbI nq bvB| AvR GB wbtmsM gyn‡~ Z© †K‡bv Rvwb
g‡b n‡jv †Zvgvq wPwV wjwL| ‡Zvgvi Kv‡Q AbZÕZt Avgvi evsjv †jLvi GKUv wPnYÕ _vK !
Avwm, -‡`vqv wb‡qv †Zvgiv mevB, -Zzwg, eveb Avi wcKz| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
11
gnv‡dR cvZv 1-KLMNOP
12
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – II
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 18-5-1985
gv gxby,
†Zvgvi Dci Avjøvn ZvÕjvi A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvÕK ! gxby, ‡Zvgvq Avwg ‡Kv‡bv wPwV wjwL
bv| Av‡Rv ‡h ‡K‡bv wjLwQ Rvwb bv| nVvr K‡i GKUy Av‡M BP‡Q n‡jv ‡Zvgvq wjwL|
Rxe‡bi GB 72Zg e‡l© Kg©nxb w`‡b A‡bK mgq ¯g…wZPviY Kwi| eQi MzYwZ‡Z A‡bK
`~‡ii NUbvMzwj ¯g…wZi `zqv‡i A‡bK Kv‡Q| g‡b nq ‡h‡bv GB ‡Zv ‡mw`‡bi K_v| meviB
‡eva nq Ggwb nq| Kv‡ji cÖev‡n K‡Zv Kv‡Qi gvbyl `~‡i P‡j ‡M‡jv, -‡Kej evwn‡ii w`K
w`‡q bq, AbZÕ‡ii w`K w`‡qI ! Avwg ‡h‡bv GK me©nviv cÖvPxb ZvjMvQ, -gnvKv‡ji
mvÿx| G‡K G‡K ‡Kej nvwi‡qB hvPwQ| e`‡j nq‡Zv wKQz cvB, wKbZz ‡ZgbwU Avi cvB
bv| Ggwb K‡i nq‡Zv GKw`b wb‡RB nvwi‡q hv‡ev |
13
gv gxby, g‡b ‡i‡Lv, -mÖóvi me©‡kÖlVÕ `vb ‡cÖg, Ges gvbyl mÖóvi me©‡kÖlVÕ m…wó wnmv‡e Zvi
me©‡kÖlVÕ mgcÕ` ‡cÖg| _vK‡Z cv‡i ‡Kv‡bv ‡Kv‡bv ‡ÿ‡Î Zvi g‡a¨ AvwejZv, ZeyI Zv‡K
Avwg kÖ`av Kwi| gv gxby, ‡Zvgv‡K Avwg Kx ej‡ev Avwg wb‡RB eywS bv, nq‡Zv wKQzUv
Abyfe Kwi| ‡K‡bv Rvwb g‡b n‡Zv Zzwg hw` Avgvi ‡g‡q n‡Z ! Zvici n‡j Zzwg wcZ…nxbv|
ZLb ‡eva nq Avgvi ‡jvfUv ‡e‡o ‡M‡jv| ZvB ‡Zvgvq Avb‡Z ‡P‡qwQjvg ‡g‡q K‡i, -Zzwg
Avm‡j, wKbZz eua~ n‡q| ‡g‡q ‡cjvg bv, ‡Q‡j‡KI nvivjvg, ... ...|
Rvwb bv gv, gvbzl ‡K‡bv G‡Zv wblVzi nq ! GKw`b hv‡K fv‡jvev‡m, Avi GKw`b ‡Kgb
K‡i wbg©g AvNvZ nv‡b| gv gxby, Avwg e‡ov ‡mœnÕ ggZvi KvOvj| ‡eva nq ‡QvU‡ejvq
‡mœnÕ-Avnjv` cvBwb e‡j wRwblUvi cÖwZ Avgvi G‡Zv ‡jvf| ÿzwaZ cvlvY !
msmvi Rxe‡b Avwg wQjvg mnR mij cb_x ! nq‡Zv ‡m Rb¨ ‡KD ‡KD KiyYv Ki‡Zv|
Kv‡R-K‡g©, wec‡` Avc‡` mvnvh¨ Ki‡Zv| Z‡e g‡b nq ‡KD AkÖ`av Ki‡Zv bv| GLb ‡eva
nq ‡kl ce©| Avi Kqw`bB ev euvP‡ev ! nvq‡i gvbyl ! we‡` ¡l AbaÕ n‡q hLb gvbyl ‡Kv‡bv
GKUv Lvivc KvR K‡i e‡m, Ges we‡e‡Ki `sk‡b R ¡j‡Z _v‡K, ZLb ‡m wnZvwnZ Ávb
nviv‡q Av‡iv Lvivc KvR K‡i R ¡vjv Kgv‡Z, wKbZz G‡Z R ¡vjv ev‡o eB K‡g bv| Kx wewPÎ
gvbyl! Kx wewPÎ Zvi gvbwmKZv ! Avwg hv‡K ‡mœnÕ Kwi, Kv‡j Avgvi kÎy n‡q ‡M‡jI Zvi
AgsMj Kvgbv Kwi bv| wPiKvj we‡e‡Ki `skb ‡_‡K GK Avcb Rb‡K gyKZÕ ivL‡Z Zzwg
‡h mvn‡mi cwiPq w`‡q‡Qv, ‡m Rb¨ me mgq ‡Zvgvq Avkxe©v` Kwi,- “Whom the Lord
loveth, He correcteth !” ivM K‡iv bv gv, Av‡Rv Zzwg ‡g‡qB Av‡Qv !
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
14
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – III
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 1-3-1987
gv gxby,
Avjjvn ZvÕjvi A‡kl ingZ †Zvgvi Dci ewl©Z nDK ! †Zvgvi Rxeb myb`Õi, mdj I
kvbwZgq nDK !
gv, †Zvgvi wPwV †c‡q ‡h K‡Zv Lykx n‡qwQ Zv fvlvq cÖKvk Ki‡Z cvi‡ev bv| Zywg †h
†K‡bv wPwV wjL‡Z bv Zv Rvwb bv| wKbZz g‡b Kó n‡Zv| mygx Avgv‡K me mgq wPwV †`q,e‡ov we¯ÍvwiZ wPwV| KLb wK Ki‡jv, †Kv_vq wK †`L‡jv, -G me eY©bv| g‡b nq †h‡bv e‡m
MjcÕ Ki‡Q| bwb Avevi GB e¨vcv‡i †ek K…cY| Z‡e Avgv‡`i wPwV Iiv Lye Kg cvq,
A_©vr Avgiv wjL‡jI Iiv mgq g‡Zv cvq bv| nq‡Zv K‡qKwU GK ms‡M cvq A‡bK w`b
ci| Iiv Aek¨ cÖ‡Z¨K eb`Õ‡i eb`Õ‡iB wPwV Qv‡o| †Zvgv‡`i g‡Zv I‡`i mv‡_ K_v
ejvi my‡hvM Aek¨ Lze Kg|
†Zvgv‡`i wPwVcÎ gv Avwg Rwg‡q †i‡LwQ| GKw`b †hw`b _vK‡ev bv, Gme nv‡Z co‡j
nq‡Zv iexb`ªbv‡_i ÒcyivZÕb wPwViÓ †kl `yB jvBb, 15
Òhv‡i Zzwg †i‡LwQ‡j K‡i G‡Zv †mœnÕ,
‡Zvgv‡i ‡ZgÕb K‡i iv‡Lwb wK ‡KnÕ !Ó
g‡b co‡Z cv‡i|
gv, G `ywbqvq Avmv-hvIqvi †Ljv| `ywbqvUv †h‡bv GKUv †ij‡ókb,- G‡Zv fxo| wKbZz
GLv‡b ‡KD _v‡K bv, -mevB hvÎx, - †KD Av‡m, †KD hvq| Aek¨ Gi g‡a¨ we`vq w`‡q
†KD Kuv‡`, Af¨_©bv K‡i †KD nv‡m|
†Zvgiv Avgvi cov m~iv Bqvwmb I Avi ingvb gv‡S gv‡S ky‡bv| kzb‡Z nq‡Zv fv‡jvevmÕ, ky‡b Lykx njvg| Avwg †h w`b _vK‡ev bv, ‡mw`b nq‡Zv kyb‡e †Zvgiv GB †iKÕiW Kiv m~iv
`yBwU |
Aek¨ iexb`ªbv‡_i ÒAvR †_‡K kZÕ eQÕi c‡iÓ-i g‡Zv †ZvgivI _vK‡e bv,- Ab¨ †KDI
kyb‡e bv| Avgiv gv †KD wPi¯’vqx nÕ‡Z PvB bv| PvIqv cvIqvi auvauv †KD Avi A‡cÿv
Ki‡Z Pvq bv| eqm evovi mv‡_ mv‡_ wekvj gvbeMzwói GKUv wbw`©ó mxgvbvq gvbyl Zvi
g‡bi wkKo we¯Ívi K‡i| GKUv g‡bi mgvR M‡o †Zv‡j RxebUv†K i~‡c-i‡m-Mb‡a myb`Õi
K‡i †fvM Ki‡Z | GK mgq †h c~Y©Zv jvf K‡i| Zvici kyiy nq nvivevi cvjv| Kv‡ji
Nwoi KuvUvq ax‡i ax‡i P‡j †m ÿq| nVvr K‡i GKw`b g‡b nq †Kv_vq Gjvg,- wb‡R‡K
g‡b nq GKvbZÕ GKv| GZÕw`b †m eyS‡ZB cv‡iwb wek¦ `vev†Ljvq Zvi jvj ‡NvovUv
ÒwekyÓ K‡e wb‡q †M‡Q !
wkkyi g‡Zv A‡bK ev‡R eKjvg gv| GKw`b hLb wd‡i Avm‡e (nq‡Zv Avwg _vK‡ev bv),
†Zvgvi wZb Zjvi N‡i Avgvi wKQz †Quvqv Abyfe Ki‡e| †Zvgvi NiwU gv hZUzKz mgfÕe
myb`Õi Ki‡Z †Póv K‡iwQ| †f‡ewQ GLv‡b Avgvi eveb, gxby, wcKz, nq‡Zv ev Av‡iv GKRb
_vK‡e| cqmv _vK‡j Av‡iv myb`Õi Kivi BPQv wQ‡jv|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
16
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – IV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 17-3-1987
gv gxby
Avjjvni ingZ kvbwZ †Zvgv‡`i Dci ewl©Z nDK !
GKUz Av‡MB †Zvgvi mv‡_ K_v ejjvg| †Kv_vq myB‡Wb Avi †Kv_vq evsjv‡`k ! weÁv‡bi
wK weivU ÿgZv, -wb‡g‡l gvby‡li ¯^i†K ms‡hvRb K‡i w`‡Z cv‡i| ‡givR wK AmgfÕe
wQ‡jv ? nq‡Zv Ggb w`b Avm‡e hLb gvbyl cicv‡ii AvZg&vi mv‡_I †hvMv‡hvM Ki‡Z
cvi‡e| Avgiv †Zv GL‡bv cbPvk eQi Av‡Mi GKUv gvby‡li, - Aek¨ hvi mv‡_ A‡bKw`b
K_vevZ©v n‡q‡Q, -KYVÕ¯^i Avgvi g‡bi Kv‡b, - ¯giY Ki‡j, - kyb‡Z cvB| Avgvi g‡bi
¯^‡ii my‡ii iv‡R¨ K‡Zv nvwm-Kvbbvi K_v, Muv_v, Mvb, G‡jv†g‡jv Qwo‡q Av‡Q| ¯g„wZ
hv‡K ¯gib K‡i, Ggwb †mB †R‡M aiv †`q| nviv‡bv QweMy‡jvI Z`i~c|
hvK gv, A‡bK Av‡Rev‡R wPbZv KL‡bv KL‡bv g‡b Rv‡M| †Zvgiv fv‡jv Av‡Qv kyb‡j
fv‡jv jv‡M| †Zvgv‡`i wPwV †c‡j Lykx nB| Rxe‡bi GBÿ‡Y G-B Avgvi †kÖlVÕ cvIqv|
Rxe‡b Avwg Avgv‡K myb`Õi K‡i Zzj‡Z A‡bK Kó K‡iwQ, -mvabv K‡iwQ| K‡ZvUzKy mdj
n‡qwQ Rvwb bv| nq‡Zv Av‡iv Kivi wQ‡jv,- Ki‡Z cvwiwb| Avgvi K¬vwšÍ,- Avgvi RoZv,17
Avgvi cvmibwcÖqZv,- KL‡bv KL‡bv we‡ivwaZv,- Amn‡hvwMZv Avgv‡K mvg‡b evo‡Z
†`qwb| Z‡e Rxe‡bi †kl cÖvb‡Z `vuwo‡q AvR †Kv‡bv Awf‡hvM †bB| kyay mªóvi Kv‡Q ÿgv
PvB,- ÒK¬vwšÍ Avgvi ÿgv K‡iv cÖ‡fv !Ó|
Avgvi weKvk, -Avgvi cuvPwU mbZvb| Avwg †P‡qwQ Avgvi GB cuvPwU mbZvb cuvPwU dzj n‡q
dzUzK, -Ges G‡`i Rxebmv_x hviv Avm‡e, ZvivI †ZgbwU ‡nvK ! GwU †Lv`v, -Amxg `vZvi
Kv‡Q †Zgb †ekx wKQz bq| Avgvi PvIqv wZwb K‡ZvUv c~iY K‡i‡Qb Rvwb bv| Z‡e Avgvi
mva Avi mvabvi g‡a¨ nq‡Zv †Zgb mgb¦q wQ‡jv bv| ZvB Avjjvn hv w`‡q‡Qb Zv‡Z Zvi
`iev‡i Avgvi nvRvi kyKzi|
AvR GLv‡b BwZ UvbwQ| Avjjvn †g‡nievb †Zvgv‡`i †ndvRZ I gsMj Kiyb ! Avwgb !
‡mœnvkxe©v`vb‡Z, -‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – V
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 1-4-1987
gv gxby,
Avjjvn ‡Zvgvi gsMj KiyK ! †Zvgiv myL, kvbwZ I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv ! GB Avgvi Kvgbv, †Lv`vi Kv‡Q, G-B Avgvi cÖv_©bv|
gv, A‡bK w`b†Zv euvPjvg ! A‡bK mg e‡qmx mv_xiv P‡j †M‡Q| A‡bK wKQz P‡j hvq|
Avevi A‡bK wKQz„ Av‡m| hviv P‡j †M‡jv, Zv‡`i ¯g„wZ enb Ki‡Z †KD †KD †_‡K hvq|
Zzwg†Zv A‡bK w`b GLv‡b bvB| GLb hw` G evoxi K_v g‡b K‡iv wK †`L‡e ! †mB †cqviv
MvQ, dzj MvQ, KuvVvj MvQ, bvi‡Kj MvQ, nq‡Zv `yÕGKwU dzj MvQI| Av‡iv g‡b co‡e †mB
jgev evivb`v, wUb †kW, Uvjxi cvKNi, - †MvmjLvbv| G evoxi evwmb`v‡`i K_v, †K wK
Ki‡Zv, ‡K wK ej‡Zv, - G me K_v| GLb Zzwg hLb Avgv‡`i g‡b K‡iv, ZLb †Zgwb K‡i
Avgv‡`i †mB cyiv‡Yv cwi‡ekUv†K g‡b K‡iv| G‡Zv wKQz †h e`‡j †M‡Q, G‡Zv wKQz †h
†bB, -ZeyI †Zvgvi g‡b meB Av‡Mi g‡ZvB Av‡Q| eZ©gvb Ae¯’vb†K Pvÿzl bv †`Lv
ch©bZÕ AZxZUvB ¯g„wZ‡K Rei `Lj K‡i iv‡L|
Amy¯¨’ bv _vK‡j †ivRB AvRv‡bi mv‡_ mv‡_ DwV, -gmwR‡` hvB| gmwR‡` hvevi mgq †`wL
†ivR †M‡Ui Wvb cv‡k, - eve‡bi jvMv‡bv MbaÕivR dz‡ji MvQUv `uvwo‡q _v‡K| (GLb
19
evoxi †MU ckwPg w`K w`‡q) | enz Kó K‡i MvQUv‡K iÿv Ki‡Z †c‡iwQjvg| ZvB G
MvQUvi cÖwZ Avgvi AvK©lY †ekx| MvQUv GLb †ek jgev n‡q‡Q, cÖvq 8 dz‡Ui KvQvKvwQ|
ey‡ov n‡q †M‡Q †Zv, -dzj ‡ekx dz‡U bv| dzU‡jI bxP †_‡K †`Lv hvq bv|
MZKvj wZb Zjvq D‡V †`Ljvg MvQUvi gv_vi Dc‡i †ek wKQz dzj,- GKUv Avav kyK‡bv, Avi `yÕ‡Uv ZvRv| †`L‡Z myb`Õi jvM‡jv| bx‡Pi w`‡Ki A‡bKMzwj Wvj †ewi‡q‡Q wKbZz dzj
nq bv| G WvjMz‡jv Dci w`‡K wkwi Kjg †K‡UwQ‡jv| wkKoI †ewi‡qwQ‡jv,- Avwg Zv‡K
KvU‡Z †`B wb,- Zv‡K ¯’vbPy¨Z Ki‡Z ‡`Bwb| _vKbv ‡m Av‡iv wKQzKvj Avgvi Avmv
hvIqvi c‡_i mvÿx n‡q|
evoxUv †`L‡Z †gvUvgywU gb`Õ bq| eyey (‡Zvgvi gv) e‡jb -Òis gnÕjÓ| Aek¨ Dwb GKUz
evwo‡q e‡jb| ‡Zvgv‡`i evoxUv (wZb Zjv ) †gvUvgywU fv‡e K‡i wb‡Z A‡b‡K e‡jwQ‡jv, wKbZz Avgvi gb mvq w`‡jv bv| †Zvgiv A‡bK Kó K‡i UvKv `vI †R‡bI GKUz †ekx UvKv
LiP Kijvg| Rvwb, ‡Zvgiv Lykx n‡e| Avwg myb`Õi‡K †hgb fv‡jvevwm, -weivU‡KI †Zgb
fv‡jvevwm| G `yÕwU wRwbl‡K †c‡Z Rxe‡b Avwg ‡Kv‡bv Kó‡K e‡ov g‡b Kwiwb| e‡ov K‡i
PvIqv, e‡ov K‡i cvIqvi †Póvi wkÿv Avgvi evevi `vb| evev ej‡Zb, -Ò†Lv`vi Kv‡Q
hLb †e‡n¯Í PvI, ZLb RvbbvZzj †di‡`ŠmB †P‡qv !Ó
Zzwg, eveb, wcKz I AbvM‡Zi Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i †`vqv K‡i GLv‡b BwZ UvbwQ|
†Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – VI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 8-4-1987
gv gxbyy,
‡`vqv wb‡qv| ‡Lv`v ‡Zvgvi gsMj Kiyb ! Zvui A‡kl Kiybv †Zvgvi Rxeb‡K myb`Õi, myLkvbwZgq KiyK !
gv, Avgiv ‡Zv †Zvgv‡`i †`wL bv| A‡bK w`b †_‡K †Zvgiv †Pv‡Li Avov‡j| Zey Avjjvni
A‡kl †g‡nievbx gv‡S gv‡S †Zvgv‡`i KbVÕ¯^i kywb †Uwj‡dv‡bi gva¨‡g| GLb Avgvi
¯g„wZkKwZ A‡bK K‡g †M‡Q| g‡b _v‡K bv| Òg‡b ivLvi w`b wM‡q‡Q, GLb ‡fvjvi
‡ejv|Ó Z‡e wK wKQzB g‡b _v‡K bv ? AZx‡Zi A‡bK wKQzB g‡b Av‡Q,- fzwjwb| †QvUÕ
†ejvq A‡bK †QvULv‡Uv K_v ®úó g‡b Av‡Q, -‡h‡bv †mw`‡bi K_v| wf.wW.I.-‡Z a‡i ivLv
Qwei g‡Zv| Iiv nvwi‡q ‡M‡Q| NUbvi mgvcwZ N‡U‡Q| nvwm-Kvbbvi Mvb †_‡g †M‡Q †Kvb
AZx‡Z, -Zey Zvi †ik, myi-Qb`Õ Avgvi g‡bi wf.wW.I.-‡Z ¯g„wZ n‡q †eu‡P Av‡Q|
Avgv‡`i evoxi c~ew`‡K GKUv e‡ov eUMvQ wQ‡jv, -MvQ‡Zv bq, †h‡bv GKUv weivU ‰`Z¨|
K‡qKUv weivU †njv‡bv Wvj, 60/70 dzU jgev, -‡h‡bv H ˆ`‡Z¨i nvZ| KvYWÕUv †ekx DuPz
wQ‡jv bv| wKbZz †gvUv wQ‡jv cÖvq GK kZÕ eM©nvZ, -g‡a¨ g‡a¨ duvK| g‡b n‡Zv †h‡bv †KD
GK MyPQÕ Pviv GK mv‡_ jvwM‡qwQ‡jv, -GK mv‡_ RovRwo K‡i K‡qK nvZ Dc‡i D‡V hvi
hv myweav g‡Zv bq w`‡K Qwo‡q ‡M‡Q| †QvUÕ †ejv †`LZvg †fv‡ii jvj m~h©Uv D‡V‡Q H eU
MvQUvi wcQb w`‡q, -cvZvq cvZvq Avwei Qwo‡q| Avevi GB m~h©Uv A¯Í †h‡Zv KvuwPmvBi
MÖv‡gi c~e©w`‡K `uvov‡bv Avi GKUv `xN©vsMx eUMv‡Qi wcQb w`‡q ‡Zgwb fv‡e Avwei Qwo‡q|
KvuwPmvB‡ii eUMvQUv wQ‡jv †ek jgev‡U, -Wv‡ji msL¨v †Zgb †ekx wQ‡jv bv, -‡Zgb
†njv‡bv wQ‡jv bv|
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Avgiv ejZvg Avgv‡`i MvQUv bi, -Avi HUv gv`x| Avgv‡`i MvQUv fxwZ mbPvi Ki‡Zv|
Avgiv †KD GKv GKv eUZjvq †hZvg bv| wnb`yiv †cŠl msKªvbwZ‡Z GLv‡b Kvjx c~Rv
w`‡Zv, -cuvVv ewj w`‡Zv| mviv ivZ KxZ©b Ki‡Zv| †QvUUÕ GKUv N‡i Kvjx _vK‡Zv| Avi
_vK‡Zv GKUv weivU cvbK mvc| IB mvcUv †g‡iwQ‡jv Avgvi evev, - GKUv hy`‡ai
Av‡qvRb K‡i, -‡hLv‡b A‡bK †jv‡Ki mgvMg n‡qwQ‡jv| mvcUv‡K A‡bK w`b e‡Ui Wv‡j
UvswM‡q ivLv n‡qwQ‡jv ‡jv‡K †`Lvi Rb¨| †m eUMvQUv GLb bvB, KvjxI
bvB,-
Kvjxc~RvI nq bv| wKbZz AZx‡Zi eUMv‡Qi c~e©w`‡Ki evoxUv‡K GL‡bv †jv‡K eUZ‡ji
evox e‡j| nu¨v, KuvwPmvB‡ii eUMvQUvI bvB, -IUv S‡o †d‡j w`‡qwQ‡jv| GLb Avi G
Mvu‡qi e‡Ui duv‡K m~h© D‡V bv, I Mvu‡qi e‡Ui wcQb w`‡q A¯Í hvq bv| nq‡Zv Avwei Qovq
wVKB, wKbZz Ab¨ ‡Kv_vqI|
gv, MbaÕivR MvQUvq Gevi GK ms‡M A‡bKMy‡jv dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv, Rvwb bv ‡K‡bv| G‡Zv
Av‡qvRb Kvi Rb¨ ! Av‡M wKbZz G‡Zv dzj GKmv‡_ dz‡Uwb| Avgiv ‡Zv dzj wQuwo bv, -Z‡e
bx‡Pi Wv‡ji `yÕGKUv dzj ‡h Gevi cÖ_g dzU‡jv| `yó †Q‡jiv Pzwi K‡i wb‡q hvq| Z‡e Pzwi
Kiv cvc n‡jI, dzj Pzwi‡Z cvc †bB|
A‡bK K_v ejjvg, -Zzwg wK g‡b K‡iv Rvwb bv| GLb †Zvgvi KvQ †_‡K we`vq wbB| wcKzi
mv‡_ MjcÕ Kivi my‡hvM cvB wK bv Rvwb bv| Zzwg, eveb I wcKz Avgvi †`vqv wb‡qv !
†Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
22
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – VII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 16-4-1987
2iv ‰ekvL, 1394
Kj¨vYxqv gv wgby,
GB beel© 1394 †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avjjvni Acvi KiyYv e‡q AvbyK ! myb`Õi gsMjgq ‡nvÕK
†Zvgv‡`i Rxeb !
AvR †_‡K kZÕel© c~‡e© 1294 evsjvq Avgvi Aveev GB c„w_ex‡Z G‡mwQ‡jb| evevi gy‡L
ky‡bwQ A‡b¨i Kv‡Q ej‡Z Zvi RbgÕ mb| gv‡mi K_v Rvwb bv, kywbI bvB| AvR ‡_‡K kZÕ
eQi c~‡e© Bjvnvev` MÖv‡gi GK Kuz‡oN‡i Rb‡gwQ‡jv GB Z¨vMx, Ávbx, AmÕg mvnmx,
†Lv`vfKZÕ gnvcyiyl| GB 1394 †_‡K kyiy n‡jv Avgvi GK cvwievwiK Ae`Õ| GB m‡b G
cwievi †_‡K hviv `ywbqvq Avm‡e Zviv Avgvi wcZvi g‡Zv gnxqvb n‡e, -GB Avgvi
wek¦vm| gv gxby, Avgvi evc e‡j Avwg evwo‡q ewjwb| Avwg Zuvi Rxeb mgeÕb‡a wKQzUv
M‡elYv K‡iwQ| Avwg †`‡LwQ Zvi g‡a¨ GK AbyKiYxq cyiyl†K| Avwg AeÕk¨ Zvi g‡Zv
n‡Z †Póv K‡iwQ, Rvwb bv K‡ZvUzKz †c‡iwQ| Aek¨ hZÕUzKz †c‡iwQ, ZvI Zuvi †`vqvi
eiK‡Z| mva _vK‡jI nq‡Zv †Zgb mvabv wQ‡jv bv|
w`b, gvm, eQi Gfv‡eB P‡j Kvj‡mÖvZ| G `ywbqvq mevB Av`g mbZvb| wKbZz wKfv‡e †h
gvbyl mviv we‡k¦ Ggb wewPÎ fv‡e Qwo‡q co‡jv, Zv Avwg †f‡e cvB bv| Z‡e wKQz gvbyl
Rxe‡b Pjvi c‡_ wKQz GKUv †i‡L hvq| cieZ©xKv‡j Zvi eska‡iiv G we‡kl wKQzUv‡K
¯giY K‡i wb‡Riv we‡kl wKQz Kivi †cÖiYv jvf K‡i| GUv we‡kl wKQzUv wewfbbÕ iKg
nÕ‡Z cv‡i, - Ávb, A_©, cÖZvc BZ¨vw`|
23
Avgvi evevi wQ‡jv Áv‡bi mvabv| †jLvcov wZwb †ekx Ki‡Z cv‡ib wb| wKbZz †jLvcovi
cÖwZ wQ‡jv Zuvi A`g¨ AvMÖn| h‡ZvUzKz Rvb‡Zb, Lye fv‡jv fv‡e Rvb‡Zb, -wZwb Avgv‡K
dvimx eqvZ ej‡Zb, Ò‡ni‡m †KvZv, dvn‡g Kv‡gj, Lv‡Zi Rgv Kzj‡j nvj| Ó
A_©vr, Ávb AR©‡bi Rb¨ wZbwU kZ©: (1) †jvf mshZÕ Ki‡e, (2) cy‡ivcywi fv‡e ey‡S
wb‡e, (3) me mgq ZZ¡ we‡kølY Ki‡e|
wZwb †ek fv‡jv evsjv Rvb‡Zb, wKbZz wZwb †Kv‡bv w`b Kv‡iv Kv‡Q evsjv wk‡Lbwb|
GKevi wKQz GKUv †`L‡j Avi fzj‡Zb bv| Ggb AvkPh© gvbyl Avwg Avi †`wLwb| ¯^‡`kx
Avb‡`vj‡bi mgq we‡`kx Kvco ci‡eb bv| RvdiMÕbR evRv‡i we‡`kx Kvc‡oi Uzcx
AvMy‡b cywo‡q w`‡q Lvwj gv_vq evox G‡jb| c‡ii w`bB GKUv Zuv‡Zi evqbv w`‡q G‡jb|
GK mcZv‡ni g‡a¨ ZuvZ G‡m †M‡jv| kÖxcyi †_‡K GKRb ZuvZx G‡b ZuvZ emv‡jb| ZuvZx
evox wM‡q GKw`b †`‡L G‡jb wKfv‡e Iiv Kvco ey‡b| GB GKw`‡bB wkÿv mgvcYx|
Gici A‡bK w`b wZwb ZuvZ ey‡b‡Qb| evevi ˆZix A‡bK Kvco Avwg c‡iwQ| wZwb Avgvi
Rvgv I cvqRvgv †mjvB K‡i w`‡Zb|
Avgvi eveb Aek¨ evevi wKQzUv †c‡q‡Q| evev Zv‡K Lye †mœnÕ Ki‡Zb,- Zvi mgeÕb‡a
ej‡Zb, -Ò†Kbv‡b fvB‡qiv BDmyd‡K Ku~qvq †d‡jwQ‡jv, -wKbZz Avjjvn Zv‡K wgk‡ii
ev`kv evbv‡jv|Ó evevi †`vqv nq‡Zv Keyj n‡q‡Q|
‡Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i †`vqv K‡i GLv‡b BwZ UvbwQ| †Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
24
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – VIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 19-4-1987
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avjjvni Amxg ingZ Kvgbv Kwi ! †Zvgiv fv‡jv _v‡Kv, my‡L _v‡Kv !
gv, MZKvj †Zvgvi wPwV †cjvg| Lye Lykx n‡qwQ| †Zvgv‡`i G †mœnÕ gvLv wjwcMy‡jv Avgvi
†kl Rxe‡bi gb giy‡Z giy`¨vb n‡q _vK‡e !
Rv‡bv gxby, KÕw`b Av‡M MbaÕivR MvQUvq A‡bK dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv| A‡bK dzj, - dz‡j dy‡j
MvQUv †Q‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv| ÒG‡Zv dzj dz‡U,- G‡Zv evuwk ev‡RÓ| g‡b nPwQ‡jv wK Rv‡bv ?
g‡b nPwQ‡jv Akixwi eveb †h‡bv MvQUvi cvZvq cvZvq, dz‡j dy‡j Rwo‡q Av‡Q| Kx †h
fv‡jv jvMwQ‡jv| Zvici GKw`b †h‡Z bv †h‡ZB dzjMywj WvKvwZ n‡q †M‡jv| gmwR`
†_‡K mKv‡j N‡i XzK‡Z dzjMywj †`‡L Gjvg, wKbZz GKUz c‡iB kybjvg me jyU n‡q †M‡Q|
`yó †Q‡jiv dzj, Wvj †fs‡M me jy‡U wb‡q‡Q| Lvivc jvM‡jI mvbZÕbv †cjvg AeyS
†Q‡j‡`i KvbWÕ e‡j| Iiv eywS iexb`ªbv‡_i QzwU KweZv c‡owQ‡jv| H †h ÒgvL‡ev Mv‡q
dz‡ji †iYy Puvcvi eb jzwU|Ó Iiv ‡Pvi, Iiv WvKvZ|
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hvK, Iiv AvbÕb`Õ Ki‡Q, -`yÕw`b c‡i ‡Zv S‡iB †h‡Zv| MvQUv nqZÕ Kvu`wQ‡jv| Kx jvf !
`yÕw`b c‡i ‡Zv S‡iB †h‡Zv ! GB S‡i hvIqv wb‡qB ‡Zv wek¦ Ry‡o Kvbbv, - Zzwg Kuv‡`v,
Avwg Kvuw`| mviv m„wó Kuv‡`| GB Kvbbvi AkÖyweb`yB dzj n‡q dz‡U, - `ywbqvUv‡K nvmvq,
Kvu`vq| GLb A‡cÿv Ki‡Z _vK‡ev K‡e Avevi MvQUvi bZzb kvLvq bZzb K‡i dzj dzU‡e|
bZzb dzj dzU‡j ‡Zvgv‡K wjL‡ev !
gv gxby, GB we‡k¦ KvbbvUvB Avmj| Avm‡j wKbZz Avgiv KvbbvB fv‡jvevwm| ‡`‡Lv bv
Zzwg wj‡L‡Qv gvwmKvov cy‡ji Kv‡Q `uvwo‡q †Zvgvi gv AvuP‡j †PvL gy‡Q| Avgiv hZB ewj, Ògv, Zzwg nvwm gy‡L we`vq `vI !Ó, wKbZz †KvbÕ gv-B nvwm gy‡L we`vq †`q bv, - ‡`q bv
e‡jB gv K_vUv G‡Zv gayi, mvivUv AbZÕi `Lj K‡i _v‡K| mwZ¨ mwZ¨ wKbZz Avgiv gvi
KvQ †_‡K nvwm gy‡L we`vq PvB bv| GUv gy‡Li K_v, g‡bi K_v bq| gv‡qi †Pv‡Li cvwb
dzwi‡q hvK, †KDB Pvq bv| gv‡K Kuvw`‡q Avgiv Avbb`Õ cvB| †h gv ‡ekx Kuv‡`, †m gv‡K
†ekx fv‡jvevwm| Avgiv wblVyi| H dzj †Pvi `yó †Q‡j‡`i g‡Zv wblVyi|
gv gxby, m^‡`‡k K_vUv bv _vK‡j we‡`k K_vUv _vK‡Zv bv| G mgeÕb‡a †Zvgvi avibv wK ?
Zzwg †h NiwU‡Z _v‡Kv, LvI, NygvI, gv-evc, fvB-‡evb, mbZvb-mbZÕwZ‡K cv‡k cvI, GUvB †Zvgvi ¯^‡`‡ki †K›`ªweb`y| ¯^‡`kUv K‡Zv e‡ov ! GLb †Zvgvi ¯^‡`k evsjv‡`k|
wKbZz weÖwUk Avg‡j Avgv‡`i ¯^‡`k wQ‡jv fviZel©, Ò¯^‡`k ¯^‡`k Kwim ‡Zviv, G †`‡k Avi Av‡Q wK !
jy‡U wb‡Q †mvbvi fviZ, Av‡Q kyay gvwUwU|Ó
Zvici ¯^‡`k n‡jv cvwK¯Ívb, Avi GLÕb evsjv‡`k| mwZ¨ ej‡Z Avm‡j kvKZjv MÖv‡gi
†QvUUÕ GKwU Ask †Zvgvi ¯^‡`k| ¯’vbPz¨Z n‡jB mevB Kuv‡`, -†Kej gvbyl bq, cky-cvLxI
Kuv‡`| gvwU †_‡K DVv‡q U‡e jvMv‡bv dzjMvQUvI Kuv‡`| GB ¯’vbPz¨wZ wPibZÕb, -Rxe‡b bv
n‡jI gi‡Y|
AvR GLv‡b ivwL , -‡Zvgvi ‡mœ‡ni ey‡ov †Q‡j
26
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – IX
(Bqv ie)
3-5-1987
XvKv, 1219
Kj¨vYx‡qly gv gxby,
Avjøvni `iev‡i Avgvi cÖvYXvjv A‡kl †`vqv,- ‡Zvgiv fv‡jv _v‡Kv, my‡L _v‡Kv, kvbwZ‡Z
_v‡Kv, -Avwgb !
gv kir Pb‡`ªi GKUv Mvb cÖvq g‡b c‡o, Zzwg nq‡Zv Rv‡bv, - H ‡h Kgj jZv ‡M‡qwQ‡jv,
- Òe‡jv, e‡jv euay Kzkj e‡jv !
‡Zvgvi Kzkj Avgvi Kzkj|
e‡jv, e‡jv euay .............. Ó
‡kl Rxe‡b Kv‡iv Kv‡iv GgbwU n‡q _v‡K| Avgvi evevi †Zgwb n‡qwQ‡jv| GUv wb‡Ri
mZ¡v‡K nvwi‡q Ab¨ GKwU†Z wewj‡q hvIqv| Avwg nq‡Zv †ZgbwU nÕ‡Z cvi‡ev bv,- A‡bK
evav Av‡Q| Z‡e mva nq| Ggwb K‡i nvwi‡q hvIqv g‡a¨ Avbb`Õ Av‡Q| jvBjxi Mv‡q †eZ
gvi‡j gRbyi Mv‡q bvwK `vM KvU‡Zv| ev¯Í‡e GUv †KD wek¦vm Ki‡e bv| Z‡e eb¨v b`x
bvjv, Lvj, wej -mevi cvwb GKvKvi K‡i †`q| mevB†K †U‡b MYwWi evB‡i wb‡q,- mevi
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AvZg&Õ-mZ¡v†K gy‡Q †`q| gvwUi euvab†K D‡cÿv K‡i ci¯ú‡ii mv‡_ wKQzKv‡ji Rb¨
AvwjsMbve`aÕ n‡Z eb¨v G‡`i mvnvh¨ K‡i| Ggwb GKwU ‡cÖ‡gi eb¨v hw` mviv wek¦Uv†K
GKvKvi K‡i w`‡Zv ! iO-†ei‡Oi mKÕj aviv jq n‡q GKwU be avivi m„wó n‡Zv| cøveb,
b~‡ni gnv cøveb, Zzwg G‡mv, - K¬vbZÕ aiYxi mKj Møvwb gy‡Q `vI !
Z‡e gnvb bv n‡jI †QvUÕ †QvUÕ cÖv‡Yi eb¨v, †cÖ‡gi eb¨v AvZg&Õ-mZ¡vi MYWx †cwi‡q G
aiv‡K wmKZÕ K‡i †i‡L‡Q| ZvB †Zvgvi KzkjB Avgvi Kzkj gv !
Avwg evox wM‡qwQjvg `Õyw`‡bi Rb¨| †Zvgvi `v`vi gmwR`Uv wjb‡Ub ch©bZÕ D‡V‡Q|
Av‡Mi gmwR`Uvi Pviw`‡K wN‡i †`qvj D‡V‡Q| AvKv‡i †gvUvgywU e‡ov, -Avwg nq‡Zv †kl
†`‡L †h‡Z cvi‡ev bv| Z‡e Avc‡mvm bvB| Avjjvni N‡ii KvR†Zv †KvbÕ w`bB ‡kl nq
bv| evqZzj gyKv``v‡mi KvR †kl Kivi Rb¨ nRiZ †mvjvBgvb bvwK givi c‡iI 22 eQi
gmwR‡`i mvg‡b `uvwo‡q i‡qwQ‡jb wQ‡jb, -jvwV fi w`‡q| GB weivU cÖvY gnv gvby‡li
AvKvswLZ wRwblwU weivU AvKv‡i M‡o D‡V gnv weiv‡Ui Rq ‡NvlYv KiyK, GUvB kyay Avgvi
Kvgbv| Avwgb !
gv, MbaÕivR MvQUvq Avevi dzj dzU‡j †Zvgvq wjL‡ev e‡j wj‡LwQjvg| wKbZz GLb ‡Zv
dzj dz‡U bv| dzU‡e wK bv Rvwb bv| MvQUv Kjg w`‡q †K‡U Ab¨ RvqMvq jvMv‡bv n‡q‡Q|
Kj‡gi bx‡P K‡qKwU Wvjv Av‡Q| GLb MvQwU‡Z dzj dz‡U bv, Kj‡gI dz‡U bv| nq‡Zv
dzU‡e wKQz w`b ci| gvby‡li g‡Zv Mv‡QiI `ytL †e`bv Av‡Q| ZvB GLb ¯’vbPz¨Z MvQwU‡ZI
dzj dz‡U bv| gv-nviv WvjwU‡ZI dz‡U bv| Avwg dzj dzUvi Rb¨ A‡cÿv K‡i _vK‡ev| †hgb
†Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ A‡cÿv K‡i AvwQ, †hgb BqvKze bex _vK‡Zv BDmy‡di Rb¨|
Avwm gv ! wcKz fvBqv, eveb I †Zvgvi Rb¨ iB‡jv Avjjvni Acvi KiyYv I ingZ|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – X
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 4-6-1987
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avgvi cÖvYXvjv †`vqv wb‡qv ! C` †M‡jv K‡qK w`b Av‡M| wKbZz MbaÕivR MvQwU‡Z †KvbÕ
dzj G‡jv bv| g‡b g‡b fvewQjvg GKUv dzj wPwVi ga¨ w`‡q †Zvgvi Kv‡Q cvVv‡ev| ZvÕ
n‡jv bv| dzj n‡e, nq‡Zv mgq jvM‡e|
`ytmn Mi‡gi ci MZÕKvj †_‡K e„wó n‡”Q| ‰R¨lVÕ gvm, Avg-KvVuv‡ji gvm| evRv‡i Avg
e‡ov GKUv †`Lv hvq bv| N‡i Szwo fiv Avg, c‡_-Nv‡U Avg KvuVv‡ji †Qvjv-evKjv †Zgb
†`Lv hvq bv| ZvB ˆR¨lVÕ gv‡mi gvayh© bvB| ‰R¨lVÕ gvm Kvu‡`| Avgiv Avc‡Qvm Kwi|
Aek¨ wK‡b Lvevi ÿgZv hv‡`i †KvbÕ w`bB bvB, Zv‡`i †KvbÕ Avc‡mvm bvB|
gv, †Zvgvi Rb¨ Avgiv DrKÕYVvq AvwQ| G‡Zv `~‡i Av‡Qv, -ZvB| Z‡e G‡Zv e‡ov `ywbqvq
†Lv`v mevi Kv‡Q Kv‡Q| ZvB‡Zv ewj, - †Lv`v Zzwg Avgvi gxby gv‡K †`‡Lv ! Zv‡K myL `vI,
kvbwZ `vI, Zv‡K Lykx K‡iv !
gv, Av‡iKUv K_v ej‡Z fy‡j †MwQ| WªBsiy‡gi ckwP‡g †h Rvg MvQUv wQ‡jv, †mUv GLb
e‡ov n‡q‡Q| Gevi †ek Rvg d‡j‡Q| AvRB cÖvq wZb ‡m‡ii g‡Zv Rvg †c‡q‡Q| mevB
gRv K‡i LvP‡Q| I‡`‡k wK Rvg nq ? wcKz GLb †Kv_vq wK K‡i ? GLb 12Uv ev‡R|
AvR‡Ki Wv‡KB wPwVUv hv‡e| Kvj kyKªevi, - ebaÕ| ZvB ivwL|
kZÕ mnmª ‡`vqvb‡Z, -ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv -10KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 12-6-1987
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvni Amxg ingZ ‡Zvgvi Dci ewl©Z nDK ! H we‡`k-wef~u‡q ‡Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avgiv
mevB D`weMYÕ wQjvg| Aek¨ me mgq wPbZvhyKZÕ _vwK| Aek¨ G-I Avjjvni `vb !
Zv‡K WvKvi Avi GK my‡hvM !
MbaÕiv‡Ri g~jMvQUv Kjg w`‡q Ab¨Î jvMv‡bv n‡q‡Q, -‡eu‡P‡Q| GKUv `yÕ‡Uv MvQ n‡q‡Q|
wKbZz GL‡bv ‡Zv ‡KvbUviB dzj G‡jv bv| Avm‡e, -nq‡Zv mgq jvM‡e| Gevi dzj G‡j
†Zvgv‡K, beviyb, wcKz‡K, eveb‡K, -mevB‡K cvVv‡ev| MbaÕivR dzj, -myMb‡ai ivRv †m
dzj| †Zvgvi beKzgv‡ii AvMgb Pviw`‡K †NvlYv K‡i w`‡qwQ| kyb kyb †K G‡jv H, -‡K
Kuv‡` H ! fzeb‡Rvov Av‡jv wb‡q ‡K G‡jv H, - mevB †`‡Lv †K G‡jv H ! †K G‡jv H !
Avgiv mevB fv‡jv| ‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ †Lv`vi `iev‡i cÖvYXvjv †`vqv †i‡L BwZ UvbwQ|
‡Zvgvi bex‡bi cÖwZØbØx cÖexb mbZvb
* 13/6: GKUv dzjB dz‡UwQ‡jv, -GUvB beviyb‡K w`jvg !
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gnv‡dR cvZv -11KLM
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 20-6-1987
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvni Amxg Kiybv ‡Zvgvi Dci ewl©Z nDK ! Avgv‡`i cÖvYXvjv †`vqv †Zvgvi Rxeb†K
myLx I myb`Õi KiyK ! Avwgb !
MbaÕivR MvQUvi Kjg-†`qv bx‡Pi As‡k A‡bKMy‡jv Wvjv ‡g‡j‡Q| KjgUvI †eu‡P‡Q,
wKbZz dzj nP‡Q bv| KjgUvq gvÎ GKUv dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv| IUv †Zvgvi ey`aÕi Rb¨ wPwV‡Z
K‡i cvwV‡qwQ| nq‡Zv BwZg‡a¨ †c‡q †M‡Qv|
Avwg ‡Kv_vqI †h‡Z cviwQ bv| WªvBfvi †bB, -A‡bK w`b †_‡K Zvi AmyL| K‡qK w`b
hveZ Rvnx‡`i evmvq †hvMv‡hvM Ki‡Z cviwQ bv| I‡`i Wvqvj Ki‡j wrong number
D‡V| AvMvgxKvj bxjydvi†K †dvb K‡i †`L‡ev| bxjydvi Gevi myB‡Wb †_‡K G‡m Avgv‡K
†dvb K‡iwb, AvwgB GKw`b †dvb K‡iwQjvg, -wKbZz cvBwb| †m bvwK evwn‡i wQ‡jv|
MZKvj Aek¨ †m-B †dvb K‡iwQ‡jv|
Amn¨ Mi‡gi ci AvR wZb w`b hveÕZ e„wó nP‡Q| MigI K‡g‡Q| Gevi wjPz ‡ekx ‡`Lv
hvqwb, -‡kl n‡q ‡M‡Q| evRv‡i Gevi ‡`kx AvgI Kg wQ‡jv, KuvPv _vK‡ZB cÖvq dzwi‡q
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†M‡Q | KvuVvj Av‡Q †ek, wKbZz `vg Kg bq| DZZÕi es‡Mi Avg GLb evRv‡i †gvUvgywU, `vg AZ¨vwaK| gv‡Qi evRvi Lye AvKov, -`k UvKv, wek UvKv Myov gv‡Qi fvMv| ZwiZiKvixi `vg †gvUvgywU fv‡jv| Aek¨ hv‡`i Kv‡Q cÖPzi cqmv Av‡Q, Zv‡`i Kv‡Q †KvbUvB
`yg~j
© ¨ bq| evsjv‡`‡k GLb UvKvi †Ljv| GKRb wiKkvIqvjvi ‰`wbK Avq GK †ejvq
Kgc‡ÿ cbPvk UvKv|
myB‡Wb Avwg †`‡Lwb, -nq‡Zv †KvbÕw`b †`L‡evI bv| Z‡e †h ‡`kUv Avgvi mbZvb‡K
my`xN©Kvj AvkÖq w`‡q wbivc‡` †i‡L‡Q, -Zv‡K Avwg †KvbÕw`b fzj‡ev bv| Avgvi ¯^‡`k
†Kej evsjv‡`k bq| Avm‡j ¯^‡`k e‡j ‡KvbÕ wKQzB ‡bB| ¯^‡`k ‡Zv Avgvi GB gvwUi
c„w_ex| GKUv Ask ¯^v_©‡blx wKQz †jvK Zv‡K †K‡U †K‡U fvM K‡i‡Q †kvl‡Yi myweav‡_©|
ZvB‡Zv AvR myB‡Wb Avgvi Kv‡Q evsjv‡`‡ki †P‡q Kg wcÖq bq|
gv, Zywg Avwg nq‡Zv †`L‡ev bv, wKbZz GKw`b gvbzl gvby‡li Mov †`‡ki mxgvbv (Berlin
Wall) †fs‡M Pz‡i GKUv c„w_exB Mo‡e| †mw`b gvbyl ej‡e,Ókz‡bv ‡n gvbyl fvB !, mevi Dc‡i gvbyl mZ¨, Zvnvi Dc‡i bvB !Ó
AvR †Zvgvi Lvjv †gŠPv‡Ki GK wK¬wb‡K fwZ© n‡jv| `k w`b _vKvi K_v| ˆ`wbK me
m‡gZÕ PvR© 500/ - UvKv | _vKv-LvIqvi †KvbÕ Amyweav †bB, -gvÎ `kUv w`b| wKbZz Zvi
gbUv fv‡jv †bB| nvq‡i gvbyl gb ! GgbwU nq| †Zvgiv †h G‡Zv `~‡i Av‡Qv, GLb wKbZz
Av‡Mi g‡Zv gb Lvivc jv‡M bv| †Zvgiv cÖvq †dv‡b K_v e‡jv, -g‡b nq GB ‡h‡bv †Zvgiv
Av‡kcv‡kB Av‡Qv, -‡Kej †`wL bv| weÁvb GKw`b GB ‡`Lvi e¨e¯’vUvI Ki‡e| weÁvb
wek¦Uv‡K nv‡Z gy‡Vvq wb‡q Avm‡e| k‡e‡givR mgeÕb‡a ZLb †KD-B mb‡`nÕ Ki‡e bv|
†Zvgv‡`i mK‡ji Rb¨ Avjjvni A‡kl kvbwZ, ingZ I eiKZ Kvgbv K‡i GLb Avwm|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j|
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 28-6-1987
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb ! ‡Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ iB‡jv GB Avgvi cÖvYXvjv †`vqv|
w`b hvq, ivwÎ Av‡m| ivwÎi ci Avevi w`b Av‡m| wKbZz Avmv-hvIqv w`b ivwÎi g‡a¨
†Pnvivi †KvbÕ cwieZ©b †`Lv hvq bv| wKbZz G gvwUi c…w_exi me wKQz‡ZB wZ‡j wZ‡j
weivU cwieZ©b Av‡b| ZvB†Zv AvR‡K hv‡K †`wL, wKQzw`b ci Zv‡K †PbvB hvq bv|
Z‡e ÿY¯’vqx hviv, Zv‡`i Dci GB w`b-ivwÎi cÖfve GKvbZÕ cÖKU| GKw`‡bi Rxeb wb‡q
hviv Av‡m, Zv‡`i Rb¨ wK †KD Kuv‡` ! Siv wkEjxi Kvbbv wK †KD ky‡b ! †h wkkywU f~wgó
n‡q 32 NYUv c„w_exi wKQzUv Av‡jv †`‡L, wKQzUv evZvm wb‡q P‡j †M‡jv, -Zvi Rb¨ wK
†KD Kuv‡` ? Zv‡K wK †KD g‡b iv‡L ? †KD nq‡Zv Kuv‡`,- †KD nq‡Zv g‡bI iv‡L| †h
nvm‡jv bv,- Kuv`‡jv bv, KvD‡K gvqvq Rov‡jv bv, - g‡b ivLvi g‡Zv wKQzB K‡i †M‡jv bv,
-Zv‡K ‡K g‡b ivL‡e ? wKbZz, †KbÕ Rvwb bv, GgbwU GL‡bv Avgvi g‡b Av‡Q| w`b-ivwÎi
†KvbÕ cÖfve Zvi Dci LvUv‡Z cv‡iwb, - m`¨ †dvUv dzjwU†K †K †h‡bv Zz‡j wb‡q †M‡jv|
w`b-ivwÎ Zvi Dci †KvbÕ cÖfve LvUv‡Z bv cvi‡jI Avgvi Rxeb G‡b w`‡qwQ‡jv GK weivU
cwieZ©b| †m euvP‡Z †P‡qwQ‡jv| gywóeÕ`aÕ †QvUÕ `yÕLvbv nvZ Dc‡ii w`‡K Zz‡j †m euvP‡Z
†P‡qwQ‡jv| †m ‡gvi‡k`| iO I †Pnviv A‡bKUv eve‡bi g‡ZvB wQ‡jv| †gvi‡k` Zvi
gv‡qi `ya †L‡q †h‡Z cv‡iwb, -†mB `ya †L‡qwQ‡jv Lyi‡k`| Rv‡bv gxby, wKQzw`b Av‡M
¯^c‡Y ‡`Ljvg †gvi‡k` e‡ov n‡q‡Q, -G †h‡bv eQi cuv‡P‡Ki| GKUv e‡ov DuPz mo‡Ki
Dci GKwU Mv‡Qi bx‡P evevi cv‡k `uvwo‡q Av‡Q| Avwg mo‡Ki cv‡k GKwU gv‡V `uvwo‡q
wQjvg| evev ej‡Zb, -Òcicv‡i †Zvgvi Rb¨ †m A‡cÿvq _vK‡e|Ó Zv-B nq‡Zv|
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29-6-1987: gv, G `ywbqvq gvbyl Av‡m, Avevi GKw`b P‡j hvq| P‡j †h‡ZB †h‡bv
Avmv| †h P‡j hvq, Zvi Rb¨ hviv _v‡K Zviv Kuv‡`| wKbZz †h †M‡jv, Zvi wd‡i AvmvUv me
mgq Kvgbv Kwi bv| Rxe‡bi wZb As‡Ki †kl As‡K ‡h Awfbq K‡i gbPÕ †Q‡o †M‡jv,
Zv‡K †KD wd‡i Pvq bv| †Pv‡Li R‡j we`vq w`‡q BwZ Uv‡b| wd‡i †c‡Z Pvq Zv‡KB †kl
As‡Ki Awfbq hvi Kiv n‡jv bv| e‡ov `yjvfvB‡qi GKwU K_v Avgvi cÖvq g‡b c‡o, ÒlvU eQ‡ii ci †eu‡P _vKvUv weoÕgeÕbv Ó| avivevwnK bvUKUv‡K ‡ekx `xN©vwqZ Ki‡j
`k©Kiv weiÕKwZ †eva K‡i| Av‡iv wKQz _vKvi mgfvebv _vK‡ZB hewbKv cZb-B `kK©‡`i
Kvg¨|
ky‡bwQ Kv‡iv Kv‡iv cxovcxwo‡Z KcvjKzYWÕjv I beKzgv‡ii b`x‡Z Suvc †`evi ci
G‡`i†K Avevi gb‡P wd‡i G‡b Av‡iv GKUv AbyP‡Q` ms‡hvRb K‡iwQ‡jb eswKg, wKbZz
G‡Z †`Lv †M‡jv bvUK Zvi gyL¨ Av‡e`bwUB nvwi‡q †d‡j‡Q| ZvB c‡i IUv ev` †`Iqv
n‡q‡Q|
ZvB, RxebUv †Kej K‡ZvMywj w`bivwÎi mgwó bq, -we‡kl K‡i gvby‡li Rb¨| Siv dzj
Kzwo‡q wb‡j ‡KD AvcÕZwZ K‡i bv| wKbZz Mv‡Qi ZiZvRv dzjwU wQuo‡j Avgiv SMov Kwi,
hw`I Rvwb c‡ii w`b dzjUv S‡i hv‡e| ‡gvi‡k` ‡eu‡P _vK‡j G‡Zv w`‡b K‡Zv e‡ov n‡Zv
? I †Zv Lyi‡k‡`i wcVvwcwV wQ‡jv| †KbÕ G‡mwQ‡jv, †KbÕ P‡j †M‡jv, -Rvwb bv| wKbZz
Avgv‡K †m hv w`‡q †M‡jv Zv Amvgvb¨| ZvB†Zv Zv‡K Avwg fzj‡Z cvwi bv !
AvR †Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ Avjjvni ingZ Kvgbv K‡i BwZ UvbwQ| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 9-7-1987
cig Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Avjjvni ingZ nDK ! †ek wKQzw`b ci †Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ K_v ejjvg| †Zvgv‡`i
mv‡_ K_v ej‡Z cvi‡j †ek fv‡jv jv‡M| ej‡Z cviv I kyb‡Z cvivUv Avjjvni GK gnvb
`vb| Kv‡b kyb‡Z cvB e‡j Av‡Rv †Zvgv‡`i KYVÕ¯^i kywb| Avevi †Pv‡L †`L‡Z cvB e‡j
‡Zvgv‡`i wjLv cwo| ZvB‡Zv Avjjvn†K nvRvi nvRvi kyKwiqv RvbvB| Avgvi g‡Zv eq‡m
A‡bKB GB `yÕwU Ag~j¨ mgúÕ` †_‡K ebwPZÕ nq| fv‡jv K_v, cÖwZw`b †fv‡i dR‡ii
bvgv‡Ri c‡i, gybvRv‡Zi Av‡M, m~iv dv‡Znv 7 evi co‡e| cÖ‡Z¨K evi ÒAvjjvn kvdxÓ
e‡j ey`aÕi Mv‡q dzuK w`‡e !
dzj MvQMy‡jv †K‡bv Rvwb bv †ekx dzj w`P‡Q bv| dzj Mv‡Qi ‡kvfv †Zv dz‡j| GB †`‡Lv bv
jvj ‡Pix MvQUv GZÕw`b †Kgb †h‡bv mv`v‡gUv †`Lv‡Zv| GLb dz‡j dz‡j †Q‡q †M‡Q| Kx
myb`Õi †`Lvq ! fzeb fzjvUv‡ZI wKQzw`b Av‡M GK ivk dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv, -GLb gvÎ K‡qKUv
Av‡Q, -Avi me S‡i †M‡Q| Avi nvmbv‡nbv †Zv ivZwcÖqv, - w`‡bi †ejvq Zvi Aw¯ÍZ¡B
Luy‡R cvIqv hvq bv| kvgxi Bleeding Heart jZvUvqI wKQzw`b Av‡M †ek wKQz dzj
dz‡UwQ‡jv| MbaÕivR MvQ `yÕ‡UvB gvb K‡i‡Q, dzj †`‡e bv !
e‡ov `yÕUv d‡Uv wb‡q ‡mw`b Rvnx` G‡mwQ‡jv| wcKzi e‡ov d‡UvUvi GK Kwc Rvnx`†K
cvwVI| IUv Zvi e‡ov cQÕb`Õ n‡q‡Q| Avgiv C‡`i ci †Kv_vqI hvBwb, -WªvBfvi wQ‡jv
bv| GLb Avevi WªvBfvi G‡m‡Q, -Mvox workshop-G| w`b K‡q‡Ki g‡a¨ mevi mv‡_
GKevi †`Lv Kivi Avkv ivwL|
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evox hvIqvi BP‡Q wQ‡jv, †h‡Z cvwiwb| MZ 6-B RyjvB evevi g„Zz¨-w`em wQ‡jv| Kei
wRqviZ Kivi BP‡Q wQ‡jv, - n‡jv bv, - ÒK¬vbwZ Avgvi ÿgv K‡iv cÖ‡fv !Ó|
Avi GKwU kyfÕ msev` ! gvney‡ei †Q‡j n‡q‡Q, -AvR eyaevi 9 RyjvB| ey`aÕi GK gvm
Rywbqi| ey`aÕi RbgÕ kvIqv‡ji Puv‡`,- GLb wRjnRRÕ Pj‡Q|
13/7-1987: AvR cuvP eQi a‡i evoxi KvR Pj‡Q| gRvi e¨vcvi n‡jv gvby‡li hLb evoxi
cÖ‡qvRb dzwi‡q Av‡m, ZLwb evox Kivi w`‡K gb †`q| gvbyl P‡j hvq, - evoxUv Zvi bvg
wb‡q wKQzKvj †eu‡P _v‡K, -Zvi eska‡iiv GB wVKvbvq cwiwPZÕ nq| hy‡Mi ZvwM‡` GK
evox †fs‡M A‡bK evox nq, -GKB bvg wb‡q cyiv‡Yv evoxi Av‡kcv‡k| †Kv_vqI Avevi
evoxI _v‡K bv, gvbylI _v‡K bv,- bvgUv _v‡K Qvov-evox bvg wb‡q, -GKivk nvnvKvi
wb‡q| gvbyl †mLv‡b emZ evua‡Z fq cvq|
MZKvj niZvj wQ‡jv| AvRI weKvj 2Uv ch©bZÕ niZvj| ZvB AvR wPwVUv †`Iqv hv‡e
bv| Ab¨ †`‡ki K_v Rvwb bv| wKbZz evsjv‡`‡ki g‡Zv K_vq K_vq niZvj, - niZv‡ji
‰ewkó¨ nvwi‡q †d‡j, - wKQzKv‡ji Rb¨ Zvj nvwi‡q †d‡j| kyay Qv-‡cvlv gvbylMy‡jv `z‡f©v‡M
†fv‡M| Avgiv cuvP-cvZZz‡ii K_v ewj, GLb †h K‡Zv cuvP-cvZZzi, -Zvi wnmve †bB|
ivR‰bwZK `jMy‡jv wek¦we`¨vj‡q GLb ¯^ ¯^ eiKÕb`vR evwnbx ˆZix K‡i‡Q| †jLvcov
†M‡Q †Mvjjvq|
†Zvgv‡`i kyfÕ Kvgbv K‡i AvR GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XV
(Bqv ie)
21-7-1987, XvKv 1219, evsjv‡`k
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
`qvgq Avjjjvn †Zvgvi gsMj Kiyb ! †Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K, - eveb, wcKz, ey`aÕ, I ‡Zvgv‡K
wZwb myL-kvbwZ‡Z ivLyb ! †Zvgvi kixi nq‡Zv GL‡bv †m‡i D‡Vwb| G my`~i ci‡`‡k
†Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avjjvni ingZ wfÿv Qvov Avi Kx-Bev Ki‡Z cvwi !
Avjjvn me mgq Avgvi mnvqK _v‡Kb| Avgvi me Avkv AvKvsLv wZwb c~iÕY K‡ib| wZwb
KL‡bv Avgv‡K wbivk K‡ib bv| wKbZz Avwg†Zv Zvi kyKwiqv Av`vq Ki‡Z cvwi bv| Avwg
K‡g© wek¦vm Kwi| wKbZz K‡g©i myd‡ji Rb¨ Avjjvni mvnvh¨ Kvgbv Kwi|
bwbi wPwV †cjvg| †mc‡UgeÕ‡ii †k‡li w`‡K Zvi †`‡k wdiv K_v wQ‡jv| GLb ‡m †`o
gvm Av‡MB wdi‡e e‡j wj‡L‡Q| †`‡k wd‡i nq‡Zv †ekx w`b _vK‡e bv, -K‡qK w`b
_vK‡e| †m hyKZÕiv‡R¨ PvU©vW BbwRwbqvwis co‡Z hv‡e| ‡mLv‡b †`o eQi _vK‡e| AvMvgx
†mc‡UgeÕi †_‡K session AvigfÕ n‡e| mygxi kixiUv fv‡jv bv| MjeøvWv‡ii cv_‡ii
Rb¨ MZÕ GK eQi hveZ †nvwgIc¨vw_ Jla †L‡q we‡kl wKQz dj cvIqv hvqwb| me
wbivg‡qi gvwjK †Zv Avjjvn gnvb, - wPwKrmv †Zv GKUv DwQjv|
24-7-1987: weMZ `yÕw`b hveZ niZvj Pj‡Q, -Av‡Rv Avav w`b niZvj| MZ w`b mvZ
Rb gviv †M‡Q, -Aek¨ Acg„Zz¨, -hw`I Avb‡`vjbKvix‡`i GKUv cuywR| AvR evqZzj
†gvKvi‡g Mv‡qevbv RvbvRv n‡e| nvq‡i gvbyl ! AbybbÕZ †`kMywj‡Z Ggwb K‡i ivR‰bwZK
e¨emv P‡j| ivR‰bwZK ewj nq GB Avav-cky gvbylMywj| wKQz msL¨K gvby‡li ¯^v_©wm`wai
Rb¨ G‡`i jvk wb‡q wgwQj nq, Mv‡qevbv bvgvR nq, -weavZv nv‡m|
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28-7-1987: AvMvgx w`b 29Zvs I 30Zvs AvIqvgx jxM I AviI K‡qKwU `‡ji mwPevjq
†NivI Kivi K_v| Lye mgfÕe Av‡iv K‡qKwU jvk evbv‡bv n‡e, - wiKkvIqvjv ev iv¯Ívi
†Q‡j w`‡q|
AvR eve‡bi wPwV I ey`aÕi d‡Uv †cjvg| wPwVUv AvMvgx w`b †cvó Kivi BPQv| GZÕw`b
ey`aÕi d‡Uvi A‡cÿv KiwQjvg|
†`‡k Avevi eb¨v †`Lv w`‡q‡Q, -GL‡bv DËiesMÕ I wm‡j‡U mxgve`aÕ| †kL gywRe
cvwK¯Ívbx‡`i e‡jwQ‡jv, -Ò‡Zvgv‡`i fv‡Z gvi‡ev, cvwb‡Z gvi‡ev !Ó GLb fviZ
evsjv‡`k‡K fvZ I cvwb‡Z gvi‡Z Pvq| evsjv‡`‡ki me b`xi DrmB ‡Zv fvi‡Z| GLb,
eZ©gvb fviZ MxÖlgÕKv‡j DRv‡b euva w`‡q cÖvq me KqwU b`xi cvwb AvU‡K ‡i‡L
evsjv‡`k‡K kywK‡q iv‡L| Avevi el©vq AwZwiKZÕ cvwb †Q‡o w`‡q Wzwe‡q gv‡i| weÖwUk
Avg‡j wnb`yiv wQ‡jv Bmz¨, cvwK¯Ívb Avg‡j cvbRvexiv| GLb Bmz¨ wb‡R‡`i wb‡q|
cwjwUKm kyay cwjwUKm| evsjv‡`k †_‡K wKQz msL¨K DuPz `‡ii cwjwUwmqvb wb‡q Avwd«Kvi
RsM‡j ÒcwjwUKvj ‡UKwbKÓ wek¦ we`¨vj‡qi bvg w`‡q GKwU fvwm©wU Lyj‡j ‡Kgb nq ?
ILv‡b nq‡Zv A‡bK evbi co‡Z †h‡Zv|
gv gxby, m„wói inm¨ Avgiv †KnB eywS bv| GB ¯^‡`k, ¯^Rb, ¯^vaxbZv, -Gme †h wK Zv
GL‡bv Avwg eywS bv| RbgÕf~wg wK ? †m †Zv Avgv‡`i GB gvwUi c„w_ex| GB †h †Zvgvi
ey`aÕ, †m ‡Zv myBwWm| myB‡Wb Zvi RbgÕf~wg| gv-evev Zvi evsjv‡`kx| gv‡qi evox
kvKZjv, kvKZjv Zvi RbgÕf~wg| ev‡ci evox Zvi Bjvnvev`, - Bjvnvev` Zvi RbgÕf~wg|
Bjvnvev‡`i ‰cqvcvov Avevi Zvi Av‡iK cwiwPwZ| †mLv‡bI Av‡Q Avevi †Kvb evox, Kvi
mbZvb ! GLb †_‡K hw` ey`aÕ‡K GK myBwWm `gcÕwZi Kv‡Q †i‡L `vI, K‡qK eQi ci
†Zvgiv Zvi g‡bi `yqv‡i gvZv-wcZvi `vex wb‡q `uvov‡Z cvi‡e ? Avi ¯^vaxbZv ! GK cvMj
Qvov `ywbqvi Avi Kv‡iv ¯^vaxbZv bvB|
†Zvgv‡`i mevi gsMj Kvgbv K‡i AvR Avwm| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XVI
(Bq ie)
XvKv, 14-8-1987
Kj¨vYx‡qly,
gv gxby, A‡bKw`b hveZ †Zvgv‡K wjwLwb|
ey`aÕi Qwe †cjvg| GB Qwe w`‡qB Avgvi gb†K cª‡eva †`B| hv†K †`Ljvg bv, Zvi Qwe
†`Ljvg| GgbI n‡Z cv‡i †mI Avgv‡K †`L‡e bv,- Avgvi Qwe †`L‡e| †Zvgiv e‡j †`‡e
- GB †Zvgvi `v`y| Qwei cÖwZI gvby‡li AvKl©Y Av‡Q ‰ewK ! K‡qK w`b a‡i †LvuR Kijvg,
-cyiv‡Yv GjevgUv, †hLv‡b Avgvi gv I evevi Qwe Av‡Q| †Kv_vq †h i‡q‡Q, -†cjvg bv|
mevi Kv‡Q †Zv me wRwb‡mi K`i mgvb bq| GB†Zv a‡iv wPwVi K_v| mevB wK mgvb `vg
†`q ? †KD‡Zv †d‡jB †`q | †KD nq‡Zv wKQz w`b iv‡L| †KD Avevi AvRxebB hZ‡bv
K‡i iv‡L| Zvi AeZ©gv‡b †KD nq‡Zv †m wPwV †Luv‡R g‡bi Av‡e‡M,Òhv‡i Zzwg †i‡LwQ‡j K‡i G‡Zv †mœnÕ,
†Zvgv†i †Zgb K†i iv‡Lwb wK †KnÕ !Ó|
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evsjv‡`k, GLb eb¨vq Wz‡e †M‡Q| eb¨v Gevi AZx‡Zi mKj †iKW© fsM K‡i‡Q| evRv‡i
Z‡e ZiKvix gvQ Lye Kg cvIqv hvq, - hv cvIqv hvq Zv AMwbg~j¨| Z‡e †KvievYxi Rgv
ivLv †Mv‡¯Í Kv‡iv Kv‡iv †ek wKQzw`b Pj‡e| eve‡bi bv‡g AvgivI Gevi †KvievYx w`jvg|
GKwU luvo `yÕ`uv‡Zi| fvewQ Kvi †KvievYx †K w`‡jv ! †h gvbylwU Av`i-hZbÕ w`‡q
G‡Zvw`b ckywU jvjb-cvjb Ki‡jv, UvKvi wewbg‡q †Pv‡Li R‡j †KvievYx-`vZvi nv‡Z
Zz‡j w`‡jv, †m wK †c‡jv ? GKwU mvbZÕbv, Zvi G‡Zv K‡ó, G‡Zv hZ‡b jvwjZ ckywU
†Lv`vi iv‡n Rxeb w`‡jv| Zvi AviI wKQzw`b †eu‡P _vKvi K_v wQ‡jv| AviI A‡bK Kv‡R
jvM‡Zv| gvbyl n‡j ej‡Zv, -Ò‡gvi Av‡iv K_v wQ‡jv evKx|Ó
Gevi †m nq‡Zv e‡j †M‡jv, - Ògwiqv nBe gvbe mbZvb, ‡Zv‡`‡i evbv‡ev Miy !Ó
Avgvi wK g‡b nq Rv‡bv ? G we‡k¦i gvbylMy‡jv ‡h‡bv nvRvi eQi a‡i R‡en Kiv cky,
AvKv‡i Aek¨ gvbyl| Avi GB cky†Lvi gvbylMy‡jvB Miy| Rxe‡bi cwieZ©b, -G wek¦
bvU¨kvjvq|
Avgvi †Zv ‡Kvb KvR bvB,- ZvB Gme fvwe, - hZ me D`fÕU wPbZv|
15-8-1987: MbaÕivR MvQUvq GLb Avi dzj nq bv| gvby‡li g‡b dz‡ji cÖfve K‡g
†M‡Q| nq‡Zv †m Rb¨B| mvg‡b f~ebfzjv Avi †Pix MvQUvq wKQz dzj Av‡Q| nvmbv†nbvI
GKevi dy‡U †kl ‡M‡Q, - Avevi Kzwuo Avm‡Q| PviZjvi Qv‡` ‡Zv DV‡Z Kó nq| ZvB Qv‡`
Lye Kg DwV| AvR weKv‡j D‡VwQjvg| Z‡e K‡qKUv †Mvjvc dy‡U‡Q| Ab¨vb¨ dzjI wKQz
Av‡Q| mviv †`k eb¨vq Wz‡e †M‡Q| GB KqUv dz‡j Avi KZUzKz AvbÕb`Õ †`‡e ! ZeyI
ÒAvgvi ‡hUzK mva¨ KwieÕ Zv AvwgÒ| hvi h‡ZvUzK mva¨ Z‡ZvUzK Ki‡j `ywbqv‡K myb`Õi
Kivi Rb¨, - Zvn‡j GB gvwUi c„w_exUvI nq‡Zv ¯^‡M©i Kv‡QKvwQ wM‡q ‡cuŠQy‡Zv|
mZ¨ myb`Õ‡ii AwaKvi Av`v‡qi Rb¨ hviv msMÖvg K‡i Zv‡`i†K Avgiv kÖ`av Kwi,- wKbZz
wb‡Riv _vwK wbivc` `~i‡Z¡| wb‡Ri mbZvb†K wbivc` M„n‡Kv‡b †i‡L c‡ii †Q‡j†K
Òmvevm †Rvqvb j‡ov !Ò e‡j Òknx`Ó K‡i †bZv ewb| nvq‡i bwQe | Ggwb K‡i nvRvi
nvRvi †evev Rv‡bvqvi †KvievYx K‡i †e‡nk‡Z hvevi mbÕ` cvB| weavZv nv‡m |
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hvK, -eveb e‡jwQ‡jv Kx Q`Mvi K_v| Q`Mv wK‡mi Rb¨ RvwbI| Avgvi kixiUv wKQzw`b
fv‡jv wQ‡jv bv| gv_v ‡Nv‡i, GL‡bv cy‡ivcyywi mv‡iwb| Alya LvB| Z‡e wK Rv‡bv gv,
eq‡mi GKUv `vex Av‡Q | †mUv K‡Zvw`b Avi †VwK‡q ivLv hvq ! hvK, †Zvgv‡`i mevi
Rb¨ †`vqv cÖwZ I ky‡fPQv Rvwb‡q GLv‡bB BwZ UvbwQ | ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
16-8-1987:- cybð: AvR 11Uvq †Zvgvi wPwV I †PK †cjvg| †Zvgvi wPwVUv‡Z ZvwiL
wQ‡jv bv| Z‡e g‡b nq 11-Zvwi‡Li †PKUvi †ek wKQz w`b Av‡MB wPwVUv †jLv|
†iwRmwUª Kiv wPwV mvaviYZt 5/6 w`‡bi g‡a¨ cvIqv hvq| Ordinary Post ‡ek mgq
†bq, - g‡b nq GLv‡b G‡m c‡o _v‡K| Aek¨ AvBbZt Ordinary Post-B Av‡M cvIqvi
K_v| Gi bvg First Class Mail |
weÖwUk Avg‡j wKbZz wPwVi GB `y`©kv wQ‡jv bv| we‡k¦ weÖwUkivB Wv‡Ki we‡kl gh©v`v †`q|
Avgv‡`i mgq GK †ijI‡qi e‡ov Kg©KZ©v WvKe¨v‡M jvw_ ‡g‡iwQ‡jv e‡j Zv‡K mvm‡cYW
Kiv n‡qwQ‡jv, †k‡l ÿgv wfÿv K‡i †invB cvq| H mgq WvK Mvox‡Z (jvj Mvox) weÖwUk
mgªv‡Ui gyKy‡Ui Qwe _vK‡Zv| H Mvwoi mvg‡b co‡j eojvUI Salute w`‡Zv| †h †`‡ki
WvK e¨e¯’v h‡Zv DbbÕZÕ, †mB †`k Z‡Zv mf¨| GKwU †`‡ki mf¨Zvi gvcKvwV Zvi WvK
e¨e¯’v| Bsj¨vY‡W GKRb mvgvb¨ WvK Kg©Pvix mgv‡Ri we‡kl gh©v`v †c‡q _v‡K| weªwUk
Avg‡j G †`‡ki WvK Kg©Pvixiv mvgv‡Ri †ek mggvb †c‡Zv| ZLbKvi w`‡b WvK welqK
AvBb eB‡qi cÖ_g cvZvq †jLv _vK‡Zv -ÒService Before Self ”| ‡KvbÕ Kg©Pvix wbR
†`v‡l wVK g‡Zv wPwVLvbv †cŠuQv‡Z bv cvi‡j, Zvi Avd‡mv‡mi mxgv _vK‡Zv bv| Giv
wb‡R‡K g‡b Ki‡Zv GKRb wek^¯Í `~¨Z| GKLvbv wPwV‡Z _v‡K K‡Zv myL-`ytL, nvwm-Kvbbvi
Lei| Giv †h‡bv gvbyl wReªvBj| AvR †mB wReªvBj‡`i AatcZÕb Avgv‡K e¨_v †`q| wek¦
†Rvov gvby‡li g‡b †mZz-ebaÕb iPbv K‡i hviv, †mB gvbylMy‡jv†KB RvbvB kª`av I mvjvg|
†Zvgv‡`i wPwV‡Z †h I‡`i nv‡Zi †Quvqv _v‡K, -wbtk¦v‡mi MbaÕ _v‡K|
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wPwVUv AvRB †cvó Kivi K_v wQ‡jv, wKbZz †Zvgv‡`i wPwVi A‡cÿvq Kiv nqwb| †PKUv
†c‡q ZLwb Avwg P‡j wM‡qwQjvg e¨vs‡K Rgv w`‡Z I †cbkb Avb‡Z| Avi GKUv kyfÕ
msev`, - gvney‡ei N‡i Avi GKUv ey`aÕ G‡m‡Q|
†Zvgvi †QvUÕ gvgx AvR ej‡jv ixYv GLb XvKvq, - AvMvgx gv‡m bvwK date w`‡q‡Q| eyey
GLbI XvKvq Av‡mbwb|
R‡qi A¨v‡gwiKv hvevi K_v wQ‡jv AvMvgx gv‡m, - GLbI ‡eva nq Final nqwb| Zgv C`
KviW w`‡qwQ‡jv wcKz I ey`aÕ‡K, -†c‡q‡Qv wK ? Avgiv AvR †Zvgvi wPwVi mv‡_ wcKzi
‡`Iqv ky‡fPQv KviWwU †c‡qwQ|
C‡`i †k‡l evsjvq GLb b~‡ni cøveb| cvwb Avi cvwb| XvKvi Pviw`‡KI cvwb| XvKvKzwgjjv †iv‡WI cvwb D‡V‡Q|
ÒwZb fvM MÖvwmqvQÕ GK fvM evKx,
myiv bvB cvÎ nv‡Z Kuvwc‡Z‡Q mvKxÓ|
G eQÕi mviv evsjv‡`k Ry‡o eb¨v | Gevi Aek¨ Z‡Zv †jvK gi‡e bv, †hgbwU g‡iwQ‡jv
1974 mv‡j| gvbyl GLb wKQzUv euvP‡Z wk‡L‡Q | miKviI Zrci| Z‡e GK †kÖYxi gvbyl
wKQzUv myweav jy‡U| Avevi GK †kªYxi gvbyl G mgq gievi Rb¨ cÖmZzZ n‡q _v‡K| G‡`i
euvPv-givq Kv‡iv we‡kl wKQy Av‡m hvq bv|
†Zvgvi ey`aÕi GKUv †PvL-†Lvjv Qwe cvwV‡qv ! wcKz‡K Avgvi Rb¨ †`vqv Ki‡Z e‡jv ! H
‡h Av‡Q bv, - ÒnvZ Zz‡j ‡`vqv gv‡Ov `v`y Avq ‡Lv`v `qvgq !Ó|
AvR GLv‡b ivwL, - Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb ! Avwgb ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XVII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 9-9-1987
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn †Zvgvi gsMj Kiyb ! †ek wKQz w`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i†K wjwL bv| AvRKvj kixiUvI
†Zgb fv‡jv hvP‡Q bv| eqm †Zv Kg n‡jv bv| †`L‡Z †`L‡Z †ejv n‡q †M‡jv| AvR
Kqw`b hver ‡`vwbiv evmvq bvB, -gv‡qi mv‡_ bvbvi evox| AvR ‡evanq wkEwj wK¬wb‡K
hv‡e| IivI nq‡Zv evmvq Avm‡e| I‡`i cixÿv wbKUeZ©x | Avwm Avwm K‡iI bwbi Avmv
nqwb| GLb nq‡Zv Contract ‡kl K‡iB GB gv‡mi †k‡li w`‡K Avm‡e| evKx †Lv`vi
nv‡Z|
11-9-1987: gsMjevi w`evMZÕ ivÎ 8-Uvq ‡`vwbi GK †evb RbgÕ wb‡q‡Q| mevB
‡f‡ewQ‡jv Zvi fvB n‡e| AvKvsLvI K‡iwQ‡jv ZvB| gvbyq hv Pvq, me mgq wK Zv nq ?
nq bv| n‡j wKbZz `ywbqv APj n‡q †h‡Zv| weavZvi weav‡bB `ywbqv P‡j | gvby‡li †Póv I
AvKvsLvi ‡h ‡KvbÕ g~j¨ †bB, Zv bq| wKbZz Zv mxwgZÕ|
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16-9-1987: eve‡bi Rb¨ imivR I e„nr evZ wPbZvgwb ewU cvwV‡qwQ| Ii mv‡_B wPwVUv
†`Iqvi K_v wQ‡jv| wKbZz wPwV †i‡L c‡K‡U, ebaÕ K‡i ‡`Iqv wPwVUv †`Iqv n‡jv bv|
AvR `yÕw`b hveZ †`B ‡`B K‡iI wPwVUv †`Iqv n‡jv bv| GLb e‡ov Avj‡m n‡q †MwQ|
MZÕKvj ‡`vwbi †evb bevMZvi mvZ w`b †M‡jv|
†Zvgvi Lvjv ‡i‡eKv I gvQz wK Rvwb wK g‡b K‡i 12Uvi w`‡K Avgv‡`i evmvq G‡mwQ‡jv|
hv wQ‡jv †L‡q mba¨vi Av‡M P‡j †M‡Q| w`bUv fv‡jvB †K‡UwQ‡jv| GLb†Zv Avgv‡`i
evmvq we‡kl †KD Av‡m bv| MZKvj eveb †dvb K‡i ej‡jv bwb bvwK 8/10 w`‡bi g‡a¨
Avm‡e| evoxi KvR Pj‡Q Lye axi gb_Õ‡i|
‡Zvgvi Lvjvi LvUzwb †kl n‡jv bv| wKbZz wK Ki‡ev, wbiycvq| cvK KivUv Zvi c‡ÿ Lye
KóKi| PvKi-evKi †Zv AvRKvj cvIqv hvq bv| cvIqv †M‡jI PvKi †Zv Avi cvK K‡i
bv| Avi GLb‡Zv Avgiv msL¨vq †gvUvgywU Kg bB| Avi †Zvgvi gv-Lvjv‡`i ‡Zv GK †ivM,
-Iiv wb‡Riv bv †`L‡jB †h‡bv me imvZ‡j †M‡jv|
Gev‡ii eb¨v Avi ‡kl nq bv| wd‡i wd‡i eb¨v nq| kvK-meRx, Zwi-ZiKvix fxlY
AvKov| Aek¨ me wRwb‡mi `vgB Da©MwZ‡Z| ZeyI Avgiv fv‡jv AvwQ| Gevi XvKvi
Pviw`‡K cvwb wQ‡jv| gxicy‡ii †iv‡W †bŠKv| k¨vgjx GL‡bv cvwb‡Z fvm‡Q| Avgv‡`i
evmv‡ev evox‡ZI GK nuvUz cvwb N‡i wQ‡jv| ivgcyiv ‡Zvgvi PvPvi evmvq GL‡bv cvwb Av‡Q|
gvby‡li †h wK `y‡fv©M GB `xN©¯’vqx eb¨vq ! GLb Avevi dvivKKvi cvwb‡Z ivRkvnx, cvebv,
ivRevox, gvwbKMÕbR Wze‡Q| Gevi †h‡bv b~‡ni cøveb| b~‡ni cøveb 40 w`b ¯’vqx
n‡qwQ‡jv| b~n ‡bŠKv Avwe¯‹vi K‡iwQ‡jv e‡j wKQz ‡jvK bvwK ‡eu‡PwQ‡jv| Rjhv‡bi
Avwe¯‹viK b~n bex| G Avwe¯‹v‡ii d‡j mgy`ª gvby‡li ev‡M Av‡m|
GLb cÖvq 12Uv ev‡R| †cvó Awd‡m hv‡ev| †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i Zvi ingZ
Kvgbv K‡i GLv‡b BwZ UvbwQ| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XVIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 28-9-1987
Kj¨vYx‡qly,
gv gxby, cig Kiybvgq Avjjvn ZvÕjv †Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb !
†Zvgv‡`i wPwV meMy‡jvB †c‡qwQ| †c‡qwQ ey`aÕi wZb‡U Qwe| Qwe w`‡q Avi KZÕw`b
fyjv‡q ivL‡e ! wcKz†Zv GLb †ek e‡ov n‡q †M‡Q| w`b †Kej hvq bv, ms‡M K‡i Rxe‡bi
A‡bK wKQz wb‡q hvq| ZzwgI †Zv GLb cuvP eQi Av‡Mi wgbywU bvB, AvwgI bvB| RbgÕg„Zz¨i jxjv‡ÿÎ GB gvwUi c„w_exUv GKUv weivU inm¨| mKj m„wó †h‡bv wK GK ‡gv‡n
AvPQÕbbÕ| wKQz w`b Av‡M wcÖbwmcvj mvB`yi ingvb gviv †M‡jb| GB gvbylwU mgeÕb‡a
A‡bK K_v Av‡Q| cÖ‡dmi gbmyi D``xbI bvB|
fv‡jv K_v, -†Zvgvi 900 Wjv‡ii UvKv MZÕKvj †c‡qwQ| eveb GKevi ‡dv‡b Q`Kvi K_v
e‡jwQ‡jv| wK‡mi Q`Kv, -Kvi Rb¨, ‡KbÕ, wKQz e‡jwb| Zzwg c‡ii wPwV‡Z Rvwb‡qv !
AvMvgx w`b eve‡bi Ilya cvVv‡ev, †mB ms‡M GB wPwVI ‡`‡ev| G Alya `ya I gay w`‡q
†L‡Z n‡e| eveb ‡eva nq Rv‡b|
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bwb GL‡bv †`‡k wd‡iwb| Avevi Avgiv A‡cÿv Ki‡ev AvMvgx gv‡mi 4/5 Zvwi‡Li Rb¨|
evKxUv Avjjvni nv‡Z| MZKvj mygx I bwbi wPwV †cjvg| wPwV wj‡L‡Q Al‡Uªjxqvi †Kv‡bv
GK eb`Õi †_‡K| ILvb ‡_‡K Rvcvb G‡m Sign Off Kivi K_v | Iiv Av‡Q fv‡jvB|
K‡qKw`b Av‡M, -G gv‡mi 18 Zvwi‡L Avgiv wM‡qwQjvg Rvnx‡`i evmvq| H w`b mba¨vq
eyey evox †_‡K G‡m‡Qb, Avgv‡`i mv‡_ †`Lv nqwb| Gi g‡a¨ GKw`b hv‡ev Avkv ivwL |
Rvnx` evB‡i †cvwós Gi †Póvq Av‡Q, -KvbvWv A_ev jYWÕb| jYWÕb †M‡j †Zvgv‡`i mv‡_
nq‡Zv †`Lv n‡e|
Gev‡ii eb¨v Avi †kl nq bv| ‡KvbÕ †KvbÕ RvMvq cuvPevi ch©bZÕ eb¨v n‡q‡Q| gvby‡li
K‡ói mxgv bvB| A‡bKw`b hveZ evox hv‡ev hv‡ev KiwQ,- hvIqv n‡q D‡Vwb| kixiUv `~e©j
n‡q †M‡Q| eqm †Zv Avi Kg n‡jv bv| A‡bK mg eqmxiv P‡j †M‡Q|
MbaÕivR dzj Avi GLb dy‡U bv| Avevi K‡e dyU‡e †K Rv‡b ! dzU‡j GKUv †Zvgvi ey`aÕi
Rb¨ cvVv‡ev, -evsjv‡`kx dzj|
e‡ov Avj‡m n‡q †MwQ| mvivUv w`b ky‡q ky‡q KvUvB| GB wK GKUv Rxeb ! ZgvUv hv gv‡S
gv‡S DrcvZ K‡i, GKUv SuvKzwb w`‡q hvq| †`L‡Qv `ywbqvi jxjv‡Ljv ! Kvi †Kv_vq _vKvi
K_v,- Avi _v‡K †Kv_vq ! Avgvi bv _vKvUv Zgvi ‡eva nq me†P‡q †ekx evR‡e| †Zvgiv
mevB Zv‡K GKUz †`‡Lv ! Avwg kvbwZ cv‡ev |
G‡jv‡g‡jv A‡bK K_v e‡j †Zvgv‡`i nq‡Zv weiKZÕ Kwi | `~‡i _vKvi GB GKUv myweav|
Kv‡Q _vK‡j hv ejv n‡Zv bv, `~‡i Av‡Qv e‡jB e‡j ‡Mjvg| Rv‡bv gxby, I hLb Lye †QvUÕ
_vK‡Z wkky nvmcvZv‡j †M‡jv,- ZLb Avgvi Rxe‡bi wewbg‡q †Lv`vi Kv‡Q Zvi Rxebwfÿv †P‡qwQjvg| wK AvkPh©, †m †eu‡P †M‡jv, wKbZz AvwgI i‡q †Mjvg ! |
†Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K Avgvi cÖvYXvjv †`vqv I ‡mœnÕ w`‡q GLb Avwm| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XIX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 12-11-1987
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni Amxg `qv I ingZ ewl©Z †nvK ! gv, †Zvgv‡K A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ
wjwLbv| cÖvqB †Zvgv‡`i K_v †dv‡b Rvb‡Z cvwi e‡j wjLvi AvMÖn K‡g †M‡Q| Zv Qvov
GLb e‡ov Avj‡m n‡q †MwQ| GLb †Zv gv kyay w`b Mybv| fwel¨Z†K wb‡q iswMb ¯^cYÕ
‡evbvi w`b†Zv †kl| GLb kyay AZx‡Zi w`bMy‡jv wb‡q bvovPvov Kiv| Kg©nxb G Rxe‡bi
†Kvb `vg †bB| †Kej A‡b¨i K…cvi Dci †eu‡P _vKv|
†`‡ki Ae¯’v GLb fv‡jv bv| Aek¨ Av‡MI fv‡jv wQ‡jv bv| G‡`‡ki gvbyl †Kvbw`bB
†KvbÕ ivR‰bwZK †bZv‡K wU‡K _vK‡Z †`q bv| wRqvi fvM¨ fv‡jv| †m Av‡Mfv‡M P‡j
wM‡qwQ‡jv| Zvi g„Zz¨i ci †`Lv †M‡jv Av‡MB g~‡j cuPY a‡i wM‡qwQ‡jv| AviI wKQzw`b
†eu‡P _vK‡j †k‡Li g‡ZvB `kv n‡Zv, -†KD Kuv`‡Zv bv, †KD Avc‡mvQ Ki‡Zv bv Zvi
g„Zy¨i Rb¨| GLb nvwmbv I Lv‡j`v wRqv Avm‡i †b‡g‡Q Rvgv‡Zi mv‡_ c‡ivÿ AvuZv‡Z|
RvgvZ ej‡Q, Òj‡ov ! Avgiv AvwQ †Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ !Ó|
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†kl ch©bZÕ nq‡Zv Avevi gvk©vj-jÕ Avm‡e| Aek¨ eZ©gv‡b evsjv‡`k Avwg© Av‡Mi †P‡q
A‡bK kKwZkvjx I RbwcÖq| Avwg©‡Z GLb AbZÕØ©bØ Av‡Q e‡j g‡b nq bv| Gikv‡`i
mgq GKUv wRwbm jÿ¨ Kivi g‡Zv| †mUv n‡jv kÖwgK Kg©Pvix‡`i my‡hvM-myweav `vb, Ges
Dc‡Rjv m„wói gv‡a¨‡g DbbÕwZi aviv kn‡i mxgveÕ`aÕ bv †i‡L MÖvggyLx Kiv| GLb
eZ©gv‡b mKj kÖwgK I mKj miKvix-‡emiKvix Kg©Pvix eQ‡i `yÕwU K‡i Drme fvZv cvq|
`ªe¨g~j¨ Da©gLy x n‡jI me †kÖYxi gvby‡li nv‡Z cqmv Av‡Q| GKRb ‰`wbK †jev‡ii
DcvR©b 50/60 UvKv | Mv‡g©YUm-G †g‡qiv gvwmK nvRvi †_‡K `zB nvRvi UvKv gvB‡b
cvq| Kv‡Ri †g‡qi Lye Afve| nvRv‡iv †g‡q GLb Mv‡g©YUm-G PvKzix K‡i|
`yf©v‡M¨i welq GB †h ivRbxwZ†K GB †`‡ki AwaKvsk †jvK Dc‡i DVvi wmuwo wn‡m‡e MÖnY
K‡i‡Q| `ze©j ivRbxwZi mgeÕj QvÎ-mgvR| GL‡bB QvÎ-mgv‡Ri AatcZb| Giv mvaviY
gvby‡li kª`av nvwi‡q‡Q| 23wU QvÎ msMVb Pi `L‡ji jvwVqv‡ji f~wgKv cvjb Ki‡Q|
AvKvi-cÖKvi †f‡` cÖwZwU QvÎ msMV‡bi gvwmK Avq 15 †_‡K 60 nvRvi UvKv ch©bZÕ|
Giv fvBm-P¨vb‡mjÕi‡KI wbqbÎb K‡i| G‡`i mv‡_ Av‡Q GK †kÖYxi wkÿK,- hviv
wewfbbÕ ivR‰bwZK `‡ji †jRyoe„ZwZ K‡i| wePvi-wefvM we‡Kbw`ªq Ki‡Yi d‡j XvKv¯’
e‡ov e‡ov AvBbRxwe†`i ¯^v‡_© AvNvZ †j‡M‡Q| ZvB Zviv GLb AvBb-e¨emv †Q‡o
ivRbxwZ K‡i †eovP‡Q| Gikv‡`i †`vl- ÎywU hvB _vK, -Z‡e wKQz msL¨K Kv‡qgx
¯^v_©vb‡e&lx‡`i ¯^v‡_© AvNvZ †n‡b‡Q| kyb‡Z nq‡Zv AevK jvM‡e, - Gikv`†K mivevi
Avb‡`vj‡b AvIqvgx jxM, evKkvj, b¨vc I KwgDwbóivI Rvgv‡Z Bmjvg†K †Kv‡j †U‡b
wb‡q‡Q| eZ©gvb evsjv‡`‡ki ivRbxwZ‡Z GKgvÎ RvgvZB myweavRÕbK Ae¯’vq Av‡Q|
Avgiv mevB GK cÖKvi fv‡jv AvwQ| `y‡ai `vg 20 UvKv †mi| ‡`‡k hvevi BPQv wQ‡jv |
nq‡Zv K‡qK w`‡bi g‡a¨ hv‡ev| kixiUv GLb cÖvqB fv‡jv _v‡K bv| PviZjvi KvR †kl
n‡Z mgq jvM‡e| UvKvi cÖkYÕ ‡Zv ! wcKz I ey`aÕ‡K Avgvi K_v e‡jv !
†Zvgiv mevB Avgvi †`vqv I †mœnÕ wb‡qv ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 8-12-1987
Kj¨vYx‡qly,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni ingZ ewl©Z nDK !
†Zvgvi wjLv A‡bK w`b hveZ cvB bv| K‡Zv w`b P‡j †M‡jv †Zvgv‡`i †`wLbv| K‡e
†`L‡ev ZvI Rvwb bv| GgbI n‡Z cv‡i †Zvgiv Avm‡jI †Zvgv‡`i †`L‡ev bv| GB myb`Õi
c„w_ex†K Avi †`L‡ev bv| GB †`Lv Avi ‡kvbvB ‡Zv c„w_ex‡K Ggb myb`Õi K‡i †i‡L‡Q|
GB i~c Avi my‡ii ‡gv‡nB bvwK gvby‡li i~n Zvi †`‡ni wcbRÕ‡i AveÕ`aÕ n‡q Av‡Q|
w`b `yB Av‡M eyyey†K †`L‡Z wM‡qwQjvg| wZwb Acv‡ikb Kiv †PvLUvq wKQz †`L‡Z cvb bv|
Aci †PvLUv w`‡q wKQzUv †`‡Lb | GB †`Lvi Rb¨ wZwb K‡Zv KóB bv ¯^xKvi Ki‡jb| Avi
Rvnx` I Avwid K‡Zv UvKvB bv LiP Ki‡jv ! GB myb`Õi c„w_ex †`Lvi Rb¨ gvby‡li Kx
AvKzj AvMÖn| wKbZz hvi Rb¨ mÖóv GB `yÕ‡Uv †PvL w`‡jb, Zvi mبenvi Ki‡Z cvijvg KB!
myb`Õi‡K †`‡L Lykx nB, wKbZz Amyb`Õi†K myb`Õi Ki‡Z KZUyKz Kx Kijvg ! wKQzB bv|
ZvB †Zv Avgv‡`i Pvwiw`‡K Amyb`Õ‡ii †gjv| myb`Õ‡ii GB ‰`b¨ NyPvB‡ZB ‡evanq cÖK…wZ
wewfbbÕ FZz‡Z bvbv i~‡ci mgv‡ivn wb‡q Awef©~Z nq, -e‡j, Ò‡`‡Lv †Zv Avwg K‡Zv
myb`Õi, †ZvgivI myb`Õi nI, - myb`Õi K‡iv ! †`‡L †`‡L ab¨ nI, `„wó‡K mv_©K K‡iv !Ó
nVvr K‡i w`b K‡qK Av‡M Avwe¯‹vi Kijvg evg †PvLUvq †`wL bv| G‡Zv w`b ai‡Z cvwi
bvB, KviY Wvb †PvLUv GLbI †gvUv‡gvwU fv‡jvB Av‡Q| WvKZvi nviy‡bi Kv‡Q †Mjvg, ej‡jv, -Qvwb c‡o‡Q, Acv‡ikb Ki‡Z n‡e| `yB wgwb‡U wd wb‡jv 200 UvKv| AvR Avevi
iKZÕ I cÖmÖve cixÿv Ki‡Z †M‡jv 165 UvKv|
GB myb`Õi c„w_exUv GKw`b AbaÕKvi n‡q hv‡e Zv Rvwb| ZeyI †klev‡ii g‡Zv -‡PvL
guy`evi AvM ch©bZÕ GB myb`Õi c„w_exUv‡K †`Lv hvevi gvby‡li Kx AvKzwZ !
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ZvB ejwQjvg †Zvgiv nq‡Zv GKw`b Avm‡e, AvwgI nq‡Zv †eu‡P _vK‡ev, wKBZz _vK‡e bv
Avgvi `„wó| Z‡e `„wói Avov‡j ‡h `„wó, hv‡K ewj AbZÕi-`„wó, Zv wb‡q gvbyl mvbZÕbv
cvq|
cikyw`b XvKv wek¦we`¨vj‡qi †Zvgv‡`i Rwjj m¨vi Avgv‡`i evmvq G‡mwQ‡jb| wZwb
ej‡jb eve‡bi PvKzix GLbI Av‡Q, Z‡e Gfv‡e †ekx w`b Pj‡e bv| wZwb ej‡jb, -†m
G‡m wKQzw`b PvKzix K‡i Avevi P‡j †h‡Z cv‡i| GLb †Zvgiv hv fv‡jv g‡b K‡iv Ki‡Z
cv‡iv| Rvnx` G gv‡mi 30 Zvwi‡L KvbvWvq hvP‡Q| jYWÕ‡b †cuŠ‡Q †Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ Avjvc
Ki‡Z cv‡i| †Zvgv‡`i myBwWk cÖ‡dmvi G‡j Avgiv Zv‡K wbgbÎY Ki‡ev Avgv‡`i evmvq|
we‡`kx‡`i ‡Zv Invite K‡i Af¨¯Í bB| ZeyI Avgiv †Póvi ÎywU Ki‡ev bv|
†`‡ki cwiw¯’wZ fv‡jv bv| mKj AkyfÕ kKwZ †RvU †eu‡a‡Q, -†`kUv‡K †Mvjjvq ‡V‡j
w`P‡Q| MYZÕb‡Îi bv‡g ‡`‡ki 98 fvM gvbyl‡K †auvKv w`‡q †h ˆbiv‡R¨i m„wó Kiv n‡q‡Q,
-jy‡Uiv I fvov‡U MyYWv w`‡q MYZÕbÎ cÖwZôvi †h cvuqZviv Pj‡Q, Zvi cwiYwZ wK Ges
†Kv_vq, -Zv †Lv`vB Rv‡b|
(9-12-87): A‡bK w`b evuPjvg| A‡bK wKQz †`Ljvg| wKbZz Kivi g‡Zv wKQz K‡i †h‡Z
cvijvg bv| Avgvi AÿgZv, Avgvi AcviMZv, Avgvi `ye©jZv †Zvgiv mevB ÿgvi †Pv‡L
†`‡Lv ! †Lv`vI †h‡bv Avgvq ÿgv K‡ib| Ajjvn †Zvgv‡`i mK‡ji gsMj Kiyb !
BwZ, †Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 8-4-1988
gv gxby,
Avkv Kwi Avjjvni ing‡Z †Zvgiv mevB fv‡jv Av‡Qv| Zzwg, wcKz, ey`aÕ, eveb †Zvgiv
mevB †h‡bv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv, my‡L-kvbwZ‡Z _v‡Kv, Avjjvni `iev‡i m`v GB †`vqvB RvbvB|
wZwb †Zv me wKQziB gvwjK | wZwbB K‡ib I Kivb| e¨KwZ-†MŠie `vb Ki‡Z gvbyl Zv‡K
Acgvb K‡i|
A‡bK w`b ci †Zvgvq wjL‡Z emjvg Kv‡Q †`Lvi Pkgvi mvnv‡h¨| Aek¨ Pkgv QvovI
†`wL, wjL‡ZI cvwi, KviY Wvb †PvLUvq †gvUvgywU †`wL, wKbZz ZLb evg †Pv‡L †`wL bv|
WvKZvi e‡j‡Q evg †Pv‡LB †`Lvi Rb¨| Pkgv w`‡q Lye †ekx SKS‡K †`Lv hvq| Avevi
†Kgb AvuKvevuKv †`Lv hvq| fv‡jv †PvL Kvbv K‡i Kvbv †PvL fv‡jv K‡i‡Q wKbv ZvB !
†Zvgiv AvR K‡Zv w`b hveZ K‡Zv `~‡i| K‡Zv K_vB g‡b c‡o ! nq‡Zv †KvbÕ KvR bvB
e‡j| KvR _vK‡jI †Zv Ki‡Z cvwi bv| g‡b nq †h‡bv GKms‡M A‡K‡Rv n‡q ‡MwQ| cÖvq
mvivUv w`bB ky‡q ky‡q KvUvB|
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GLb †ek Mig c‡o‡Q| e„wó bvB| cvwbi Afve| MZ eQiI Ggb n‡qwQ‡jv| bxPz K‡i
†gvUv cvwbi cvBc jvwM‡q Zvi mgvavb Kiv n‡qwQ‡jv| Gevi Avevi ‡mB GKB mgm¨v|
w`‡bi †ejv cvwb †gv‡UB _v‡K bv| ivw·Z hv Av‡m Zv‡Z mviv w`b P‡j bv| Aek¨ cvwb
_vKvKvjxb AcPqI Avgiv Kg Kwiwb| XvKv kn‡i cÖ‡qvRbxq cvwb Aek¨ Av‡MI wQ‡jv bv|
cvwb Pzwi, we`y¨r Pzwi Pj‡Q| cvwbi ¯Íi bx‡P ‡b‡g †M‡Q| ZvB mieivn ‡M‡Q K‡g| elv© bv
nIqv ch©bZÕ nq‡Zv Gfv‡eB Pj‡e|
IB †h ejwQjvg `~‡i _vKv K_v| eveb hLb †R‡j wQ‡jv, -†`owU eQi Zv‡K †Pv‡L †`wLwb|
Aek¨ wQ‡jv †Zv Kv‡QB | evmv †_‡K XvKv †RjLvbv Avi Kx Ggb `~i ! gv‡S gv‡S Zvi
Lei ‡bevi Rb¨ †mLv‡b †hZvg, wKbZz †`L‡Z †cZvg bv| G‡Zv Kv‡Q wM‡qI †`L‡Z bv
cvIqv †h K‡Zv Kó, -†m KóUv AvRI wbf…Z gyn‡~ ©Z ey‡Ki cv‡k Abyfe Kwi| Aek¨ Zv‡K
Avwg †KvbÕ w`bB †ekx K‡i Kv‡Q cvBwb| Rv‡bv, †m mgq gv‡S gv‡S GLb DZjv n‡q
†hZvg †h wkkyi g‡Zv nvDgvD K‡i Kvu`‡Z _vKZvg| AvRI Aek¨ enzw`b hveZ Zv‡K †`wL
bv| Z‡e bv †`Lvi e¨_vUv †Zgb Zxeª fv‡e ey‡K ev‡R bv, gv‡S gv‡S †Zvgv‡`i KYVÕ kyb‡Z
cvB,- we‡kl K‡i †Zvgiv †Kv‡bv Amyweavq †bB †R‡b|
gvbyl h‡Zv †ekx evu‡P, myL-`yt‡Li mbPÕqI Z‡Zv †ekx ev‡o| Avm‡jv hviv, Zv‡`i †P‡q
hviv P‡j †M‡Q, Zv‡`i mvwiUvB AvR Avgvi ¯g„wZ‡Z jgev | hviv hvq, Zviv Avi wd‡i
Av‡m bv| Iiv wKQzKvj †eu‡P _v‡K †eu‡P-_vKv msMx‡`i ¯g„wZ‡Z| Zvici wPiZ‡i nvwi‡q
hvq we¯g„wZi AZ‡j|
MbaÕivR MvQUv A‡bK So-SvcUvi g‡a¨I AvR ch©bZÕ †eu‡P Av‡Q| Av‡Rv †m GKR‡bi
†Quvqv enb K‡i Av‡Q| GLb g~j MvQUvq GKUv dzj Av‡Q, KjgUvq dzj bvB| †ivR †`wL
†KvbÕ dyj dzU‡jv Kx bv !
gv gxby, A‡bKw`b ci wjL‡Z e‡m A‡bK wKQz e‡K †Mjvg| GLb †Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K, ey`aÕ
wcKz, eveb I †Zvgv‡K ggZv I †`vqv w`‡q we`vq wbjvg| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 25-5-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjøvn ZvÕjvi A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z †nvK †Zvgv‡`i Dci ! myLgq, kvbwZgq, AvbÕb`Õgq I
†MŠievbbxZÕ †nvK †Zvgv‡`i Rxeb !
Kjg-KvUv MbaÕivR MvQUv †Zgb dyj Avi †`q bv| g~j-KvYWÕUvB Kjg †`qv n‡qwQ‡jv|
bx‡Pi AskUvq K‡qKUv kvLv †ei n‡qwQ‡jv, -IMy‡jv GLb e‡ov n‡q‡Q, - `yÕ‡Uv kvLv
†fs‡MI †M‡Q| evKx kvLvMy‡jv GLb dzj †`q| wKQzw`b Av‡M †ek K‡qKwU dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv|
Avgvi Lye fv‡jv jvM‡jv| g‡b n‡jv Avwg †h‡bv †mB Kjg †`Iqv MvQUv |
MZ ciky †gvnvggÕ`cyi wM‡qwQjvg eyey‡K †`L‡Z| gvqvi ¯^vgxi gv_vi wfZi gM‡R wUDgvi
n‡qwQ‡jv| Acv‡ikb K‡i wUDgvi †ei Kiv n‡q‡Q, - Wvb cv I Wvb nvZ Aek| Lye RwUj
†ivM| cy‡ivcywi fv‡jv nIqvi Avkv Lye Kg| Z‡e Avjjvni ingZ n‡j,- meB n‡Z cv‡i|
MZ iv‡Î bwb wmsMvcyi †_‡K ‡dvb K‡iwQ‡jv| †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡QI †dvb Ki‡e e‡j
e‡jwQ‡jv| Iiv ‡evanq 89-Gi Rzb ch©bZÕ †`‡k wdi‡Z cv‡i| GLb UvKvi `iKvi| ZvB
GK bvMv‡o `yB Term K‡i UvKvi †hvMvo K‡i jYWÕb hv‡e co‡Z|
ey`aÕ bvwK GLb A‡bK KvR Ki‡Z cv‡i| wcKzi g‡Zv K‡i K‡e wjL‡Z cvi‡e !
GLb ivwL, - †Zvgiv my‡L _v‡Kv ! †Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 22KLMNOP
56
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 2-6-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i mK‡ji gsMj Kiyb ! Zvui A‡kl ingZ †Zvgv‡`i Dci ewl©Z †nvK !
gv ey`aÕi Amy‡Li K_v ky‡b gbUv Lvivc| †Lv`v †h‡bv Zv‡K ZvovZvwo fv‡jv K‡i †`b !
†Lv`vi Kv‡Q Zvi Rb¨ A‡bK A‡bK †`vqv Kwi| hw` wZwb GB †MvbvnMv‡ii †`vqv Keyj
K‡ib !
†Zvgiv Avm‡e ky‡b w`b Mywb| K‡Zvw`b †Zvgv‡`i †`wL bv| Zey gv‡S gv‡S †dv‡b †Zvgv‡`i
K_v ky‡b g‡b nq GB Kv‡QB †h‡bv †Zvgiv Av‡Qv|
Avgv‡`i evoxi mggyL GLb ckwPg w`‡K| ckwP‡gi †`qv‡ji cv‡kB MbaÕivR MvQUv |
Gi mv‡_ Av‡Q GKUv †Pix, GKUv ¯’j-c`g&, GKUv mymyb`v, GKUv fzMb-wejxqv| GKUv
nvmbv†nbv wQ‡jv, -Gevi wK Rvwb †KbÕ g‡i ‡M‡jv| GLb †_vKv †_vKv †Pixdyj dz‡U‡Q,
mymyb`v Avi fzMb wewjqvI dz‡U‡Q, MbaÕivR Avi ¯’j c`g& nqwb, n‡e nq‡Zv K‡qK w`b
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c‡i| †PixMy‡jv ‡ek myb`Õi| G c„w_exUv‡K dzjB †evanq myb`Õi K‡i †i‡L‡Q| †PvL bv
_vK‡j dy‡ji †mŠb`Õ‡h©i †Kv‡bv `vg bvB, Aek¨ myMÕbwa dz‡j bv‡Ki ÿzav wgUvq |
†mw`b †gvnvggÕ`cyi wM‡qwQjvg eyey‡K †`L‡Z| eyey‡Zv GLb fv‡jv K‡i †`L‡Z cvb bv |
me †ivRv ivL‡Qb | Avevi kvIqv‡ji †ivRvI ivL‡Qb| Rvnx` P‡j hvIqvq †eva nq g‡b
Lye Kó cvP‡Qb | `ywbqvi hZw`b gvbyl †eu‡P _v‡K, Z‡Zvw`b GKUv bv GKwU Kó _v‡K|
gv, gxby, †Kvb wKQz Ki‡Z cviv ev Kiv gvby‡li ¯^fve ag©| hLb GB wKQz Kivi ÿgZv
nvwi‡q hvq ZLwb gvbyl evuPvi AvbÕb`Õ cvq bv| AvbÕb`Õnxb Rxeb `ywe©mnÕ|
gvqvi RvgvB‡qi Ae¯’v fv‡jv bv | †eª‡bi wUDgvi Acv‡ikb Kiv n‡q‡Q, - Wvb nvZ I Wvb
cv Aek| gv‡S gv‡S `yB-GKwU K_v ej‡Z cv‡i| †Kv‡bv DbbÕwZ †`Lv hvq bv| nq‡Zv
wKQyw`b AKg©¨Y¨ n‡q †eu‡P _vK‡e| †m evuPvi †Kv‡bv `vg bvB| hviv †eu‡P Av‡Q Zv‡`i‡K
†Kej Kó †`Iqv|
AvRKvj †Zv evPPv‡`i nzwcs K‡de Preventive Injection ‡`Iqv nq| †Zvgiv wK
ey`aÕ‡K I wcKz‡K H Injection ‡`I bvB ? nzwcs Kd‡Zv Lye Kó`vqK| Avwg Avjjvni
`iev‡i me mgq Zvi wbivg‡qi Rb¨ †`vqv Kwi|
†Zvgv‡`i mevi Kzkj Kvgbv K‡i- GLb ivwL| ‡`vqvb‡Z, -‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 20-6-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i mKj‡K Kzk‡j ivLyb !
gv, -wKQzw`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i AmyL-wemy‡Li Lei ky‡b Kó jv‡M| evPPv gvby‡li AmyL n‡j
IivI Kó cvq, Ab¨‡`iI †fvMvq| Z‡e AmyL-wemyL , `ytL-Kó AvjjvniB †`Iqv| wZwb
gvbyl‡K GKevi Kuv`vb, Avi GKevi nvmvb| G †h jxjvg‡qi jxjv | ‰ah© ai‡Z nq, - †g‡b
wb‡Z nq, -bZzev wZwb †eRvi nb| Avgiv my‡L Zv‡K fzwj, -`yt‡L ¯giY Kwi| Avgiv Zv‡K
¯giY bv Ki‡j ZviI †h Lye Kó nq| Avjjvn‡K Wv‡Kv, -Zvui Kv‡Q Kvu‡`v -wZwb ‡h
†Pv‡Li cvwb‡KB †ekx fv‡jvev‡mb !
†Zvgiv Avevi †`‡k wdi‡e, -Kv‡Q Avm‡e, -†`wL wKbv Rvwb bv| wKbZz G ‡h ‡R‡b †Mjvg,
ZvI Kg my‡Li bq| Zzwg, eveb, wcKz I ey`aÕ Avgvi Ke‡ii cv‡k wM‡q `uvov‡e| Avwg
†`L‡ev, -G ‡h Avgvi K‡Zv myL, -K‡Zv my-L|
GLb Avwg gv| †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ mevi Rb¨ †`vqv iB‡jv, -wPiKvj _vK‡e|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 24KLMNOP
60
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXV
XvKv, 3-7-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb, -my¯’¨ ivLyb, -wbivc‡` ivLyb, -my‡L ivLyb !
`~i †`‡k †Zvgv‡`i AmyL-wemy‡Li K_v kyb‡j Lye Lvivc jv‡M| †Lv`vi Kv‡Q †`vqv Kiv Qvov
Avi ‡Zv wKQz Ki‡Z cvwi bv| Avi G †`vqv I wK †Lv`v Keyj K‡ib ? ZeyI Zv‡KB WvwK,Zvi `qv wfÿv Kwi, - Ò†Lv`v Zzwg Avgvi fvB I †ev‡b‡i fv‡jv K‡i `vI, -Iiv wblúvc
†QvUÕ wkky, -I‡`i Kó w`‡qv bv !Ó Zzwg dR‡ii bvgv‡Ri ci cÖwZw`b myiv dv‡Znv c‡o
I‡`i Mv‡q dzuK w`‡qv !
K‡qK gvm ci MbaÕivR MvQUvq `zÕ‡Uv dzj dz‡U‡Q| Ni †_‡K †`wL, -evB‡i †M‡j ¯úk©
Kwi, -enzw`‡bi ¯g„wZ Rwo‡q Av‡Q G MvQUvq| cv‡k ‡Pix MvQUvqI A‡bK jvj jvj, †_vKv
‡_vKv, dyj dz‡U‡Q| nvmbv‡nbv MvQUv †K‡bv †h AKv‡j g‡i †M‡jv !
XvKvq Avgiv fv‡jvB AvwQ| gvqvi RvgvB GL‡bv †eu‡P Av‡Q, -Av‡ivM¨ jv‡fi Avkv bvB|
Z‡e †Lv`v meB Ki‡Z cv‡ib|
ey`aÕ I wcKz‡K †mœnÕ w`‡q Ges †`vqv K‡i Gevi ivwL| ‡Zvgiv ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 25KLMNO
62
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXVI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 21-7-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
cig KiyYvgq Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i Dci Zuvi A‡kl ingZ el©Y Kiyb ! ‡Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K
my¯_ ivLyb, my‡L ivLyb. kvbwZ‡Z ivLyb ! GQvov †Zvgv‡`i †`Iqvi Avi wK Av‡Q Avgvi|
Rv‡bv gxby, Rxe‡b we‡kl gyn~‡Z©i GKwU nvwm, GKUz Kvbbv, GKwU K_v, GKwU KYVÕ¯^i
¯g„wZ D`¨v‡b m`¨ †dvUv dy‡ji g‡Zv wPiÕ Agjvb i‡q hvq ! Giv Rxe‡b mRxeZv Av‡b, Giv Ògb giy‡Z My‡j jvjvÓ| mbZvb mbZÕwZi †h AvKvsLv, Bnv m„wói ag©| Avgvi Avwg‡K
†i‡L hvIqvi `y`©g evmbv| G myb`Õi c„w_ex †_‡K wPiZ‡i nvwi‡q bv hvIqvi mvabv, wKbZz
nvwi‡q †m GKw`b hvq-B| ¯g„wZ‡Z †m K‡Zv w`bB-ev †ue‡P _v‡K !
Kv‡ji Kv‡Q m„wói G civRq Awbevh©| m„wói †miv gvbylI| Z‡e Hw`b KvM‡R †`Ljvgdªvb‡mi †Kvb GK weÁvbx Avwe®‹vi K‡i‡Qb, -emZzi ¯g„wZi bvwK KL‡bv wejycwZ N‡U bv|
ZvB ‡Zv ewj Avwg Ae¨q, Avwg Aÿq|
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†mw`b eyey‡K, -†Zvgvi gv‡K †`L‡Z wM‡qwQjvg| Dwb evox hvIqvi cÖmZzwZ wbPwQ‡jb|
Dbv‡Z Lye cÖdzjjÕ ‡`LvPwQjÕ| eySjvg kn‡ii G †gK-Avc Kiv my‡L Zvi gb f‡i bv |
gb c‡o _v‡K H ÒivsMvgvwUiÓ c‡_| Kjve‡bi evDwi evZvm, Rj fiv cyKiz , Mv‡Q Mv‡Q
QvIqv evox-Ni, gvwUi ‡muv`v MbaÕ, -m`vB Zvi gb Uv‡b| Avwg ‡Zv †h‡Z cvwi bv, -Avgv‡K
†KD wb‡q hvq bv| ÓG‡mv my`i~ , wecyj my`~i, Zzwg †h evRvI e¨vKzj euvkix !Ó
†Zvgv‡K †Zv gv A‡bK ewj| Zzwg wK Avgvi K_v ey‡Sv ? eyS‡e wK K‡i Avwg eySevi g‡Zv
K‡i ej‡Z cvwi bv| ey`aÕ K_v e‡j, Zzwg wK Zvi K_v ey‡Sv ? nq‡Zv ey‡Sv| Zzwg †h Zvi
gv| Avgvi gv _vK‡jI Avgvi K_v eyS‡Zv| gv Qvov †h `ywbqvq †KD mbZv‡bi K_v-e¨_v
ey‡S bv, eyS‡jI eyS‡Z Pvq bv| Avgvi gv bvB ! nvq‡i, `ywbqvUv hw` gv-gq n‡q †h‡Zv !
Qv‡` †ekx DwV bv,-ILv‡b A‡bK dyj MvQ Av‡Q| bx‡Pi MvQMy‡jv‡Z †ekx dyj nq bv|
MbaÕivRUvI K…cb n‡q †M‡Q| gv‡S gv‡S `y-GKUv dyj dz‡U| nvmbv†nbv MvQUv g‡i †M‡Q|
MbaÕnxb †Pix I mymzbav KqwU dyj _v‡K, -ivZ w`b|
†Zvgvi ey`aÕ I wcKzi Rb¨ GKUz Lvwb Av`i Avi †Zvgv‡`i Df‡qi A‡kl †`vqv w`‡q GLb
ivwL| ‡Zvgvi †mœ‡ni ey‡ov mbZvb
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXVII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 6-8-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK, -‡Zvgiv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv, -myL kvbwZ‡Z
_v‡Kv !
C` ‡M‡jv, -‡Zvgiv hvIqvi ci K‡Zv C`B †Zv G‡jv Avi †M‡jv| cÖK…wZi wbqg e`jvq bv,
-wPiUv Kvj GKB wbqg †g‡b P‡j| Avgiv wKbZz GKB wbqg gvb‡Z PvB bv| fv‡jv jv‡M
bv, -GK †N‡qgx gvbyl cQÕb`Õ K‡i bv|
Gev‡ii C`Uv Avgv‡`i †Zgb R‡gwb| A_©vr, †kl evRv‡i Miy wKb‡Z wM‡q wKb‡Z cv‡iwb|
ZvB AvmZ Miyi cwie‡©Z †Zvgvi PvPvi mv‡_ -`yB fvM wb‡qB mbZzó _vK‡Z n‡q‡Q| †Zvgvi
Lvjv Aek¨ Lykx n‡Z cv‡iwb| UvjgvUvj †Mv¯Í cvIhv hvqwb| Zv-Qvov evox‡Z †Zgb Zvov
e¨¯ÍZv wQ‡jv bv, -‡hgbwU †KvievYxi w`b n‡q _v‡K| Avwg Aek¨ Aviv‡g Nywg‡q KvwU‡qwQ|
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†`‡ki Ae¯’v& †ekx fv‡jv bv| AKvj eb¨vh Ges b`xi fvsM‡b DVwZ dmj bó n‡q †M‡Q|
Avgv‡`i Gw`‡K †MvgZxi fvsM‡b †`exØvi, gyiv` bM‡ii Ae¯’v Kvwnj| ixYvi k^kyi evox‡Z
N‡ii wfZiI cvwb D‡VwQ‡jv | GLb Aek¨ cvwb ‡b‡g †M‡Q|
‡Zvgiv K‡e ch©bZÕ †`‡k †d‡iv Rvwb bv| Aek¨ hLb Avjjvni nzKzg nq, -Avm‡e|
Zvovnz‡ovi `iKvi †bB| ax‡i my‡¯’ wPbZv fvebv K‡i hLb fv‡jv g‡b K‡iv G‡mv !
G‡Zvw`bB hLb ‡M‡jv, †Zv wKQz w`‡bi Rb¨ wb‡Ri Amyweav K‡i G‡mv bv| †h KÕUv w`b
GLv‡b _v‡Kv, †h‡bv wbkwPb‡Z _vK‡Z cv‡iv !
G‡m †Zv Av‡Mi wKQz †`L‡e bv, -A‡bKUv A‡PbvB ‡VK‡e| GKwU bv nvwi‡q †Zv Avi GKwU
cvIqv hvq bv| cyivZb‡K nviv‡bvi †e`bv Avi byZzb‡K cvIqvi AvbÕb`Õ,-G wb‡qB †Zv
`ywbqv|
hv‡K we`vq Kivi Rb¨ G‡Zv †c‡ikvb, Zv‡K we`vq K‡i Avgiv Kvuw`| nvq‡i gvbz‡li gb !
we`vq Kiv AZxZ †h‡bv †Kvb my`~i Ai‡Y¨ e‡m e‡m Kvu‡`, -Avgv‡K Uv‡b| gb‡K Avbgbv
K‡i †Zv‡j, Ò†Kv_v †m Qvqv mwL †Kv_v ‡m Rj !
†Kv_v †m evuav NvU, Ak¦Z_Õ Zj !Ó
MZKvj evsjv†`‡k f~wgKÕgcÕ n‡q †M‡jv, Aek¨ †Kv_vqI †KvbÕ ÿwZi Lei cvIqv hvqwb|
Z‡e mzEPPÕ cyiv‡Yv `vjvb-†KvVv †_‡K nz‡ovnzwo K‡i bvg‡Z wM‡q wKQz msL¨K †jvK AvnZ
n‡q‡Q|
fv‡jv K_v, †Zvgiv hLb †`‡k wd‡iv, GKgywó myB‡W‡bi gvwU wb‡q G‡mv !
GLb ivwL| Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i mKj‡K myLx Kiyb !
ey‡ov †Q‡j
* 8-8-88: MZKvj †Zvgv‡`i wPwV †cjvg |
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXVIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 19-8-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjøvni `ievi †Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ my¯^vm_Õ, myL-kvbwZ I wbivcÕZZv Kvgbv Kwi|
Avgv‡`i evmvi cv‡k bwbi GK mnKgx©i evc gviv †M‡jb K‡qK w`b Av‡M| f`ª‡jvK
K‡qKw`b bq, K‡qK eQi ch©bZÕ fzMwQ‡jb| †k‡li w`‡K wb‡Ri †Q‡j†g‡q‡`i ch©bZÕ
wPb‡Z cvi‡Zb bv | eq‡m Avgvi 7/8eQ‡ii †QvUÕ| Avwg wKbZz AvRI †Zvgv‡`i wPb‡Z
cvi‡ev, - Aek¨ ‡Pv‡L fv‡jv †`wL bv| ‡Zvgvi gv-I fv‡jv †`‡Lb bv| fv‡jv bv †`‡L bv
†`‡L Af¨vm n‡q †M‡j †Zgb Lvivc jv‡M bv, -m‡q hvq|
GB †h A‡bK w`b hveZ Avgvi `vuZ ‡bB| `vuZ bv _vKvi `ytL GLb ‡Zgb jv‡M bv, ‡hgbwU cÖ_g cÖ_g jvM‡Zv| me wKQz †eva nq GgbwUB nq| nvwi‡q hvIqvi Av‡M nvwi‡q
hvIqvi AvksKv h‡Zv †e`bv`vqK, -nvwi‡q hvIqvi wKQz w`b c‡i KóUv †Zgb jv‡M bv|
bB‡j †Zv `ywbqvUv †Pv‡Li cvwb‡Z mqjve n‡q †h‡Zv| Time is the best healer.
`ywbqvUv myb`Õi| †Pv‡Li `„wó kKwZ, Kv‡bi kÖeb kKwZ, bv‡Ki NÖvY kKwZ, wRnevi ¯^v`
kKwZ, †`‡ni ¯úk© kKwZ hZw`b envj _v‡K, -Z‡Zvw`bB `ywbqv myb`Õi| GB cbPÕ
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kKwZi Afve n‡jB gvbyl Rxe‡bi cÖwZ, †eu‡P _vKvi cÖwZ AvMÖn nvivq| ZLwb gvbyl e‡j, Òme †Zv wb‡q †M‡j, Gevi Avgv‡i j‡nv KiyYv K‡i !Ó
Gevi eywS kir GjÕ ZvovZvwo| Aek¨ eb¨v wM‡qI Avevi wd‡i G‡m‡Q †Kv‡bv †Kv‡bv
AbPÕ‡j| GLv‡bI nVvr K‡i Si Si K‡i gv‡S gv‡S GK ckjv nvjKv e„wó S‡i c_-NvU
wfwR‡q ‡`q| Mi‡gi ZxeªZv †Zgb bvB| evZv‡m †h‡bv wKQyUv kx‡Zi Av‡gR|
†Zvgvi Avggv GL‡bv †`‡k Av‡Qb| †`k‡K wZwb Lye fvjev‡mb, -XvKv _vK‡jI †`‡k
†h‡bv Ibvi gbUv c‡o _v‡K| Qvqv‡Niv MÖvg, gvwUi MbaÕ, gvby‡li †ewnmvex wblúÖ‡qvRbxq
K_vevZ©v, -Gme †eva nq Ibvi Kv‡Q fv‡jv jv‡M| GLv‡b †Zv Ògv‡Vi c‡i gv‡Vi †k‡l,
my`~i MÖvgLvwb AvKv‡k †g‡kÓ bv| GLv‡b †h ÒB‡Ui c‡i BU, gv‡S gvbyl KxU|Ó ZvB
AvRxeb cjjx-jvwjZv G †g‡qwUi ivRavbxi e`aÕ LvuPvq gb †U‡Kbv| Avgvi e‡ov wnsmv
nq| Aek¨ cbPvk eQi Av‡MKvi †m cjjxMÖvg GLb Avi bvB| wKbZz Avgvi ¯g„wZ‡Z †Zv
‡m †eu‡P Av‡Q myb`Õi Agøvb|
Avwg‡Zv gv wPwV wjwLbv, -†Zvgvi Kv‡Q bvbv Av‡Rev‡R ewK| MZ QqwU eQi a‡i ‡Zv A‡bK
wPwVB wjLjvg| Ò†Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv, Avgiv fv‡jv AvwQ,Ó -AvR bvB ev wjLjvg|
†mœn-KvsMvjx ey‡ov †Q‡j
68
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXIX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 30-8-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Lv`v ‡g‡nievb ‡Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb ! †Zvgiv mym_Õ _v‡Kv, kvbwZ‡Z _v‡Kv, wbivc‡`
_v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b n‡jv †Zvgv‡`i wPwV cvB bv| Aek¨ †dv‡b Lei cvB †Zvgiv fv‡jvB Av‡Qv|
AvgivI †gvUvgywU fv‡jvB AvwQ|
GLb mviv †`kUvB cªvq cvwbi bx‡P| eb¨v GB `yB eQi hveZ ev‡i ev‡i Av‡m| GLb
‡Zvgvi ivgcyivi PvPvi evmvq wfwUi Dci nuvUz cvwb| enz RvqMvq moK I †ijc‡_ †`‡ki
†hvMv‡hvM ebaÕ n‡q †M‡Q| G †h‡bv b~‡ni cøveb| wKQzw`b Av‡M f~wgKÕgcÕ n‡q †M‡jv |
G‡Z evsjv‡`‡ki we‡kl †KvbÕ ÿwZ bv n‡jI, fvi‡Zi wenv‡i I †bcv‡j enz `vjvb
†fs‡M‡Q Ges †jvK nZvnZ n‡q‡Q| G †`‡kI bvwK G gv‡mi †k‡li w`‡K e‡ov ai‡Yi
f~wgKÕg†ci AvksKv Av‡Q| me©smnv emybaÕivI gv‡S gv‡S AwZlVÕ n‡q D‡V ‰ewK|
MbaÕivR MvQUvq GLb PviUv dzj Av‡Q| GKms‡M GZÕUv KgB _v‡K, `yÕGKUvi †ekx _v‡K
bv| g~j KvbWÕUv Kjg w`‡q A‡iK cv‡k jvMv‡bv n‡q‡Q| †eu‡P Av‡Q wVKB, wKbZz †Zgb
GKUv dzj ‡`q bv| bvi‡Kj MvQ `yÕ‡Uv GL‡bv Av‡Q, -gv‡S Wve I bvi‡Kj cvIqv hvq|
AwaKvsk Aek¨ †Pv‡iB Lvq| Iiv `qv Ki‡j Avgiv wKQz cvB| Z‡e miKvix ‡Wªb cvKv
n‡j, G `yÕwU MvQ bvI _vK‡Z cv‡i| Zvi mv‡_ GKUv RvgMvQI hv‡e| G `ywbqvq hvIqvi
Rb¨B me wKQy Av‡m|
G Rxe‡b cwiwPwZ cwiwa ‡Zv †Zgb †ekx _v‡K bv| KviY ¯g„wZ G‡Zv wKQz a‡i ivL‡Z cv‡i
bv, PvqI bv| K‡Zv cwiwPZ †h P‡j †M‡jv, -¯g„wZI Zv‡`i a‡i ivL‡Z cvi‡jv bv| †KvbÕUv
g‡b c‡o, †KvbÕUv g‡b c‡o bv| KL‡bv †`Lv hvq GKvbZÕ Kv‡Qi, GKvbZÕ ‡Pbv gvbylwU
69
A‡Pbv n‡q| Avgvi cv‡ki evwoi GK f`ª‡jvK gi‡Yi †ek wKQzw`b AvM ch©bZÕ Avcb
†Q‡j‡K wPb‡Z cvi‡Zv bv, -A‡bK wPbZvi ci KL‡bv ev wPb‡Z cvi‡Zv|
mvc †hgwb K‡i e¨vO wM‡j, †Zgwb K‡i eb¨v MÖvm K‡i‡Q evsjv‡`kUv‡K| G ch©bZÕ K‡Zv
nvRvi eM© gvBj eb¨vi MÖv‡m| XvKv kn‡ii Pviw`K eb¨v KewjZÕ| †eva nq MZev‡ii eb¨vi
mxgvI Qvwo‡q hv‡e| ¯’j c‡_ XvKvi mv‡_ cÖvq me †hvMv‡hvMB ebaÕ n‡q †M‡Q|
†Zvgiv bvwK wW‡mgeÕ‡i Avm‡Qv| ‡eu‡P _vK‡j †`Lv n‡e !
14-9-1988: Gev‡ii eb¨v bwRi wenxb| †ij, GgbwK wegvb †hvMv‡hvMI wePwQbbÕ n‡q
wM‡qwQ‡jv| XvKv kn‡ii wZb-PZz_©vsk Zwj‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv cvwbi bx‡P| wW.Gb.wW euva †Kvb
iK‡g iÿv Kiv n‡qwQ‡jv, bB‡j cyivZb XvKvi ‡`vZjv `vjv‡bi Dci w`‡q bvwK cvwb e‡q
†h‡Zv| ivgcyiv †Zvgvi PvPvi evmvi wfwUi Dci GL‡bv ‡Kvgi cvwb|
†Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K Avjjvni †ndvR‡Z †i‡L GLb ivwL|
ey‡ov †Q‡j
*17-9-1988: wPwV wj‡LwQjvg A‡bK Av‡M| iv¯ÍvNvU wQ‡jv Wz‡evbZÕ| MvoxI †e‡iv‡Z
cv‡iwb| ZvB wPwVI †cvó Kiv nqwb|
70
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 13-10-1988
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ †Zvgv‡`i Dci !
†Zvgiv †`L‡j bv eb¨vi cvwb‡Z †Kgb K‡i ax‡i ax‡i Zwj‡q †M‡jv, -fvwm‡q wb‡q †M‡jv
K‡Zv wKQz| b~‡ni cøve‡bi †h‡bv GKUv ÿz`ª ms¯KiY| bZzb Mvb iwPZ n‡jv, - ÒAvjjvn
†gN †`, cvwb †`, ej‡ev bv †Zv Avi !Ó| evsjv‡`kUvi 3/4 Ask Wy‡e †M‡jv | meyR fiv
kl¨-k¨vgjv gv‡Vi eyK Lvwj n‡q †M‡jv, eb¨v †i‡L †M‡jv GKUv cÖPÕYWÕ nvnvKvi, gnv
k~Y¨Zv|
wW.Gb.wW euva †KvbÕ iK‡g iÿv Kiv n‡qwQ‡jv, bB‡j ‡`vZjv `vjv‡bi Dci w`‡q Xj e‡q
†h‡Zv| cÖK…wZ †hb evsjv‡`kUv‡K †fs‡M bZzb K‡i Mo‡Z †P‡qwQ‡jv| Gevi n‡jv bv,
nq‡Zv Avevi †Póv Pj‡e | wKbZz gvby‡li g‡a¨ we‡kl †Kvb cwieZ©b †`Lv hvq bv| Aek¨
†Póv Pj‡Q gvbyl‡K euvwP‡q ivL‡Z| eb¨v gv‡Vi dmj †K‡o wb‡jI Zv‡K De©i K‡i hvq|
Zvi ey‡K †i‡L hvq cwji ¯Íi| wKbZz Ggb gvbyl‡K euvwP‡q †i‡L wK jvf, hviv AvMvQvi
g‡Zv †e‡o D‡V ! †Kej †eu‡P _vKvUv e‡ov K_v bq, -‡eu‡P _vKvi `vg _vK‡Z n‡e|
71
Avwg evox hv‡ev hv‡ev K‡i †h‡Z cvwi bv| K‡e †h‡Z cvwi Avjjvn Rv‡bb| KL‡bv Mig,
KL‡bv e„wó, KL‡bv ev kixi fv‡jv bv| Gme ARynv‡Z hvIqv nP‡Q bv, wKbZz hvIqv
`iKvi| wKQz KvR Av‡Q ‡h Avgv‡KB Ki‡Z n‡e|
Bjvnvev` gmwR‡`i cv‡k GK UzKiv Rwg wKb‡ev Avgvi Ke‡ii Rb¨| gvby‡li †kl cvIqv
†Zv _v‡K gvÎ `yÕMYWv Rwg| G `yB MYWv Rwg †_‡K ebwPZÕ n‡qwQ‡jv fvi‡Zi †kl mgªvU
evnv`yi kvn (Rvdi)| g„Zz¨i c~‡e© wZwb mvgªv‡R¨i Rb¨ bq, `yB MYWv gvwUi Rb¨ Avd‡mvm
K‡i wM‡qwQ‡jb| Z‡e GB i~c `yÕMR gvwU A‡b‡Ki fv‡M¨B Rz‡U bv| ZvB Avwg Bjvnvev‡`
4 kZvsk Rwg †i‡L †Mjvg Gi~c fvM¨nZÕ‡`i Rb¨| Z‡e †kl ch©bZÕ Avgvi G Avkv c~Y©
nq wKbv Rvwb bv| Kvi gvwU †Kv_vq wgj‡e †Lv`vB fv‡jv Rv‡bb| Gev‡ii eb¨v GK_vB
e‡j †M‡jv|
fv‡jv K_v, H ‡h GK gy‡Vv myB‡W‡bi gvwUi K_v e‡jwQjvg, g‡b K‡i wb‡q G‡mv|
MbaÕivR MvQUvq Gevi A‡bK dyj n‡qwQ‡jv| Avgvi Kv‡Q Giv †Zvgv‡`i cÖwZwbwa| Giv
nv‡m, K_v e‡j| Avwg ‡`wL, --Kvb †c‡Z I‡`i K_v| wKbZz Iiv †Zv †ekx w`b _v‡K bv|
ÿwb‡Ki AvbÕb‡`i Rb¨ Iiv Av‡m, I‡`i we`v‡q wK †KD Kuv‡` bv ! iv‡Zi nvIqv, †fv‡ii
wkwki ! †Zvgiv Avm‡e| KLb Avm‡e ? Tomorrow. hLb P‡j hv‡e, -KLb †M‡jv ?
Yestarday| G `ywbqvUvB Tomorrow Avi Yesterday| GK_v e‡j, g‡a¨ e‡m
Today nv‡m|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
72
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 28-10-88
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z nDK ! †Zvgiv mym_Õ _v‡Kv ! my‡L _v‡Kv I
wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
2-12-88:
Dc‡ii wjLvUyKy 28-10-88Gi| G K_vwU wK Avevi AvR wjLvi cÖ‡qvRb Av‡Q ? GUv†Zv
Avwg cÖwZw`b ewj, cÖwZw`b Aek¨ wjwL bv|
wjwj P‡j ‡M‡Q| evmvwU‡Z Av‡iv GKwU bZzb wQ`ª ms‡hvwRZÕ n‡jv| Avevi evR‡e bZzb n‡q
†mB cyivZb myi, - †mB wPiÕbZÕb Kvbbv, ÒGgwb K‡i n„`‡q ‡gvi Zxeª `vnb R ¦v‡jv !Ó
mvg‡bi MvQUvq A‡bK dzj dz‡U‡Q| MvQ †ek e‡ov dzj dy‡U‡Q, -A‡bK bvg| ‡KD e‡j
¯_j c`g&, †KD e‡j IjU Kgj| cÖwZ eQi GK evi GB mg‡q dzj nq, _v‡KI A‡bK
w`b| †Zvgiv G‡m nq‡Zv †`L‡e| isUv †Zgb PUv bq, Clr jvj‡P| †Zgb AvKl©Yxq bq,
Z‡e A‡bKMy‡jv GK ms‡M Av‡Q e‡j †`L‡Z fv‡jvB jv‡M|
73
mvgzw`ªK NywY© So I R‡jvPQv‡m eny †jvK gi‡jv, enz mgcÕ` bó n‡jv| Avgiv Aek¨
AÿZB AvwQ| MZ eb¨vqI cvqwb, Gev‡ii N~wY© S‡oI bq| †Kgb K‡i GKvKvi n‡q hvq
GB `ywbqvUv|
4/12-88: MZ K‡qK w`b Lye e¨¯Í wQjvg e‡Kqv B‡jKwUªK wej wb‡q| GKUy Av‡M wej
w`‡q Gjvg| `ywbqvi Sv‡gjv n‡Z gyKZÕ n‡Z cvijvg ‰K| Z‡e G‡Z †ue‡P AvwQ eySv hvq|
`ywbqv GL‡bv Avgv‡K Pvq| GL‡bv Avkv Av‡Q, AvKvOLv Av‡Q, GLb nvwm, GLb Kvuw`|
†Zvgiv nq‡Zv `yÕmcZvn c‡i †`‡ki w`‡K iIbv n‡e| ZLb nq‡Zv kxZ Av‡iv GKUz †ekx
co‡e | †Zvgv‡`i Avwg e‡jwQ kx‡Zi cvLx‡`i K_v, -†Zgb Amywe‡a n‡e bv| Z‡e GLb
†Zv Avgvi fvOv bxo| GB bx‡o †ekx w`b †KD _v‡K bv| Rv‡bv, Avgiv hLb kvnRvnvbcyi
wQjvg, eveb KeyZi cvj‡Zv| GK †Rvov KeyZi ‡`Iqv n‡qwQ‡jv wm`w`KevRvi| GKUv
bvwK weov‡j †g‡i †d‡jwQ‡jv| Ab¨Uv D‡o G‡mwQ‡jv †mB kvnRvnvbcy‡i| ZLb wKbZz
KeyZ‡ii †Lvc Lvwj| ‡mB KeyZiwU Avi †Lv‡c XyK‡jv bv| K‡qK w`b G N‡ii Pv‡j I
N‡ii Pv‡j e‡m †_‡K c‡i ‡Kv_vq Rvwb bv P‡j †M‡jv| ÒG‡jv bv Avi fvOv bx‡o|Ó
wcKz I ey`aÕi G‡m nq‡Zv gb wUK‡e bv| ej‡e, -ÒP‡jv, †`‡k hvB !Ó ej‡e, -ÒNi-evox
fv‡jv bv Avgvi|Ó Rv‡bv gxby, Gevi Avgvi mv‡_ Zgv †`‡k wM‡qwQ‡jv| GK ivZ †_‡KB
e‡j wKbv, -ÒXvKv P‡jv ! G‡Zv me ew¯Í !Ó XvKvI wcKz Avi ey`aÕi Kv‡Q ew¯Í e‡j g‡b
n‡e|
Ò‡nbKv‡j MM‡b‡Z DwV‡jb Puv`v
‡K‡ivwmb wkLv e‡j, -G‡mv †gvi `v`v !Ó
Gici wKQzw`b ‡evanq †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q wPwV wjL‡ev bv| †mw`b wjwji Kv‡Q cÖ_g wPwV
w`jvg| †Zvgiv Kv‡Q _vK‡j wK Avi wjLZvg ?
GLb ivwL gv | †Lv`v †h‡bv gsMj g‡Zv †Zvgv‡`i †`‡k †cuŠQvq !
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
74
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 31-10-88
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z nDK ! ‡Zvgiv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv, myL-kvbwZ I
wbivc‡` _v‡Kv ! Avjjvni `iev‡i GUvB kyay cÖv_©bv|
Avwg gv GLb‡Zv Avi wPwV wjL‡Z cvwibv, - wPwV wjLvi fvlv †h‡bv nvwi‡q †M‡Q| GK mgq
K‡Zv wKQy wjLZvg, c„ôvi ci c„ôv| Kx †h wjLZvg, Kx ‡h wjLvi wQ‡jv, GLb Zv g‡b c‡o
bv| Aek¨ wjLv †Zv Avi †eu‡P _v‡K bv| K_v †eu‡P _v‡K| hLb wjLv wQ‡jv bv, ZLbI K_v
wQ‡jv| mevB K_v e‡j, mevB wj‡L bv| me m„wóB K_v e‡j, Aek¨ mevB mevi K_v ey‡S
bv| wkkyiv ‡Zv ïay †n‡m Avi †Ku‡`B K_v e‡j| Aek¨ me K_vi g~j n‡jv nvmv Avi Kvu`v |
gv, G `ywbqvq Kvu`vUvB ‡eva nq mZ¨| ZvB wkky Rb‡gB Kvu‡`, -bv Kvu`‡j Aw¯’i n‡q hvB, ÒKvu‡` bv †K‡bv !Ó Kvu`vB wK Rxe‡bi jÿY ?
75
†Zvgiv Avm‡e K‡e ? Avwg Aek¨ w`b MzwY bv| w`bMyY‡Z fv‡jv jv‡M bv| g‡b Kwi GB‡Zv
‡mw`b †M‡j, nq‡Zv KvjB G‡m hv‡e ! mgq My‡b Avgvi Avi †Zvgv‡`i g‡a¨ e¨eavb Uvb‡Z
fv‡jv jv‡M bv| Rv‡bv gxby, nvk‡ii w`b bvwK gvby‡li g‡b n‡e `ywbqv‡Z †m G‡mwQ‡jv GK
cÖfvZ ev GK mba¨vi Rb¨| kZvqy †jv‡KivI ZvB g‡b Ki‡e|
wPwV wjL‡Z †M‡j †Zvgvi Lvjv e‡j Avwg bvwK †KvbÕ wPwV wjwL bv, wjwL hZ me evejvwb !
Aek¨ wPwVi Avmj K_vUv Avgvi ejv nq bv wVKB, GB ‡hgb, -Avgiv fv‡jv, †Zvgiv
†Kgb?
wKQyw`b Av‡M MbaÕivR MvQUvq †ek wKQz dzj n‡qwQ‡jv, - GLb bvB| nq‡Zv Avevi dzU‡e|
nq‡Zv †mw`b Avwg _vK‡ev bv, nq‡Zv †`L‡ev bv| †eu‡P _vK‡j Zzwg nq‡Zv †`L‡e, nq‡Zv
ej‡e, -ÒLvjy G MbaÕivR MvQwU‡K Lye fv‡jvevm‡Zv|Ó Ggwb K‡i gvbyl gi‡Yi c‡iI
wKQzKvj †eu‡P _v‡K|
‡Zvgiv Avm‡e A‡bK Kó K‡i Avm‡e| A‡bK UvKv-cqmv LiP n‡e `yÕw`‡bi Rb¨ ! Av‡jvi
†Quvqv cv‡e, -evZv‡mi MbaÕ Avi gvwUi gvqv|
†mB cyiv‡Yv Pjvi c‡_ †Pbv c‡_ Pj‡e, - gvwUi a~wjKYv ej‡e, - ÒG‡j ?Ó ggZv Rov‡bv
G gvwUi gvqv KvD‡K Qvo‡Z Pvq bv gv !
Rvwbbv †Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv| g‡b Kwi fv‡jvB Av‡Qv, bB‡j †h kvbwZ cvB bv| g‡b nq
†ek `ye©j n‡q †MwQ| †Kej kix‡ii w`K w`‡q bq, g‡bi w`K w`‡qI|
cÖvYXvjv ggZv w`‡q Avi ‡Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i A‡kl †`vqvb‡Z, AvR GLv‡b
ivwL| ‡mœ‡ni ey‡ov †Q‡j
76
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 16-2-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvni Amxg ingZ ‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci ewl©Z ‡nvK| †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, my‡L
kvbwZ‡Z, wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
‡Zvgvi I eve‡bi wPwV †cjvg, -ms‡M †cjvg wcKzi wjLv| †Zvgiv fv‡jv Av‡Qv kyb‡j Avwg
fv‡jv _vwK| Mv‡Qi KvYWÕUv Pvq Zvi kvLv-cÖkvLvMy‡jv wbivc‡` †e‡o DV‡jv wKbv, dz‡j
d‡j f‡i DV‡jv wKbv| Pb`Öbv‡_i Ò‰Kjvm Lz‡oviÓ K_v ‡Zvgvi g‡b c‡o ? wek¦ `vev
‡Ljvq wkkziv `~‡i P‡j ‡M‡j ey‡oviv †Kej nvi‡ZB _v‡K| gvbe iv‡R¨ wkkyivB nj gbÎx |
wKbZz ivRviv, gv‡b e‡oviv gbÎx‡`i K_v bv kyb‡j Kó ‡c‡Z nq| ivRviv ivR¨ nvivq|
GgbwK FwlivI G‡`i cvjjvq co‡j FwlZ¡ nvivq|
H †h nwiY kve‡Ki MjcÕUv Rv‡bv†Zv ? Sb&Sv weÿZ GK nwiY wkky GK gzwbi AvkÖ‡g
XzK‡jv| gzwb Zv‡K †mev hZbÕ K‡i my¯’¨ K‡i Zzj‡jv| Nvm-cvZv Zz‡j Zv‡K LvIqv‡jv|
77
nwiY wkkywU gzwbi mv‡_ †_‡K †_‡K w`‡b w`‡b e‡ov n‡q DV‡jv| Gw`K Iw`K P‡i ‡eov‡Z
jvM‡jv| Av‡¯Í Av‡¯Í `~‡i m‡i †h‡Z jvM‡jv| cÖ_g w`‡K Gw`K Iw`K P‡i wKQzÿY ciB
gzwbi Kv‡Q Qz‡U Avm‡Zv| wKQzw`b ci †Kej mba¨vi w`‡K Avm‡Zv| Avm‡Z †`ix n‡j gzwb
e‡bi av‡i wM‡q WvK‡Zv, -ÒAvq! Avq!Ó| GB Wv‡Ki kã †c‡jB †m Qy‡U Avm‡Zv| gzwb
Zvi gv_vq Mv‡q nvZ eywj‡q Av`i Ki‡Zv| Ae‡k‡l GKw`b nwiYwU Avi wd‡i G‡jv bv|
gywb cÖwZ mba¨vq e‡bi av‡i wM‡q WvK‡Zv, -ÒAvq! Avq!Ó| mviv eb cÖKÕgwúZÕ K‡i
cÖwZaŸwb ej‡Zv, -ÒAvq! Avq!Ó| wKbZz ‡KvbÕw`b ‡m nwiY kveKwU Avi wd‡i G‡jv bv|
gv‡S gv‡S Avgvi g‡b nq, -G gnv we‡k¦i †h‡bv GKwU wPiÕbZÕb myi, -ke`Õ, -ÒAvq !
Avq Kv‡Q Avq !Ó|
AvR †Zvgvi Aveevi g„Zz¨evl©xwK‡Z †`‡k †M‡Q †Zvgvi Avggv, ixYv, Avwid, ivwRqv, I
Ab¨vb¨iv| Gw`bwU GKvbZÕ NwblVÕ R‡bivB g‡b iv‡L| wKbZz K‡Zv eQi n‡jv ? Rxeb
gi‡Yi ‡gvU mgqUv g‡b Av‡Q| 1938 mv‡j ˆR¨lVÕ gv‡m Avgvi we‡q nq, ‡mw`b †_‡K
†Zvgvi Aveevi mv‡_ Avgvi cwiPq| ¯g„wZ‡Z Ave`yjjvn f~uBqvi w¯’wZ mg‡qi w`K w`‡q
†Zvgv‡`i †P‡q A‡bK †ekx| Zvi ˆkke ‡`wLwb, †hŠeb †`‡LwQ, eva©K¨ ‡`‡LwQ| Zvi nvwm
†`‡LwQ, Kvbbv †`‡LwQ| Zvi Pjv, ejv, gvwR©Z iywP, Ávbey`wa, mwnlbyZv, -G meMz‡jv Zuv‡K
K‡i †i‡LwQ‡jv Avgvi kÖ`‡aqÕ| ZvB 16B ‡deªyqvixB †Kej bq, cÖvqB Avwg Zv‡K ¯giY
Kwi| †Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv gv ? Rxe‡b ‡KvbÕ wKQzB eywS PvIqvi g‡Zv K‡i cvIqv hvq bv|
ZvB PvIqvq †kl bvB| GB AZ„cwZ wb‡qB gvbyl †eu‡P _v‡K, -P‡j hvq|
GLwb Avwm gv | ‡Zvgvi ez‡ov ‡Q‡j
78
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 7-3-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvnvi A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv my¯¨’ ‡`‡n, my‡L
kvbwZ‡Z, I wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
k‡ewgivR †M‡jv ciky w`b| KÕw`b Av‡M evsjv‡`‡k AvmvUv †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q †eva nq
wgiv‡Ri g‡ZvB g‡b n‡”Q| AjcÕ mg‡qi g‡a¨ K‡Zv RvqMvq †M‡j, K‡Zv wKQz †`L‡j|
K‡Zv wKQz Ki‡j| Ab¨ †Kv_vI hvevi Zvov _vK‡j mevB Ggwb ZvovZvwo me KvR AjcÕ
mg‡qi g‡a¨ †kl K‡i †dj‡Z Pvq| wKbZz gv, cicv‡i hvevi mgqUv A‡bK jgev K‡i
fvwe e‡j Avgv‡`i G‡Zv wX‡jgx Avi Avj‡mgx| ZvB m~h© †Wvevi c~e© mg‡qi bvgvRx, A_©vr
AvQi bvgv‡Ri Rb¨ ZvwM` †ekx|
79
Pvwiw`‡K †Kej gi‡Yi Lei cvB, -Kv‡iv eqm Rvbv Av‡Q, Kv‡iv bvB| g„Zz¨‡Zv eqm wnmve
K‡i Av‡m bv| wKbZz Kg eq‡m gviv †M‡j g‡b Kó nq gvby‡li, -e‡j Zvi A‡bK wKQz
KiYxq †i‡LB P‡j †M‡jv|
gvby‡li Rxe‡bi g~j¨vqY Kiv nq KvR w`‡q, -mgq w`‡q bq| Z‡e KvR ej‡Z Avgiv wK
eywS ? mevB GK iKg eywS bv| Z‡e GB emybaÕivUv†K Av‡iv myb`Õi, Av‡iv my‡Li K‡i
M‡o ‡Zvjvi †h mvabv, - †mUvB mwZ¨Kv‡ii KvR| wb‡Ri myb`Õi Aw¯ÍZ¡Uv‡K e¨vcKZÕi
K‡i ‡Zvjvq hw` cÖ‡Póv _v‡K, Z‡e Rxeb ¯^v_©K nq, myb`Õi nq| Pvwiw`‡K ew¯Í ‡i‡L
ga¨Lv‡b ZvRgÕnj M‡o myL bvB, -myb`Õi †`Lvq bv| ZvRgÕn‡ji i~c †e`bv gwjb n‡q
hvq| Avgvi g‡b nq myBwWmiv GB K_v fv‡jv ey‡S|
8-3-1989: AvMvgx w`b evox hvIqvi Avkv ivwL| †Zvgvi Avggv GL‡bv XvKvq wd‡iwb|
ixYv †`exØviB Av‡Q| nq‡Zv kxNÖB Avm‡e| eyey †eva nq ‡ivRvi c~‡e© Avm‡eb| XvKvq
Avgiv †gvUvgywU fv‡jvB AvwQ| gvqvi RvgvB-Gi Ae¯’v Av‡Mi g‡ZvB|
mvg‡bi MvQMy‡jv‡Z dzj †bB| †Kej K‡qKUv fzMb-wewjqv Av‡Q| Qv‡` †eva nq wKQz dzj
Av‡Q| wcKzi gkvZsK bvwK GL‡bv hvq wb| Z‡e miKvi gkv aŸs‡mi Rb¨ Kªvk ‡cÖvMÖvg
wb‡q‡Q, -Dci I bxP ‡_‡K GK†hv‡M Awfhvb Pvjv‡e| wcKz hLb Avevi Avm‡e, ZLb XvKv
kni _vK‡e gkv-k~b¨| miKvi eyS‡Z †c‡i‡Q GB me `yó gkv `gb bv Ki‡j wcKzi g‡Zv
we‡`kxiv G‡`‡k Avi Avm‡e bv| ZvB gkv gvivi GB gnv Av‡qvRb| Z‡e KxU-cZsM
iÿY mwgwZ hw` Avevi wb‡lavÁv K‡i e‡m, -Z‡e gykwKj |
ey`aÕi gywoi wUbUv GL‡bv Av‡Q, -GL‡bv Avgiv Pv‡qi ‡Uwe‡j gywo Av‡m| Z‡e gywoiv Avi
Pviw`‡K Qwo‡q wQwU‡q _v‡K bv| Qz‡uo †djv evwU Avi Sb Sb K‡i ‡Ku‡` D‡V bv| †fs‡M
†djvi AvZs‡K evmb-cÎ ev †cqvjv-wcixP Avi AvZswKZÕ _v‡K bv| me bxie| mKvj
†ejv emÕb‡Zi wmœMaÕ evZvm e‡j hvq, -ÒIiv †M‡jv †Kv_vq ?Ó
GLb Avwm gv | Avevi Avm‡ev| ‡Zvgvi ez‡ov ‡Q‡j
80
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 21-4-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvnvi A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my‡L, kvbwZ‡Z I
wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
GLb ‡ivRv, Zvi Dci cÖPÕYWÕ Mig| e„wó bvB | A‡bK w`b hveZ cÖLi ‡iŠ`Ö Luv Luv K‡i|
Z‡e mKvj †ejvUv wKQyÿY †ek Avivg`vqK| Avwg †ivR mKv‡j dRi bvgv‡Ri ci 15
†_‡K 20 wgwbU iv¯Ívq GKUz Ny‡i Avwm | iv¯Ívq ZLb †jvKRb ev Mvox, hvbevnb wKQzB
_v‡K bv| fv‡jvB jv‡M | gv‡S gv‡S ZgvI mv‡_ hvq|
GLb Avi dyj bvB| Qv‡` Av‡Q wKbv Rvwb bv| MbaÕivR MvQUvq K‡qK w`b Av‡M 3/4Uv
dzj n‡qwQ‡jv| Rvwb bv †K Pzwi K‡i w`‡q †M‡Q| Avevi `yÕUv dy‡U‡Q `yÕw`b hveZ, -†`wL,
MbaÕ bvB| MvQUv †Kgb †h‡bv `ywf©ÿ cxwoZÕ gvby‡li gZ Aveiy Qvov n‡q ‡M‡Q| nvo†Mvo
mvi †Quov-gwjY Kvco-civ gvby‡li gy‡Li nvwmi g‡Zv `yÕ‡Uv dzj dy‡U Av‡Q| KL‡bv KL‡bv
`yt‡Li g‡a¨I gvbyl nv‡m| wKbZz †m nvwm Kvbbvi †P‡qI †e`bv`vqK| dzj `yÕwU †h‡bv
g„Zz¨kh¨vq kvwqZv gv‡qi Avkxe©v` | GK ivk AkÖyKYv R‡g R‡g †hbÕ dzj n‡q dy‡U Av‡Q|
MvQUv‡K †`L‡j Avgvi Kó nq|
†Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv gv ? wcKz †Kgb Av‡Q ? ey`aÕ †Kgb Av‡Q ? fv‡jv Av‡Q wbkPÕq| Iiv
fv‡jv bv _vK‡j Avwg fv‡jv _vK‡ev Kx K‡i ! ey`aÕ nq‡Zv A‡bK wKQz fy‡j †M‡Q, -gywoi
wUb, -‡M‡Ui mvg‡bi iv¯ÍvUv| Gme wK Avi g‡b _v‡K ? Avgvi wK Av‡Q ? Kv‡iviB _v‡K
bv| ‡mœn-Av`Õ‡ii K_v Ggwb‡ZB ‡ekx g‡b _vK bv| Z‡e K‡ói K_v, gvi LvIqvi K_v
wKQy wKQy g‡b _v‡K|
81
evox, -†`‡ki evox wM‡qwQjvg GK w`‡bi Rb¨| evox‡Zv bq, wVKvbv| †mLv‡b wKQz bvB,
Av‡Q ¯g„wZ| evev wK Ki‡Zb, gv wK Ki‡Zb, fvB-†ev‡biv wK KiZvg| Gme ¯g„wZi GKUv
wVKvbv| myL-`ytL, nvwm-Kvbbv Rov‡bv GKwU ¯g„wZi wVKvbv| cyKziUv kywK‡q ‡M‡Q,- eb¨vi
mgq cvoI Wz‡e wM‡qwQ‡jv| Avevi dwiqv` D‡V‡Q, -ÒAvjjvn ‡gN †`, cvwb †` ! Ó
bwb Avmvi K_v wQ‡jv †ivRv kyiy nIqvi Av‡M| Zvici †ivRvi 8 ZvwiL| Av‡mwb| Avm‡Z
cv‡iwb| GLb ej‡Q Avm‡e †ivRvi C‡`i Av‡iv gvm Lv‡bK ci| BP‡Q Ki‡jB wK gvbyl
me wKQz Ki‡Z cv‡i ? Gevi cÖmZzZ n‡qB RvnvR †_‡K †b‡gwQ‡jv| †b‡gB kyb‡jv Zvi
Reliever-Gi gvgm n‡q‡Q| †di Zv‡K Rvnv‡R DV‡Z n‡jv| †dvb K‡i Rvbv‡jv
Avgv‡`i‡K| KYVÕ¯^‡iB eySv ‡M‡jv g‡bi Ae¯’v fv‡jv bv| A‡bK w`b †_‡KB GB w`bwUi
Rb¨ A‡cÿv K‡iwQ‡jv wKbv ZvB|
†Zvgiv†Zv G‡m K‡qK w`b †_‡K P‡j †M‡j| ¯^c‡Yi g‡Zv nq‡Zv GLb g‡b nP‡Q| Z‡e
`ywbqvi mg‡qi Kg ‡ekx wb‡q ‡Zgb Av‡m hvq bv| gnvKwe evqib, ‡kjx, KxUm ‡ekx w`b
†eu‡P _v‡Kbwb, -wΆki E‡a© †KD evu‡Pwb| Avgv‡`i bRiyj Av‡iv A‡bK Av‡M g‡i †M‡jB
fv‡jv wQ‡jv bv ? mgq hZÕUzKBz ‡nvK, †m KZÕUyKz AvbÕb`Õ w`‡jv, ‡mUvB e‡ov K_v|
†Zvgiv K‡ZvUyKz †c‡q †M‡j gv ? GLb ivwL gv| †Zvgvi Lvjv nq‡Zv A‡bK wKQyB wjL‡e|
‡Zvgvi ez‡ov ‡Q‡j
82
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXVI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 8-5-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni ingZ ewl©Z nDK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv, my‡L, kvbwZ‡Z, AvbÕb‡`
I wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
C` ‡M‡jv| cÖwZ eQi C` Av‡m, -C` hvq| G‡Zv C` bq, C` C` †Ljv| e‡ov‡`i me †jLv
gvbvq bv| ZvB GB C‡`i †Ljv gvbvq fv‡jv| gv‡ZI †ekx| Avgvi C`†Zv Qwo‡q Av‡Q
wek¦Ry‡o| Avgvi C` wmsMvcy‡i, Al‡Uªwjqvq, myB‡W‡b, jYWÕ‡b|
evsjv‡`‡k‡Zv kyay evsjv‡`kxiv C` K‡i| Aek¨ wfb‡`kxI Av‡Q, wKbZz msL¨vq Lye Kg|
†Zvgv‡`i †`‡k‡Zv enz†`kx wg‡j C` K‡i| evMv‡b iO †ei‡Oi Gi dz‡ji g‡Zv bvbvb
†`‡ki gvbylMy‡jv kvwgj nq C‡`i Rvgv‡Z|
Z‡e ILv‡b wfÿvi cvÎ nv‡Z wb‡q C‡`i Rvgv‡Zi cv‡k `vuwo‡q _v‡K bv evsjv‡`‡ki g‡Zv
AmsL¨ gvbyl| RvKv‡Zi Kvc‡oi Rb¨ nzovnzwo K‡i wcó n‡q g‡i bv nvWwWmvi `wi`ª
†g‡qgvbyl| Ime †`‡k Ggb Kiyb n‡q D‡V bv C‡`i Puv` | C‡`i w`‡b Ggb K‡i Kuv‡` bv
Ime †`‡k bZzb †cvkv‡Ki Rb¨ †QvUÕ †QvUÕ AMwbZ wkky, -hv‡`i †KD C`-KviW †`q bv,
C` †gveviK Rvbvq bv| abxiv C`-Kvi‡Wi wcQ‡b †h cqmv LiP K‡i, IB cqmv w`‡q
K‡qKwU wkky‡K bZzb Kvco †`Iqv †h‡Zv|
Avwg †h w`b _vK‡ev bv, ‡m w`b †KvbÕ GK C‡` K‡qKwU e¯¿nxb `wi`ª wkky‡K bZzb †cvlv‡K
mvwR‡q w`‡qv ! Avwg †mLv‡b _vK‡ev | †mLv‡b Avwg ey`aÕ‡K I wcKz‡K †`L‡ev|
†Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
83
gnv‡dR cvZv -36KLMNOP
84
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXVII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 20-5-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvn ZÕvjvi A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, my‡LkvwšÍ‡Z, wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
Avjjvn‡K mevB Wv‡K, -we‡kl K‡i wec‡` co‡j| my‡Li mgq fy‡j hvq| wKbZz Avjjjvn
fz‡j bv| †hgb K‡i gv fz‡j bv mbZv‡bi K_v| Aek¨ †QvUUÕ _vK‡Z mbZv‡bivI gv‡K
fy‡j bv| my‡L-`yt‡L, -gv, gv, gv, gv ! gv webv Avi KvD‡K Rv‡b bv| wKbZz mbZv‡biv hw`
gv‡K fz‡j _v‡K, -gvi Lye Kó nq| ej‡Z cv‡iv Avwg†Zv wcZv, -gv‡qi g‡bi `ytLUv †Kgb
K‡i eySjvg ! AvwgI†Zv eyS‡Z cvwi bv| Z‡e g‡b nq †QvUÕ †ejv ‡_‡K gv Ges gvZ…RvwZi
KvQ †_‡K †ekx †ekx †mœn-ggZv †c‡q gbUv Avgvi gvZ…gq n‡q ‡M‡Q| †h mbZvb Rxe‡b
†ekx Kó cvq, †m gv‡qi GKvbZÕ NwblVÕ nq| `ytLUv gv‡qi GKvbZÕ `i`x evbaÕex| Kó,
AwZ Kó ev‡ci bvg fyjvq, wKbZz gv‡qi bvg ¯giY Kivq| Avgiv Ògv, gv !Ó e‡j nvwm bv,
Ògv, gv !Ó e‡j Kuvw`| AvNvZ †c‡j hw`I †Lv`vi bvg jIqvi weavb, wKbZz Avgiv weavb
fsM K‡i Ògv, gv !Ó e‡j PxrKvi K‡i DwV|
Z‡e Avjjvni K_v ej‡Z wM‡q gv‡qi cÖmsM †U‡b AvbvUv †evanq wVK n‡jv bv| Z‡e
Avjjvni wcÖq imyj gv_vq cvMox w`‡q `ya-gv nvwjgvi Rb¨ Avmb ˆZix K‡iwQ‡jb| Avgvi
wek¦vm Avjjvni c‡i ‡h AvmbwU †mUv gv‡qi Rb¨ msiwÿZÕ| nvk‡ii w`b gvbyl†K Avjjvn
gv‡qi bv‡gB WvK‡e| Rbbx, Rvqv, Kb¨v, gv‡qiB wewfbbÕ i~c wb‡q GB emybaÕivi
gvZ…i~c|
85
Gevi MbaÕivR MvQUvq A‡bK dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv, GL‡bv dz‡U| ‡KbÕ Avevi GZ dzj dzU‡jv !
MvQUv wKQz Aveiy-Qvov n‡q †M‡Q| cvZvi evnvi †bB, -Av‡Q dzj| GB †h‡bv GK gvZ…i~c|
dzj dz‡U, ‡KvbÕUv ev kywK‡q S‡i hvq, †KvbÕUv ev †KD wQu‡o wb‡q hvq| MvQUv Kuv‡`| Avwg
Kvb ‡c‡Z Zvi Kvbbv kzwb| Avevi dzj dz‡U, -Avevi Zvi AkÖygvLv gy‡L gwjb nvwm dz‡U|
gv‡qi gy‡Li nvwm‡Zv AkÖyi gZB wmœMaÕ-myb`Õi|
wcKzi Rb¨ Mv‡bi †K‡mU cvVvjvg| evsjv‡`‡ki Mvb, -me `ytL †e`bvi Mvb| Z‡e mvbZÕbv
GB †h Shelly e‡j‡Qb, -ÓOur sweetest songs are those that tell saddest
thought !Ó
MvbMy‡jv †Kgb jvM‡jv wcKz‡K wjL‡Z e‡jv !
†Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K nq‡Zv Avi †Kvbw`b GK mv‡_ †`L‡ev bv| Z‡e GRb¨ Avgvi †KvbÕ
Avd‡mvQ _vK‡e bv| cvIqvi †P‡q PvIqvi AvbÕb`ÕUvB †ekx myb`Õi| bwb nq‡Zv GB
gv‡mi 27/28 Zvs ‡`‡k wdi‡Z cv‡i, -hw` Avjjvni nzKzg nq| Gi Av‡M‡Zv Av‡iv
K‡qKevi ZvwiL w`‡qwQ‡jv|
gvqvi RvgvB-Gi Ae¯’v Av‡Mi g‡ZvB Av‡Q| †Zvgvi Avggv I ixYv GL‡bv XvKvq wd‡iwb|
ciky †Zvgvi Lvjv I wkwi Avwi‡di evmvq wM‡qwQ‡jv| Iiv Av‡Q fv‡jvB| ky‡bwQ ikx` I
†i‡eKv bvwK nRRÕ Ki‡Z hvP‡Q| Ave`yi ingvb f~Tvi wZb Kb¨v nvRx, hw`I †Q‡jiv
†KD nvRx n‡Z cvi‡jv bv|
GLb ivwL gv | ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
86
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXVIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 12-6-1989
Kj¨vbxqv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK| †Zvgiv mevB ‡h‡bv my¯¨’ ‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ‡Z,
I wbivc‡` _v‡Kv|
wcKzi wcÖq Mv‡bi mv‡_ AvgviI K‡qKwU cQÕb‡`i Mvb Ry‡o w`‡qwQjvg| †Kgb jvM‡jv
Zvi ? ey`aÕ wK Mvb kyb‡Z cQÕb`Õ K‡i ? Mvb Avi Mv‡b K_v ejv| g‡bi K_vUv‡K myi
w`‡q ejvi bvg Mvb| wKbZz myb`Õ‡ii i~c ‡h Aky|Ö gvbyl my‡LI Mvb Mvq, -`yt‡LI Mvb Mvq|
gvby‡li myL-`ty‡Li Abyf~wZ AšÍ‡i †h †XD †Zv‡j, ZvB myi Qb‡` ke`vwqZÕ n‡q i~c †bq
Mv‡b| `ywbqvi me gvbylB Kg ‡ekx Mvb Mvq, -hw`I ivM-ivwMbx mgeÕb‡a A‡b‡KB wKQz
Rv‡b bv| kybvevi Rb¨ bq, ¯ÍywZi Rb¨ bq, GKvbZÕ wb‡Ri g‡bi Av‡e‡M| Kg©gq wek¦Uv
Qb`Õgq Mv‡bi Zv‡j Zv‡j, my‡i my‡i| Rx‡ei RxebUvI ZvB i~c I my‡ii Qb‡` eb`x|
Qb`Õ cZb n‡jB Avgiv gwi| ey‡Ki Kv‡Q Kvb cvZ‡j kyb‡Z cv‡e wK myi ev‡R|
MZKvj eve‡bi wPwV †cjvg, `yÕwU Qwe mn| GKwU Qwe‡Z Avwg GKv, Avi GKwU‡Z †Zvgvi
`yB gvgv, gv I Lvjv| Qwei GKUv myweav Av‡Q| KvQvKvwQ _vK‡jI gvivgvwi K‡i bv|
Avgiv †Zv KL‡bv gvivgvwii Qwe Zzwj bv| Qwe‡Z †hgb _vwK me mgq †ZgbwU _vK‡Z
cvi‡j KZÕB bv my‡Li n‡Zv ! Avgiv hLb _vK‡ev bv, QweMy‡jv nq‡Zv _vK‡e| Avgv‡`i
fwelr eska‡iiv †`‡L ej‡e †h Avgiv K‡ZvB fv‡jv gvbyl wQjvg| fv‡jv wRwbmUvB gvbyl
msiÿY K‡i, LvivcUv bq| Zey †K‡bv †h gvbyl Lvivc KvR K‡i| mevB†Zv ‡PnvivUv‡K
myb`Õi ivL‡Z Pvq, -wb‡R‡K myb`Õi †`Lv‡Z Pvq, Z‡e †K‡bv gbUv‡K myb`Õi K‡i bv, Mv‡b Mv‡b gbUv f‡i iv‡L bv ? Avgiv mevB Mvb MvB‡Z bv cvi‡jI kyb‡Z fvjevwm|
87
‡Zvgvi Kv‡Q w`b `y-GK Av‡M GKUv wPwV wj‡LwQjvg| wPwVUv KvUvKvwU n‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv|
ZvB Avevi wjLwQ| Avgvi wPwV‡Z‡Zv coevi g‡Zv wKQz _v‡K bv| _v‡K h‡Zv ev‡R K_v|
†Zvgv‡`i hvIqvi ci GB wKQzw`b Av‡M `ywU MbaÕivR Mv‡Q A‡bK dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv| GK
ms‡M G‡Zv dzj Avi ‡KvbÕw`b dz‡Uwb| wKbZz GLb GKUv dzjI bvB| wiKZv `Õy‡Uv MvQ |
GLb †`L‡j wK g‡b n‡e †h GB wKQzw`b Av‡MI MvQ `zwU dy‡j dz‡j fiv wQ‡jv ? †_vKv
†_vKv dzj, bqb RzovbÕ i~c| wK n‡e i~‡c, -MbaÕ bvB †h ! ZeyI mevB myb`Õi| dz‡jiv
mevB myb`Õi, -gv‡qiv mevB myb`Õi| hvnv myb`Õi, ZvnvB mZ¨|
eyey I ixYv GL‡bv †`‡kB Av‡Qb| eyey †`‡k _vK‡ZB cQb`Õ K‡ib| hw`I †`‡k Av‡Mi
g‡Zv LvIqv-`vIqvi myweav bvB| MvQ-MvQvwj, DbgyKZÕ AvKvk-evZvm GL‡bv Av‡Q| Av‡Q
nq‡Zv ˆkk‡ei ¯g„wZ weRwoZ wKQz mvÿx| cv‡qi wPnYÕ gy‡Q †M‡jI Av‡Q wcÖqRb‡`i w`biv‡Zi Pjvi c_wU|
†Zvgiv‡Zv G‡mwQ‡j AjcÕ KÕw`‡bi Rb¨| †Zvgv‡`i nq‡Zv g‡b Avc‡mvQ, -Avgv‡`iI|
Avi KÕUv w`b †_‡K †M‡j nq‡Zv fv‡jv jvM‡Zv| wKbZz me mgq _vK‡jB wK fv‡jv jv‡M ?
†`Ibv-cvIbvi wnmv‡ei cvjjvq co‡j Avi fv‡jv jv‡M bv| fv‡Zi _vjv Avi dz‡ji Wvjv
`yÕ‡Uvi GKUv †e‡Q wb‡Z nq| `ywbqv e‡ov wewPÎ gv|
Avgvi wcKz Avi ey×i Rb¨ iB‡jv dzj| c~wY©gvi Puv`Uv †h‡bv †KvbÕw`b †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q †muKv
iywUi g‡Zv g‡b bv nq ! GB †`vqv K‡i AvR Kjg ivLwQ| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
88
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XXXIX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 25-6-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn ‡Zvgv‡`i Dci ‡h‡bv mbZzó _v‡Kb| †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, my‡L, kvbwZ‡Z, I
wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
gv, RxebUv‡K mevB GKB `„wó†Kvb †_‡K †`‡L bv| †Kv_vq †h ¯^v_©KZv Avi †Kv_vq †h
e¨_©Zv, -mevi wePv‡i Zv GK bq| †KD †fs‡M AvbÕb`Õ cvq, †KD M‡o AvbÕb`Õ cvq |
AvbÕb`ÕUv ZvB hvi hv e„Z‡Z| Qzu‡o †djv evwUUv Sb Sb ke‡` †fs‡M †M‡j ey`aÕi
AvbÕb`Õ, Avi †fs‡M †M‡jv e‡j †Zvgvi Kó| wn‡ivkxgv‡Z GUg ‡evgv †d‡j Av‡gwiKvb
‰egvwbKwU bvwK AvbÕb`Õ K‡iwQ‡jv !
GL‡bv wK hy`‡a nvRvi nvRvi gvbyl g‡iI †g‡i hy`aÕ ‡RZvi AvbÕb`Õ K‡i bv ? Avgiv wK
G‡`i wkky ej‡ev, bv cvMj ? Z‡e wK `ywbqvi me gvbylB nq wkky, -bv nq cvMj| GB†Zv
mvg‡b C` Avm‡Q| nvRvi nvRvi cky nZ¨v K‡i Avgiv Avbvb`Õ Ki‡ev| gKKvi giy
cÖvbZÕi jv‡j jvj n‡q hv‡e nvRvi nvRvi wblúvc ckyi Ly‡b, -G ‡h‡bv nvRvi nvRvi
89
†nv‡m‡bi iKZÕ| Avwg †h‡bv GK Amnvq Rqbvj Av‡ew`b ! GKvKx mba¨vi iKZvKZÕ
AvKvkUvi w`‡K †P‡q _vwK| nvZ‡o LuywR ey`aÕ †Kv_vq ? G‡mv bv fvB nvZ Zz‡j ewj, Òÿgv K‡iv cÖ‡fv! Ó
gv‡Mv, wKQzw`b Av‡M MbaÕivR MvQ `yÕ‡Uv‡ZB A‡bK dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv| G‡Zv dzj Avi G Mv‡Q
KL‡bv †`wLwb| Avgvi GKwU Avc‡QvQ wQ‡jv| G `ÕywU Mv‡Q †Kvbw`bB `y-wZbwUi †ekx dzj
dzU‡Zv bv| Gevi ‡K‡bv GK ms‡M G‡ZvMy‡jv dzj dzU‡jv ? GLb Avevi A‡bK w`b n‡jv
GKUv dzjI dzU‡Q bv| ej‡Q †h‡bv, -hv wQ‡jv GKev‡iB †Zv w`‡q w`jvgÓ| wKbZz GKev‡i
†Zv †KD me Pvq bv| mviv Rxeb f‡i w`‡Z Pvq, -‡c‡Z Pvq| GKev‡i bq, -ev‡i ev‡i|
†Zvgvi gv †`k †_‡K XvKv G‡m‡Qb, -kybjvg †mw`b| hv‡ev GKw`b| gvqvi RvgvB gviv
†M‡Q| A‡b‡K †m evox‡Z †M‡Q| Rxe``Õkvq hviv †m evoxwU wPb‡Zv bv, -gi‡Yi ci
A‡b‡K Zviv wP‡b‡Q| †Zvgvi †QvUÕ gvgv-gvgxivI †M‡Q| GK mgq giYI †Kgb GK
Avkxe©v` n‡q Av‡m| wewPÎ G `ywbqv wewPÎ gvby‡li gb|
wcKz‡K †K‡mU w`jvg, -cQÕb`Õ n‡jv wKbv ej‡jv bv †Zv| GLb MbaÕivR Mv‡Q dzj bv
_vK‡jI mzmzb`v I mzb`Õi †Pix Av‡Q| †KvbÕ †KvbÕ †g‡q Pzwi K‡i dzj wb‡q hvq, -†Zvgvi
AvwRgcy‡ii LvjvI| †KvbÕ ‡KvbÕ ey‡ov gvbylI dzj Pzwi K‡i I Wvj fvs‡M| Avgvi wKbZz
Kó nq| dzj †Quov Avwg †gv‡UB cQÕb`Õ Kwi bv| ZvB GB dz‡ji †Zvov, gvjv, hv dzj wQu‡o
Kiv nq, -Zv Avgvi Kv‡Q fv‡jv jv‡M bv| ZvB e‡j mevB †Zv Avi Avgvi g‡Zv †evKv bq|
ey`aÕi g‡ZvI bq| wcKz Avi ey`aÕ gvivgvwi K‡i bvwK ? †Q‡j †g‡q gvivgvwi Ki‡j
‡g‡qivB gvi Lvq ‡ekx| Aek¨ KL‡bv KL‡bv †Q‡jivI Lvq, -†hgb Avwg †L‡qwQ|
A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ Rvnx`‡K ‡`wL bv| Rvnx`‡K A‡bK w`b bv †`L‡j Av‡M Avgvi Lvivc
jvM‡Zv| GLb‡Zv Avi †`Lvi Dcvq †bB, -Avi †KvbÕw`b †`L‡ev wK bv, ZvI Rvwb bv|
A‡bK wKQz eKjvg gv, -ev‡RK_v| gv‡q‡`i Kv‡Q wkky‡`i ev‡R K_v bvwK fv‡jv jv‡M !
GLb Avwm gv, †Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
90
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XL
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 6-7-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvnvi A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! ‡h‡bv †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, my‡LkvbwZ‡Z, AvbÕb‡` I wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
C‡`i Pvu` D‡V‡Q, ‡Zvgv‡`i ILv‡b nq‡Zv D‡V‡Q| Zey `yÕ†`‡ki Pvu` †`L‡Z GK iKg
n‡jI ei‡Yi cÖ‡f` Av‡Q| Avgv‡`i †`‡k‡Zv ‡KvievYxi C‡`i ci iv¯Ívq †ei nIqv hvq bv
`zM©b‡ai Rb¨| Kx GK exfrm i~c GB C‡`i| AvaywbK iywPi gvbyl †Zvgiv| GUv wbkPÕqB
cQÕb`Õ Ki‡e bv Rvwb| evsjv‡`‡ki g‡Zv ‡KvievYxi bv‡g G‡Zv ckynZ¨v Ab¨ ‡`‡k nq wK
bv Rvwb bv| Z‡e Avkvi K_v GB †h hw`I ag©xq weav‡b myb`Õi mej n…ó-cyó cky ‡KvievYxi
K_v, -Avgv‡`i †`‡k kZKiv 95 fvM ‡KvievYxi MiyB eyov I A‡K‡Rv| evKx 5 fv‡Mi
g‡a¨ 3 fvM PjbmB| Avi 2 fvM bvg †Kbvi Rb¨| icZvbx †hvM¨ Pvgovi †gvUv AskUv GB
KzievYxi cky †_‡K Av‡m| Z‡e G‡Z ‡QvIqve ej‡Z hv eywS, Zv Lye KgB nq | Ab¨w`‡K
mevi mv‡_ Zvj wgjv‡Z wM‡q Mix‡eiv Avw_©K msK‡U c‡o| Gi †Ri KvUv‡Z A‡bK w`b
jv‡M| WxcdxRª-Iqvjv abxiv ÿwZUv †gvUvgywU cywl‡q wb‡Z cv‡i|
nRiZ Beªvnx‡gi mgq †eva nq bi-ewj cÖPwjZ wQ‡jv| Zvi mgqB †`eZv (Avjjvn) `qvi
ciek n‡q gvby‡li cwie‡Z© ckyewj MÖnY Ki‡Z ivwR nb| GUv fv‡jvB n‡qwQ‡jv| Z‡e hw`
GB ewj ev ‡KvievYxi ckyi †Mv¯Í ‡KvievYxi `vZvi Rb¨ nvjvj bv n‡Zv, Z‡e G‡Zv cky
‡e‡Nv‡i gviv co‡Zv bv| Aek¨ gvbyl ‡MvkZ LvIqvi GKUv bv GKUv ‡diKv ‡ei Ki‡Zv|
Avm‡j GB ‡KvievYx wek¦ ‡Rvov gymjgvb‡`i †Mv¯Í LvIqvi GK g‡nvrme| Aek¨ Pvgovi
cqmvi wKQzUv Ask Mixe‡`i fv‡M¨ †Rv‡U| cuPv `zM©b‡ai g‡a¨ GUv GKwU mvbZÕbv ‰ewK !
91
gvbyl gvsmvkx bv n‡jI Aw` hyM ‡_‡K gvbyl gvsm†Lvi| cÖ_‡g e‡b RsM‡j cky ‡g‡i KuvPv
gvsm †L‡Zv| Z‡e gvbyl ïay gvsm †L‡q euvP‡Zv bv, -cÖavb Lv`¨ wQ‡jv dj-g~j jZv-cvZv|
gvsmvkx cÖvYxi †`Lv‡`wL Zviv gvsm †L‡Z wk†L| Zvici †_‡K P‡j gvsm‡K my¯^v`y Kivi
M‡elbv, Zv Av‡Rv Pj‡Q| gvsm‡Zv Avm‡j GKUv wekÖx MbaÕhyKZÕ Lv`¨| †`L‡Qv bv KuvPv
gvsm †_‡K †Kgb GKUv †fvrZv MbaÕ Av‡m| †QvUÕ †ejvq Avgvi Miyi gvsm fv‡jv jvM‡Zv
bv,- QvM‡ji gvsm†Zv †gv‡UB bv| gvs‡mi wbR¯^ †Kvb ¯^v` bvB, -Zv‡K ¯^v` Kiv nq, -myMvi
†K‡UU wc‡ji gZ Avi wK ! G Aek¨ Avgvi wbR¯^ iywP I g‡Zi K_v ejwQ|
hvK, ‡KvievYxi K_v ej‡Z wM‡q A‡bK K_vB ejjvg| A‡b‡K e‡j ‡KvievYxi †Mv¯Í bvwK
‡L‡Z ‡ekx ¯^v`| bwbI e‡j| Z‡e ‡KvievYxi ivbbv Kiv gvsm ‡Zvgv‡`i cvVv‡Z cvi‡ev
bv| †`‡k ivbbv Kiv ‡KvievYxi †Mv¯Í †Zvgiv A‡bK eQi a‡i LvI bv| †Zvgv‡`i Avc‡mvQ
jvM‡jI wcKz ey`aÕ‡`i jvM‡e bv| Avi †KvbÕw`b G‡m †L‡Z †c‡jI cQÕb`Õ Ki‡e bv|
†`‡k ‡`‡k, Kv‡j Kv‡j, ¯^v` I iywPi K‡Zv cv_©K¨ ! GK mgq d«vb‡mi †g‡qiv `voxIqvjv
¯^vgxi Rb¨ Kvu`‡Zv, -GLb ¯^vgx‡K f~uwoIqvjv †`L‡j Lykx nq| Avwd«Kvi †KvbÕ †KvbÕ †`‡k
weivU wbZÕgeÕ AwaKvwibx †g‡qiv ‡mŠb`©h-†kªlVv !
eyey GLb XvKvq Av‡Qb, -hv‡ev GKw`b †`L‡Z| K‡Zv †jvK nR‡R †M‡jv, - ‡ejvU
A‡ejwU! GB GK AvRe ‡`k| wgbvi nv‡U gvbyl Avi cky‡Z ‡Kvb cÖ‡f` bvB| Z‡e GB
gvbyl ckyi hy`‡a ckyMywj me g‡i hvq, Avi gvbylMywj †eu‡P _v‡K| Z‡e cªPÕYWÕ DZZv‡c
wKQz wKQz Kg†Rvix gvbylI g‡i|
‡Zvgv‡`i mK‡ji Kzkj Kvgbv K‡i GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
92
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 20-7-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn ‡Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb ! †Zvgiv my¯¨’ ‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ‡Z, AvbÕb‡` I wbivc‡`
_v‡Kv !
Rv‡bv gv, MZÕKvj mba¨vi Av‡M ‡`wL GKUv Mixe †g‡q†jvK evoxi †M‡Ui mvg‡b| Zvi
7/8 eQ‡ii GKUv †Q‡j nvwi‡q †M‡Q G gv‡mi 10Zvwi‡L| †Q‡jwUi ci‡b bvwK wQ‡jv
GKwU nvd-c¨vYU| †m c‡_ c‡_ Ny‡i †Q‡jwU‡K †Luv‡R| hv‡K g‡b nq mbavb †`Iqvi
†hvM¨Zv Av‡Q, Zvi Kv‡Q wM‡q `uvovq,-Kuv‡`| Avgvi Kv‡Q Av‡mwb, bwbi mvg‡b
`vuwo‡qwQ‡jv Zvi †Q‡ji K_v ej‡Z| AvwgI Kv‡Q GwM‡q wM‡q kybjvg| †Q‡jwU wb‡Ri bvg
ej‡Z cv‡i, -bvg †di‡‡`Šm, -evevi bvg, MÖv‡gi bvgI ej‡Z cv‡i| Le‡ii KvMRIjviv
e‡j‡Q d‡Uv bv w`‡j †ccv‡i w`‡q we‡kl jvf n‡e bv| GB Ògnvwe‡k¦ wKQz bv nviv‡jIÓ,
†Q‡jwU Zvi gv‡qi KvQ †_‡K nq‡Zv wPiÕZ‡i nvwi‡q †M‡Q|
Avi GKwU NUbv| Avgv‡`i evoxi cÖwZ‡ekx †iRv evox Ki‡Q| iv¯Ívq cvwbi nvDm K‡i‡Q, ‡KvbÕ XvKbv wQ‡jv bv| Zvi evmvq KvR K‡i GK †g‡q†jvK| †Q‡j mv‡_ wb‡q Kv‡R †M‡j
gvwjK cQÕb`Õ K‡i bv| ¯^vgx fvZ †`q bv| †Q‡jUv‡K Ab¨vb¨ iv¯Ívi †Q‡j‡`i mv‡_ †Lj‡Z
w`‡q P‡j wM‡qwQ‡jv Kv‡R| wd‡i G‡m †LuvR †c‡jv bv| ‡k‡l †`Lv †M‡jv †Q‡jwU †iRvi
nvD‡R c‡o g‡i Av‡Q| †iRv Lye fv‡jv gvbyl, -†Q‡ji gv‡K mvZ nvRvi UvKv w`‡q‡Q| gvUvi bwQe fv‡jv| LeÕi †c‡q -†Q‡jwUi evc G‡m Zvi gv‡K wb‡q †M‡Q| UvKvUv w`‡q wiKkv
wK‡b GLb fv‡jvB Av‡Q| †Q‡jwU K‡Zv fv‡jv ! bwmeI fv‡jv ! fv‡jv RvqMvq g‡i wM‡q
gv‡K evmvi KvR †_‡K gyKwZ w`‡q‡Q, -wb‡RI gyKwZ †c‡q‡Q|
93
AvR‡K †Zvgvq kyay ev‡R K_v ej‡ev| MZKvj GKUv Kv‡Ri †g‡q, bq ev `k eQi eqm
n‡e, G‡mwQ‡jv Avgv‡`i evmvq Kv‡Ri Rb¨|
Av‡Mi evmvq bvwK KvR Ki‡Z Zvi Lye †ekx Kó nq| Av‡Mi evmvq ¯^vgx-¯¿x Df‡q G‡m
†g‡qwU‡K a‡i wb‡q hvq| GKwU †jvKI cÖwZev` Ki‡Z GMy‡jv bv| Avgv‡`i AvDqvjUv
wKbZz fvix †envqv, -G‡Zv eKvSKvi c‡iI †m †h‡Z Pvq bv| ev‡Ni mv‡_ †PvLv†PvwL n‡j
bvwK wkKvi Avi cvjv‡Z cv‡i bv|
GKUv mZ¨ g‡b ‡i‡Lv gv| G RM‡Zi †KvbÕ cÖvYx wb‡Ri PvB‡Z ‡ekx Avi KvD‡K
fv‡jvev‡m bv| Z‡e me©†kÖlVÕ m„wóag©x cÖvYx gvbyl,- Avcb m„wóUv‡K msiÿ‡Yi Rb¨ Avcb
mZZvUv‡K GKUv e„nÕZZÕi e„Z‡Zi g‡a¨ AvM‡j ivL‡Z Pvq wKQz Kv‡ji Rb¨| GB e„ZZÕ
Zvi ¯^vgx/¯¿x, -bi-bvix MwVZÕ GKwU ejq| G e„Z‡Z _v‡K eq‡mi GKwU wbw`©ó mgq
ch©bZÕ, -mbZvb-mbZÕwZiv| wcZv-gvZv ‡MŠYÕ n‡q hvq Kv‡ji Av‡gvN weav‡b| GK mgq
¯^vgx-¯¿xiv, -hv ev¯Íe Zv mZ¨ bq| mZ¨†K Avgiv A¯^xKvi Kwi e‡jB `ytL cvB| `ytLUv
gvby‡li m„ó| wejvmx †`eZvKzj‡K weZvwoZ K‡i gwnlvmyi ¯^M©ivR¨ `Lj K‡i wb‡jv| me
†`eZv Kz‡cvKvr| n‡jv AvbÕb`Õgqxi Avwef©ve| AvbÕb`Õgqxi PiYZ‡j gwnlvmyi AvZg&mgc©Y K‡i Zvi fKZÕ‡`i c~Rvq Askx`vi n‡q iBjÕ| AvbÕb`ÕgÕxi ¯^vgx wKbZz †cÖZcyixi
ivRv gnv‡`e, †h evmyKxi KvjK~U KY‡V aviY K‡i bxj-KYVÕ n‡q Av‡Q|
‡KvievYxi †Mv¯Í Kzov‡bv evPPv‡`i wgwQ‡j †Zvgvi wcKz ey`&aÕ‡K mvwgj K‡i w`‡q †hw`b
AvbÕb`Õ cv‡e, †mw`b eyS‡Z cvi‡e Zzwg mZ¨‡K Lyu‡R †c‡q‡Qv| m‡Z¨i i~c AvbÕb‡`i i~c|
Avi †hLv‡b AvbÕb`Õ, †mLv‡b †Lv`v|
-†Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
94
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLII
(Bqv ie)
(25-7-1989)
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
wPwVUv †cvó Ki‡Z †`ix n‡q †M‡jv| ZvB LvgUv wQu‡o †d‡j w`‡q Av‡iv wKQz wjLwQ|
MZÕKvj Zgvi gymjgvbxi Drme n‡q †M‡jv| A‡b‡K G‡m‡Q, Avevi A‡b‡K Av‡mwb| †KD
BP‡Q K‡iB Av‡mwb, ‡KD Avm‡Z cv‡iwb, - ‡hgb ‡Zvgiv cv‡ivwb, -wewfbbÕ Kvi‡Y Avm‡Z
cv‡iwb e‡j g‡b `ytL ‡c‡q‡Q| hviv G‡mwQ‡jv Zv‡`i nq‡Zv `ytL wQ‡jv bv hviv Av‡mwb‡`i
Rb¨| mKÕj Drm‡eB ‡eva nq wKQz wKQz hviv Av‡mwbiv GKUv †e`bvi Qvc †i‡L hvq| G
†e`bv bvgK ebazwU Ggb LuvwU I GKwU AbyiÕKZÕ †h AvbÕb‡`i Pig jM‡YI †Zvgvi
ARvb‡Z ‡Zvgvi mv_x n‡q _v‡K, -ZÿK ‡hgb m~ÿ KxU n‡q dz‡ji g‡a¨ jywK‡q †_‡K
95
cixwÿZ‡K `skb K‡iwQ‡jv| Rxe‡bi me©ve¯’vq †h bv‡Qvievb`v| ÒOur sincerest
laughter with some pain is fraightÓ|
KvR-Kg© bvB wKbv, ZvB me AKv‡Ri K_v G‡m mv_x| wewPÎ gvby‡li GB Rxeb| KvR
Kivi kKwZ hLb _v‡K, -ZLb KvR‡K Gwo‡q †h‡Z Pvq | Avi kKwZ hLb _v‡K bv, ZLb
KvR †Luv‡R| nq‡Zv ‡m Rb¨B eveb Avgv‡K GKUv †gvUv LvZv wK‡b w`‡qwQ‡jv| Z‡e m‡e
wK Avi me KvR cv‡i ? G‡K†Zv Avwg AvRxeb Avj‡m, -hv bvwK me mgq †Zvgvi Lvjv
e‡j, -Z`ycwi gy‡L K_v ejvi KvRUv hZ mnR, wj‡L Kj‡gi gy‡L K_v ejvi KvRUv Z‡Zv
mnR bq| K_v ejv mnR, -‡evev Qvov me gvby‡lB K_v e‡j|
wKbZz me gvbyl K_vwkjcx bq| Avevi me K_vwkjcxI GK bq, -†KD gy‡L, - †KD wj‡L|
K_vi †RviI `ywbqvq A‡bK ANÕUb NUv‡Z cv‡i| †hgb gviKm, Avgv‡`i †kL gywRe|
Avwg †KvbUvB bB| ZvB LvZvi ey‡K Kv‡jv AvuK KgB c‡o| nq‡Zv GKw`b BwZ Uvbv n‡jv
bv e‡j †KD `ytL Ki‡e|
GLb Avwm gv | ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
96
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 3-8-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv, myL kvbwZ‡Z, wbivc‡`
_v‡Kv !
‡Zvgiv A‡bK w`b GKRb GKRb K‡i mevB fyM‡j| Kv‡Q _vK‡jI Aek¨ †Zvgv‡`i ‡KvbÕ
Kv‡R AvmZvg bv| myBwWmiv bvwK Zv cQÕb`ÕI K‡i bv| Avgv‡`i †`‡ki gvbyl Aek¨
Kv‡iv AmyL-wemy‡Li K_v kyb‡j G‡m Ab_©K RUjv K‡i Ges my¯’¨‡`i Sv‡gjv evovq| `~i
†_‡K Av‡ivM¨ Kvgbv KivUvB fv‡jv, -mew`K iÿv nq|
†Zvgv‡`i ‡Zv mvZ eQi ch©bZÕ †`wLwb, G‡Z †Zv Kv‡iv wKQz Av‡m hvqwb| Aek¨ mg‡qi
Qvc c‡o‡Q mevi Dci| UzK UzK K‡i nuvUv wcKz GLb e‡ov n‡q‡Q, -K_v ej‡Z wk‡L‡Q|
bZzb ey`aÕ G‡m‡Q| gvwU e`j n‡q‡Q| †h gvwU‡Z RbgÕ, †m gvwUi gvqv K‡g‡Q| bZzb
gvwUi mv‡_ NwblVÕZv †e‡o‡Q| gvbyl KvgvBjv Mv‡Qi Wv‡ji g‡Zv| †h †KvbÕ gvwU‡Z cyu‡Z
w`‡j †eu‡P D‡V| exR †_‡K MvQ nq bv| Rv‡bv gv, Avmv‡gi jvgwWs RvqMvUv ZLb Lye
Am¦v¯’¨Ki wQ‡jv| †mLv‡b eQi `yB PvKzix K‡i hLb evsjv‡`‡k e`wj njvg, ZLb Avmvi
mgq †mB g¨vwjwiqv-fiv RvqMvUvi Rb¨ †Pv‡L cvwb G‡mwQ‡jv|
gvwUi gvqv e‡ov gvqv| Z‡e wK Rv‡bv gv, Avgv‡`i †`‡k GKUv K_v Av‡Q, -ÒwZb jvovq
KvgvBjv givÓ| GUvi A_© gvbyl †ekx w`b †KvbÕ ¯’v‡b evm bv Ki‡j ‡m RvqMvi cÖwZ ggZv
Rbgvq bv| †`k e‡j ‡Kvb wRwbl bvB| GB gvwUi c„w_exUv‡K wKQz ¯^v_©ci gvbyl fvM
euv‡Uvqviv K‡i wb‡q‡Q, -‡hgb ev‡ci RwgRgv fvM K‡i †bq Zvi mbZv‡biv| Avevi GK
fvB Ab¨ fvB‡K VKvq, ev †evb‡`i ebwPZÕ K‡i wb‡Ri Ask evov‡q wb‡Z Pvq|
97
GB †`‡Lvbv GK mgq wQ‡jv fviZ gvZv | GB fviZ gvZvi we‡`ªvnx mbZvb bRiy‡ji Kei
evsjv‡`‡k| †Kv_vq c‡o iB‡jv Pziywjqv| Z‡e XvKv Avi ea©gv‡bi gvwUi g‡a¨ †Kvb cv_©K¨
bvB|
Rv‡bv gv, Avgvi GKgvÎ Lvjv Avgv‡K Lye †mœnÕ Ki‡Zb, †evanq Avcb †Q‡j‡`i †P‡qI
†ekx| H ‡h K_vq e‡j bv, gv‡qi †_‡K gvmxi `i` †ekx| †KvbÕ †KvbÕ mgq †eva nq
mwZ¨B Zv| Lvjv g„Zz¨i mgq bvwK Avgv‡K LyuRwQ‡jb| ZLb Zvi `„wó kKwZ †Nvjv‡U n‡q
†M‡Q, -gvbyl wPb‡Z cviwQ‡jb bv| †K GKRb Lvjvi nvZ a‡i e‡jwQ‡jv, -ÒGB †h Avwg
gv‡jK !Ó| Lvjv GB Aa© AÁvb Ae¯’vq Zuvi nvZUvi Dci Ab¨ nvZwU eywj‡q e‡jwQ‡jv, Òbv, Zzwg gv‡jK bI !Ó|
g„Zz¨i c~‡e© enz eQi hveZ Lvjvi mv‡_ mvÿvZ wQ‡jv bv| g„Zy¨i c~‡e© Lvjvi e„`aÕ eq‡mi
†PnvivUv †Kgb n‡qwQ‡jv Zv‡Zv Rvwb bv| Avgv‡K wPb‡Z cvi‡jI †mB Avgv†K wK †c‡Zb
†hw`‡b Lvjv Lei ivL‡Zb ¯‹zj ev K‡jR QzwU n‡e ? KLb Avwg evox Avm‡ev ? Lvjvi
Ave`vi wQ‡jv QzwUi A‡a©K Zvi mv‡_ _vK‡Z n‡e| ZvB gv ivM Ki‡Zb, -ÒLvjvi evox
†M‡j Avi evoxi K_v g‡b _v‡K bv !Ó| evjv‡`‡ki MÖvgMy‡jvi g‡a¨ Avgvi RbgÕ¯’vb
Bjvnvev‡`i ci Avgvi me PvB‡Z wcÖq MÖvg †eov‡Lvjv, -Avgvi Lvjvi evox| enz eQi hveZ
†eov‡Lvjv hvB bv| Lvjvi KeiUvI‡Zv GKevi wM‡q †RqviZ Ki‡Z cvijvg bv| G‡Zv
myB‡Wb, jYWÕb, gKKv bq, -evoxi Kv‡QB †Zv| ZeyI †Zv cvijvg bv| †ZvgviI GKw`b
cvi‡e bv gv| mgq n‡e bv evc-gvi KeiwU GKevi †`Levi| GBUvB mZ¨| `ytL K‡i ‡KvbÕ
jvf bvB|
Gevi Avwm gv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
98
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 16-8-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK| †Zvgv‡`i †h‡bv my‡L kvbwZ‡Z,
wbivc‡`, my¯’¨ ‡`‡n _v‡Kv !
gv, †Zvgvi Lvjv wPwV wj‡L me Lei †Zvgv‡`i Rvbvq, Avi Avwg kyay ‡Zvgv‡`i Kzkj Kvgbv
Kwi| Avi wjwL hZ me Av‡Rev‡R K_v| gv, Avgiv †Zv cwo Ògvbyl †hme ke`Õ e¨envi
K‡i g‡bi fve e‡j ev wj‡L cÖKvk K‡i, Zv‡K fvlv e‡j|Ó Z‡e †KbÕ gvbyl e‡j, -Òfvlvq
cÖKvk Kiv hvq bvÓ| Z‡e wK‡m cÖKvk Kiv hvq ? Z‡e wK cÖKv‡ki Rb¨ fvlvi weKÕjcÕ
wKQy Av‡Q ? Av‡Q ‰ewK, †n‡m cÖKvk Kiv hvq| ‡Ku‡` cÖKvk Kiv hvq| Avevi GK`g bxiÕe
†_‡KI cÖKvk Kiv hvq| Z‡e G‡Z e‡Y©i mvs‡KwZK wPnYÕ bvB e‡j cov hvq bv| fvlvq
AcÖKvk¨ e‡j ejvI hvq bv | Z‡e ‡PvL _vK‡j ‡`Lv hvq, - n„`q _vK‡j eySv hvq| †Zvgvi
Lvjvi wPwV‡Z A‡bK fzj _v‡K, -Avgvi wPwV‡ZI _v‡K, -Avi Zgvi †Zv K_vB bvB| Z‡e
Zvi ey`wa Av‡Q ej‡Z n‡e| Zv‡K Avwg Dictation ‡jLvjvg, -fz‡j fwZ©| Z‡e co‡Z
†ekx Amyweav nq bv | †hgb picnic wj‡L‡Q picknick, all wj‡L‡Q al, rises wj‡L‡Q,
riges Av‡iv A‡bK | e‡ov n‡j, Avi hw` †jLvcov K‡i, Z‡e †Kvb Bs‡iR‡K ej‡e
nq‡Zv Ò†mKmwcqviI †Zv Gi~c A‡bK fyj Bs‡iRx wj‡L‡Q, -‡Zvgiv †Zv †g‡b wb†q‡Qv|
Zvi Rb¨ Shakespeare Dictionary ‰Zix K‡i‡Qv| Avgv‡KI bv nq GKRb bZzb hy‡Mi
GK †mKmwcqvi g‡b K†iv !Ó
G evbv‡bi AK‡Uvcvk †_‡K fvlv wK †Kvb w`b gyKwZ cv‡e bv ? nvwm, Kvbbv, bxieZvi
fvlvi †KvbÕw`b evbvb fzj nq bv| gv, Avgv‡`i Rxe†bi G eb`x `kv †Kej fvlv‡ZB
mxgveÕ`aÕ bq| `ywbqvq Avgiv mevB Ab¨ mevB‡K Avgvi g‡Zv K‡i M‡o †Zvj‡Z PvB| g‡b
99
Kwi AvwgB m‡e©vZZÕg| Aek¨ wb‡Ri mgeÕb‡a hv‡`i `ye©jZv Av‡Q, -Zviv Ab¨ Kv‡iv g‡Zv
n‡Z Pvq,- hv‡K Av`k© e‡j| wKbZz wb‡R‡K Abb¨ K‡i ‡Zvjvi cÖ‡Póv Lye Kg gvby‡li
_v‡K|
‡Zvgvi wcKz I ey`aÕ wK K‡i ? ey`aÕ bvwK Avgv‡K fz‡jB †M‡Q| ey`aÕi wK †`vl! Avgiv
e‡ovivB GKw`b fz‡j hvB| A‡bK AbZÕisM gvby‡li †PnvivUv ‡Kgb wQ‡jv, mn‡R g‡bi
`c©‡Y †`Lv hvq bv|
Zgv fv‡jv Av‡Q, Lvq `vq, ¯‹z‡j hvq, -BP‡Q n‡j eB wb‡q e‡m, bB‡j bv| gvi†av‡ii
c‡ivqv bvB|
†Zvgvi Lvjv bwb I mygx‡K AvMvgx w`b wb‡q †`‡k ‡h‡Z Pvq| ‡Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ wM‡q Zvi gb
f‡i bvB| mgq bvwK cvq bvB, -wKQzB †`L‡Z cv‡iwb| Gevi †Zvgv‡`i evox‡Z cÖ_g
DV‡e| eyey GL‡bv †`‡k Av‡Q, - mywe†aB n‡e| c‡_ †eva nq wfwWI wb‡q hv‡e| ciw`b
Bjvnvev` wM‡q †mw`bB wd‡i Avm‡e XvKvq| evKx Avjjvni BPQv| †Zvgv‡`i mevi Kzkj
Kvgbv K‡i AvR GLv‡b ivwL|
†Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j|
* eve‡bi Kv‡Q AvR Avi wjLv n‡jv bv| †Zvgvi Lvjvi ZvMv`v AvRB wPwVUv post Ki‡Z
n‡e|
100
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 5-9-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni ingZ †nvK| †Zvgiv †h‡bv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z, AvbÕb`Õ I
wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
gv, Rxe‡bi †kÖlVÕZg cvIqvi bvg AvbÕb`Õ| †Kej gvbyl bq, -me cÖvYxB GZÕUzKz
AvbÕb‡`i KvOvj| Z‡e me wKQz‡Z me mgq AvbÕb`Õ cvIqv hvq bv| mZ¨ mevB‡K
AvbÕb`Õ ‡`q| Avi GB m‡Z¨i i~c n‡jv myb`Õi| Z‡e GB m‡Z¨i mbavb gvbyl Qvov cÖvYx
RMr h‡Zv mn‡R cvq, gvbyl Z‡Zv mn‡R cvq bv| wkkyiv wKbZz cÖvYxi g‡ZvB mn‡R
mZ¨‡K Lyu‡R cvq| mZ¨‡K †Mvcb K‡i bv| ZvB Zviv mn‡R nv‡m, -mn‡R Kuv‡`| eqm
e„`wai mv‡_ mv‡_ mZ¨ cÖKv‡ki cÖe„ZwZUv‡K ey`wa w`‡q Avovj K‡i ivwL e‡j Avgiv nvmvi
mgq nvwm bv, -Kuv`vi mgq Kuvw` bv| Z‡e wK Rv‡bv gv, Avgviv †Zv Avi cvMj n‡Z cvwi bv
! Z‡e nB ‰ewK ? GB †h ‡m w`b hvevi mgq mygx †Zvgvi Lvjv‡K Rov‡q a‡i DPQ¦¦wmZÕ
Kvbbvq †fs‡M c‡owQ‡jv|
Z‡e ky†bwQ myBwWmiv bvwK wfbbÕ cÖK…wZi, -Avgv‡`i †`‡ki g‡Zv ey‡ov wkky e‡ov GKUv
bvB| Iiv bvwK A‡bKUv gvbyl i~cx †iveU| I †`‡ki †g‡qiv gv n‡Z Pvq bv| Avi Avgv‡`i
†`‡ki †g‡qiv ? gv nIqvi Rb¨ wK bv K‡i ! Ggb wK g„Zy¨Uv ch©bZÕ eiY K‡i| Z‡e
G‡`‡ki me gv‡qiv wbt¯^v_©fv‡e mbZvb Kvgbv K‡i bv| GKUv KwP KY‡Vi mzgayi ÒgvÓ
WvK ev Òwkkyi AvbÕb‡`iÓ nvwmi AvbÕb`ÕB me gv‡qi GKgvÎ Kvg¨ bq| ÒgiY Kv‡j
Av‡iK myL cyÎ _vK‡j cv‡kÓ| G Qvov iywU-‡ivwRi cÖkYÕI Av‡Q| †Q‡jiv hLb evc nq,
†g‡qiv hLb gv nq, ZLb A‡bK gv ¯^M©Pz¨Z n‡q hvb| GUvB m‡Z¨i i~c| wKbZz G‡Z Avgiv
AvbÕb`Õ cvB bv| KviY G‡`‡ki AwaKvsk gv-evev mZ¨Uv‡K fvev‡e‡M A¯^xKvi K‡i
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mbZv‡bi Rb¨ wbt¯^ n‡q hvb| d‡j mgú~Y© ev AvswkKfv‡e RxY© K‡i mbZv‡bi Dci
wbf©ikxj n‡q c‡ob| Avi mbZvb †h `vex †gUv‡Z bv cvi‡j Dfq cÿB AbyZÕcZÕ nq|
G †`‡ki AwaKvsk gvbylB †Q‡j †g‡q‡`i †cQ‡b LiP Kiv†K GKUv cyuwR wewb‡qvM g‡b
K‡i| G wewb‡qv‡M ‡KB jvfevb nq, Avi †KD MPQv †`q| Z‡e GB wewb‡qv‡Mi †ekx
msL¨K gvbylB †jvKmvb †`q| kirPb`Ö GK RvqMvq wj‡LwQ‡jb, -Òa‡g©i e¨emv †jvKmv‡bi
e¨emv| Z‡e e¨emvUv hZ MywU‡q ivLv hvq, †jvKmvb Z‡Zv Kg nqÓ| mbZv‡bi ‡ejvI
Z`i~c| myBwWk †g‡qiv GK_v, -G mZ¨Uv A‡bK Av‡M ey‡S‡Q| Avgv‡`i †`‡ki †g‡qivI
GKw`b eyS‡e| G f~‡Zi †eMvi LvUv †_‡K gyKwZ Kvgbv Ki‡e|
m‡Z¨i i~‡c Avgiv A‡bK mgq AvbÕb`Õ Lzu‡R cvB bv, Zvi KviY Avgiv Ggb GK
cwi‡e‡ki mv‡_ cwiwPZ Ges Af¨¯Í †h Avgiv Avmj mZ¨Uv†K †egvjyg fz‡j hvB| evev`v`viv GKw`b hv mZ¨ e‡j ‡g‡b wb‡qwQ‡jv, -Zv mZ¨ wQjv bv| Zv ej‡Z ev Ki‡Z KL‡bv
mvnm cvB bv| jvqjx-gRbyi MjcÕ kyb‡Z Avgiv mevB fvjevwm| wKbZz Avgvi ‡Q‡j gRby
‡nvK ev †g‡q jvqjx ‡nvK, Zv Avgiv Kvgbv Kwi bv| Aek¨ ‡KD ‡KD bvg iv‡L|
GB †h mZ¨ Am‡Z¨i Øb‡Øi nvZ †_‡K Avgiv †Kvb w`b †invB cv‡ev wKbv Rvwb bv, wKbZz
mZ¨ A‡b‡Ki Kv‡Q A‡bK mgq wecÕ`RÕbK i~‡c †`Lv †`q| H †h wK GKUv Mvb Av‡Q bv,
ÒAvBwj ‡bsUv, hvBwe ‡bsUv, gvSLv‡b hZ MYWÕ‡Mvj|Ó m‡Z¨i i~c A‡bK mgq AwZ
fqsKi| Zey gvbyl GB fqsK‡ii w`‡K w`‡b w`‡b GwM‡q hv‡e| be i~‡c mZ¨‡K AvwemKvi
Ki‡e| †m w`b †bsUv gvbyl‡K †`L‡j Avi †KD cvMj ej‡e bv| GL‡bv ‡Zv wek¦
Awjgwc‡K K‡Zv †bsUv gvbyl †`Ljvg !
GLb Avwm gv ! †Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
* ey`aÕ I wcKyi Rb¨ †`vqv †i‡L †Mjvg, -Zviv †h‡bv m‡Z¨i gv‡S Rxe‡bi AvbÕb`Õ Lyyu‡R
cvq !
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLVI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 19-9-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z †nvK| ‡h‡bv †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL
kvbwZ‡Z, wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
gv nVvr K‡i AvR g‡b n‡jv, -A‡bK w`b hveZ ‡Zvgvi †KvbÕ †jLv cvBbv| eve‡bi wPwV‡Z
Rvbjvg Zzwg bvwK mviv w`bivZ Kv‡R e¨¯Í _v‡Kv| †Zvgiv †Zv GLb e¨¯Í gvby‡li ‡`‡k
_v‡Kv| e¨¯Í _vK‡Z _vK‡Z †Zvgiv e¨¯ÍZvq Af¨¯Í n‡q †M‡Qv| e¨¯Í gvbyl gvbwmK fv‡e
my¯¨’ _v‡K, -ev‡R wPbZvi my‡hvM cvq bv| Z‡e gv, gvbyl ey‡ov n‡q †M‡j, -BPQv _vK‡jI
ZZÕUv e¨¯Í n‡Z cv‡i bv kvixwiK fv‡e, -ZvB gvbÕwlK fv‡e e¨¯Í _v‡K †ekx| gvbyl ey‡ov
eq‡m A‡bK wKQz †c‡jI msM cvq bv| mgÕq †c‡jI ey‡ov gvbyl‡K †ekxi fvM gvbyl msM
w`‡Z Pvq bv| GUvB †eva nq ey‡ov eq‡m me‡P‡q eoÕ tragedy| Avgvi g‡b nq G Rb¨B
†eva nq eyeyI XvKv‡Z _vK‡Z Pvb bv|
103
Avwg ey‡ov n‡jI Kg e¨¯Í bB| mKv‡j 4-1/2 Uvq RvwM, ev_ iy‡g hvB, -gmwR‡` hvB, cjjxgv msm` ch©bZÕ †ewo‡q G‡m †KviAvb kixd wb‡q ewm NYUvLv‡bK| Zvi ci †ccvi
Av‡m, Pv LvB, bv¯Ív Kwi, ev_iy‡g hvB| Ggwb‡ZB 10Uv †e‡R hvq| evRv‡i GLb me w`b
hvB bv| ‡cvó Awd‡m hvB, -wej w`‡Z| e¨vs‡K hvB gv‡S gv‡S| KL‡bv KL‡bv †jLvwjwL
Kwi wPwV cÎ ev Ab¨ wKQz | †Rvn‡ii AvRvb w`‡j †Mvmj K‡i gmwR‡` hvB| gmwR` ‡_‡K
G‡m LvB, Nyg †`B Avevi AvQ‡ii AvRv‡bi AvM ch©bZÕ| gvMwi‡ei ci Zgv‡K wb‡q GKUz
ewm Gkvi AvRv‡bi AvM ch©bZÕ| Zvici †KvbÕw`b bvUK ‡`wL, Avi me w`bB 10Uvi
Bs‡iRx Lei kywb|
†`L‡Qv gv, AvwgI wKbZz †Zvgvi‡`i PvB‡Z Kg e¨¯Í bv| Avi wPwV†Zv cÖvqB wjL‡Z nq|
Avi Avgvi wPwV wjL‡Z mgq jv‡M GKUz ‡ekx| ‡Zvgvi Lvjvi gZ `yÕPvi Kjg wjwLbv, ‡óg‡ci `vgUv cywl‡q †bB, Z‡e Avgvi wPwVi †Kvb `vg bvB| hZ me ev‡R K_vB wjwL|
‡ngbZÕ G‡mwQjÕ evsjv‡`‡k, -cyi®‹vi wb‡Z| A‡bK Mvb †M‡q †M‡jv GB 69 eQi eq‡m|
ey‡K bvwK wWgvYW evje jvMv‡bv| MZ iv‡ZI Zvi Mvb kybjvg wUwf‡Z | mviv Rxeb gvbylUv
†Kej Mvb †M‡q †M‡jv|
AvMvgx gvm †_‡K wZb gv‡mi Rb¨ wjwj jYWÕb _vK‡e GKv, -wPwKrmvi Rb¨| wPwKrmvi
†k‡l †`‡k †divi Avkv| †ZvZv GKvB †`‡k wdi‡Q AvMvgx gv‡mi `yB ZvwiL| Av‡M
e‡jwQ‡jv †Zvgv‡`i ILv‡b hv‡e| wKbZz gvbyl hv Pvq, me mgq Zv Ki‡Z cv‡i bv| GB
†hgb †ZvgivI †Zv MZev‡ii g‡Zv Gevi ‡`‡k Avm‡Z cvi‡j Lykx n‡Z, wKbZz cvi‡Qv ‰K|
GLb Avwg gv| AvRB wPwVLvbv ‡cvó Ki‡Z PvB|
ey`aÕ I wcKz‡K Avgvi †mœn I †`vqv iB‡jv ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLVII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 12-10-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
†Zvgv‡`i mK‡ji Dci Avjjvni ingZ †nvK| †Zvgiv †h‡bv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, my‡L, kvbwZ‡Z,
wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
gv A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ †Zvgvi wPwV cvB bv| AvwgI AvRKvj wjL‡Z cvwi bv| ‡Zvgiv mgq
cvI bv, Avi Avwg mg‡qi mØe¨envi Ki‡Z cvwibv, †Kej Nywg‡q KvUvB| mg‡qi ÿxY
†mªv‡Z `ye©j gvwS nvj a‡i e‡m Av‡Q| †Rvqv‡ii †Zv Avkv bvB | †ejv c‡o G‡jv| Icv‡i
†b‡g G‡m‡Q Av‡jv Auvavix AveQv Qvqv |
†ngbZÕ G‡mwQ‡jv evsjv‡`‡k, -‡k‡li w`‡bi MvbMywj †M‡q †M‡jv GKUvbv Kqw`b|
WvKZvi Beªvnxg KvR Ki‡Z Ki‡Z P‡j †M‡jv, -Rxe‡bi †kl gyn~Z© ch©bZÕ †Kej KvR K‡i
†M‡jv| KvR Qvov Rxe‡bi †Kvb g~j¨ bvB| Kv‡RiB Av‡iK bvg Rxeb| KvR bv _vK‡j
Rxe‡bi †Kvb `vg _v‡K bv| KvR †Zv KvR, Kv‡Ri †Kvb Afve bvB| Aek¨ me Kv‡R
†c‡Ui AbbÕ †Rv‡U bv| Ab‡bi wewbgq †h KvR, Avgiv kyay Zv‡KB KvR ewj| Gi~c KvR
Kv‡iv bv _vK‡j Zv‡K Avgiv †eKvi ewj| wKbZz hvi KvR Av‡Q, -cv‡i bv, Zv‡K ewj
AKg©Y¨| Avwg GLb G ch©v‡q AvwQ | Mv‡Q Avi GLb dzj dz‡U bv, AKg©Y¨ n‡q ‡M‡Q |
dzjB hw` bv w`‡jv †Zv G Mv‡Qi wK `vg Av‡Q ? Aek¨ MvQ AvR bv n‡jI Kvj dzj †`‡e|
wKbZz Avgvi †Zv †m Avkv bvB|
wcKy wK GLb Avgvi K_v e‡j ? ey&`aÕi Kv‡Q ‡Zv Avwg †eva nq nvwi‡qB †MwQ| gvbyl wKbZz
gv GKw`b nvwi‡qB hvq| nvwi‡q hvIqv gv‡b G we‡k¦i ¯g„wZcU †_‡K gy‡Q hvIqv| †KD
Aek¨ A‡bK w`b ‡eu‡P _v‡K, -mn‡R nvivq bv| GB †hgb kvKZjvi †ivkb nvRvixi ci
Zvi es‡ki K‡Zv †jvK G‡jv Avi †M‡jv, wKbZz `y-Pvi Rb Qvov †KD †eu‡P iB‡jv bv |
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‡eu‡P iB‡jv kyay ‡ivkb nvRvix †QvUÕ GKwU cwievi wb‡q| P‡j hvIqvi c‡iI ¯g„wZi f~e‡Y
†eu‡P _vKvi cÖqvkB gvbyl‡K gnr wKQz GKUv Kivi Drmvn †hvMvq| Gevi bwb bvwK kvKZjv
wM‡q †ivkb nvRvixi `xwNi Qwe Zz‡j G‡b‡Q| Avwg Aek¨ †m Qwe †`wLwb| Aek¨ Qwe †`Lvi
Avgvi cÖ‡qvRbI bvB| †hŠe‡b GB `xwNi cvo a‡i enzevi n‡q‡Q Avgvi Avmv-hvIqv| g‡bi
K¨vgvivq G Qwe evwK Rxe‡bI AvuKv n‡q _vK‡e|
wcKzi Rb¨ Rb¨ cyiv‡Yv w`‡bi GKUv gkvi Mvb †M‡q BwZ UvbwQ|
cvMj Kwiwj ‡i, e‡bi gkv‡i|
-KPz †WsMvi gkv‡i †Zvi jgev jgev †VuvU,
Dovj w`qv gv‡iv Kvgo Kzovwjqvi †Kvc‡i !
e‡bi gkv‡i !
Avgvi XvKvq mevB fv‡jv AvwQ| †Zvgvi Lvjv ‡gvnvggÕ`cyi wM‡qwQ‡jv| eyey bvwK wKQzw`b
ci XvKv Avm‡eb| gbRyi Kv‡Q †Zvgvi Rb¨ GKUv mvwU©wd‡K‡Ui K_v e‡jwQ‡j| wKbZz
miKvix ¯‹zj Gi~c mvwU©wd‡KU w`‡e bv| cÖvB‡fU ev wKYWvi Mv‡W©b †_‡K w`‡j Pj‡e wK bv
Rvbv‡e|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLVIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 23-10-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ †nvK| †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, my‡L kvbwZ‡Z,
AvbÕb‡` I wbivc‡` _v‡Kv ! †Lv`vi `iev‡i GB Av‡e`b †ck Kiv Qvov †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ †Zv
Avi wKQz Ki‡Z cvwi bv|
A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgvi nv‡Zi †jLv cvB bv| Rvwb †Zvgvi nv‡Z mgq _v‡K bv| wcKz hw`
wjL‡Z cvi‡Zv, -nq‡Zv wKQzUv †Zvgvi fvi wb‡Z cvi‡Zv| wcKzI bvwK GLb Avj‡m n‡q
†M‡Q| †jLvcov Ki‡Z Pvq bv, N‡ii KvRI Ki‡Z Pvq bv| myBwWm‡`i †Zv Kg©V n‡Z nq,
- mvivw`b ivZ KvR Avi KvR| KvR bv Ki‡j †Zv myBwWk nIqv hvq bv| myBwWk LvIqvI
cvIqv hvq bv| wcKzI GLb Avgv‡K wPwV wj‡L bv|
†Zvgiv hw` mevB wPwV bv `vI, Z‡e Avwg _vwK wb‡q ? Avwg ‡Zv wjL‡Z gb PvB‡jI cvwi
bv| AvwgI †h wcKzi g‡Zv Avj‡m n‡q †MwQ|
gv, eve‡bi wPwV‡Z gv‡S gv‡S `y GKUv NUbvi K_v kywb, -I‡`‡ki gvbyl mgeÕb‡a| I
†`‡ki gvby‡liv GKvbZÕ GKv, - Avi GKv _vK‡Z bvwK Iiv †ekx fvjev‡m| gv Avi †Q‡j
GKv GKv wfbbÕ evwo‡Z KvQvKvwQ evm K‡i| Avevi KL‡bv KL‡bv bvwK GKv N‡i c‡o g‡i
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_vK‡jI A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ Zvi †LvuRB nq bv| fvewQ Iiv wK †Kv‡bv wfbbÕ MÖ‡ni gvbyl|
bvwK gvbyl bv‡gi ‡iveU| ei‡di †`‡ki gvbyl, -cÖv‡Yi DZZvcUv Avgv‡`i †`‡ki eb¨vZ©
gvby‡li g‡Zv bq| Iiv †h myL Pvq, †m myL Kvgbv Kwi bv| KviY `ytLUv‡K Avgiv Rxeb
†_‡K gy‡Q †dj‡Z PvB bv| ZvB †Zv G‡`‡ki Kwe Ò¯^M© n‡Z we`vqÓ †bq|
gv, Avwg A‡bK mgq ev‡R K_v e‡j ‡Zvgv‡`i mgq bó Kwi| Avgvi Kv‡Q †Zv mg‡qi `vg
bvB| mgqUv‡K Kv‡R jvwM‡q †Zv GLb A_© DcvR©b Ki‡Z cvwi bv| mg‡qi mv‡_ kKwZi
ms‡hvM bv n‡j mgq g~j¨nxb n‡q hvq|
evsjv‡`kUv gvby‡li Lwb| Lvevi w`‡q kyay KvovKvwo| wKbZz Kx AvkPh©, -AvkPh© G‡`i
cÖv‡Yi cÖvPzh©| G‡`‡k gvbyl‡K w`‡q Lykx Kiv hvq| mgúÕ‡`i cÖvPz‡h©i †`‡k †`Iqvi e`‡j
ab¨ev` cvq| Avi G‡`‡ki gvby‡li Kv‡Q cvq cÖvYXvjv †`vqv| Aek¨ meLv‡b bq| Avgv‡`i
gb gvbwmKZv Aek¨ ab¨ev‡`i cÖwZ †ekx AvMÖnx| w`‡q Avgiv ab¨ n‡Z PvB bv, -ab¨
Ki‡Z PvB bv| eZ©gv‡b G `wi`ª †`kUvq Avi. wc. mvnvi gZ abxi Afve bvB| wKbZz Avi
wc mvnvi g‡Zv gvbyl bvB|
AR©‡bB †Kej myL Avi AvbÕb`Õ| eR©‡b wK wKQz bv ?
eR©b Qvov †h AvZg&vi weKvk N‡U bv|
_vK gv, A‡bK ev‡R eKjvg| wK ‡h ewj A‡bK mgq Avwg wb‡RB eywS bv| Avkv Kwi
weiÕKZÕ n‡e bv| ey‡ov †Q‡ji Ave`vi Avi wK !
‡Zvgiv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv , my‡L kvbwZ‡Z _v‡Kv ! eveb, wgby, wcKz I ey`aÕ mevB Kzk‡j _v‡Kv !
GLb Avwm| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j|
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XLIX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 13-11-1989
gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ †nvK | †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
g‡b nq A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i wPwVcÎ cvB bv| hvK, †Zvgv‡`i Lei cvB, -wjwj I
bwb-mygxi wPwV‡Z| †Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ bv wK cÖvqB Iiv †dv‡b K_v e‡j|
ey&`aÕ ‡eva nq GLb K_v ej‡Z cv‡i, -‡gNjv wKbZz A‡bK e‡K| Aek¨ me K_v me mgq
eySv hvq bv| ZeyI wb‡R‡K cÖKvk Kivi wK e¨vKzjZv ! wK AvbÕb`Õ ! Avwg me bv eyS‡jI
Zv‡Z Ii wKQz Av‡m hvq bv| ey`aÕi K_v nq‡Zv ‡gv‡UI eyS‡ev bv, - Avwg †Zv myBwWk Rvwb
bv| Rvb‡jI nq‡Zv me eySZvg bv| wkky‡`i me K_v eySv hvq bv, Abygvb K‡i a‡i wb‡Z
nq| ZeyI G‡`i K_vi `vg A‡bK| GKwU wkky gy‡Li A¯úó K_v kybvi Rb¨ Avgv‡`i
K‡ZvB bv AvMÖn| we‡k¦i me©‡kÖlVÕ eKZv GB wkkyi `j| Giv weivU mfvq eKZ„Zv †`q bv,
-N‡i N‡i, cÖv‡Y cÖv‡Y Qwo‡q hvq K_vi Kwj, -AvbÕb`Õ Avi AeyS nvwm| wcKy ey`‡ai K_v
kywb bv, nvwm †`wL bv,- wKbZz gb gvbylUv †KD AvU‡K ivL‡Z cv‡i bv | ‡m `~i‡Z¡i evav
gv‡b bv| evwj©b cÖvPxi w`‡q Zvi MwZ †iva Kiv hvq bv| wcKzi †jLvcovq bvwK gb bvB, ey`aÕi ‡W-‡Kqv‡ii mv‡_ wgZvjx n‡q‡Q| †Zvgiv n‡b¨ n‡q wdi‡Qv Rxeb I RxweKvi
mbav‡b| Avwg GLv‡b e‡m meB ‡`wL| eveb hLb †`owU eQi †Q‡j wQ‡jv, -ZLb Zv‡K
ÿwY‡Ki †`Lvi Rb¨ K‡ZvB bv †Póv K‡iwQ | Avevi †`‡k bv Avmvi Rb¨, -bv †`Lvi Rb¨I
‡Zv Z`exi Kg Kwiwb| ZvB Zv‡K †`Lvi wfbbÕ c_ †LvuRjvg, -†m Avgvi AbZÕi Pÿz|
†mLv‡b †KD evav n‡q `vuovq bv| hLb Lykx †`wL| ZvB nq‡Zv †Kbvb kn‡i e‡m BqvKze
bex wgk‡i _vKv BDmy‡di Mv‡qi MbaÕ †c‡qwQ‡jb|
109
‡eu‡P _vKvUv me mgÕq gvby‡li AvbÕb‡`i nq bv| ZeyI gvbyl euvP‡Z Pvq| Ae¨kB †KD
†KD Pvq bv| wKbZz ‡bnv‡qr ‡eu‡P _vKvUv †Zv Rxeb bq| RxebUv†K Kv‡R jvMv‡Z bv
cvi‡j Zvi †Kvb `vg _v‡K bv| ZvB gvby‡li mva Avi mvabv cvkvcvwk P‡j| hvi mva bvB,
Zvi mvabvI bvB| Z‡e mv‡a¨i AwaK hw` mva _v‡K, -Z‡e Zvi Rb¨ ‡h mvabvi, -K‡Vvi
mvabvi cÖ‡qvRb, Zv mevB cv‡i bv| wKbZz mvabvi ci wm`wa jvf bv n‡jI mvbZÕbv
_v‡K| Avc‡mvQ _v‡K bv|
‡Zvgv‡`i fvlv wkLv K‡ZvUzKz n‡jv ? ÒAv gwi evsjv fvlvÓi cÖ‡qvRb ZeyI ‡Zvgv‡`i
_vK‡e| †Zvgv‡`i ckPv‡Zi "Avwg" †Zvgv‡`i KL‡bv KL‡bv Uvb‡e|
bx‡Pi MvQMy‡jv‡Z GLb †Kvb dzjB bvB| nvmbv‡nbvi MvQUv Av‡MB g‡i †M‡Q| †Pix,
†fvMb-wewjqv, MbaÕivR †Kvb dzjB GLb bvB| Dc‡ii Qv‡` bvwK dzj Av‡Q| wKbZz G‡Zv
Kó K‡i dzj †`Lvi g‡Zv gb bvB|
evoxUv GLb cy‡ivcywi wmivwg‡K XvKv| evKx wKQz KvR Av‡Q| wmwoi KvV jvMv‡bv, -`iRv,
wKQz ‡gvRvB‡Ki KvR, Avi wKQz UzKUvK| AvR wgw¯¿ KvR Ki‡Q| Zgvi cixÿv kyiy n‡q‡Q|
nq †Zv G gvm Pj‡e| Zgvi cixÿvi ci evox hvevi Avkv ivwL| gmwR‡`i KvR GMyP‡Q
bv|
†Zvgv‡`i mevi gsMj I myb`Õi Rxeb Kvgbv K‡i AvR GLv‡b BwZ UvbwQ|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
110
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – L
XvKv, 14-11-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
wPwVUv MZKvjB wj‡LwQjvg, -‡cvó Kiv nq wb| Gi g‡a¨B †Zvgvi wPwVUv †c‡q †Mjvg|
Ggwb‡ZB †Zvgiv bvbvb Sv‡gjvq Av‡Qv, Z‡`vcwi AmyL-wemyL †j‡MB Av‡Q| Avgiv†Zv
†Zvgv‡`i †Kvb mvnvh¨ mn‡hvwMZv Ki‡Z cvwi bv| Amnvq hviv - †Lv`vi Kv‡Q nvZ ‡Zvjv
Qvov Kx-Bev Ki‡Z cv‡i! GKUz mgq Zey K‡i wb‡qv| hLb cv‡iv, -bvgvR c‡ov ! G‡Z
AšÍZt g‡bi GKUy wekÖvg wg‡j| g„Z I RxweZ me gvby‡li Rb¨ ‡`vqv K‡iv, -gsMj Kvgbv
K‡iv ! Avjjvni mbZzwó bv _vK‡j gvby‡li †KvbÕ Kv‡RB mdjZv Av‡m bv|
111
MvoxUv cÖvq gvmLv‡bK n‡jv workshop G| †Kv_vI †h‡Z cvwi bv| Aek¨ _vK‡jI †h
†hZvg wKbv Rvwb bv| ZeyI GKwU ARynvZ ‰ewK| Sv‡gjv gyKZÕ n‡Z eywS †KvbÕ gvbylB
cv‡i bv, g„Zz¨i AvM ch©šÍ| Avi G †`‡ki cÖwZwU KvRB Sv‡gjv| `yybx©wZ cÖkvmbUv‡K MÖvm
K‡i †d‡j‡Q| `yybx©wZ‡Z †K K‡Zv cvi`k©x Zv wb‡q cÖwZ‡hvMxZv| ZvB wb‡R‡K gyKZÕ
ivL‡Z kZÕ †Póv K‡iI e¨_© nw”Q|
MZKvj eve‡bi †dvb †cjvg| bwb Al‡Uªwjqvq chance ‡c‡q‡Q | hv ‡nvK GKUv `ytwPbZv
†M‡jv| †Zvgiv KLb †Kgb _v‡Kv Rvb‡Z cvi‡j A‡bKUv wPbZv gyKZÕ _vwK|
GLb Avwg gv AvR‡KB wPwV †cvó Ki‡Z PvB| wcKzI ey`aÕi Rb¨ we‡kl †`vqv iB‡jv |
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
112
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 9-12-1989
gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ †nvÕK| †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ,
wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bK †Zvgvi GKwU e‡ov wPwV †c‡qwQjvg| G‡Zv Sv‡gjvi †fZi Zzwg G‡Zv mgq w`‡q
nq‡Zv wPwVUv wj‡L‡Qv| Gici †Zvgv‡K wj‡LwQ wKbv g‡b bvB| AvRKvj g‡b ivL‡Z cvwi
bv| †Zvgv‡`i wPwVi AvKvsLv Kwi e‡U, -wKbZz AvbÕb‡`i wKQz _v‡K bv| †Zvgv‡`i AmyLwemyL Avi bvbvb Sv‡gjvi K_vB _v‡K| AvcbR‡biv †hLv‡bB _vK, -fv‡jv Av‡Q Rvb‡jB
fv‡jv jv‡M|
GeviI wW‡mgeÕi gvm G‡m‡Q, -G‡m‡Q kxZ| IjU Kg‡ji MvQ `Õy‡Uv f‡i †M‡Q dz‡j
dz‡j, -fyMb wewjqvUvI dz‡U‡Q, - cÖPiz dzj| Qv‡` hvB Lye Kg, -A‡bK w`b a‡i DwVwb|
†mLv‡b Aek¨B ‡KvbÕ bv †KvbÕ dzj _v‡K| bx‡P gvwU‡Z me mgq dzj _v‡K bv| GLb †Zv
MbaÕivR bvB| nvmbv‡nbvUv Av‡MB g‡i †M‡Q| Av‡iv GKUv Pviv jvwM‡q‡Q e‡U, wKbZz
GL‡bv dzj nqwb| nvmbv‡nbv KLb dz‡U ? †Pix MvQUv e‡ov `ye©j n‡q †M‡Q| cvkvcvwk
MvQMy‡jv Av‡Q, -Kv‡iv dzj Av‡Q, Kv‡iv bvB| †KvbÕ Mv‡Q evi gv‡mB Kg †ekx dzj dz‡U|
Zey mevB wK Avi dzj‡K fvjev‡m ? dzjMv‡Qi †P‡q djMvQB ‡Zv gvbyl †ekx cQÕb`Õ K‡i|
Aek¨ ‡m djMvQ hw` dj †`q| G †`‡Lv bv, -cyiyl MvQ e‡j Kw_Z †cu‡c MvQMywj‡K Avgiv
‡gv‡UB mB‡Z cvwi bv, -†K‡U †d‡j †`B| Avgv‡`i GB evox‡Z A‡bKMy‡jv †cu‡cMvQ
n‡qwQ‡jv, -‡ek myb`Õi e‡ov n‡qwQ‡jv| wKbZz cyily weavq Avgiv I‡`i evuP‡Z w`jvg bv|
RxebUvI †evanq ZvB| †h gvbyl Kv‡iv †KvbÕ Kv‡R Av‡m bv, Zvi †eu‡P _vKvi †KvbÕ
AwaKvi _v‡K bv| Zv‡K evuwP‡q ivL‡Z ‡KD PvqI bv|
113
GLb kxZ †gvUvgywU R‡g D‡V‡Q| evRv‡i G‡m‡Q jvD, jvDkvK, mxg, g~jv| cvjs kvK
†ewi‡q‡Q, Z‡e GL‡bv `vg Lye †ekx | Gevi †Zv ‡Zvgiv Avm‡Z cvi‡j bv| G me wKb‡Z
†M‡j ‡Zvgv‡`i K_v g‡b c‡o| Gevi Avevi gv‡Q goK ‡j‡M‡Q, gv‡Qi `vg Lye Pov|
evoxi KvR †eva nq †kl, - ZeyI is Ki‡Z n‡e, - evB‡i I wfZ‡i| evoxi KvR †eva nq
KL‡bv †kl nq bv|
wjwj †eva nq †Zvgv‡`i ILv‡b †h‡Z cvi‡e bv| †Zvgv‡`i hvIqvi AvkvqB †m i‡q
‡MwQ‡jv| ‡Zvgv‡`i †Zv A‡bK w`b †`‡Lwb| bwb I kvgx nq‡Zv †h‡Z cv‡i| ZvI Aek¨
mwVK Rvwb bv| bwbi mv‡_ †Zv †Zvgv‡`i A‡bK w`b hveZ †`Lv bvB| eZ©gvb `ywbqvq Rxeb
Ges RxweKvi avb`vq †K ‡Kv_vq P‡j hvq Zvi †KvbÕ wVK wVKvbv bvB| gvbyl GLb GKvbZÕ
GKv | Av`g nvIqvi g‡Zv †KD miÕb`x‡c, -‡KD ev †R``vq| Zey wKQzKvj GKUv web`y‡K
†Kb`ª K‡i †hvMm~ÎUv iÿv Ki‡Z m‡Pó _v‡K| GB †hgb Avwg AvwQ e‡j †Zvgiv kZÕ
Sv‡gjvi †fZiI `y-KjÕg wjLvi mgq K‡i †bI| wKQzKvj nq‡Zv MjcÕ n‡q †eu‡P _vKeÕ
†Zvgvi ey`aÕi Kv‡Q, -GK †h wQ‡jv `v`v|
†Zvgiv Kv‡Q bvB e‡j GK mgq Kó n‡Zv| GLb fvewQ fv‡jvB n‡q‡Q | †`‡ki hv Ae¯’v|
XvKv wek¦we`¨vj‡qi GKwU ‡Q‡j Mywjwe`aÕ n‡q gviv †M‡jv, -bvg Avwid| †m †Q‡jwU
gva¨wgK I DPPÕ-gva¨wg‡K cÖ_g n‡q cvk K‡iwQ‡jv| gvbyl g‡i, -wKbZz G g„Zz¨i mvbZÕbv
†Kv_vq ! †Zvgvi Kv‡Q bvB, -`ytL n‡jI ¯^w¯Í‡Z AvwQ| Aek¨ me Avjjvni nv‡Z | gvbyl
†Zv me †`‡kB g‡i, -g„Zz¨nxb †KvbÕ †`k †bB| Z‡e Avgv‡`i AeyS gb| Avgiv me mgqB
kswKZÕ _vwK| ZvB †Zv me© kKwZgv‡bi Kv‡Q AvZg&-mgc©b K‡i wbivcZZv LyyuwR| GLb
Avwm gv, - †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ I wbivc` _v‡Kv ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
114
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 20-12-1989
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ †nvÕK| †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
MZ eQi GB w`‡b †Zvgiv XvKvq wQ‡j| GKwU eQi cvi n‡q †M‡jv| G eQiMy‡jv KvD‡K
†cQ‡b Uv‡b, Avevi KvD‡K mvg‡b †V‡j| Kv‡iv KvuPv `vwo cvKv K‡i, Avevi Kv‡iv `vwok~Y¨
gy‡L `vwoi AsKzi †ev‡b| Kv‡iv Kv‡iv gv‡S Aek¨ †Zgb †KvbÕ cwieZ©b jÿ¨ Kiv hvq bv|
hw`I mg‡qi wKªqv mgfv‡e w¯’i n‡q bvB| IjU Kgj MvQUvq MZev‡ii gZ GeviI ARmª
dzj dz‡U‡Q| GZ dzj ! dz‡ji fv‡i WvjMy‡jv bz‡q c‡o‡Q| Avi †QvUÕ-e‡ov cy®ú†Pvi‡`i Kx
Drcvr ! MbaÕ _vK ev bv _vK, me dzjB me gvbyl‡K AvKl©Y K‡i, -Aek¨ hviv †`L‡Z
cvq|
†Zvgiv mevB Kg †ekx me mgq Amy‡L fyM‡Qv| G AmyL †_‡K eywS `ywbqvi †KvbÕ RvqMvq
†KvbÕ cwiÎvY bvB| G‡Zv Ávb-weÁv‡bi PP©v K‡iI gvbyl AmyL-gyKZÕ GjvKv ˆZix Ki‡Z
cvi‡jv bv| ZvB nq‡Zv gvbyl AvRI †Lv`vi bvg †bq| gvbyl †hLv‡b Amnvq, -‡mLv‡b †Lv`v
mnvq| †Zvgv‡`i AmyL-wemy‡Li K_v kyb‡j,- ZvB †eva nq †Lv`vi `iev‡i nvZ DVvB| webv
Ily‡a ‡mB ‡Kej AviM¨ `vb K‡i| bB‡j `ywbqvq G‡Zv me Mixe gvbyl euvP‡Zv wK K‡i !
bwb Avi kvgx †Zvgv‡`i ILv‡b hvevi K_v| GL‡bv †eva nq hvqwb| K‡e ch©bZÕ hv‡e ZvI
Rvwb bv| bwbi mv‡_ enzw`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i †`Lv nq bv| kvgx‡K †Zv †KvbÕw`b †`‡LvBwb|
GKevi †`Lv n‡j Avi K‡Zv w`b c‡i †`Lv n‡e,- †KD Rv‡b bv| wcKz bvwK I‡`i †`Lvi
Rb¨ Aw¯’i n‡q Av‡Q| Ggwb K‡i `~‡i _vK‡Z _vK‡Z †eva nq `~i‡Z¡ nvwi‡q hvq| GKvbZÕ
Kv‡Qi gvbylwU evev-gvi gy‡Li MjcÕ n‡q hvq|
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Z‡e Kv‡Q †_‡KI †Zv nq bv| Avgvi Lvjvi evox‡Zv Kv‡QB wQ‡jv| gv‡qi †evb Lvjv|
Lvjvi mv‡_ Avi †KvbÕw`b †`Lv n‡jv bv| †kl †`Lv K‡e n‡qwQ‡jv ZvI g‡b †bB| Z‡e
Rxe‡bi †kl gyn~‡Z© Avgvi K_v Zvi g‡b wQ‡jv| e‡jwQ‡jv, -Ògv‡jK‡i Avi †`Ljvg bv!Ó|
†`L‡j wK n‡Zv Rvwb bv †Zv ! UvKv-cqmvi cÖkYÕ bq, -LvIqv civi K_v bq, -kyay GK
bRi †`Lv| GI hw` †`Lvi ÿgZv _v‡K| Zey †KbÕ GB †`Lvi Rb¨ gvbyl G‡Zv AvKzj nq
? G‡Zv Kó ¯^xKvi K‡i, -UvKv-cqmv LiPv K‡i †KbÕ ? wKbZz hv‡`i †PvL bvB, -‡`L‡Z
cvq bv ? ZvivI wK GgbwU K‡i| hw` Kvb _v‡K, -Kvb †c‡Z _v‡K GKwU KYVÕ¯^i ‡kvbvi
Rb¨| A‡bK AZx‡Zi GKwU enz cwiwPZ KYVÕ¯^i wK Avgiv AvRI kywb bv ? H †h -Òg‡b
nq evev †h‡bv WvwK‡Q Avgvq,- Avq LyKz Avq !Ó †PvL bv _vK‡jI, -Kvb bv _vK‡jI Avgiv
`wg bv| givi mgq bvwK †K GKRb Lvjvi nv‡Z nvZ †i‡L e‡jwQjÕ, -ÒAvwg gv‡jK !Ó|
Avi Lvjv Pÿy ebaÕ Ae¯’vq ÿxY ¯^‡i e‡jwQ‡jv, -Òbv, Zzwg gv‡jK bI !Ó| enzw`b A‡`Lvi
†e`bvB †eva nq Avgv‡K Zvi Kv‡Q G‡Zv NwblVÕ K‡i †i‡LwQ‡jv| wewPÎ gvby‡li gb !|
h‡ZvÿY Kv‡Q _v‡K, -Z‡ZvÿY Avgiv †Ui cvBbv |
Avgiv mevB fv‡jv AvwQ| †Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i gsMj Kvgbv K‡i AvR
GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
116
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 10-1-1990
‡QvUUÕ gv mygx,
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK ! †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv my¯¨’ ‡`‡n, my‡L-kvbwZ‡Z
wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
†Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q enz w`b wPwV wjwL bv| †Zvgv‡`i‡K †Kv_vq ‡Kvb wVKvbvq wjL‡ev, Avi
wjL‡jI cv‡e wKbv, Gme †f‡e †Zvgv‡`i‡K Avi wjLv nq bv|
AvR wjLwQ myB‡W‡bi wVKvbvq| ciky w`b eveb ‡dv‡b ej‡jv †Zvgiv bvwK GL‡bv wfmv
cvIwb| Gme DbbÕZ †`‡kI Gme Sv‡gjv| †Zvgv‡`i 9/10 wW‡mgeÕ‡ii wjLv KviW I
wPwV †cjvg Rvbyqvix‡Z| †Zvgvi gv cÖvqB †dvb K‡i †Zvgv‡`i Lei Rvb‡Z Pvb| Aek¨
Avgv‡`i Kv‡Q ‡Zvgiv ‡h Òfv‡jv Av‡Qv Ó GZUzKBz Rvb‡Z cv‡ib| †Zvgv‡`i †dvb †c‡j
eveb Avgv‡`i‡K Rvbvq|
Gevi kxZ GKUz †ekxB c‡o‡Q| kx‡Z DZZÕi evsjvq wKQz †jvK gvivI †M‡Q| Gevi †`‡k
gv‡Qi Lye Afve| gv‡Q goK †j‡M‡Q, - me gvQ g‡i †M‡Q| ZwiZiKvixi Aek¨ Afve
bvB, -`vg GKUz †ekx| ó¨vgc cvIqv hvq bv e‡j Mvoxi †ivW cviwgU GL‡bv cvBwb| evoxi
my‡q‡iR jvBb e‡ov Amyweav Ki‡Q| evoxi is Avi wmuwoi †gvRvBK GLbI nqwb| †Zvgvi
PvPvi evoxi bxPZjvi KvR †kl n‡q‡Q| Avgvi XvKv mevB fv‡jv | †gNjv, Pb`Õbv, Iiv
me fv‡jv Av‡Q| Zgv Av‡Mi g‡ZvB| AvDqvj P‡j †M‡Q|
†Zvgv‡`i me©vsMxb Kzkj Kvgbv K‡i Gevi ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
117
gnv‡dR cvZv - 53KLMNOP
118
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 13-3-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni ingZ ‡nvÕK ! †Zvgviv ‡h‡bv my¯¨’ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z, wbivc‡`
I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b ci †Zvgvi wPwV †cjvg| Gi Av‡M eve‡bi wPwV †c‡qwQjvg| †Zvgv‡`i wVKvbv
Rvwb Zey wjL‡Z cvwi bv| wKQz gvby‡li wVKvbv Rvbv bvB, ZeyI wjL‡Z B‡”Q K‡i| G me
gvbyl ‡h †Kv_vq P‡j hvq, wVKvbv e‡j hvq bv| wb‡RivI Avi Rvbv wVKvbvq wPwV †`q bv|
mygxi evev †mw`b †Kv_vq ‡h P‡j †M‡jv, -e‡j †M‡jv bv| Gi~c wVKvbv jyKv‡bv gvbylMy‡jv‡K
LuyR‡Z LuyR‡Z AvgivI GKw`b wVKvbv-nviv n‡q nvwi‡q hvB|
MZKvj eyey‡K †`L‡Z †gvnvggÕ`cyi wM‡qwQjvg| A‡bK w`b a‡i eyey‡K ‡`wLwb| Avi †`Lv
nq wKbv †K Rv‡b !
mygxi evev Avgvi †P‡q 5/6 eQ‡ii †QvUÕ wQ‡jv| gvbylUv e‡ov †`gvMx wQ‡jv| evox wQ‡jv
bv| mvfv‡i †h evox wQ‡jv ZvI †Zgb fv‡jv wQ‡jv bv| ZeyI †mLv‡bB wZwb _vK‡Z
PvB‡Zb, -_vK‡Z cvi‡jb bv | e‡ov †g‡qi evox‡Z _vK‡Zb | wKbZz GUv Zv‡K e‡ov cxov
w`‡Zv| Z‡e me‡P‡q Zvi e‡ov e¨_vUv †Kv_vq wQ‡jv Avgvi Rvbv wQ‡jv bv| GKivk e¨_v
nvwmi Avov‡j ‡i‡L P‡j ‡M‡jb | ey‡ov eq‡m gvbyl wK Pvq ? Macbeth e‡jwQjÕ, -And
that which would accompany old age, as love, obedience, troops of friends.|
GUvB ey‡ov eq‡mi Kvg¨| †kl eq‡m GKwU wRwb‡liB e‡ov Afve N‡U| me Av‡eM,
AvKvsLv, AvbÕb`Õ hLb dywi‡q hvq, ZLwb gvbyl Kvgbv K‡i, A cottage low still with bowers nigh,
Shadows my owes to still until I die.
119
gv, †kl Rxe‡b gvby‡li †d‡j Avmv w`bMywjB myb`Õi n‡q †`Lv †`q, hw`I †mB w`bMy‡jv
Avngwi ejvi g‡Zv myb`Õi ev my‡Li wQ‡jv bv| gvbyl g‡i wM‡q †hgb myb`Õi n‡q hvq,
AZxZUvI †Zgwb i~c †bq|
gv, †Zvgvi wcKz-ey`aÕ †Kgb Av‡Q ? wcKz wK GL‡bv wjL‡Z cv‡i bv ? I wPwV wj‡L bv
†Kb?
mygxi fvB‡qi †g‡q mvwebv bvwK Zvi `v`vi givi jv‡ki cv‡k e‡m A‡bK †Ku‡`wQ‡jv| Zvi
†QvUÕwU wKQyB ey‡S bv, -‡eva nq †Zvgvi ey`aÕi g‡Zv eqm| mygxi e‡ov PvPv gviv †M‡jb
MZÕ eQi| Pvi fvB‡qi g‡a¨ wQ‡jb †Kej mygxi evev| wZwbI wM‡q fvB‡`i mv‡_ GK
†bŠKvq DV‡jb|
gv, †Zvgiv `~‡i Av‡Qv e‡j Avgvi †KvbÕ `ytL bvB| †Zvgiv fvjv Av‡Qv Rvb‡Z cvi‡jB
Avgvi myL| c„w_exi wbRm¯^ †KvbÕ Av‡jv bvB, -m~‡h©i Av‡jv‡Z Av‡jvwKZÕ nq| gvby‡li
‡kl RxebUv †eva nq †Zgwb| wbR¯^ myL-`ytL nvwi‡q †d‡j, avi Kiv myL `yt‡L nv‡m,
Kvu‡`|
gv, Avwg hv wjLjvg Zv wK wPwV n‡jv ? kvgxi evev mygxi wPwVMy‡jv GKUv dvB‡ji g‡a¨
Zvwi‡Li Kªg Abymv‡i myb`Õi K‡i mvwR‡q ivL‡Zb| mygx‡Zv evevi Kv‡Q Avi wPwV wjL‡e
bv| ‡KvbÕw`b ‡`‡k G‡j nq‡Zv †`L‡e mvwR‡q †i‡L hvIqv Zvi wPwVMy‡jv, -nq‡Zv
iexb`ªbv‡_i g‡Zv cÖkœ Ki‡e,
Òhv‡i Zzwg †i‡LwQ‡j K‡i GZÕ †mœnÕ,
†Zvgv‡i †Zgb K‡i iv‡Lwb wK †KnÕ ?Ó
BwZ, ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
120
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 28-3-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb ! †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv my¯_ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z I wbivc‡` _v‡Kv!
gv, ‡Zvgvi wPwV cvIqvi ci wj‡LwQ wKbv g‡b c‡o bv| AvRKvj A‡bK wKQzB g‡b _v‡K
bv| GKevi ‡K ‡h‡bv e‡jwQ‡jv GK ey‡ov bvwK fvZ †L‡q‡Q wK bv g‡b _vK‡Zv bv| g‡b bv
_vKvUv Aek¨ ‡KvbÕ ‡KvbÕ mgq fv‡jv| AZx‡Zi A‡bK wKQzB †Zv g‡b bvB| ¯g„wZi MYWx
†h‡bv KªgktB ms‡KvwPZÕ n‡q Av‡m| K‡Zv †jv‡Ki bvg †h fz‡j †MwQ| ¯gib Ki‡Z cvwi
bv e‡j Kó nq| g„Zz¨‡Z †evanq me wKQzB ¯giYvZxZ n‡q hvq| AvZg&vi g‡a¨ †evanq
¯giYvZxZ nIqvi e¨_vUvB _v‡K| nq‡Zv me wKQz wgwj‡q GKUv ¯^cYÕ-¯g„wZi g‡ZvB †eu‡P
_v‡K|
GKUz Av‡M ‡gvnvggÕ`cyi †dvb K‡iwQjvg| Iiv fv‡jv Av‡Q| ixbvi evPPvi Lye nuvcvbx
n‡qwQ‡jv,- GLb fv‡jv | eyeyi cv‡qi e¨_v †Q‡o‡Q, -GLb Avevi nv‡Z e¨_v| gvby‡li †kl
eq‡m GgwUB N‡U|
gvbyl, wb‡Ri Kv‡Qi gvbyl hLb `~‡i P‡j hvq, ZLb †dv‡b K_v e‡j, ZvievZ©v cvVvq, wPwV
wj‡L, wKbZz †Pv‡L †`‡L bv| †Pv‡L †`‡L bv e‡j Avc‡mvQ K‡i| wKbZz hvi †PvL bvB, Zvi
bv †`Lvi Avc‡mvQ bvB| Kv‡b hviv ky‡b bv, K_v ej‡Z hviv cv‡i bv, ‡Uwj‡dvb Zv‡`i
†KvbÕ Kv‡R Av‡m bv| †PvL, gyL, Kvb ebaÕ n‡q †M‡j GKUv Amnvq Abyf~wZ †eu‡P _v‡K|
†KbÕ Rvwb bv, AvRKvj me ev‡R ewK| mygxi evev kvgxi wPwVMz‡jv †Kgb myb`Õi K‡i
mvwR‡q †i‡LwQ‡jv| GLb mygxI Avi evev‡K wPwV wjL‡e bv| wVKvbv †Kv_vq cv‡e ?
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†Zvgv‡`i wPwV wKbZz Avwg mvwR‡q ivwL bv| K‡Zv wPwV †Zvgv‡`i K‡ZvLv‡b G‡jv†g‡jv
c‡o Av‡Q| Avwg e‡ov Avj‡m| mygx GKevi KZÕMy‡jv wPwV eve‡bi †`Iqv dvB‡j MzwQ‡q
†i‡LwQ‡jv|
GL‡bv ‡Zvgv‡`i wjLwQ, †ZvgivI wj‡Lv| c‡i nq‡Zv Avi †KD †Zvgv‡`i‡K wjL‡e bv|
wPwV wjL‡Z Rvb‡jB mevB wPwV wj‡L bv, -wjLvi g‡Zv gb PvB| evev A‡bK mgq Avgvi
wPwV ‡c‡Z ‡`ix n‡j kvKZjvq Avgvi wPwV LzuR‡Z Avm‡Zb| AvR K‡Zv eQi ch©šÍ evev
wPwVi †LuvR K‡ib bvB| kvKZjvi ‡mB †cvógvlUviI AvR †bB| Avwg wPwV wjwL Ab¨ R‡bi
Kv‡Q| †KD †KD AZx‡Z ----------- ?
29-3-1990: G‡ZvUzKz wj‡LB Kjg †Q‡o w`‡qwQjvg MZKvj iv‡Z| K_vUv †kl Kivi
Av‡M Kjg †U‡b wb‡qwQ‡jv Zgv| AvR ‡fv‡iB fy‡j †MwQ wK ej‡Z †P‡qwQjvg| Ggwb K‡i
nq‡Zv GKw`b †kl wPwVUvI Avav wjLv n‡q _vK‡e|
†Zvgiv nq‡Zv Avev‡iv evsjv‡`‡k Avm‡e| Avm‡j ‡`L‡e A‡bK wKQz nvwi‡q †M‡Q| Avi
nviv‡bvi ¯’vb `Lj K‡i wb‡q‡Q bZz‡biv| †Zvgv‡`i GK mgq hviv wPb‡Zv Zviv bvB|
A‡Pbviv wR‡Ám Ki‡e, -ÒGiv Kviv ?Ó| hviv GKvbZÕ Kv‡Q wQ‡jv, ZvivI K‡Zv `~i n‡q
†M‡Q| G Rxe‡b K‡Zv RvqMvq †Mjvg| K‡Zv †jv‡Ki mv‡_ cwiPq n‡jv, -NwblVÕZv n‡jv|
GgbwK A‡b‡Ki bvg wVKvbvI g‡b Av‡Q| A‡b‡Ki Lei †c‡qwQ, -Iiv bvB| Avi A‡b‡K
Av‡Q wKbv Rvwb bv| _vK‡jI, ÒbvBÓ-Gi LvZv bvg wjLv n‡q †M‡Q| AvwgI ‡Zv Zv‡`i
Kv‡Q nq‡Zv GgbwUB| A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ ivqnv‡bi Lei Rvwb bv| wVKvbv Rvwb| GKUv
wPwV wj‡L Rvb‡Z mvnm nq bv| GLb †Zv †Zvgiv wj‡Lv| Avgvi wjLv †c‡Z ‡`ix n‡j ‡dvb
K‡i K‡Zv cqmv LiP K‡iv ! GKw`b nq‡Zv Avi wjL‡e bv, ‡dvbI Ki‡e bv cÖ‡qvRb bvB
e‡j| cÖ‡qvR‡b Aek¨ _vK‡e, Z‡e Avgvi Rb¨ bq|
GLb Avwg Avwm gv| †Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ iB‡jv Avgvi †mœnÕ I †`vqv| †Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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brev – LVI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 8-4-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK ! †Zvgv‡`i mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z I
wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
gv, mygxi evev P‡j †M‡jv ! †kl K_v n‡jv bv| Avwg ZLb †`‡ki evwo‡Z wQjvg| mygxi
evev †kl K_v e‡j †h‡Z cv‡iwb| †kl K_v wKQz ejvi wQ‡jv wKbv ZvI Rvwb bv|
nvmcvZv‡j hvIqvi mgq bvwK mygxi gv‡K e‡jwQ‡jv, -ÓAvwgI nvmcvZv‡j Pjjvg,
†ZvgviI cv fvsM‡jv !Ó mygxi evev‡K nvmcvZv‡j †bIqvi mgq wmuwo‡Z c‡o mygxi gv‡qi
cv‡q †PvU †j‡MwQ‡jv| mygxi evev nvmcvZv‡j gviv hvq | gviv hvIqvi mgq mygxi gv Kv‡Q
wQ‡jv bv |
w`b K‡qK Av‡M wM‡qwQjvg mygxi gv‡K †`L‡Z| †`‡L Gjvg RvqMvwU ‡hLv‡b mygxi evev
_vK‡Zv| GjvKvwU wbwiwewj| mvg‡b Av‡Q GKUv †LvjvgvV, -avb‡ÿZ| evivb`vq `vuov‡j
†ek `~‡ii AvKvk †`Lv hvq| GLv‡b bvwK cÖvq mygxi evev `uvwo‡q evwn‡ii w`‡K †P‡q
_vK‡Zv| iy‡gi †fZi, - †hLv‡b _vK‡Zb, A‡bK eB-cÎ ¯Í‡i ¯Í‡i mvRv‡bv, - wj÷ Kiv
wdZv w`‡q euvav| mygxi evev-gv †`vZjvq _vK‡Zb | Ab¨ iy‡g _v‡K Amy¯’ †g‡qwU| Avcb
Rb Avi †KD _v‡K bv| Aek¨ Ab¨ gvbyl _v‡K| GKwU †g‡q, GKwU †g‡q†jvK †`Ljvg|
Av‡iv GKwU cyiyl †jvKI Av‡Q| e‡ov †g‡q G me e¨e¯’v K‡i w`‡q‡Q| evoxwU e‡ov †g‡qi,
-GLv‡b _v‡K bv| gvbyl `ywbqvq GKv Av‡m, Avevi GKvB P‡j hvq| wKbZz wKQz gvby‡li
hvIqvi c~e©eZx© wKQzUv mgq GKvKxZ¡ wb‡qB Kv‡U, -msM †`Iqvi †KD _v‡K bv, -_vK‡jI
w`‡Z Pvq bv| G AfveUv c~iY Ki‡Z cv‡i †Kej KvR| ZvB †eva nq mygxi gv G eq‡mI
KvR Ki‡Z Pvq|
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13-4-1990: †ek wKQzw`b Av‡MB wPwVUv wjL‡Z kyiy K‡iwQjvg| ‡Zvgv‡`i wPwV nq‡Zv Gi
g‡a¨ cv‡ev| AvR mygxi evevi ‡Pnvjvg| mygxi evevi g„Zz¨i c‡i wjLv †KvbÕ wPwV mygxi KvQ
†_‡K GL‡bv cvBwb| BP‡Q K‡iB nq‡Zv wj‡Lwb| nq‡Zv gb Lvivc ZvB| wPwV wjL‡Z n‡e
bv Avi evevi Kv‡Q | evevI Avi wPwVi Avkvq _vK‡e bv |
eyey AvR †`‡ki evwo‡Z hvIqvi K_v, -Mixe gvbzl‡K †ivRvi mgq wKQz Kvco-†Pvco
wejvevi Rb¨| Avevi P‡j Avm‡eb ZvovZvwo| XvKv‡ZB C` Ki‡eb| wZwb †ivRv K‡ib|
Avwg GKw`b wM‡qwQjvg, Avi hvIqv nqwb| wjwj I †ZvZv AvR dwi`cyi hv‡e| †ZvZvi
evevi g„Zy¨evwl©Kx GB gv‡m| Gfv‡e KyjLvbx, ‡Pnjvg Ges g„Zz¨evwl©Kx myev‡` Mixe gvby‡li
fv‡M¨ wKQz fv‡jv Lvbv †Rv‡U| Aek¨ AvRKvj abxiv G‡Z fvM ewm‡q‡Q| me mgq Mix‡ei
Kcvj gb`Õ| fv‡jv wKQzz G‡`i cvB‡Z gvbv| KvcoUv hLb `vb K‡i, wbK…ó KvcowU †`B|
LvIqv‡Z †M‡jI fv‡jv Lvevi w`‡Z gb †Kgb K‡i| A_PÕ GUv nIqvi K_v wQ‡jv bv|
G‡`i cÖZ¨vkv ‡Zv abx‡`i Kv‡Q `y'GKUv w`‡bi Rb¨ wfbbÕ iKg wQ‡jv| H GKUv K_v Av‡Q
bv, - ÓAfvMv ‡hw`‡K Pvq, mvMi kywK‡q hvqÓ|
Avwg Gevi †ivRvi mgq KvD‡K wKQz w`‡Z cvwiwb| Avwg †Zv w`‡Z cvwi bv| †Zvgiv wKQz
w`‡j ZvB w`B| Gevi bwbI †Zv wKQz w`jÕ bv, ev w`‡ZI ej‡jv bv| ZvB †`Iqv n‡jv bv|
Aek¨ AbRy bvwK evox‡Z Mixe AvZg&xq-¯^Rb†`i wKQz Kvco w`‡q‡Q| ‡Zvgvi PvPviI
Gevi Afve, -evox wb‡q Sv‡gjvq Av‡Q| Z‡e Rv‡bv gv, Mixe AvZg&xq-¯^R‡biv
Avgv‡`i‡K cqmvIqvjv g‡b K‡i| ‡Q‡jiv we‡`‡k _v‡K, -K‡Zv UvKv Kvgvq| wKbZz
Avgvi AwaKvi †h K‡Zv mxgveÕ`aÕ, Zv †KD Rv‡b bv| Aek¨ †Zgb AwaKvi _vK‡jI
w`Zvg wKbv †K Rv†b ! ZLb wK †m gb _vK‡Zv ? nq‡Zv Avevi †Q‡j‡g‡q‡`i Kv‡QI AwcÖq
n‡q ‡hZvg|
A‡bK eKjvg gv| K‡e ‡Kvbw`b KjgUv Avevi GKev‡i †_‡g hvq †K Rv‡b !
GLb ivwL| †Zvgiv mevB fv‡jv _v‡Kv Ges my‡L _v‡Kv ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LVII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 7-5-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK ! ‡h‡bv †Zvgiv my¯_‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ I
wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
‡M‡jv kyKªevi Avgiv †gvnvggÕ`cyi wM‡qwQjvg| †f‡ewQjvg ixYv evmvq G‡m‡Q| kybjvg
Zv‡K Av‡iv wZb-Pvi w`b wK¬wb‡K _vK‡Z n‡e| ‡`ix Kwiwb| AvKv‡k †gN R‡gwQ‡jv| Avi
Gevi ‡Zv e„wói mv‡_ me mgq So D‡V| Mvoxi I‡qfviUv APj| ZvB e„wói mgq Mvox
Pvjv‡bv hvq bv| ‡eŠgvB †Kej evmvq ‡R‡M wQ‡jv| Avwid I evPPviv NygyPwQ‡jv| ixbvi
kvkyox GLv‡bB Av‡Q| ixbvi †`‡ki evoxi wM‡q C` Kivi K_v wQ‡jv| ixbvi kvkyox
XvKv‡Z C` K‡i‡Q| Ggwb nq| Avgiv hv PvB, hv Avkv Kwi, ZvÕ†Zv me mgq nq bv|
Avgvi kixi †gvUvgzwU fv‡jvB Av‡Q| Kwe mywdqv Kvgv‡ji Ae¯’v fv‡jv bv| Avi K‡ZvB ev
fv‡jv _vK‡e| eqm †Zv 79 eQi| 77-G Avwg cÖvq APj|
evoxi cvk w`‡q wek¦‡ivW hvP‡Q| gvjxevM †ij‡MU †_‡K wLjMvu †ij‡MU GK`g dvuKv|
gvjxevM evRvi †fs‡M w`‡q‡Q| G evRv‡i cÖwZw`b cÖvq `yÕGKevi †MwQ| GL‡bv mKvj
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weKvj hvB| Z‡e evRvi Ki‡Z bq, -†eov‡Z| cÖk¯_ DuPz iv¯Ív| GL‡bv KvR †kl nqwb|
ZvB hvbevnb P‡j bv|
†fv‡ii nvIqv †L‡Z Avi iv¯Ívi KvR-Kg© †`L‡Z bvix-cyiy‡li Xj| Avi AMybwZ †QvUÕ †QvUÕ
†Q‡j†g‡q‡`i `j| me wKQzB †ekx n‡j Zvi K`i _v‡K bv| we‡`‡k †Zv evsjv‡`‡ki g‡Zv
G‡Zv †Q‡j†g‡q Rb‡gI bv, g‡iI bv| ZvB †h †`‡k wkkyi wkkyi Ggb RbgÕnvi bvB, †m
†`‡k wkky‡`i wb‡q G‡Zv KvovKvwo, -kZel©x dy‡ji g‡Zv| G‡`‡ki AwaKvsk wkky
Abvn~Z| ZvB Zv‡`i giv evuPv wb‡q †KD †Zgb gv_v Nvgvq bv| g‡i †M‡j GKgvÎ
Mf©avwibx gv Qvov e‡ov GKUv †KD Kvu‡` bv| †h g‡i, †mI †eva nq `ytL K‡i bv| †eu‡P
_vKvi ¯^v_©KZv hv‡`i †Pv‡Li mvg‡b bvB, - AhvwPZÕ hviv G‡mwQ‡jv, Ae‡njv Abv`i
wb‡qB Zviv P‡j hvq| G evsjvq wd‡i Avmvi †KvbÕ AvKvsLv wb‡q Zviv g‡i bv| Zviv g‡i
gv-evevi Rb¨ †e‡n‡¯Íi `iRv ‡Lvjv ivL‡Z|
gv, cwi‡ek‡K Avcb K‡i wb‡Z bv cvi‡j ‡eu‡P _vKv KóKi nq| Avevi bZyb cwi‡e‡k
co‡j wKQzw`b A¯^mwZ †eva K‡i| gvwUi GKwU we‡kl ag© Av‡Q| `ywbqvi me wKQzB Zvi
Avcb Rb| †m KvD‡K we‡kl myweav †`q bv, -Avevi KvD‡K Avcb e„Z‡Zi my‡hvM-myweav
†_‡K ebwPZÕ K‡i bv| Z‡e ey`waRxwe cªvYxMy‡jvB hZ MYWÕ‡Mvj evuavq| gvZ…f~wg e‡j
†KvbÕ wKQz bvB| wKQz m¦v_©v†b¯^x gvbyl GK‡RvU n‡q GKUv GjvKv wbw`©ó K‡i wek¦Uv‡K fvM
K‡i wb‡q‡Q wb‡R‡`i myL-myweavi Rb¨| PZzi gvbylMy‡jv †evKv gvbylMy‡jv‡K fzjv‡q gvZ…f~wg
bvgK †Uvc wMwj‡q `‡j Uv‡b| Gfv‡e gv emybaÕiv‡K fvM-euv‡Uvqviv K‡i †i‡L‡Q ¯^v_©ci
gvbyl|
wKbZz cÖK„wZ Zvi cÖwZ†kva wbP‡Q| evsjv‡`‡k wkky Rb‡gi nvi †ekx Ges g„Zy¨i nviI
†ekx| Avevi †KvbÕ †KvbÕ †`‡k wkky RbgÕnvi Kg Ges e„`aÕ‡`i g„Zz¨i nviI Kg| wKQzw`b
ci †mme †`‡k wkky I e„`‡ai nvi mgvb mgvb n‡q hv‡e| GgbwK e„`‡ai msL¨v wkky‡`i
PvB‡Z †ekx n‡e| cwievi cwiKjcÕbvq mevB jvfevb nq bv| DbbÕZgv‡bi gvby‡liv
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msL¨vjNy n‡q hvq, -Avi wbgbÕgvb gvby‡li msL¨v ev‡o| KviY cwiKjcÕbvq A_©‰bwZK
gyKwZ‡Z Giv wek¦vmx bq|
MZÕKvj Avgvi GK mnKgx© gviv ‡M‡jv| weMZ Qq gvm hver K¨vbmv‡i fzMwQ‡jv| Kó †c‡q
gi‡jv| ‡i‡L ‡M‡Q `kwU mbZvb| cvuP †Q‡j, cuvP †g‡q| e‡ov †Q‡j †gRi, Gi †QvUÕwU
PviUvW GKvDb‡UbU| `yB †g‡qi we‡q n‡q‡Q| evKx †Q‡j†g‡qiv GL‡bv c‡o| gvÎ `zB
eQi Av‡M †cbkb wb‡qwQ‡jv| e‡ov fv‡jv †jvK wQ‡jv| Avgvi mv‡_ Zvi wQ‡jv Lye
NwblVÕZv| evwMPvq wbR¯^ evox| AvR dR‡ii ci Zvi RvbvRvq kixK njvg|
wek¦Uv h‡Zv †QvUÕ nP‡Q RvwZ bv‡g gvbyl Z‡Zv evo‡Q| GKw`b eZ©gvb evsjv‡`‡ki gvbyl
mviv fviZ Lykx g‡Zv Ny‡i †eov‡Z cvi‡Zv| AvR eZ©gvb fviZ evsjv‡`‡ki Pvicv‡k©¦
KuvUvZv‡ii †eov w`‡q‡Q| GLb gvby‡li cwiP‡qi PvB‡Z RvwZi cwiPq e‡ov| ‡kÖbx†f‡`i
PvB‡Z RvwZ‡f` AwZ gvivZg&K| ivwkqv fvsM‡Q, weªwUk ivR¨ fvsM‡Q, fviZI fvsM‡e|
cvwK¯Ív‡bi cvuP RvwZ, -fvi‡Zi AmsL¨ RvwZ wK G fviZ bv‡g †eu‡P _vK‡e, -wU‡K _vK‡e?
g‡b nq bv| MY‡Kiv A‡b¨i fv‡jv-gb`Õ My‡Y| MyY‡Z Rv‡b bv †Kej wb‡RiUv|
GLb ivwL gv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LVIII
XvKv, 15-12-1410 wnRix
gv gxby,
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z nDK ! †Zvgiv mevB mzL-kvbwZ‡Z, my¯_‡`‡n, AvbÕb`Õ I wbivc‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bKw`b ch©bZÕ †`wLI bv, -wjwLI bv| gvbyl Af¨v‡mi `vm| A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ bv
†`L‡j ev bv wjL‡j †eva nq †`Lv I wjLv BPQvUvI nªvm cvq| G‡`‡ki gvbylMy‡jv Afve
AbU‡b _vK‡Z _vK‡Z Af¨¯Í n‡q †M‡Q| ‰`b¨ Zv‡`i Zxeª AvNvZ †`q e‡j g‡b nq bv|
w`‡j Zviv nq‡Zv ev Av‡gv` Avnjv` Ki‡Zv bv|
C` †M‡jv| Gevi Avgv‡`i Miyi `vg `k nvRvi UvKv| UvKvi gvcKvwV w`‡q Lykx gvcv hvq
bv| †h‡bv †Z‡bv GKUv Miy †KvievYx w`‡q Mix‡eiv Drme K‡i| fv‡M cvq nq 5/7 †mi
†MvkZ| †Mvk‡Z †Zgb †Zj-gkjvI w`‡Z cv‡i bv| Zey Zv‡`i C‡`i AvbÕb‡` †KvbÕ
KgwZ †bB| Z‡e Zv‡`i g‡a¨ evnv`yixI †bB| Zv‡`i †QvUUÕ PvIqv| †QvUUÕ cvIqvv‡ZB
Lykx| Zv‡`i RbgÕ-g„Zz¨ nvwm-Kvbbvi evovevwo †bB| me wKQzB Giv mnR fv‡e MÖnb Ki‡Z
cv‡i| g‡bi `ytL cÖKv‡ki Rb¨ GKwU `xN© wbtk¦vmB h‡_ó| AZxZ‡K wb‡q Giv UvbvUvwb
K‡i bv| fwel¨‡Zi myL-¯^cYÕ eZ©gvb `yt‡Li mvbZÕbv| DZZÕivwaKvi m~‡Î cvIqv `vwi‡`ªi
KkvNv‡Z Iiv Af¨¯Í n‡q †M‡Q|
GB ‡h wPwV wjLv, wcÖqR‡bi Kv‡Q wPwV wjLv, -gy‡L bq, Kj‡gi gva¨‡g myL-`yt‡Li K_v
ejv, -GUvI hviv wjL‡Z Rv‡b Zv‡`i GKUv Af¨vm, -cvIqvUvI GKUv Af¨vm| bv wjL‡Z
wjL‡Z, -bv †c‡Z †c‡Z, †mUvI GKUv wbwe©Kvi Af¨v‡m cwiYZÕ n‡q hvq| Avgv‡`i GLv‡b
mvZZvi WvKZv‡ii GK †Q‡j wM‡qwQ‡jv we‡`‡k| enzw`b ch©šÍ †Kvb ‡LvuR-Lei wQ‡jv bv|
c‡i Lei †c‡q‡Q Ab¨ gvby‡li KvQ †_‡K, -‡m †eu‡P Av‡Q| †KvbÕ wVKvbv †`q bv, -wPwVI
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†`q bv| WvKZvi ej‡jv, -Ò†LvuR bv cvIqv ch©bZÕ Lvivc jvM‡Zv| GLb Avi jv‡M bv|
Rvwb †Kv_vI nq‡Zv Av‡Q| Z‡e Kv‡iv †KvbÕ cÖ‡qvRb †bB|Ó
G‡Zv eQi ch©šÍ †Zvgiv Av‡Qv †Pv‡Li Avov‡j, -gv‡S g‡a¨ KYVÕ¯^i kywb †Zvgvi I
eve‡bi| wcKzi KY‡V kywb we‡`kx evsjv| ey`aÕ nq‡Zv ZvI cvi‡e bv| evsjv‡`‡ki gvbyl
†eva nq we‡`kx wRwbl‡K cQÕb`Õ K‡i, -we‡`‡ki gvwUI ! Aek¨ ¯^‡`k we‡`‡ki mwVK
†KvbÕ msÁv bvB| GK mgq Avgiv fviZ‡K ¯^‡`k ejZvg| Avevi cvwK¯Ívb‡KI ¯^‡`k
ejZvg| GLb ¯^‡`k ej‡Z evsjv‡`k eywS| Avevi †`‡ki wfZ‡iI GK GjvKvi gvbyl Ab¨
GjvKv‡K we‡`‡ki g‡ZvB g‡b K‡i| GL‡bv enz gvbyl G‡`‡ki wbw`©ó GjvKvq jvwjZÕcvwjZÕ nIqvi ci Ab¨ GjvKvq †M‡j ‡m GjvKv‡K ci‡`k g‡b K‡i| GB ‡`L‡Qv bv
†Zvgvi gv XvKv G‡m myL-mvPQÕb‡`i g‡a¨ evm K‡iI myL cvq bv, - kvKZjvi Rb¨ QUcU
K‡i| Gev‡i C‡` wKbZz XvKvq bvB| A_PÕ evsjv‡`‡ki mxgvbv Qvov‡q †M‡jB gvbyl, G‡`‡ki gvbyl Ab¨ iKg n‡q hvq| Avevi G‡`‡k †_‡KI we‡`kx me wKQzi w`‡K AvKwl©Z
nq| G ‡`‡ki wKQzB fv‡jv bv, -me fv‡jv we‡`‡k| ÒI cv‡i‡Z h‡Zv myL Avgvi wek¦vm|Ó
eZ©gv‡b †eva nq evsjv‡`kx‡`i gvbwmKZv GB avivq avegvb| GUv GK ai‡Yi †ivM|
†Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ Avi †`Lv n‡e wKbv Rvwb bv| Avgvi G‡Z Aek¨ †KvbÕ `ztL _vK‡e bv|
Avwg †Zv gb †_‡K me mgq †Zvgv‡`i †`wL| g‡b nq gi‡Yi c‡i I †`L‡ev| Z‡e GKUv
K_v g‡b †i‡Lv, -we‡`‡k †eu‡P _vKvq myL _vK‡jI Rxe‡bi gh©v`v †bB|
A‡bK eKjvg, GLb Avwm gv|
†Zvgv‡`i mevi Kv‡Q iB‡jv Avgvi cÖvYXvjv †`vqv I eyKfiv ggZv|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LIX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 6-9-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn ‡g‡nievb †Zvgv‡`i mz¯_ ivLyb ! †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv wbivc‡` I myL-kvbwZ‡Z _v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b ci †Zvgvi †jLv ‡cjvg| Aek¨ †Zvgv‡`i Lei cvB cÖwZ mcZv‡nB| †Zvgiv
we‡`‡k _v‡Kv| we‡`‡k _vKvUv‡K G‡`‡ki gvbyl †MŠie g‡b K‡i| Z‡e Avgvi Kv‡Q g‡b
nq, -ÒIcv‡i‡Z hZ myL Avgvi wek¦vmÓ -Gi g‡Zv| KviY Avgvi g‡bi Avqbvq †Zvgv‡`i
my‡Li Qwe †`wL bv| g‡b nq wK †h‡bv GK AbaÕ †gv‡ni wcQ‡b Qz‡U P‡j‡Qv| GB †QvUvi
†h‡bv †kl bvB| gv, gvbyl my‡Li mbav‡b Qz‡U †eovq| wKbZz wK‡m myL †m ‡Zv Rv‡b bv|
Òhvnv PvB Zvnv fzj K‡i PvB, -hvnv cvB Zvnv PvB bv|Ó KzgfÕKY© †P‡qwQ‡jv eQ‡i Qq gvm
Nywg‡q KvUv‡bvi ei| kyb‡Z ‡eLvccv jv‡M| wKbZz eQ‡ii evKx Qq gvm ‡Zv ‡m ‡R‡M
KvUv‡Zv| AvgivI ‡Zv eQ‡ii Qq gvm Nywg‡q KvUvB| Z‡e GKvav‡i NygvB bv| w`‡b RvwM,
iv‡Z NygvB| Avevi w`‡bI duvK †c‡j NygvB| KvR bv _vK‡j NygvB| Nygv‡bvI ‡Zv GKUv
KvR| Z‡e Amgq Avgv‡`i Nyg fvsMv‡bvi Rb¨ †Xvj †cUv‡Z nq bv|
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ejwQjvg wK, -`ywbqvq mevB‡Zv my‡Li avbavq Nyi‡Q| wKbZz †c‡q‡Q wK ? GKUv †c‡j Avi
GKUv nvivq| Avwg hv ejjvg Zv Avgvi g‡bi K_v| mevi gb ‡Zv GK iKg bq | mevB
†Zv Avi GB iKg my‡Li KvOLx bq| Z‡e GKUv K_v gv g‡b †i‡Lv, -myL Lyu‡R cvIqv hvq
bv| G GKUv mvabvi ab| †Zvgvi wcKz bvwK kvgx‡K e‡jwQ‡jv, -ÒmZ¨B hw` Avgv‡K ‡mœnÕ
K‡iv, Z‡e Avgvi Rb¨ Kvu`‡Qv bv †KbÕ ?Ó GKUz Lvwb †QvUUÕ gvby‡li †h AvwemKvi, -mnR
mij cÖkYÕ, GKw`b Zvi DZZÕi Lyu‡R cv‡e wblVzi ev¯Í‡ei KvQ †_‡K|
†Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q wPwV wjwL bv, -wjL‡Z cvwi bv, -wjLv Av‡m bv| wK GK RoZv Avj‡mgx
G‡m c_ AvM‡j _v‡K, mvg‡b Pj‡Z †`q bv| wK n‡e Gme wj‡L? G wK GKUv KvR ?
gvby‡li KvR hLb _v‡K bv, -Zvi euvPvi AvbÕb`ÕI _v‡K bv| Avevi †h KvR Ki‡ZI cv‡i
bv, -Zvi Kievi ÿgZv nvwi‡q hvq| Kv‡Ri †cQ‡b †h kKwZ ‡cÖiYv †hvMvq, †m wbt‡kl
n‡q hvq| GB †h †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q wjLwQ AvR wZbw`b a‡i, -Avi ‡Zvgvi Lvjv ZvwM` w`P‡Q
‡kl Kivi Rb¨| Avwg ewj, -wPwV wjLv‡Zv A‡bK Av‡M †kl n‡q †M‡Q, GLb ‡Zv kyay ejv
K_v Avevi ejv, -bZzb wKQz‡Zv Lyu‡R cvB bv|
fv‡jv K_v, w`b `yÕ‡qK Av‡M ga¨cÖvP¨ ‡_‡K GKR‡bi jvk evsjv‡`‡k G‡jv| †jvKUv we.G.
cvk wQ‡jv, evox Zvi †bvqvLvjx| XvKvq †gvnvggÕ`cy‡i †KvbÕ GK ¯‹z‡j gvóvix Ki‡Zv| `k
eQi Av‡M gvóvix †Q‡o wK¬bv‡ii PvKyix wb‡q Kz‡q‡Z wM‡qwQ‡jv| †jvKUv Aek¨ Mywj ‡L‡q
g‡iwb, -g‡i‡Q nvi‡Ui †iv‡M| †h‡nZz `k eQi evB‡i KvR K‡i‡Q, ‡eva nq eD
†Q‡j‡g‡q‡`i Av‡Li MywQ‡q †M‡Q| ÒPvjI †c‡j, KzgovI †c‡j jvf ‡h n‡jv e‡ov !Ó
Le‡ii KvM‡R bvg DV‡jv, Qwe DV‡jv, Le‡ii KvMRIqvjv ‡kvK cÖKvk Ki‡jv| ÒThey
brought home their Cleaner dead !Ó| gv, ey‡ov n‡q ‡Mjvg| wKbZz mevB ‡h c‡_
P‡j, ‡m c‡_ Pj‡Z wkLjvg bv| mvivUv Rxeb kyay euvKv c‡_B Pjjvg| †Zvgvi ey`aÕ wK
evsjv ej‡Z cv‡i? Avt gwi evsjv fvlv MvbwU Zv‡K wkwL‡q †h‡qv !
†Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ A‡kl ‡`vqv I †mœnÕ-ggZv †i‡L GLb Avwm| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
132
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 24-9-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK ! †Zvgiv my¯’‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ I wbivc`
AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
gv, †Zvgvi †jLv Lye †ekx cvB bv| mgq cvIbv| Avwg mgq cvB, wjL‡Z cvwi bv| Avm‡j
wPwV wjLvi †ivMUv me gvby‡li _v‡K bv| Kv‡iv _vK‡jI, Rxe‡bi me Aa¨v‡q _v‡K bv|
Rxe‡b Av‡eM-D”Qvm K‡g †M‡j, wPwV wjLvqI fuvUv c‡o|
Avgvi k¦kyi Aek¨ ey‡ov eqm ch©šÍ Lye wPwV wjL‡Zb| Aek¨ Hme wPwV‡Z we‡kl †KvbÕ
D”Qvm _vK‡Zv bv| _vKZÕ cÖ‡qvRbxq Lei Avi euvavaiv M`, -Ò‡Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv ?Õ, Avgiv fv‡jv, †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ ‡`vqv iB‡jv ! Ó| Avi wKQz bwQqZ LqivZ| G me wPwV wjL‡Z
mgq jv‡M bv| we‡kl †KvbÕ wPbZv fvebv Ki‡Z nq bv| G ‡hb msmvi Rxe‡bi cvwievwiK
dvBj| cÖ_g †_‡K †kl ch©šÍ Gme wPwV dvB‡j mvRv‡j GgbwUB n‡Zv| eve‡bi †`Iqv
wPwVi dvBjMy‡jvi mبenvi †KD K‡i bv| Avwg G me cvwi bv| Avwg Rxe‡b me mgq
A‡MvQvj| kvgx GKevi wKQzUv K‡iwQ‡jv|
Zvgvbbvi AmyL| AvR †`L‡Z wM‡qwQjvg| †ZvZv ‡Zv †Ku‡` ‡K‡U Aw¯’i| QzwU wb‡q evmvq
Av‡Q| Av‡M hLb †MwQ, ZLb †`‡LwQ †g‡q wb‡q Av`i Ki‡Z, -nvm‡Z| nVr GKUv K_v
g‡b co‡jv, -nVvr †KbÕ, -cÖvqB g‡b c‡o| kvgx e‡jwQjÕ †Zvgiv jYWÕb †Q‡o Avmvi
mgq wcKz bvwK e‡jwQ‡jv, -Ò‡Zvgiv hw` Avgv‡K G‡ZvB fv‡jvevmÕ Z‡e Avgvi Rb¨
Kvu`‡Qv bv †KbÕ ?Ó| †ZvZv †h Zvgvbbv‡K G‡Zv fv‡jvev‡m Av‡M eyS‡Z cvwiwb|
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MZKvj wek¦‡iv‡W †Q‡j‡K evuPv‡Z wM‡q gv I †Q‡j `yÕRbB Uªv‡Ki bx‡P Pvcv c‡o NUbv¯’‡j
gviv ‡M‡Q| wek¦‡iv‡W cÖwZw`b nvRvi nvRvi gvbyl c_ P‡j, -UªvKI P‡j| gij gvÎ `ÕyRb|
UªvK †ekx gvbyl gv‡i bv| GUg †evgvq nvRvi nvRvi gv‡i|
†hme Lei Le‡ii KvM‡R †ei nq bv, GMy‡jvB n‡jv wPwVi Lei| mv``v‡gi Kz‡qZ `L‡ji
ci A‡bK gvbyl GLb Le‡ii KvMR c‡o| Av‡gwiKvbiv bvwK DcmvMixq ÿz`ª ivR¨My‡jv
†Kv_vq Rvbevi Rb¨ gvbwPÎ wb‡q UvbvUvwb Ki‡Q| evsjv‡`k wKbZz mv``vg-we‡ivax|
mv``vg evOvjxi fvZ †g‡i‡Q GK_v Aek¨ Avgiv ewj bv| gKKv-gw`bvi cweÎZv iÿv‡_©
Av‡gwiKvbiv G‡m‡Q, -AvgivI G Kv‡R kixK n‡qwQ| mv``vg Aek¨ wKQz e‡j bv| nq‡Zv
†m g‡b K‡i‡Q wfÿz‡Ki bxwZÁvb _vK‡j ‡cU f‡i bv| Avi evsjv‡`‡ki gZ me©wbgbÕ
ch©v‡qi Av‡qi GKwU †`‡ki c‡ÿ wec‡ÿ _vKvq wK Av‡m hvq ! c‡ÿ _vK‡j eis †evSv
n‡q `vuov‡Zv| Zey Aek¨ †m we‡b cqmvq †Zj w`‡Z †P‡q‡Q| evsjv‡`‡ki wgPKxbiv `‡j
`‡j †`‡k wdi‡Q| N‡ii †Q‡j N‡i wdi‡Q| Zey GL‡bv Kz‡q‡Z Ges Biv‡K Pjwjk nvRvi
wgPKxb i‡q †M‡Q| Giv †eva nq Avm‡e bv| Giv †eva nq fve‡Q, GL‡bv ‡Zv †mLv‡b
nvRvi nvRvi fviZxq, wdwjcvBbx I wgkix i‡q †M‡Q, -I‡`i hv MwZ n‡e, Avgv‡`iI ZvB
n‡e| wKQz evOvjxi mvnm Av‡Q ej‡Z nq, -bB‡j G‡Kev‡i bvg Wzev‡Zv|
GLb Mv‡Q †KvbÕ dzj bvB| K‡qK w`b Av‡M MbaÕivR MvQUvq gvÎ GKUv dzj n‡qwQ‡jv|
wKQzw`b ci IjU Kgj MvQUvq dz‡j dz‡j †Q‡q hv‡e, -Suv‡K Suv‡K Avmv kx‡Zi cvLxi
g‡Zv| GB Mv‡Q eQ‡i GKeviB dzj nq, -_v‡K Aek¨ †ek wKQzw`b| †h‡bv GKivk we‡`kx
wkky mbZvb †`‡k G‡m wKQzw`b gv‡qi mv‡_ RovRwo K‡i K‡qK w`b KvUvq Ges Avevi
wd‡i hvq| wbt¯^ MvQUv Aewkó w`bMy‡jv c_ †P‡q †P‡q KvUvq|
kybjvg wcKz A‡bK e‡ov n‡q †M‡Q wKbZz wPwV‡Zv wjL‡Z cv‡i bv| bvwK †mI e¨¯Í| †Zvgvi
LvjvI e¨¯Í _v‡K| Avi ey`aÕ ? †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ iB‡jv AdziÕbZÕ †mœnÕ I †`vqv|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
134
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 13-10-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby, †Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK ! ‡Zvgiv my¯’ _v‡Kv, myLkvbwZ‡Z _v‡Kv, Avjjvn ‡Zvgv‡`i ‡ndvRZ Kiyb ! †Zvgv‡`i wPwVi mv‡_ wcKzi wPwVI
†cjvg A‡bK w`b ci| †m ‡Zv wjL‡jv bv Avwg Zvi Rb¨ Kvuw` Kx bv|
eve‡bi MbaÕivR MvQUvq dzj dz‡U bv e‡j Avd‡mvm KiwQjvg| †hgb †ek wKQzw`b hver
†Zvgv‡`i wPwV bv †c‡j Avd‡mvm Kwi| K‡qKw`b Av‡M nVvr †`wL GKUv dzj| Lykx njvg,
-ZeyI ejjvg, -ÒeWW‡ K„cY ! -G‡Zvw`b ci kyay GKUv dzj !Ó| ciÿ‡YB fvejvg MvQUvi
eqm n‡q‡Q ‡Zv| AvwgI ‡Zv Av‡Mi gZ wjL‡Z cvwi bv| `Õyw`b ci †`Ljvg Av‡iKUv dzj|
wcKz Avi ey`aÕ AviwK ! Avjjvn GK, wKbZz m„wói A‡bK wKQz GKv myyb`Õi †`Lvq bv|
e„n¯úwZi bvwK eviÕwU Pvu`| †mLv‡b †eva nq iv‡Zi †ejv Pvu‡`i Av‡jvi †XD †L‡j| wKbZz
†Kvb MÖ‡niB `yB m~h© †bB| ÒGK c~‡e© `yB m~h© wKQz‡Z bv a‡iÓ, †eva nq GRb¨B| bB‡j `yB
m~h© MÖnMy‡jv‡K wb‡q UvbvUvwb Ki‡Zv c„w_exi `zB civkÕKwZi g‡Zv| Z‡e Gevi Kziy†ÿ‡Î
cvYWÕ‡ei hy`aÕ nqwb| cvYWÕ‡eiv Qvo w`‡q ebev‡m †M‡Q| Avi evsjv‡`kxiv ga¨cÖvP¨
†_‡K cvwj‡q fv‡jvq fv‡jvq N‡i wd‡i‡Q| G‡`kxiv cvjv‡bvi Kv‡g I¯Ív`| hy`aÕ euva‡j
Giv wbR †`k †Q‡o †`q, -we‡`k‡Zv †Kvb Qvo| eivZ fv‡jv, GL‡bv hy`aÕ euv‡awb| G‡`‡k
cvjvqYexi‡`i Av‡iK bvg gyKwZ‡hv`av| G‡`i cyYe©vm‡b Avgiv me© mgqB AvMÖnx| wKbZz
G‡`k †_‡K cvjv‡bv ev Qvov‡bv‡K Avgiv kÖ`avi †Pv‡L †`wL| Avgv‡`i mbZv‡biv †h ‡KvbÕ
fv‡e we‡`‡k _vK‡Z cvi‡j Me© Abyfe K‡i| Aek¨ AvRI Avgviv ÒI Avgvi †`‡ki gvwUÓ
cÖvY f‡i Mvb MvB|
ey‡ov MbaÕivR MvQUvi w`‡K `yÕGKUv dz‡ji Rb¨ †P‡q _vwK| Z‡e G‡`‡kiB Av‡iK dzj
IjU Kgj| MvQUvq wKQzw`b ci ivwk ivwk dz‡j f‡i hv‡e| MvQUv MbaÕivRUvi cv‡kB
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Av‡Q| BD‡iv‡ci BwZnv‡m GKUv hy‡×i bvg Av‡Q -War of Rose, - ‡Mvjv‡ci hy`aÕ|
Avgv‡`i †`‡kI GKUv Mvb Av‡Q ÒGKwU dz‡ji Rb¨ Avgiv hy`aÕ Kwi| GKwU dzj‡K
euvPv‡ev e‡j A¯Î awiÓ| Gevi wKbZz Avgiv †Z‡ji Rb¨ hy`aÕ Kwi| nvq‡i Kcvj !
`vb‡ei nvZ †_‡K gvbyl†K euvPvevi Rb¨ †KD hy`aÕ K‡i bv| gvby‡li K‡Zv Kó| me †Zv
†`wL bv| h‡ZvUzKz ‡`wL, G‡ZB gb wewl‡q D‡V| G‡Zv myb`Õi wek¦†iv‡Wi cv‡k dzUcv‡Z
†fvi†ejv K‡Zv bi-bvix I wkky †Lvjv AvKv‡ki bx‡P gvwU‡Z c‡o Nygvq| g‡b nq Giv
†h‡bv ‡mB cbPvk mv‡ji g‡i hvIqv gvbylMy‡jvi †cÖZvZg&v|
Avgiv K‡Zv bv‡gi hy`aÕB bv Kwi| wKbZz hviv mwZ¨Kv‡ii gvbyl, Zv‡`i euvPvevi Rb¨ †KD
hy`aÕ K‡i bv| mv``vg GKwU bvg,- gwnlvmyi| wKQzKv‡ji Rb¨ n‡jI †`eZvKzj‡K ¯^M©
‡_‡K ‡U‡b ‡nuP‡o ‡ei K‡i‡Q| gwnlvmyi evu‡P bv, wKbZz hy‡M hy‡M ‡m bvbv bv‡g RbgÕMÖnY
K‡i, ‡`eZvKz‡ji my‡L weNYÕ NUvq| wKQzKv‡ji Rb¨ n‡jI G‡`i ¯^M©Pz¨ZÕ K‡i| Kz‡q‡Zi
†k‡Li †eMg jÿ Wjv‡ii Lvev‡ii c¨v‡KU nv‡Z wb‡q †Ku‡` e‡j, -ÒAvR `yB gvm hveZ G
Lvevi LvBwb|Ó wek¦†iv‡Wi dzUcv‡Zi wkkywU ‡Ku‡` e‡j, -Ògv, wKQz ‡L‡Z `vI bv, Kvj
‡_‡K ‡Zv wKQz LvBwb !Ó AvKvk †_‡K †f‡m Av‡m wnUjv‡ii MR©b, -Òmv``vg ! mv``vg !Ó|
†KbÕ Rvwb bv gv, Avgvi g‡b Lye Kó nq,- hLb †Zvgiv Avgvi fv‡jv Lvevi, fv‡jv civi,
fv‡jv _vKvi Rb¨ †ekx †ekx wKQz K‡iv| BP‡Q K‡i cvwj‡q euvwP| Avwg †h‡bv GKUv g¯Í
Acivax| †Zvgiv w`b ivZ †L‡U gi‡Qv| Rvwb bv wK w`‡Z cvi‡ev G gvwUi c„w_exi gvbyl‡K!
†cvYivi QbÕ`w`i ‡RvZ 15 Kvwb mgcÕZwZ bxjvg Lwi` K‡i wb‡qwQ‡jb Ave`yi ingvb
f~Tv| ¯^qs mgú~Y© M„n¯’ QbÕ`w` †kL n‡q †M‡jv c‡_i KvOvj| ingvb f~Tvi wekvj
mgúÕZwZ GLb QbÕ`w`iv Pvlvev` K‡i Lvq, bvg Aek¨ ingvb f~Tvi| wKbZz G mgúÕZwZ
Zuvi mbZvb‡`i †Zgb †KvbÕ Kv‡R G‡jv bv| eis m„wó K‡i‡Q fvB-†evb‡`i g‡a¨
g‡bvgvwjb¨|
†Zvgv‡`i mevi cÖwZ †`vqv I †mœnvb‡Z AvR GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 28-10-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©ZÕ nDK ! †Zvgiv my¯¨’ _v‡Kv, wbivc` AvbÕb‡`
_v‡Kv !
†Zvgv‡`i wPwV KLb cvB, KLb wjwL Zvi wnmve, w`b-ZvwiL g‡b _v‡K bv| †mw`b
‡gvnvggÕ`cy‡i Avwi‡di evmvq wM‡qwQjvg| w`bUv wQj kyKeª vi| evmvq kyay Avwi‡di
cwieviB wQ‡jv| Avevi Afx wQ‡jv Amy¯’¨, -nuvcvbx| †ekxÿY wQjvg bv| eyey †`‡ki
evox‡ZB Av‡Qb| †Pv‡Li Ae¯’v bvwK fv‡jv bv|
jvjgvwUqvq gvQzi evmvq wM‡qwQjvg| gvQzi †Q‡jiv GLb mevB evmvq| gvQzi evox GLb
‡`vZjv wZb Zjv nP‡Q| gvney‡ei kvkyox I kvjxi mv‡_ †`Lv n‡jv| H w`b cÖ_g
wM‡qwQjvg Zvgvbbv†K †`L‡Z| A‡bK w`b hvB wb| `ycy‡ii LvIqvUv †mLv‡b ‡Ljvg|
Zvgvbbv GLb †gvUvgywU my¯’| †m GLb nvgvMywo I `uvov‡bv ev` w`‡q nuvU‡Z †Póv K‡i|
eZ©gvb Rxe‡bi Avi GK bvg `ª zZ MwZ†eM| mevB jvd w`‡q Lvj cvi n‡Z Pvq| mgq†K
ms‡ÿc Ki‡Z bv cvi‡j Amyweav Av‡Q| GLb Av`vjZx KvR-Kievi cwiZ¨vR¨|
gvQzi ILv‡b †ek wKQzÿb wQjvg, -mgqUv †ek AvbÕb‡` †K‡UwQ‡jv| kvjx‡`i mvbwb‡a¨
eva©‡K¨i Rov ÿwY‡Ki Rb¨ n‡jI eywSev m‡i `uovq| kvjv-kvjxiv ey‡ov nq bv| `ywbqvq
†KD ey‡ov n‡Z Pvq bv| KviY ey‡ov nIqv gv‡b Rxe‡bi AvbÕb`Õ †_‡K ebwPZÕ nIqv|
fvi‡Zi ci‡jvKMZÕ RInijvj †b‡niy wQ‡jv Ggb GK e¨KwZZ¡| wRbbv mv‡ne Zv‡K
KUvÿ K‡i GKevi e‡jwQ‡jb, -ÒThis Pundit will never grow old.”|
137
‡mKmwcqv‡ii †MÖ‡mwbI e‡jwQ‡jv,- ÒWith mirth and laughter let old wrincles
come. And let my liver rather heat with wine”.| Zvi KviY AvbÕb`Õ me mgq
eva©K¨‡K Gwo‡q P‡j| eva©K¨ gvbyl†K ZvB G‡Zv Kó †`q| e…`aÕ MbaÕivR MvQUvq GLb
dzj dz‡U bv| wKQzw`b Av‡M `yÕUv dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv| `yB wZb w`b †`Ljvg| Gi c‡i wQu‡o wb‡q
†M‡Q †K ev Kviv| GLb dzj bvB | nVvr K‡i g‡b nj Avwg †h‡bv †mB MbaÕivR MvQUv|
Zgv GLb e‡ov †ec‡ivqv n‡q D‡V‡Q| GLb Mv‡q wKQz †Rvi n‡q‡Q| webv cÖwZev‡` wcUzbx
†L‡Z ivRx bq| nvi gvb‡Z nq Avgv‡`iB| Z‡e hy`‡a me mgq †hŠe‡bi Rq| ZeyI eva©K¨
†eu‡K e‡m _v‡K| fveLvbv †h‡bv, -Òwebv hy`‡a bvwn †`‡ev m~PMÖ †gw`bx !”|
†Zvgiv †Zv †`‡k Avmvi Avkv GL‡bv iv‡Lv| Avkvq _vKvi g‡a¨ GKUv mzLvbyf~wZ Av‡Q|
Avkvq Avkvq _vKv fv‡jv| G‡m †M‡jB †Zv dywi‡q †M‡jv| †Zvgiv hLb G‡mwQ‡j, ZLb
IjU Kgj MvQUvq cÖPzi dzj wQ‡jv| GiciI Avi GKevi Ggwb dzj n‡qwQ‡jv| GeviI dzj
nIqvi mgq n‡q G‡jv| G Mv‡Q eQ‡i gvÎ GKeviB dzj nq| _v‡K `yÕgv‡mi g‡Zv| evKx
gvmMy‡jv cy®únxb| dz‡ji K_v g‡bB _v‡K bv| MvQUv †h‡bv GK wbtmsM gv| mviv eQi c_
‡P‡q _v‡K we‡`kevmx cyZ-bvZx‡`i Avmvi Avkvq| Iiv Av‡m eQ‡i GKevi| gvm `yÕgvm
a~gavg Av‡gv` K‡i Avevi P‡j hvq| Avevi wbtmsM gvZv GKv GKv c_ †P‡q `uvwo‡q
_v‡K| mg‡qi i‡_i PvKv Gfv‡eB Ny‡i hyM hyM a‡i|
gv, AvRKvj Avwg †h‡bv ‡Kgb n‡q ‡MwQ| K_vq I wPbZvi †Kvb AvMvgv_v †bB| eKeK
Kwi, ev‡R wPbZv Kwi, -‡Kvb Kvg-KvR bvB †Zv, - nq‡Zv †mB Rb¨B| ‡ivRMv‡ii avbav
bvB | LvIqv-civi wPbZv bvB| ‡nvgv‡ii ÒLotus Eater”-Gi g‡Zv| GLb evRvi KivI
gvbv| e‡ov msMx Le‡ii KvMR|
AvR GLv‡b ivwL gv| GBgvÎ bwb I mygxi mv‡_ K_v ejjvg| Iiv fv‡jv Av‡Q| †Zvgiv
mevB fv‡jv _v‡Kv ! †Zvgiv fv‡jv _vK‡jB Avwg fv‡jv _vwK| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 8-11-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ nDK ! †Zvgiv my¯’ _v‡Kv ! myL-kvbwZ I wbivc`
AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
Avwg hLb wjLwQ, †Zvgiv ZLb †dv‡b K_v ej‡Qv| GKUy Av‡M wjLwQjvg Avgvi nvjLvZvq,
-GLb ‡_‡K cbPvk eQi Av‡M wPwVi K_v| Avgv‡`i †Zv †Kvb Avcb Rb †m mgq we‡`‡k
_vK‡Zv bv| Avgv‡`i e‡ov‡Rvo ‡`Šo wQ‡jv w`jjx ev ‡evgevB| Avgv‡`i ‡`‡ki †KvbÕ
†KvbÕ †jvK bvwK gKKv hvÎv K‡i ‡evgevB ch©bZÕ wM‡q wd‡i Avm‡Zv| G‡`i‡K †jv‡K
‡evgevBqv nvRx ej‡Zv| †m mgq bvwK †Kej †evgevB †_‡K bv gKKv hvIqv †h‡Zv| GLb
‡Zv gKKv nv‡Zi bvMv‡j| GLb†Zv meB K‡Zv KvQvKvwQ |
AvR 11Uvq bwb I mygxi mv‡_ K_v n‡jv| ivZ 8Uvq wjwji mv‡_, Avi †Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ K_v
n‡jv ivZ mv‡o AvUUvq| Al‡Uªwjqv, myB‡Wb, Avi Kj¨vYcy‡ii Ae¯’vb †h‡bv GKB `~i‡Z¡|
wKbZz cbPvk eQi Av‡M hLb weÖwUkiv G‡`‡k wQ‡jv, ZLb wKbZz GgbwU wQ‡jv bv| †m Rb¨
wPwVi A‡bK gvb I `vg wQ‡jv| e„‡Ub †_‡K c‡biÕ w`b ci ci RvnvR †hv‡M WvK Avm‡Zv,
ejv n‡Zv, Fgn Mail| G‡`‡k Ae¯’vbiZÕ weÖwUkiv Gw`bwUi Rb¨ AwZ AvMÖ‡n A‡cÿv
Ki‡Zv| G ‡h‡bv Zv‡`i Kv‡Q wQ‡jv wKQz weivU cvIqvi g‡Zv| ‡mB Rb¨ †eva nq e„wU‡kiv
†cvóg¨vb‡K Lye mggvb K‡i Ges AvcbR‡bi GKRb g‡b K‡i|
GLb e„wUk mvgªvR¨ bvB| `ywbqvUv n‡q ‡M‡Q AwZ †QvUÕ, -`~iZ¡ ‡Uwj‡dv‡bi wiwmfviUv
ch©bZÕ| ZvB wPwVi Rb¨ †KD Kvu‡` bv| wPwV †c‡Z †ekx †`ix n‡j Avgvi evev kvKZjvq
Qz‡U †h‡Zb, - hw` †mLv‡b †KvbÕ Lei _v‡K GB Avkvq| GLb Lei Zv‡i, webv Zv‡i Av‡m|
Av‡Mi w`‡b †KvbÕ e‡ov ai‡Yi Lei _vK‡j †UwjMÖvg Avm‡Zv, -GLb †Uwj‡dv‡bI gvgyjx
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Lei Av‡m| Le‡ii Rb¨ ZvB AvRKvj †KD wPwV e‡ov GKUv wj‡L bv| GLb mg‡qi `vg
†ekx| KvR Qvov gvbylB †Kej wPwV wj‡L mgq bó K‡i| †hgb Avwg Kwi| †Zvgvi Lvjv
e‡j wPwV wjL‡Z wK G‡Zv mgq jv‡M ? wj‡Lv ‡Zv h‡Zv QvB-flg& cuvPvjx| Avwg ewj Av‡Rv
†Pv‡L ‡`wL, - nvZ P‡j e‡j mgqUv Kv‡R ev AKv‡R jvMvB|
Qv‡`i Dci A‡bK w`b DwV bv| †mLv‡b †Zv A‡bK dzj MvQ wQ‡jv| DV‡Z cvi‡j nq‡Zv
fv‡jvB jvM‡Zv| DV‡Z GKUz Kó nq‡Zv n‡Zv, wKbZz dzj †`Lv †h‡Zv| eQi `yB Av‡M bwb
hLb wQ‡jv, †Rvi K‡i a‡i wb‡q †h‡Zv Qv‡`| ‡gvUv‡gvwU fv‡jvB jvM‡Zv| `ywbqvq GKv
GKv †eva nq †Kvb wKQzB †Zgb fv‡jv jv‡M bv|
bx‡Pi MvQMy‡jv wK ey‡ov n‡q ‡M‡jv, bvwK ewLj n‡q †M‡jv eySv hvq bv| MbaÕivR MvQUvi
K_vB ewj| hLb Avc‡mvm Kwi MvQUvq dzj nq bv| †`L‡Z †Zgb eywo‡q †M‡Q e‡j g‡b nq
bv| wK Rvwb †Kgb K‡i †h‡bv MvQwU †Ui cvq| `yÕGK w`b c‡iB ‡`wL `yÕGKUv dzj
dz‡U‡Q| wKbZz ¯^ZtùzZ© fv‡e ‡dvUv bq, -†h‡bv Kó K‡i dz‡U‡Q| MbaÕ Av‡Q, wKbZz
‡`L‡Z ‡h‡bv †Kgb Avagiv| K‡ói nvwmi g‡Zv| IjU Kgj GL‡bv Av‡mwb| Avm‡e
kx‡Zi cvLx‡`i mv‡_| gymyb`v Avi †fvMb wewjqv Mv‡Q†Zv cÖwZw`b LzuwR, -hw` GKUv dzj
†`Lv hvq| †`wL bv| H w`b cvZvq XvKv GKUv iyMYÕ gymyb`v †`‡LwQjvg| Avi †mB †PixUv|
†kl wbtk¦v‡mi g‡Zv †eu‡P Av‡Q| gyg~l© gy‡Li nvwmi g‡Zv wKQzUv dzj n‡qwQ‡jv e‡U|
†ePvivi Ae¯’v Kvwnj| IjU Kgj MvQUv I‡K wN‡i †d‡j‡Q, -mv``v‡gi Kz‡q‡Z `L‡ji
g‡Zv| fvwe, -‡eu‡P _vKvi msMÖv‡g me m„wói GKB `kv| GB `yt‡L ‡Zv nvmbv‡nbv MvQUv
we`vq wb‡q †M‡jv| Mv‡Qi RM‡ZI SMovSvwU gvby‡li †P‡q Kg nq bv| mevB SMov K‡i|
GB SMov Kivi Av‡iK bvg Rxeb| wcKz Avi ey`aÕB †Kej SMov K‡i bv| ZvB‡Zv K_v
ej‡ZI cv‡i bv| Avgvi mv‡_ SMov Kivi mgq cvIqv hvq wKbv ‡K Rv‡b|
cÖvYXvjv †mœnÕ I †`vqv †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ †i‡L GLb Avwm| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 20-11-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvÕK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ,
I wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
MÖxlgÕ, elv©, kir, †ngÕbZÕ FZz av‡c av‡c †e‡q †e‡q cÖK…wZi iy`ªZv w¯ÍwgZ n‡q Av‡m,
wKbZz evsjv‡`‡ki gvby‡li DMÖZv evo‡Z _v‡K| BD‡iv‡c †Zv FZzi msL¨v Kg| †KvbÕ
†KvbÕ †`‡k bvwK Av‡iv Kg| FZzi cÖfve gvby‡li m¦fv‡e e‡ov cÖKU fv‡e cÖwZdwjZÕ nq|
Zvi e‡ov `„óvbZÕ evsjv‡`k| G‡Zv FZz ‡evanq `ywbqvi Avi †Kvb †`‡k †bB| Avi G‡Zv
ivR‰bwZK `jI ‡evanq `ywbqvi †Kv_vqI bvB| e¨v‡Oi QvZvi g‡Zv MwR‡q D‡V‡Q AMybwZ
`j| Avi †`‡k Ry‡o Pj‡Q d«x-óvB‡j Kzw¯Íi gnov| hviv ¯^vaxbZvi Rb¨ PxrKvi K‡i Zviv
G †`‡ki ¯^vaxbZvi †Pnviv †`L‡j AvZs‡K cvwj‡q †h‡Zv| Giv mevB MYZÕb‡Îi Rb¨
PxrKvi K‡i| MYZÕb‡Îi Avmj A_© GKwU msMeÕ`aÕ ÿz`ª †kªYxi gbÎ, hv w`‡q mgv‡Ri
MwilVÕ gvbylMywj†K ‡gvnMÖ¯Í K‡i †kvlY Kiv hvq|
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mevB MYZÕbÎ Pvq| MYZÕbÎ †h Kx PxR Zv Av‡Rv eySjvg bv| Aek¨ G‡Zv w`‡b eySjvg
mgvRZÕbÎ Kx ! K‡Zv Mvb MvBjvg, -ÒivwkqvB gnvb †`kÓ| Kvij gviK‡mi wjLv K‡Zv
gReyZ eB GL‡bv Avgvi N‡i gRyZ Av‡Q| Z‡e Rv‡bv gv, wKQz wKQz wRwbl Av‡Q hv mg‡qi
cÖ‡qvR‡b mZ¨ e‡j we‡ewPZÕ nq, Avevi cÖ‡qvRb dzwi‡q †M‡j ‡m mZ¨UvB g‡b nq g¯Í
e‡ov GKUv duvwK| Avm‡j wKbZz Zv bq| mZ¨ hv, ZvÕ me mgq mZ¨B _v‡K| Z‡e i~c
e`jvq| Òm‡Z¨i i~c, -gsM‡ji i~c|Ó kyay GB i~‡cB Zv‡K wPbv hvq|
Px‡bi †eBwRsG Mywj K‡i †h nvRvi nvRvi gvbyl ‡g‡i †dj‡jv, -Zviv MYZÕb‡Îi Rb¨
†PuPv‡gwP K‡iwQ‡jv| GiI cÖ‡qvRb wQ‡jv| we‡k¦i me RvqMvi gvwU‡Z GKB dmj nq bv|
me †`‡ki gvby‡li ¯^fve cÖK…wZ GK iKg bq| gvwU I gvby‡li gb gvbwmKZvi ZviZg¨
wePvi bv K‡i †KvbÕ GKUv we‡kl ivR‰bwZK gZev` Pvwc‡q w`‡j wn‡Z wecixZ nq| ZvB
nZ¨vKvb‡W gvwK©bxiv ‰n ‰P Ki‡jI Pxbviv w`we¨ gv_v DuPz K‡i `uvwo‡q Av‡Q| ckwPgv evmx
MYZÕbÎ wmsMvcyi bvKP K‡i w`‡q‡Q|
ivRbxwZ mgeÕb‡a Gme K_v ejZvg bv| ejwQ AvR Avgvi eve‡bi K_v g‡b K‡i|
Avg`vbx Kiv ivRbxwZ G‡`‡ki enz mbZv‡bi Rxe‡b wech©q †W‡K G‡b‡Q| GL‡bv G‡`‡k
ivRbxwZi bv‡g †h fYWvgx Pj‡Q, Zvi †kl ‡Kv_vq †K Rv‡b ! cÖwZw`b K‡Zv mgcÕ` aŸsm
Kiv nP‡Q| G d«x-óvBj ivR‰bwZK Avb‡`vjÕb Av‡iv K‡Zv w`b P‡j ‡K Rv‡b ! Av‡Mi
w`‡b ivR‰bwZK `jMy‡jv MyYWv †cvl‡Zv, GLb QvÎ †cv‡l| MyYWv‡`i fvZ †g‡i‡Q QvÎiv|
†eBwRs-Gi giv Qv·`i †cÖZvZg&v †eva nq fi K‡i‡Q evsjv‡`‡ki QvΆ`i Nv‡o|
evsjv‡`‡k Av‡iKwU †eBwRs-Gi AKvj D`‡evaÕb Qvov †eva nq Avi †KvbÕ weKjcÕ c_
bvB| Z‡e Gi Av‡M cÖmZzwZ wb‡Z wKQzUv mgq wb‡e| nq‡Zv GRb¨B Av‡gwiKv‡K Lykx
ivLvi Rb¨ Avi‡e ‰mb¨ cvwV‡q‡Q| KviY Gme e¨cv‡i †ekx Av‡gwiKvB bvK Mjvq|
evsjv‡`‡ki e¨vcv‡i fviZ‡K nvZMyUv‡Z Av‡gwiKvi mvnvh¨ cÖ‡qvRb| evsjv‡`‡k fviZ †h
me wefxlY †cvl‡Q, Zv‡`i Dci Nv co‡j fviZ P‡U hv‡e| fvi‡Zi wUwK a‡i ivLvi
ÿgZv GKgvÎ Av‡gwiKviB Av‡Q| ivgiv‡R¨i evb‡iiv †h ZzjKvjvg KvYWÕ Ry‡o w`‡q‡Q, -
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Zvi cwiYwZI †Kv_vq wM‡q `vuovq †K Rv‡b ! GK ivwkqvb ivR‰bwZK wek‡jlÕK e‡j‡Q, Òivg iveb‡K †g‡iwQ‡jv, -Avi wnb`y cwil` †g‡i‡Q wf. wc. wmsn-‡K|Ó K‡e GKevi jsKv
R¡‡jwQ‡jv, †mB AvMyb GL‡bv jsKvq Av‡Q| Gw`‡K GLb Kvkgxi I cvbRve R¡j‡Q| R¡j‡Q
fvi‡Zi gymjgvbiv|
AbybbÕZ †`kMy‡jv‡Z `ye©j †bZ„‡Z¡i e‡ov nvwZqvi QvÎ `j| evsjv‡`‡ki S.S.C I
H.S.C. cixÿvq ‡h QvÎiv kZKiv 70/73 Rb ‡dj gv‡i, hviv bKj Kivi `vex‡Z wgwQj
K‡i, Giv G‡b w`‡e MYZÕbÎ ! Giv iyMYÕ †bZv-‡bÎxi Nv‡o P‡o MYZÕbÎ D`av‡ii hy`‡a
†b‡g‡Q| Avi G‡`i gv-evc eyK Pvc‡o nvq nvq Ki‡Q| Gikv` Aek¨ QvÎ gv‡i bv KviY, GKUv giv Qv‡Îi `vg `yB jvL UvKv| PvKzix bv †c‡q AvZg&-nZ¨v Kivi †P‡q Mywj †L‡q
gi‡Z cvi‡j A‡bK †ekx jvf| Aek¨ hw` QvÎ nq| GRb¨ A‡bK MybWv cÖK…wZi hye‡Kiv
Qv‡Îi LvZvq bvg wj‡L iv‡L-Rxeb exgvi g‡Zv|
gv, †Zvgvq A‡bK K_v ejjvg hv Avwg mPivPi ewj bv| eve‡bi QvÎ Rxe‡bi K_v g‡b n‡j
gbUv wewl‡q D‡V|
N.B., h‡Zv me ev‡R K_v e‡j cvZv f‡i †M‡jv| `v`v-`v`yi K_v wKQzB ejv n‡jv bv| Iiv
†Kgb Av‡Q ? we‡`‡k ‡Zv GLb MYZÕbÎ wb‡q QvÎiv gvivgvwi K‡i bv| wbwe©N‡b †jLvcovi
my‡hvM Av‡Q| wcKz I ey`aÕ‡K Avgvi †mœnÕ I ‡`vqv Rvwb‡qv !
GLb A‡bK IjU Kgj dzj dz‡U‡Q| fzMb wewjqvq Avi mzmyb`vI cvZvi duv‡K duv‡K †`Lv
hvq| Qv‡` wK dzj Av‡Q Rvwb bv| Qv‡` A‡bK w`b DwV bv| AvR GLv‡b ivwL|
†Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv - 64KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 8-12-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvÕK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ, I
wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv ! gv, †Zvgv‡`i wPwVcÎ †eva nq †ek wKQzw`b hveZ cvB bv|
†Zvgiv †Kgb _v‡Kv, G‡ZvUzKz Rvb‡Z cvi‡jB Avgiv Lykx nB|
Gikv` P‡j †M‡jv, -mv‡_ P‡j †M‡jv Av‡iv A‡b‡K| Z‡e Gikv` A‡bK w`b wU‡K wQ‡jv|
bvUKxqfv‡e Gikv‡`i P‡j hvIqvi Kx inm¨ GLbI eySv ‡M‡jv bv| nq‡Zv wKQzw`b mgq
jvM‡e| Avgv‡`i A‡cÿv Ki‡Z n‡e|
Z‡e Avgvi dzj MvQMy‡jv, gvwUi mv‡_ hv‡`i Mfxi mgúK©, Giv fv‡jvB Av‡Q| gvby‡li GB
¯^v‡_©i ØbaÕ G†`i ®úk© K‡iwb| IjU Kgj MvQMy‡jv‡Z ivwk ivwk dzj dz‡U†Q| fzMb wewjqv
MvQUv e‡ov evovevwo K‡iwQ‡jv| `Lj K‡i wb‡qwQ‡jv Ab¨My‡jvi euvPvi AwaKvi| ZvB
MvQUv†K †K‡U †djv n‡q‡Q MZÕKvj, -dzj m‡gZÕ|
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G ‡h‡bv Gikv‡`i cZb| G‡Zv e‡ov MvQUv‡K Ggwb fv‡e UzK‡iv UzK‡iv K‡i †K‡U †dj‡jv
Iiv wblVz‡ii g‡Zv| cvZvi dvu‡K dvu‡K dzjMy‡jv AevK we¯§‡q ‡P‡q iB‡jv, -nvU© †dj K‡i
giv gv‡qi ey‡K wb®úvc wkkyi g‡Zv| ckwP‡gi †`qv‡ji Dci X‡j c‡owQjv AMÖfv‡Mi GK
ivk kvLv-cÖkvLv, Nb meyR cvZvi duv‡K dv‡uK nvjKv jvj‡P dzj| †h‡bv †KvbÕ GK weivU
gwnqmxi dz‡j Muv_v GKivk G‡jv Pyj| Avwg gyMaÕ n‡q †P‡q _vKZvg| GLb G RvqMvUv
duvKv| D`vmxi bxie Kvbbvi g‡Zv| gv‡qi g„Zz¨i ci †m Lvwj †PŠwKUvi g‡Zv †hLv‡b gv
_vK‡Zb !
Ggwb `ywbqvi A‡bK ¯’vbB Lvwj nq| LvU Lvwj nq, Ni Lvwj nq, Gi †P‡q Av‡iv A‡bK
e‡ov wKQzI Lvwj nq| D`vm ¯g„wZ †mLv‡b †f‡m †eovq| †m k~b¨Zv Aek¨ me mgq _v‡K
bv| GK Rb bv _vK‡j Ab¨ Rb G‡m Zv c~iY K‡i| fzMb wewjqvi k~Y¨ ¯’vbUv K‡e †K c~iY
Ki‡e ZvÕ ‡`‡L †h‡Z cvi‡ev wK bv †K Rv‡b !
†KvbÕ wKQz Lvwj †`L‡j Avgvi g‡b Kó nq| LvU Lvwj †`L‡j Kó nq| gvV Lvwj †`L‡j Kó
nq| gv‡qi †Kvj Lvwj †`L‡j Kó nq| ZvB KlUÕ nq wjwji Rb¨| GLb wjwji ‡Kv‡j
Zvgvbbv| Dlvi †Kv‡j beviyb, -AMwYZÕ Zviv wb‡q Puv‡`i cwievi AvKvk†K mvwR‡q iv‡L|
`ywbqvq †KvbÕ wKQzB Lvwj †`L‡Z fv‡jv jv‡M bv| †KD GKvI _v‡K Pvq bv,- fv‡jv jv‡M
bv| GKv GKv gi‡Z nq e‡jB ‡eva nq giY fv‡jv jv‡M bv|
Avwg A‡bK mgq Avgvi †kvqvi LvUUvi w`‡K †P‡q _vwK| w`‡bi ‡ejv †Zv LvUUv cÖvq LvwjB
_v‡K,- AmyL-wemyL bv n‡j| iv‡Z Lvwj _v‡K bv, - Avwg ky‡q _vwK, - NygvB| Avwg †hw`b
_vKeÕ bv, †mw`bI G LvU Lvwj _vK‡e| Z‡e G _vKv bv-_vKvi g‡a¨ cv_©K¨ Av‡Q| †KD
nvwi‡q hvq wPiÕZ‡i| †KD nvwi‡q wM‡q †eu‡P _v‡K Zvi wkjcÕ K‡g©,- gvby‡li nvwm-Kvbbvi
gv‡S enzw`b| Aóv`k jyB wM‡jvwU‡b hvIqvi c~e© gzn~Z© ch©bZÕ bvwK eB co‡ZwQ‡jv| ‡mUv
wK eB †Zvgiv Rv‡bv wK ? Rvb‡j Avgv‡K Rvwb‡qv !
Gikv` GB K‡qK w`b Av‡M †U‡KinvU Avi KvjvwRiv †mZzi D`‡evaÕb K‡iwQ‡jb|
e‡jwQ‡jb 95 mv‡ji c‡i evsjv‡`‡k †KvbÕ †dix _vK‡e bv| ‡eva nq KjcÕbvI K‡ibwb
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`yÕw`‡b c‡iB wZwb †cÖwm‡WbU _vK‡Qb bv| nq‡Zv wZwb Avevi wd‡i Avm‡Z cv‡ib, bvI
cv‡ib| GLb cvuqZviv Pj‡Q Gikv‡`i bv‡g †hme Kg©-KvYWÕ Av‡Q, -†hgb Gikv`
†¯‹vqvi, -Gikv` †ówWqvg, -Zvi bvg cvjwU‡q †h me AL¨vZ Ac`v_© †e‡Nv‡i g‡i‡Q,
Zv‡`i bvg ewm‡q w`‡Z| wKbZz cvi‡e bv Zvi MvbMy‡jv e`jv‡Z| Zvi eb¨vi Mvb, c_Kwji Mvb, enzw`b gvbyl‡K Kvu`v‡e| hLb eb¨v Avm‡e, -ZLbB Gikv`‡K G‡`‡ki gvbyl
¯giY Ki‡e| c_-Kwjiv e‡ov n‡qI Gikv‡`i iwPZÕ Mvb MvB‡e| gvbyl AbvMZÕ wkky‡`i
MjcÕ †kvbv‡e, -ÒGK †h wQ‡jv Mv‡bi ivRv| †m wbcxwoZÕ gvby‡li N‡i N‡i Ny‡i †eov‡Zv,
-Ae‡nwjZÕ wkky‡`i wb‡q Mo‡Z †P‡qwQ‡jv GKUv myb`Õi wkkyivR¨| Zv‡`i w`‡Z †P‡qwQ‡jv
Áv‡bi mbavb, -myb`Õi Rxeb|Ó enyw`b ci Avevi AvR g‡b co‡jv wmivR wmK`v‡ii K_v|
Zvi we‡`nx AvZg&v ‡h‡bv we`i~c K‡i Gikv`‡K ej‡Q, -Ò`k nvRvi cky‡K evPuv‡Z wM‡q
`k †KvwU gvbyl‡K h‡gi `yqv‡ii w`‡K †V‡j w`‡j !Ó g‡b c‡o iexb`ªbv‡_i K_v, ÒPvwiw`‡K bvwMbxiv Qvwo‡Q welvKZÕ wbtk¦vm| kvbwZi jwjZ evYx †kvbvB‡e e¨_© cwinvm|Ó
fv‡jv AvwQ, - gbUv fv‡jv ‡bB gv ! †Zvgv‡`i †mœnÕ I ky‡fPQv Rvwb‡q AvR GLv‡b ivwL|
†Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
*Avgiv GLb Rqevsjv Avi evsjv‡`k wRb`vev`, - GB `yB‡qi UvbvUvwbi g‡a¨ AvwQ|
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gnv‡dR cvZv - 65KLMNOP
148
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXVI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 30-12-1990
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK ! †Zvgiv my¯’‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ,
wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv ! ‡Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q Avgvi 90 mv‡ji †kl wPwV| 90 mv‡ji G‡`‡ki
e‡ov NUbv Gikv‡`i we`vq| BwZnv‡m †KvbÕ kvm‡Ki Ggb bvUKxq we`vq Lye KgB N‡U|
Aek¨ G †`‡k bvUKxq NUbv Av‡MI N‡U‡Q| bq gv‡mi hy`‡a, -ai‡Z †M‡j cÖvq webv hy`‡a
Z_v Kw_Z ¯^vaxbZv AR©b K‡iwQ‡jv| cvwK¯Ívb AR©‡bi mg‡qI eZ©gvb mxgvbvi †`kUvi
Mv‡q †Zgb AuvPo jv‡Mwb| ¯^vaxbZv hy`‡a jv‡L jv‡L ‡jvK knx` nIqvi K_v ejv n‡jI
Avm‡j K‡qK AhyZ, -‡ekxi fvMB wbixn gvbyl hv‡`i ‡KvbÕ `vg ‡bB, gviv wM‡qwQ‡jv Z_v
Kw_ZÕ gyKwZ ‡hv`av‡`i Kvi‡Y| `vgx gvbylMy‡jv ‡Zv cvwj‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv mxgvb‡Zi Icv‡i|
cvjv‡bv we`¨vUv GB †`‡ki gvby‡li fv‡jv K‡iB icZÕ Kiv Av‡Q| †`‡ki gvwU‡Z givi
†P‡q cvwj‡q wM‡q hw` gyKwZ ‡hv`av mb` cvIqv hvq, Z‡e †Kvb †evKvq gi‡Z hvq ?
‡evKvivB †e‡Nv‡i g‡i m¯Ív evnev cvIqvi Rb¨|
Gevi wKbZz Kg `v‡gi Kg msL¨K gvbyl†K Avgiv knx` evwb‡qwQ| MYWÕ‡Mv‡ji mgq
GKRb c‡KU gvi jvd w`‡q ev‡mi Z‡j c‡i wcó n‡q g‡i †M‡jv| Avi hvq †Kv_vq !
Agwb Avgiv jvkUv jy‡d wb‡q knx` evbvjvg| Avb‡`vjÕ‡bi †LviK cvIqv †M‡jv| knx`
n‡q‡Q GK wiKkvIqvjvi ‡eŠ, GK wiKkvIqvjv, GK ‡gQzqvi eviÕ eQ‡ii GK eLv‡U
†Q‡j| `vgx gvby‡li g‡a¨ g‡i‡Q WvKZvi wgjÕb| QvÎ`‡ji `zB c‡ÿi †MvjvMywji gvSLv‡b
c‡i †ePviv gviv †M‡jv| Avi †mB w`bB Gikv` c`Z¨vM Kivi †Nvlbv K‡ib| GB gvbylwUi
Rb¨ Gikv` `ytL K‡i †M‡Qb| gvbylwU wnb`y wQ‡jv bv wK gymjgvb wQ‡jv, GB wb‡q fKZÕiv
UvbvUvwb Ki‡Q| ‡eŠUv GKev‡i dz‡j ivwo n‡q †M‡jv| ‡Kv‡j gvÎ GKwU wZb Pvi eQ‡ii
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†g‡q wQ‡jv| WvKZvi wnmv‡e bvgx bv n‡jI, ‡ue‡P _vK‡j bvg Ki‡Z cvi‡Zv wKbv †K
Rv‡b| Avgiv Zv‡K knx` evwb‡q Avb‡`vjÕb†K GwM‡q w`jvg| GB †`‡ki knx` nIqv
†jvfbxq I jvfRbK| †KvbÕ †KvbÕ wiKkvIqvjvi ‡eŠ Avc‡mvm K‡i, ÒAvgvi wiKkvIqvjv
hw` knx` n‡Zv !Ó|
G‡ZvÿY A‡bK ev‡R K_v eKjvg| Z‡e K_vMy‡jv A_©nxb bq| †Zvgiv we‡`‡k _v‡Kv|
G‡`‡ki nvj nwKKÕZ †Zv me Rv‡bvB| G‡`‡ki gvby‡li †h ‡bvsiv gb gvbwmKZv, Avmj
i~cUv we‡`kxi Kv‡Q †cuŠQvq bv| Avi G‡`‡ki ‡ekxi fvM †jvK hviv we‡`‡k AvkÖq wb‡q‡Q,
Zviv fv‡jv †jvK bq| ¯^vaxbZv hy`‡a hviv fvi‡Z cvwo Rwg‡qwQ‡jv, Zviv wK fv‡jv ‡jvK
wQ‡jv ? G K_vUv ejjvg GRb¨ ‡h myB‡W‡b bvwK Gikv‡`i cZ‡b G‡`‡ki we‡`kx gvby‡liv
weRq Drme Ki‡Q| we‡`kx‡`i Ew”Qó ‡L‡q hviv ‡eu‡P Av‡Q, ‡m me wbK…ó gvby‡li Kv‡Q
RvwZ Gi PvB‡Z ‡ekx wKQz Avkv Ki‡Z cv‡i bv| GKw`b GB evsjv‡`kxivB dRjyj nK†K
bv‡Rnvj K‡iwQ‡jv| Òhv‡i Zzwg K‡iQÕ Acgvb, Acgv‡b n‡Z n‡e Zv‡`i mevi mgvbÓ|
AvR †kv-‡K‡mi Dci †`Ljvg GKMyPQÕ iRbxMÕbav| †K G‡b‡Q Rvwb bv| Gikv‡`i
iRbxMÕbav wcÖq wQ‡jv| hviv dzj I myi fv‡jvev‡m Zviv bvwK mvaviYZt Lybx nq bv|
Gikv` ej‡Zv, -ÒAvgvi nv‡Z iK‡Zi `vM bvBÓ| †kl ch©bZÕ †m Zvi nvZ†K KjswKZÕ
K‡iwb| WvKZvi wgjÕ‡bi g„Zz¨‡Z Gikv` Lye Awff~ZÕ n‡q c‡owQ‡jv| †mB w`‡bB †m
c`Z¨v‡Mi ‡NvlYv †`q| wgjÕb Aek¨ QvÎ`‡ji `yÕc‡ÿi ‡MvjvMywj‡Z gviv hvq| wePvicwZ
mvZZvi†K nwU‡q Gikv` ÿgZv `Lj K‡iwQ‡jv, bvwK mvZZvi wb‡RB Gikv‡`i nv‡Z
ÿgZv Zz‡j w`‡qwQ‡jb, †mB weZ‡K© bv wM‡qI ejv hvq, -Gikv` ‡`kUv‡K aŸs‡mi nvZ
†_‡K euvwP‡qwQ‡jv| G me Avi wjL‡ev bv| †Zvgvi wcKz I ey`aÕ †Kgb Av‡Q ? `yÕUv IjU
Kgj Mv‡Q A‡bK dzj dz‡U‡Q| Avgiv mevB fv‡jv| wcKz‡K wPwV wjL‡Z e‡jv ! ey`aÕ wK
Avgvi K_v e‡j ? GLb ivwL|
†Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ Avevi A‡bK A‡bK †`vqv iB‡jv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j|
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXVII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 16-1-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ I
wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
gvN gvm G‡m †M‡jv| 1991 mv‡ji evsjvi gvN gvm| K_vq e‡j gv‡Ni kxZ bvwK ev‡Ni
Mv‡qI jv‡M| Aek¨ evN †KvbÕw`b †KvbÕ gvbyl†K G‡m kx‡Zi K‡ói K_v e‡jwb| Z‡e
gvbyl ‡h Kvey n‡q hvq, -we‡kl K‡i evsjv‡`‡ki gZ `wi`ª †`‡k, -Zv Avgiv †`L‡Z cvB|
KL‡bv `y-GK Rb `ye©j jvPvi ev Avagiv ey‡ov kx‡Z givi K_v Le‡ii KvM‡R †ei nq|
A_P G‡`‡ki kxZ KL‡bv k~b¨ wWMÖx ev Zvi KvQvKvwQI bv‡g bv| Aek¨ `y-PviUv giv we‡k¦i
Le‡ii wk‡ivbv‡g cÖKvwkZÕ nq bv| KviY kx‡Zi †`‡ki gvbyl GB mvgvb¨ kx‡Z gvbyl gi‡Z
cv‡i G K_v nq‡Zv wek¦vmB Ki‡e bv|
ev‡Ni Mv‡q kxZ †h Kg jv‡M Avwg wek¦vm Kwi| KviY †QvUÕ †ejvq †`‡LwQ MÖv‡g †KvbÕ
†KvbÕ ZvMov †Rvqvb gvbyl †eUvwMix †`Lvevi Rb¨ gvN gv‡m †fv‡i Lvwj Mv‡q KvR-Kg©
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Ki‡Zv| eySv †M‡jv Mv‡q kKwZ _vK‡j Ges wPKbvB _vK‡j kxZ mn‡R Kvey Ki‡Z cv‡i
bv| evN gviv gv‡Ni kxZ wKbZz wcVvi gRv evovq| wcVv †L‡q kx‡Z gi‡j Avd‡mvQ _vKvi
K_v bq| KviY GB mg‡q gvbyl mvavibZt Abvnv‡i g‡i bv| Avi wcVv ‰Zix Ki‡Z ‡Zgb
evowZ LiPv nq bv| †Zvgiv †Zv kx‡Zi †`‡k _vK‡Z _vK‡Z kx‡Zi wcVvi K_v fz‡jB
†M‡Qv| Gevi wKbZz Avgv‡`i wcVvi Pvj wKb‡Z nqwb| Avgvi GKUv Rwg eM©v wQ‡jv, Zvi
†_‡K 25 †mi AvZc Pvj †c‡qwQ| GLb evmvq ayg‡Q wcVv ˆZix Pj‡Q| Kv‡Ri †g‡qUvI
wcVv ‰Zixi I¯Ív`| Avgiv LvB Avi †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avd‡mvQ Kwi|
‡ivjx Rvg©vbx ‡_‡K H ‡`kx ‡eŠ wb‡q †`‡k G‡m‡Q| Avgv‡`i kx‡Zi wcVv ‡eŠwU‡K †KD
w`‡jv wKbv, -ev cQÕb`Õ Ki‡jv wKbv, LeiUv GL‡bv wb‡Z cvwiwb| †Zvgvi Lvjv Hw`b
Rvnx‡`i Rb¨ K‡qKUv fvucv wcVv I jvD ZiKvix wb‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv| wKbZz fvBcy‡Zi
we‡`wkbx ‡eŠwUi Rb¨ †Kvb `i` bvB| _vK‡jI mvnm bvB,- cv‡Q †KD hw` wKQz e‡j| Avwg
ewj, ejyK bv, Zv‡Z wK ? G‡Zv Avgv‡`i RvZxqZvev`x ms¯‹…wZi wb`k©b| hvevi mgq `yPviUv wcVv wb‡qI †h‡Z cv‡i| Ges G‡`kx‡`i wcVv icZvbxi GKUv gIKvI wg‡j †h‡Z
cv‡i, -AcÖPwjZÕ AvB‡Ug wnmv‡e| wcVv-wkjcÕ †`‡k gvi Lv‡”Q| Mvi‡gYUm-Gi g‡Zv
wcVvI enz †g‡qi Kg©ms¯’vb Ki‡Z cv‡i|
20-1-91: gv, MZÕKvj †Zvgvi wPwV †cjvg, ‡cjvg eve‡bi wPwVI| bwb I kvgxi wPwVI
†cjvg| †Zvgiv óK‡nvg †eov‡Z wM‡qwQ‡j| GK‡N‡qgx fv‡jv jv‡M bv| ZvB gvbyl GK
¯’vb †_‡K Ab¨ ¯’v‡b wKQz mg‡qi Rb¨ n‡jI Qz‡U hvq webv cÖ‡qvR‡b| QK euvav RxebhvÎvq
gvbyl hLb nuvwc‡q D‡V, ZLb gvbyl Ab¨ Q‡K cv evovq| hw` wKQz bZzbZ¦ cvIqv hvq GB
Avkvq| gvbyl wKbZz GKwU RvqMvq ev‡i ev‡i wd‡i †h‡Z Pvq, -‡m Zvi RbgÕ¯’vb |
GB †h K‡e K‡Zv eQi Av‡M GK cvov Mvu‡q GK Mixe M„n‡¯’i fMbÕ KzUx‡i gvwUi c„w_ex‡Z
G‡mwQjvg, ‡m RvqMvwU Avgvq GL‡bv Uv‡b| †mLv‡b my‡Li ev AvbÕb‡`i †Zgb wKQz wQ‡jv
bv| GL‡bv bvB, -Zey †h‡bv †mLv‡b wK‡mi gvqv Avgv‡K nvZQvwb w`‡q Wv‡K| †m w`‡bi
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gvbylMy‡jv bvB| wKbZz Zv‡`i nvwm -Kvbbv †h‡bv †mLv‡b evZv‡m †f‡m ‡eovq| Av`iggZvi KYVÕ¯^i †h‡bv cÖwZwbqZÕ cªwZaŸwb n‡q Av‡m| Avkixwi AvZg&vMy‡jv †h‡bv Avgvi
AvMg‡bi A‡cÿvq _v‡K| †h‡bv ejvewj K‡i, -ÒK‡e Avm‡e †m ?Ó
GB hy`‡ai Wvgv‡Xv‡ji g‡a¨ †Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv gv ? Ab¨ wKQz Amyweav n‡jI Avjjvni
ing‡Z †Zvgiv wbivc‡` Av‡Qv| GB Rb¨ Zvi `iev‡i nvRvi kyKwiqv| Bnz`x, bvQviv‡`i
g‡a¨ A‡bK fv‡jv gvbyl Av‡Q| Z‡e Iiv RvwZ wnmv‡e gymjgvb‡`i kÎy| Giv wb‡R‡`i
†ejvq gvbeÕZvev`x, wKbZz Gwkqvi †ejvq Lyb‡L‡Kv| Giv Rvg©vbx‡Z GUg †evgv †d‡j bv, †d‡j Rvcvb| G‡`i mv``v‡gi ‡ejvq GK bxwZ, Avi BmivB‡ji ‡ejvq wfbbÕ i~c| Avwg
Avjjvni `iev‡i mv``v‡gi Rb¨ weRq Kvgbv Kwi| cÖv_©bv Kwi BmivB‡ji aŸsm !
GLv‡b ivwL| †Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i ingZ Kvgbv Kwi|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
* MZKvj †Zvgvi I eve‡b wPwV †cjvg | G‡Zvw`b ci wPwVLvbv †cvó Kijvg| ZeyI bwbi
I kvgxi Kv‡Q †jLv n‡jv bv| ZeyI †h GL‡bv wKQz wjL‡Z cvwi Zvi Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i
nvRv‡iv kyKzi|
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 67KLMNOP
154
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXVIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 27-1-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
6-2-1991: wPwVUv wjL‡Z kyiy K‡iwQjvg MZ gv‡mi 27 ZvwiL| Dc‡ii `yB jvBb †jLvi
ci g‡b co‡jv †Zvgvi Kv‡Q †jLv n‡q †M‡Q| GUv wjLvi K_v wQ‡jv kvgxi Kv‡Q, -wPwVi
wk‡ivbvg cvj‡U hvIqvq Avi wjwLwb| wk‡ivgvb bv †K‡U †i‡L w`‡qwQjvg cvZvUv, -c‡i
†Zvgvi Kv‡Q wjL‡ev e‡j| H mgq †jLvi wPwVUv ‡eva nq Zzwg G‡Zv w`‡b †c‡q †M‡Qv|
wcKz hy`‡ai Qwe †`‡L Amy¯’¨ n‡q c‡owQ‡jv ky‡b nvwm †c‡jv| Av‡gwiKvi †g‡qiv Avi‡ei
giyf~wg‡Z hy`aÕ K‡i, Avi †m wK bv evsMvjx my&BwWk n‡q wUwf‡Z hy`aÕ †`‡L Amy¯’¨ n‡q
c‡o| †m †Zv evsjv‡`‡ki gkv †`‡LI fq cvq| ey`aÕI fq cvq bvwK ?
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7-2-1991: GLb G †`‡ki Le‡ii KvM‡R †Kej hy`‡ai K_v| cÖ_g w`‡K gvbyl mv``v‡gi
cÖwZ wei~c wQ‡jv| Zvi KviY, we‡kl K‡i ga¨cÖv‡P¨ evsjv‡`kx kÖwgK‡`i PvKixPz¨wZi Rb¨|
Kz‡q‡Z BivKx _vK, Avi †kL cwievi _vK, -G‡Z Avgv‡`i wKQz Av‡m hvq bv| KviY mevB
gymjgvb| wKbZz `ytL G‡Z nvRvi nvRvi †gnbZx gvbyl PvKzwi LzB‡q ‡`‡k wd‡i G‡jv e‡j|
GLb Avevi gvbyl G AvNvZUv KvwU‡q D‡V‡Q| GLb Avevi mevB mv``vg mv``vg Ki‡Q|
ckwPgv‡`i, we‡kl K‡i Av‡gwiKvi cÖwZ me gvbyl Lvccv| GgbwK †KvbÕ ivR‰bwZK `j
mv``v‡gi weiy`‡a K_v e‡j †fvU nviv‡Z e‡mwQ‡jv| msev`c‡Î †gvUv wk‡ivgv‡b `yB wZb
cvZv _v‡K hy`‡ai Lei I mgcv`KxqÕ| Aek¨ mv``v‡gi c‡ÿ| hy`‡a mv``v‡gi Rqx nevi
mgfvebv †bB, - †QvUUÕ GKUv †`‡ki weiy`‡a `ywbqvi me †miv kKwZ| Z‡e Av‡jŠwKK wKQz
NU‡j wfbœ K_v| MvRx mvjvnDwχbi ci gymwjg we‡k¦ e‡ov Afve wQ‡jv GKRb exi
mbZv‡bi, -Avi‡ei eyK †_‡K BmivBj bvgK wele…ÿwU Ec‡o †djvi Rb¨| Avgiv
†c‡qwQjvgI| wKbZz me wefxlb I gxiRvdi me eywSev eiev` K‡i w`‡jv| †Lv`v bv Kiyb,
mv``vg ‡n‡i †M‡j Zv †h enz `~i Mov‡e| mv``v‡gi bvg gymjgvb we‡k¦i exi mbZvb i~‡c
BwZnv‡m Agwjb _vK‡e| mv``vg Rvb‡Zv Kz‡qZ `Lj Ki‡j Av‡gwiKv Qz‡U Avm‡e Kz‡qZ
D`avi Ki‡Z bq, BmivBj†K iÿv Ki‡Z| KviY Gevi evwni †_‡K mvnvh¨ w`‡q
BmivBj†K euvPv‡bv †h‡Zv bv, -BivK wgki bq| bv‡mi †hLv‡b e¨_© n‡qwQ‡jv, †mLv‡b
mv``v‡gi AvMgb wfbœ c‡_, wfbbÕ †KŠk‡j| mv``vg Rv‡b wePwQbbÕ Avie ivlUªMy‡jv
e¨KwZ ¯^v_© wemR©b w`‡q bv‡m‡ii U.A.R G †hvM w`‡e bv,- Avi Gi cÖavb cÖwZebaÕKZv
m„wóKvix n‡jv Av‡gwiKv| †m Avie ivlUªMy‡jv hZ w`b wePwQbbÕ K‡i ivL‡Z cvi‡e,
Z‡Zvw`b BmivBj wbivc`,- wbivc` Zvi jyUcvU|
8-2-1991 †Zvgvi evevi g„Zz¨ eviwlKx G gv‡mi 16 ZvwiL| Avi gvÎ 8 w`b evKx| †fvU
n‡e G gv‡mi 27 ZvwiL, Avi gvÎ 18 w`b evKx| G gv‡m 21†k †de«yqvix| 21‡k †deiyqvix
eve‡bi RbgÕw`b|
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Kv‡iv Kv‡iv Kv‡Q †KvbÕ ‡KvbÕ gv‡mi GKwU wbw©`ó w`b wKQzKvj ev‡i ev‡i wd‡i Av‡m| a‡i
iv‡L myL ev `yt‡Li GKwU ¯g„wZ| KL‡bv ev gvm, w`b ZvwiL QvovB GKUv NUbv ¯g„wZ, Kv‡iv Kv‡iv ¯g„wZ a‡i iv‡L, -H †hgb A‡bK w`b ci †Zvgiv †`‡k wd‡i G‡mwQ‡j| ZLb
kxZKvj wQ‡jv| †M‡Ui cv‡ki ¯_j-c`g& dzjMvQUvq dz‡j dz‡j fiv wQ‡jv| ey`aÕ gywoi
wUb wb‡q †Lj‡Zv| wcKz gkv †`L‡j jvdv‡Zv| Gme ¯g„wZ Aek¨ e¨wZKªg,- e¨KwZ‡Z
AveÕ`aÕ _v‡K| ZvB hy‡M hy‡M AvewZ©Z nq bv| ZvB e‡j Zvi `vg †bnv‡qr Kg bq| wPbZv
fvebvnxb gyn~‡Z© G me †QvUÕLv‡Uv NUbvMy‡jvi ¯g„wZ e¨vKwZ we‡kl‡K Kg AvbÕb`Õ †`q
bv|
†Zvgiv nq‡Zv GK mgq †`‡k Avm‡e, -ZLb wK Kvj _vK‡e Rvwb bv| G nZfvMv †`kUvq
eywS †KD _vK‡Z Pvq bv| Zby†Zv g‡i †M‡jv| evwn‡i enzw`b Ny‡i wd‡i G‡m Ae‡k‡l
†`‡kB gi‡jv| Zvi †Q‡j†g‡q ¯¿x mevB GLb Av‡gwiKvq| GgwbZ‡iv enz †jvK GLb
we‡`‡k,- †KD ¯’vqx, - ‡KD A¯’vqxfv‡e| Avgvi ‡`vZjvi fvov‡UI Av‡gwiKvq _v‡K|
kybwQ, Gevi G‡m eD †Q‡j‡g‡q wb‡q ¯’vqx fv‡e P‡j hv‡e|
GLb GLv‡b ivwL| †Zvgiv Avgvi †mœnÕ I ggZv wb‡qv| †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Avjjvni Kv‡Q
†`vqv Kwi, - ‡Zvgiv †h‡bv my¯¨’ _v‡Kv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv - 68KLMNOP
158
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXIX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 6-3-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ I wbivc`
AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
†Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv gv ? wcKz wj‡L‡Q, -Avgiv †Kgb AvwQ ! DZZÕ‡i mevB e‡j, - Òfv‡jv
AvwQÓ| fv‡jv bvB, -GK_v mn‡R †KD e‡j bv| ej‡Z gvbv| ZvB Lye †ekx Lvivc bv
_vK‡j, cÖkbÕKZ©v‡K Lykx Kivi Rb¨ ewj, - Òfv‡jv AvwQÓ| `ywbqv‡Z †Zv cy‡ivcywi fv‡jv
†KD _v‡K bv| ZeyI Òfv‡jv bvBÓ kyb‡Z ‡KD cQÕb`Õ K‡i bv| Avevi Òfv‡jv AvwQÓ,
ej‡jI mn‡R Avgiv wek¦vm Kwi bv| ZvB †eva nq mygx e‡j, -ÒAvwg Lye fv‡jv AvwQÓ|
Z‡e gvbwmK I kvixwiK Dfq w`K w`‡q ÒLye fv‡jv Ó, G K_v Lye Kg †jvKB ej‡Z cv‡i|
ZvB †Zvgiv hLb Òfv‡jv Av‡Qv Ó e‡jv, Avwg Zv MZvbyMwZK avivq wek¦vm Kwi| †QvUÕLv‡Uv
Afv‡jv Rvwb‡q AvcbRb†K †KD Kó †`q bv|
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7-3-1991: GLb ¯’j-c`g& MvQUvi me dzj kywK‡q S‡i †M‡Q| MvQ `yÕ‡Uv GLb cylúÕnxb|
G dz‡jiv eQ‡i GKevi Av‡m, gvm wZ‡bK _v‡K| Zvici P‡j hvq| MvQMy‡jv weinx gv‡qi
gZ wKQzKvj welbœ _v‡K| emÕb‡Zi evZvm mvbZÕbv †`q, -ÒAvevi Iiv Avm‡eÓ| bZzb
cvZvq AveiY w`‡q k~Y¨ eyK †X‡K †`q| GB eywS KvjP‡Kªi jxjv| KL‡bv nvmvq, KL‡bv
Kuv`vq| Z‡e me dz‡ji ag© GK bq| kZel©x dzj bvwK GKkZÕ eQi c‡i Av‡m| Z‡e MvQUv
K‡Zv eQi euv‡P Rvwb bv| MvQUv wK kZÕ eQi c‡i GKevi dzj w`‡q g‡i hvq ? ZvI Rvwb
bv| Z‡e MvQUv g‡i †M‡j dz‡jiv Avi Av‡m bv,- †m cÖwZ eQi ‡nvK ev kZÕ eQi ‡nvK|
Avgvi gv‡S gv‡S B‡”Q K‡i Ave`yj nvwg` gybkx MvQwU‡K GKevi Zvi kvLv-cÖkvLv cy®úcjjÕe w`‡q mvwR‡q †`L‡Z !
Avgvi †jLv c‡o nqZ ‡Zvgiv weiKZÕ fv‡ev | hZ me cÖjvc| nq‡Zv wbmKg©v ey‡oviv
Gi~c cÖjvcB e†K| K_v ejvi gvbyl cvq bv, ZvB wb‡R wb‡R cÖjvc e‡K| ‡Zvgvi Avggv
A‡bK w`b n‡jv †`‡ki evox †M‡Qb| †M‡jb †Zv †M‡jb, Avi †divi bvgwU bvB| g‡b
K‡iwQjvg †Zvgiv Aveevi g„Zy¨evwl©Kxi ci wd‡i Avm‡eb| Lei wb‡q Rvbjvg, -Av‡mbwb|
K‡e Avm‡eb ZvI Rvwb bv|
Rxe‡bi AvbÕb`Õ †_‡K A‡b‡KB ‡m”PQv-wbe©vmb eiY K‡i †bq| gvbyl †Kvjvnj wcÖq Rxe|
GB †Kvjvn‡j c‡o AvZg&-m‡PZbv nvwi‡q †d‡j| nVvr K‡i GKw`b hLb mswe` wd‡i
cvq| hLb †`L‡Z cvq we‡k¦i isM gb‡P †m GKRb AcÖ‡qvRbxq Awf‡bZv, ZLwb ‡m
wbe©vm‡bi c_ †Luv‡R|
wcKz‡Zv evsjv wjL‡Z wk‡L‡Q| G‡`‡ki KÕRbB ev GZUzKz wjL‡Z cv‡i ! wcKzi †jLv e‡ov
wPwVi Avkvq _vK‡ev| GLb Avgv‡`i N‡i e‡ov e‡ov gkv| Z‡e wcKyi g‡Zv Avgiv gkv‡K
WivB bv| `mZzi g‡Zv dvBU ‡`B| AvR †_‡K cbPvk eQi ci wcKz myB‡W‡b †QvUÕ †QvUÕ
‡Q‡j†g‡q‡`i Kv‡Q MjcÕ Ki‡e, - Òevsjv‡`‡k Avgvi GKUv `v`y wQ‡jv nv‡Z _vco †g‡i
e‡ov e‡ov gkv gvi‡Zv| gkviv `v`y‡K e‡ov fq Ki‡Zv !Ó|
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Rvnx` GKw`b Avgvi evmvq G‡mwQ‡jv K‡qK wgwb‡Ui Rb¨| e‡j wM‡qwQ‡jv Avevi mgq
K‡i Avm‡e| †ek wKQzw`b n‡jv, Avi Av‡mwb| `ywbqvq me gvbylB e¨¯Í, -mgq bvB| mgq
Ag~j¨ ab|
eve‡bi †`Iqv LvZvUv G‡Zv w`‡b Gu‡K-Ruy‡K †kl Kijvg| fq wQ‡jv nq‡Zv LvZvi cvZv
wKQz A‡jLvB †_‡K hv‡e| eveb nq‡Zv Av‡ÿc K‡i ej‡e, -evev LvZvwU †kl K‡i †h‡Z
cvi‡jv bv| †kl Aek¨ ‡KvbÕ wKQziB nq bv| G‡Zv eQ‡ii c_| G‡Zv eQ‡ii K_v|
K‡ZvUzKz †i‡L †h‡Z cvijvg G LvZvq ! Zey wKQz †i‡L †h‡Z cvijvg, GUvB mvbZÕbv|
‡Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q wjLv wPwVMy‡jv blUÕ K‡iv bv| Avgvi GB ÒnvjLvZvÓi mv‡_ †i‡L w`‡qv !
†Zvgiv `~‡i _v‡Kv e‡jB GB wPwVi wfZi w`‡q A‡bK ev‡R K_v ewj| Kv‡Q _vK‡j †Zv
†Kej cÖ‡qvRbxq K_v ejZvg | cÖ‡qvR‡b †Zv †ekx K_v jv‡M bv| Avi G eq‡m †ekx K_v
ej‡j †jv‡K evPvj e‡j bv, -cvMj e‡j| ZvB Lye wnmve K‡i K_v ej‡Z nq| Aek¨
wPwVc‡Î cvMjvwg Ki‡j mevB Rvb‡Z cv‡i bv| Avcb Rb hviv, Kiybv K‡i|
Gevi evsjv‡`‡k †Zvgv‡`i Rq, wcKz‡`i Rq| Z‡e Rqevsjv †n‡i ‡M‡Q wRb`vev‡`i Kv‡Q|
cyiyl Gikv`‡K eb`x K‡i †i‡L wcZ…nviv ¯^vgxnviviv Gevi Rqx n‡q‡Q| ‡K e‡j Avgiv
evsjv‡`kxiv me©nviv bvix‡`i cÖwZ wblVyi ?
Gevi Avwm gv| Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 69KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 31-3-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv myL-kvbw‡Z, wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡`
_v‡Kv ! ‡Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ _v‡Kv !
†eva nq A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i wjwL bv| KvR-Kg© bvB| ZeyI wjL‡Z cvwi bv| Kx GK
RoZv,- Kx GK wb®ú„nZv †h‡bv AuvK‡o a‡i Av‡Q| G‡K Avjm¨ ejv P‡j bv| wKQzw`b
Av‡M A‡b‡K evRv‡i †h‡Z eviY Ki‡Zv-, fv‡jv K‡i †`L‡Z †cZvg bv| ZeyI evRv‡ii
mgq n‡j N‡i e‡m _vK‡Z cviZvg bv| †m †h‡bv wK‡mi GK Uvb| K‡Zv eQi a‡i GB
gvjxev‡Mi evRvi KiwQ| K‡Zv †Pbv †`vKvb`vi ! cÖ_‡g hv‡`i evPPv †`vKvb`vi †`‡LwQ,
Giv GLb e‡ov n‡q †M‡Q, †Rvqvbiv n‡q †M‡Q ey‡ov| †`vKv‡b †M‡j mgv`i K‡i, -†Kgb
AvwQ wRÁvmv K‡i| fv‡jv wRwblwU w`‡Z AvMÖnÕ †`Lvq| Giv †h‡bv K‡Zv Avcb Rb|
MZÕKvj wkwi Jl‡ai †`vKv‡b wM‡qwQ‡jv| †mB †`vKv‡b A‡bK w`b hvB bv| †`vKvb`vi
wkwi†K wRÁvmv K‡iwQ‡jv, -Avwg †eu‡P AvwQ wKbv|
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A‡bK w`b Kv‡iv mv‡_ †`Lv bv n‡j,- Avi †m †jvKwU hw` eva©‡K¨i †KvUvq _v‡K, Zvn‡j
Avgiv Zv‡K g‡bi LvZvq g„‡Zi mgv‡R wj‡L ivwL| wcªbwmcvj mv‡q`yi ingv‡bi mv‡_ eQi
cuv‡PK Av‡M GK we‡qi gRwj‡m †`Lv n‡qwQ‡jv| Gi Av‡M Dbvi bvg kyb‡jI †`wLwb|
jvPvi ey‡ov, wKbZz K_vMy‡jv kybjvg kvwbZ imv‡jv| †Zvgvi e‡ov gvgv ‡eva nq Kx wR‡Ám
K‡iwQ‡jb| DZZÕiUv kzbjvg, -‡n‡m ej‡jb, -Òky‡bwQ‡jb ‡eva nq Avwg bvB !Ó| Zvi
ejvi fswMUv AvRI Avgvi g‡b c‡o| g„Zz¨Uv †h‡bv K‡Zv mnR mij| mv‡q`yi ingvb bvB|
Ggwb fv‡e A‡b‡K _vK‡e bv| wKbZz g„Zz¨‡K mevB mnR mij g‡b †g‡b †bq bv
nVvr K‡i 3/4 w`b Av‡M †PvL co‡jv MbaÕivR MvQUvq A‡bKMy‡jv dyj dz‡U‡Q| wKbZz
dzjMy‡jv †h‡bv †Zgb mim m‡ZR bq| Aek¨ MbaÕ Av‡Q| cikyw`b wek¦ †iv‡W nuvU‡Z wM‡q
‡`Ljvg K‡qKwU †Q‡ji nv‡Z MbaÕivR dzj, - †KvbÕLvb †_‡K jyU K‡i G‡b‡Q| ZiZvRv
dzjMy‡jv| wRÁvmv Kijvg, -Ò†Kv_v †_‡K Avb‡j ?Ó| Iiv ej‡jv, -ÒH ‡nv_v †_‡K !Ó|
dz‡jiv ‡eva nq g…Zz¨ wb‡q wPbZv fvebv K‡i bv| mjcÕ mg‡qi Rb¨ ‡h‡bv Giv ‡eov‡Z
Av‡m, - `zÕw`b c‡i S‡i hvq ev ‡KD wQu‡o ‡bq| ‡mw`b ‡fv‡i ‡eov‡Z ‡Mjvg| cv‡k iv¯Ívi
av‡i cvKvi Dci ‡`wL `zÕwU wkky Kx ‡h‡bv Kzwo‡q Zzj‡Q|
wM‡q wRÁvmv Kijvg, -ÒwK KzovP‡Qv ?Ó|
ej‡jvÕ, -Ò‡`L‡Qv bv, dzj !Ó|
Aek¨ dzjMywj ‡`Lvi g‡Zv bq| iO I AvKvi AvKl©YxqÕ bq| ‡g‡U i‡Oi Avi ‡QvUÕ ‡QvUÕ
‡cvKvi g‡Zv| wKbZz msL¨vq AMyYwZ| MvQZjvq wewQ‡q c‡o Av‡Q | Aek¨ eKzj dz‡ji
g‡Zv bq| Z‡e c_Uv A‡bKUv ÒeKzj weQvbviÓ g‡ZvB|
wRÁvmv Kijvg, -ÒMbaÕ Av‡Q bvwK ?Ó
GK gy‡Vv bv‡Ki Kv‡Q wb‡q ej‡jv, -ÒGKUz GKUz, wb‡e ?Ó|
ejjvg, -Ò`vI !Ó| ‡m GK gywV w`‡jv|
wØZxqÕ wkkywU ej‡jv, -ÒAvgv ‡_‡KI bvI !Ó
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N‡i wd‡i GB A‡Pbv dzjMzwj ‡Uwe‡ji Dci ‡i‡L w`jvg|
Zgv wRÁvmv Ki‡jv, -ÒGMzwj wK fvBqv ? Ó
-Ò‡`wLm‡b, dzj !Ó
‡m ej‡jv, -ÒIt, GMzwj ‡Zv Avgv‡`i cjjxgv ¯Kz‡ji Kv‡Q K‡Zv| Gme gvbyl ‡bq bvwK!Ó
wVKB ‡bq bv| G ‡QvUÕ wkkyiv ‡Zv A‡b¨i dzj evMvb jyV Ki‡Z cv‡i bv| ZvB GB ZzPQÕ
dzj bvgavix AveR©bvMzwj Kzwo‡q wbP‡Q ‡Lj‡Z| wkkyg‡b ÿwY‡Ki AvbÕb`Õ w`‡q G dz‡jiv
ab¨| Avi Avgv‡K !
nVvr K‡i AvR ‡KbÕ Rvwb g‡b n‡jv,- ‡mw`b wcKz I ey`aÕiv wK G‡mwQ‡jv ‡nv_vq ! dzj
Kzov‡Z ! dª‡Mi AuvPjvq, Rvgvi c‡K‡U gy‡Vv gy‡Vv dzj f‡i wb‡Z ! G‡mwQ‡jv wK Ò‡fv‡ii
nvIqvq D‡o GB evsjvq !Ó
‡Zvgvi bvbv gi‡Yi wKQzw`b Av‡M bvwK wKQz IjU-cvjU K_v ej‡Zb| ‡Zvgvi e‡ov gvgx
e‡jwQ‡jv wZwb bvwK GKw`b Zv‡K ‡W‡K e‡jwQ‡jb, -Ò‡`‡Lv ‡Zv Qvqvi gv, -H ‡KvVvq
‡h‡bv ‡Zvgvi kvkyoxi Mjvi AvIqvR kybjvg !Ó|
Rvwb bv w`b Nwb‡q G‡j Avcb R‡bi Ggwb Mjvi AvIqvR ‡kvbv hvq wK bv !
‡Zvgvi gv ‡eva nq GLb wjL‡Z cv‡ib bv, -‡Pv‡Li Rb¨|
Avgiv fv‡jv| ‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ Avjjvn‡K ‡i‡L, -BwZ|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 70KLMNOPQ
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 7-5-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ‡g‡nievbx ewl©Z ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ I
wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv ! `yB wZb Av‡M eve‡bi wPwV †cjvg, - GKB ms‡M bwb I mygxi
wPwVI †cjvg| †Zvgiv fv‡jv Av‡Qv Rvb‡j fv‡jv jv‡M|
evsjv‡`‡k GKUv †QvUÕ †KqvgZ n‡q †M‡jv| myb`Õi eb †_‡K †UKbvd ch©bZÕ wZb kZÕ
gvBj mvMi ˆmKZ Pzigvi K‡i w`‡jv me©bvkv MKx©| Kvbbv ‡nvZvq †_‡g †M‡Q, -Av‡Q
nvnvKvi| Gikv` bvB, -mv``vgI bvB, -Iiv civwRZÕ| wKbZz Av‡Rv civwRZÕ n‡jv bv MKx©
N~wY© So| wn‡ivmxgv I bvKvmvwK hviv aŸsm K‡iwQ‡jv GUÕg †evgv †g‡i, - ZvivB Av‡m
MKx© NywY© `yM©Z GjvKvq gvbyl†K evuPv‡Z| nvq‡i gvbyl, -Avi gvbeZv| h‡Zv me fYWvgx !
ZeyI AvbÕb`Õ †_‡g _v‡K bv| dzj †dvUv ebaÕ nq bv| GB †QvUUÕ ‡`kwU GK Ask Livq
cyo‡Q, GK Ask eb¨vq Wze‡Q, Avi GK Ask MK©x aŸsm K‡i w`P‡Q,- ZeyI wK Avgiv nvwm
bv ? giv-Mjv jv‡ki cv‡k Avgiv GK UzK‡iv iywUi Rb¨ KvovKvwo Kwi| nvq†i Rxeb !
gvby‡li †eu‡P _vKvi wK Zxeª AvKvsLv| wKbZz gvbyl†Zv wPiRxwe bq| GKw`b bv GKw`b
Zv‡K gi‡ZB n‡e| `yÕw`b AvM Avi cvQ| Zey Av‡iv K‡qKUv w`b ‡ekx †eu‡P _vKvi Rb¨
†KbÕ ‡h GB AvKzjZv ! GB AvKzjZv †Kej gvby‡li GKv bq,- me Rx‡ei| †eu‡P _vKvi, AviI wKQzKvj †ekx †eu‡P _vKvi AvKzjZv Rx‡ei ag©| †m †eu‡P _vKvi AvbÕb`Õ _vK Avi bv
_vK| Z‡e †KD †KD Aek¨ wfbbÕ ag©x| Aek¨ Giv msL¨vq bMY¨| Giv gvbyl| Giv AvZg&nZ¨v K‡i | Ab¨ †Kvb Rxe AvZg&-nZ¨v K‡i bv|
†Zvgiv wK Avm‡e GB evsjvq †KvbÕ w`b ? GB †`‡k †Zv gvbyl _vK‡Z Pvq bv| GB †`‡ki
g‡Zv G‡Zv †jvK Ab¨ †Kvb †`‡k Rb‡gI bv, - g‡iI bv| Avwg †Zv gv GB †`k Qvov Ab¨
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†KvbÕ †`k †`wLwb| Avmv‡g wQjvg wKQzKvj| †mI †Zv evsjv‡`‡kiI g‡Zv| fvlvI cÖvq
GK| GKevi K‡qK w`‡bi Rb¨ KivPx wM‡qwQjvg| wmbay†`kUvI †gvUv†gvwU A‡bKUv
evsjv‡`kx fve| Z‡e LvIqvUv evsjv‡`‡ki g‡Zv bq| ILv‡b Pvj nq, wKbZz Iiv Avgv‡`i
g‡Zv fvZ Lvq bv, -iywU Lvq| Avi fvZ hLb Lvq, †cvjvI K‡i Lvq| mv`v fvZ ej‡Z
Avgiv hv eywS, -Zv Iiv Lvq bv|
Zzwg†Zv wjL‡Z mgq cvI bv| Avgvi mgq Av‡Q, BP‡QI K‡i, ZeyI wjL‡Z cvwi bv| wK
GK Aemv`| wjL‡evB ev wK ? wKQz †h‡bv †jLvi bvB| K‡Zv gvbyl†K †`Lvi BPQv K‡i, wKbZz wM‡q †`L‡Z BP‡Q K‡i bv| †`L‡Z hvIqvUv mevB cQÕb`Õ K‡i bv| †eu‡P †_‡K hvi
wKQz Kivi ÿgZv bvB, Kv‡iv cÖ‡qvR‡b Av‡m bv,- Zvi †eu‡P _vKvUv Ab¨‡K cxov bv w`‡jI
AvbÕb`Õ †`q bv| mevB hLb g‡b K‡i Zvi Avi cÖ‡qvRb bvB, ZLb wb‡R‡K cÖ‡qvRbxq
g‡b Kivi g‡Zv ‡evKvgx Avi bvB| iv¯Ívq GL‡bv †ei nB| gv‡S gv‡S †Q‡j‡`i ebay‡`i
mv‡_ †`Lv nq| †K †Kv_vq †Kgb Av‡Q wRÁvmv K‡i| Giv evmvq _vK‡j Iiv gv‡S gv‡S
Av‡m| bv _vK‡j †KD Av‡m bv| Avm‡jI `qvgvqv †Mv‡Qi| Avgv‡KI ‡KD I‡`i evmvq
†h‡Z e‡j bv| GgbwK AvZg&xq hviv, ZvivI bq| †Zvgvi Avggv GLb Avi XvKvq Av‡mb
bv| wZwb LyeB AvZg&-m‡PZb|
Avwg GLb cÖwZ mKv‡j dR‡ii ci wek¦ †iv‡W †eov‡Z hvB| mg eqmx A‡bK †jvK †mLv‡b
R‡g, -cwiwPZ AcwiwPZ| Kv‡iv ms‡M mvjvg e`j, Kv‡iv mv‡_ MjcÕ P‡j, -cyiv‡Yv w`‡bi
MjcÕ| mgqUv Kv‡U fv‡jv| eyeyi Ae¯’v nq‡Zvev ZvB|
XvKvq GLb †gvUv†gvwU mevB fv‡jv| BwZg‡a¨ jwZdvi bvwK UvBd‡qW n‡qwQ‡jv| ‡ivRxi
RvgvB Kex‡ii bvwK nvi‡U Uªvej| †Zvgvi †QvUÕ Lvjv I †gRÕ Lvjv iv¯Ívq wiKkv `y©NUbvq
cv‡q AvNvZ †c‡q‡Q| C‡`i mgq Rvnx‡`i †Kvg‡ii e¨_v wQj| Ziyi e‡ov †evb byiyi ¯^vgx
gviv †M‡Q|
†Zvgv‡`i mevi mym¦v¯’¨ I Kzkj Kvgbv K‡i GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 30-5-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, -myL-kvbwZ,
wbivc`, I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
gv, A‡bK w`b hveZ ‡Zvgvi †jLv cvB bv| nq‡Zv mgq cvI bv| †Zvgiv †Zv me e¨¯Í
gvbyl| ivZw`b KvR Avi KvR| Avgvi KvR bvB, ZeyI wjL‡Z cvwi bv| Kjg P‡j bv|
wPwV‡Z ‡h wK wjL‡Z nq, ZvI †h‡bv fz‡j †MwQ| GKB K_v ev‡i ev‡i wjLv, - †Kgb Av‡Qv,
- fv‡jv AvwQ| we‡kl Lei †h _v‡K bv, Zv bq| ZeyI Zv Lye Kg| `~‡i _vK‡j fv‡jv bvB
GK_v mn‡R †KD wj‡L bv| wj‡L jvf bvB †enz`v Kó evov‡bv| ZvÕQvov mvgvb¨ AmyweavUvI
`~‡i _vK‡j e‡ov K‡i fv‡e| fv‡e, -mvgvb¨ n‡j Avi e‡jZv bvwK ! wek¦vm K‡i bv|
GB †h `uv‡Zi Kó| bov `uvZ Kó †`q †ekx, - Zv wKQz Kivi bvB| ZeyI †`LwQ bwb †dv‡b
Lei †bq, `uvZUv GLbI Av‡Q bvwK| G †h‡bv Avi †KvbÕ Kvg bvB| Av‡i, -`uvZ ‡Zv IUv
_vK‡e bv, -`yÕw`b AvM Avi cvQ, - G wb‡q †dv‡b cqmv LiP Kiv wK cÖ‡qvRb !
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Z‡e nu¨v, e‡ov †jv‡Kiv G wb‡q wZwjkgvr KvYWÕ NUvq| Mix‡eiv ikx †eu‡a †U‡b †d‡j
†`q| gvbyl `uvZ wb‡q Rbgvq bv| `uv‡Zi Rb¨ wkky‡`i Lvev‡ii ‡KvbÕ Amyweav nq bv|
Zvici wkkyi `uvZ MRvq| GKUv `yÕUv K‡i MRvq| e‡oviv myb`Õi K‡i bvg †`q gvwbK|
gvwbK DVvi mgq wkky‡`i wKQzUv Kó nq, - AmyLI bvwK nq| Zey wkkyi gvwbK Kvg¨| Ggb
wK wkkyi nvwmi ‡mŠb`h© evovq| G `uvZ w`‡q kKZÕ Lvevi LvIqvi Af¨vm K‡i|
†dvKjv `uv‡Z wkkyi nvwm e‡ov myb`Õi| Ò†dvKjv `uv‡Z †LvKb nv‡m, -Puv` nv‡m Zvi
mv‡_Ó| wKbZz G `uvZ †ekx w`b _v‡K bv| G‡`i `y‡ai `uvZ e‡j| Qq mvZ eQ‡i G `uvZ
c‡o wM‡q Avevi bZzb `uvZ MRvq| G `uv‡Zi ¯’vqxZ¡ †ekx, wKbZz hZ‡bi cÖ‡qvRb| `uvZ, myb`Õi `uv‡Zi nvwm myb`Õi| me gvby‡li `uvZ ‡Zgb myb`Õi nq bv| AvKvi I web¨v‡m
myb`Õi bv n‡j `uvZ gy‡Li ‡mŠb`h© bv evwo‡q eis AviI wekÖx K‡i| AvuKveuvKv duvKv †gvUv
`uvZ gy‡Li ¯^vfvweK †mŠb`h© webó K‡i| ZvB gv- evev mbZv‡bi `y‡ai `uvZ covi ci bZzb
`uvZ DVvi mgq Lye mveavb Avi mZK© _v‡K| hZbÕ †bq, - hv‡Z `uvZ myb`Õi _v‡K| kKZÕ
Avnv‡h©i Rb¨ `uv‡Zi cÖ‡qvRb| `uvZ bv _vK‡j e‡ov `ytL, -enz mym^v`y Lvevi †_‡K ebwPZÕ
_vK‡Z nq, gy‡Li †mŠb`h© nvwi‡q hvq| Avevi †ekx eqm n‡j `uvZ Avi gyKZvi g‡Zv _v‡K
bv| `uv‡Z wekÖx AveiY c‡o| ‡KE Avevi cvb, L‡qi Ri`v †L‡q `uvZ Mv‡ei exwPi g‡Zv
K‡i iv‡L|
Avevi mevi `uvZ †k‡li w`‡K _v‡K bv| hv‡`i _v‡K, ZvivI bvbvb mgm¨vq †fv‡M| `uvZ enz
hbÎYv †`q| GB †hgb †Zvgvi Lvjvi Ae¯’v| ZvB gvby‡li `uvZ wb‡q GZ gvivgvwi| `vuZ
_vK‡jI wec`, - bv _vK‡jI wec`, gv‡b Amyweav| gvby‡li Rxe‡b `uvZ Av‡m c‡i, -wKbZz
Av‡M †h‡Z Zvovnzov| wKbZz gvbyl mn‡R Zv‡K Qvo‡Z Pvq bv|
`uvZ mgeÕb‡a GZ K_v ejjvg,- AvMvgx‡Z †Zvgvi ey`aÕi bZzb `uv‡Zi AvMgb n‡e| Zvi
`uv‡Zi cÖwZ †h‡bv `„wó iv‡Lv| myb`Õi hbÎYv wenxb `uvZ wb‡q gi‡Z cvivI GKUv ‡mŠfvM¨
e‡U|
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eZ©gv‡b Avgvi gv_vi †ivM| gv_v Mig _v‡K, gv_v aiv _v‡K cÖvq mgq| Avevi gv‡S gv_v
PKKÕi †`q, †Nv‡i| wKbZz GB eq‡m Gme wb‡q gv_v Nvgv‡j jvf †bB| G m‡ei †Zgb
†KvbÕ cÖwZKvi bvB| Kg©nxb gvby‡li gv_vi †Zgb cÖ‡qvRbI bvB| wKbZz hv‡`i KvR Av‡Q,
Zv‡`i cÖ‡qvRb Av‡Q,- we‡kl K‡i hviv gv_v Nvgv‡bv KvR K‡i| wPbZv Ki‡Z Ki‡Z
gvby‡li bvwK gv_vi Pzj D‡V hvq| Aek¨ wPbZv bv K‡iI A‡b‡Ki gv_vq Pzj _v‡K bv| Pzj
gyL-gYWÕ‡ji †mŠb`‡h© GKUv we‡kl AsM, -bvix, cyiyl meviB| Z‡e †KD †KD G wb‡q
evovevwo K‡i bv| Pz‡ji Uwb‡Ki weÁvcb KvM‡R cÖvq ‡Pv‡L c‡o| Pz‡ji KZ iK‡gi KvU†Luvcvi K‡Zv iK‡gi VuvU| eZ©gvb Lv‡j`vi †Luvcv euva‡Z bvwK †ek LiPv co‡Q| bvix‡`i
Pzj bv n‡j P‡j bv| we‡kl K‡i G‡`‡ki bvix‡`i Pz‡ji VuvU eRvq ivL‡Z nq|
XvKvi Lei A‡bK Av‡Q| C‡`i mgq Rvnx‡`i ‡Kvg‡i e¨_v wQ‡jv, -Avm‡Z cv‡i wb| ivYz
†dv‡b C‡`i ky‡fPQv Rvwb‡qwQ‡jv| Gi g‡a¨ †Zvgvi AvwRgcyiv I jvjgvwUqvi Lvjv
GKwm‡WbU K‡i cv‡q AvNvZ †c‡q‡Q| gvQz GL‡bv csMy nvmcvZv‡j Av‡Q, -Aek¨ †m‡i
†M‡Q| †i‡eKvi ‡ekx jv‡Mwb|
†Zvgvi gv‡qi Lei A‡bK w`b Rvwb bv, - †`‡ki evox‡Z Av‡Q| ixYv k¦kyi evox‡Z Av‡Q|
†Zvgiv †Zv me mgq fv‡jv _v‡K bv, -GKUv bv GKUv †j‡MB _v‡K|
†Zvgiv †h‡bv fv‡jv _v‡Kv, - GB †`vqv K‡i AvR GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 72KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 6-7-1991
gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv myL-kvbwZ I my¯’¨ ‡`‡n _v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i wjwL bv| GL‡bv wjL‡Z cvwi| Aek¨ wjL‡Z wM‡q A‡bK fzj
åvbwZ N‡U| KjÕgUv wVK Av‡Mi g‡Zv P‡j bv| Zey fvwe gb‡`i fv‡jv, -nq‡Zv Ggb w`b
Avm‡Z cv‡i hLb G‡Zv UzKbz I Pj‡e bv|
†Zvgvi wPwV †cjvg †ek K‡qK w`b n‡jv| Gi c‡i eve‡bi wPwVI †cjvg| AvR wjL‡ev,
Kvj wjL‡ev K‡i K‡i Ae‡k‡l AvR wjL‡Z emjvg| wK Avi wjL‡ev, meB ‡Zv †ivgÕb_Õb|
A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ hvBwb †Kv_vqI| g‡bi Uv‡bi mv‡_ ‰`wnK mvg_©¨I _vK‡Z nq| ZvB
Amvg_©¨ ‡`n‡K Gwj‡q w`‡q, -gbUv‡K gyKZÕ K‡i ‡`B| †mB gb Ny‡i Ny‡i AZxZ eZ©gvb
me †`‡L| K‡Zv my`xN© c_, †mB c‡_i `yÕav‡i GB mvRv‡bv c„w_ex| c_ cÖ`k©K ¯g„wZ| GB
c_ cÖ`k©K †hw`b APj n‡q co‡e, †mw`b †eu‡P _vKvi Avi †KvbÕ AejÕgeÕb _vK‡e bv|
_vK‡e bv Rxe‡b †eu‡P _vKvi †KvbÕ AvbÕb`Õ ! AZxZ‡K gy‡Q bZz‡bi ms‡hvRb me wKQz‡ZB
nq bv, Aek¨ cwiea©b nq| ¯g„wZi ‡ejvq G K_v Lv‡U| AZx‡Zi A‡bK †QvUÕLv‡Uv ¯g„wZ
a‡i †i‡L‡Q, -Agwjb| wKbZz ¯g„wZi bZzb wdZvq fvj †iKwWs nP‡Q bv| gmwR‡` wM‡q
RyZv †Rvov †Kv_vq ivLjvg, bvgv‡Ri †k‡l A‡bK ‡LuvRvLuywR K‡i RvqMvUv †ei Ki‡Z nq|
g‡b nq gw¯Í‡Ki fvbWvi Avi AwaK ¯g„wZi †evSv eB‡Z Pvq bv| ZvB AZxZ‡K wb‡q
bvovPvov K‡iB mbZzó _vK‡Z nq|
†m K‡e mey‡Ri eqm ZLb `yB eQi nq wb| Avmv‡g jvgwWs-G PvKzwi Kivi mgq Avgvi
cvwb emÕbZÕ n‡qwQ‡jv| †m mgq †Zvgvi Lvjv I meyR Avgvi mv‡_ wQ‡jv| †m Kx Kó ! G
me Amy‡L eq¯‹‡`i Kó nq †ekx| A_PÕ AvkPh©, GB AmyLwU Gwkqv BD‡ivc Av‡gwiKv mn
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me †`‡kB Av‡Q| Zv Av‡M Avwg RvbZvg bv| AviI AvkPh©, GZÕ` m‡Z¡I GB ‡iv‡Mi
cÖwZ‡laK GLb ch©bZÕ AvwelK…Z nqwb| †Lv`vi Kv‡Q jv‡Lv kyKwiqv Iiv †m‡i D‡V‡Q|
Av‡iv ky‡bwQ G cvwb-emÕbZÕ bvgK AmyLwU GKevi n‡j bvwK wØZxqevi Avi nq bv|
Avgvi Mvox _vKv m‡Z¡I Avwg Mvox e¨envi Lye Kg Kwi| AvZg&xq-¯^Rbiv †mRb¨ †LuvUvI
†`q| g‡bi mv‡_ cqmvi cÖkYÕI Av‡Q | GB Mvoxi wcQ‡b Avgvi gvwmK LiP wZb nvRvi
UvKv| G‡Zvw`b †h wnmve Kwiwb Zv bq, Z‡e GLb GKUz †ekx Kwi| mevi evmvq †dvb
_vKv m‡Z¡I, -cqmv I mg‡qi cÖkYÕ †Zgb bv _vK‡jI GB AcÖ‡qvRbxq gvbylwUi Lei †KD
†h‡bv ivL‡Z cQÕb`Õ K‡i bv| Aek¨ GRb¨ Avgvi KviI cÖwZ Aby‡hvM bvB| Avgvi Kv‡Q
†KD FYx bq| mevi Kv‡Q AvwgB FYx ! ZvB †ZvgivI hLb wPwV wj‡Lv bv, -Avwg g‡b Kó
cvB bv| PvIqvi AvKvsLv bv _vK‡j, bv-cvIqv †e`bv †`q bv|
XvKvq ixYv A‡bKw`b hver bvB, -‡`‡k _v‡K| eyeyI A‡bK w`b hveZ †mPQv wbe©vm‡b, kvKZjvq| ZvB A‡bKw`b hveZ ‡gvnvggÕ`cyi hvIqv nq bv| kzbjvg Avwi‡di Wvq‡ewUm|
mzeY©vI GB †iv‡M fzM‡Q| Gme †ivM bvwK DZZÕivwaKvi m~‡Î msKªvwgZÕ nq| ZvB Zzwg gv,
-GKUz mveav‡b †_‡Kv ! Aek¨ Avjjvn me©‡kÖlVÕ †ndvRZKvix|
Avwg C‡`i ci 7/8 w`b †Kvg‡ii e¨_vq fzMjvg| Gevi ‰e`¨ywZK evwj‡ki †muKI KvR
†`qwb| Aek¨ c‡i cÖvq webv Jl‡aB †m‡i †M‡Q| †eva nq †KvievYxi ci AwZwiKZÕ †Mv¯Í
LvIqvi d‡jB GgbwU n‡qwQ‡jv| GLb XvKvq R¦‡ii Lye cÖv`zf©ve| AvR bvZv‡K WvKZvi
†gvRvdd‡ii Kv‡Q wb‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv, -R¡i I gv_v-e¨_v| ZvgvbbvI †ekx fv‡jv bv| C‡`i
mgq G‡mwQ‡jv, -`zÕw`b †_‡KB ‡f‡M‡Q| †Zvgvi †QvUÕ Lvjv GLb †Kªm jvwM‡q‡Q, †i‡eKv
K‡qK w`b ci ci AvQvo Lvq| wcKz I ey`aÕ‡K †mœnÕ w`I !
Gevi ivwL gv| †Zvgvi ez‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 18-7-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z,
wbivc‡`, I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
gv, †Zvgv‡`i A‡bKw`b ch©bZÕ wjwLbv| wjL‡ev wK ? GKB K_v ev‡i ev‡i wj‡L wK jvf
Av‡Q ? †KD †KvbÕ w`b webv jv‡f wKQz K‡i bv| hw`I jvf †jvKmvbUv AvcvZt `„wó‡Z †`Lv
hvq bv| Avcb R‡biv Avov‡j †M‡j, -‡Pv‡Li `„wói evB‡i †M‡j g‡bi m~Zvq Uvb c‡o|
wVKvbv Rvbv _vK‡j Ges †Kvb GKUv wbw`©ó mgq wd‡i Avmvi mgfvebv _vK‡j gb DZjv
nq bv| wKbZz wd‡i Avmvi mgq mxgv †cwi‡q †M‡j ZLb gb Avi w¯’i _v‡K bv| G cÖkYÕUv
Aek¨ `xN© ev ¯^jcÕ mg‡qi gvcKvwV w`‡q wePvh© b‡n| wVKvbv-wenxb ¯^jcÕ mg‡qi
Abycw¯’wZI ‡KvbÕ ‡KvbÕ mgq ‡Zvjcvo m„wó K‡i|
GKUv D`vnib w`PwQ| GB †mw`b Avgvi fvwZRv wicb ¯‹z‡j †jU nIqv‡Z gvóvi eKvewK
K‡iwQ‡jv| ciw`bI †jU nIqv‡Z ¯‹z‡j Avi ‡Xv‡Kwb| Gw`K †mw`K Nyiv†div K‡i weKv‡j
evmvq G‡m LvIqv-`vIqv K‡i †KvbÕ GK ebayi evmvq hvevi bvg K‡i evmv †_‡K †ewi‡q
hvq| ivZ 12Uv ch©bZÕ evmvq bv †divq mevB PbPÕj n‡q D‡V| Zey †KD †KD e‡j‡Q, nq‡Zv Nywg‡q co‡Q, mKv‡j Avm‡e| wKbZz mKvj 10Uv ch©bZÕ bv Avmvq mevq D`weMbÕ|
w`b ev‡ivUvq Pviw`‡K nzj¯_yj KvYWÕ| _vbv, †gwW‡Kj, ¯‹zj, AvZg&xq-¯^R‡bi evox,‡`Šov‡`Šwo, KvbbvKvwU| Aek¨ †ejv PviUvq ‡m wd‡i G‡m‡Q|
NUbvUv ejvi D`‡`k¨,-AvcbR‡biv †Pv‡Li Avov‡j _vK‡j g‡b Kó nq wVKvB, -wKbZz hw`
wVKvbv Rvbv Ges Iiv my‡L-kvbwZ‡Z Av‡Q Rvbv _vK‡j, A`k©‡bi †e`bvUv Zxeª n‡q ev‡R
bv| KviY ÒbqbÓ Zv‡`i †`L‡Z bv †c‡j Òbq‡b bq‡bÓ _v‡K| gvbyl †Kej †PvL w`‡q
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†`‡L bv| †Pv‡Li AeZ©gv‡b Ab¨ Bbw`ª‡qi mvnv‡h¨I †`‡L| AbaÕ n‡q †M‡j nvZ eywj‡q
†`‡L| KYVÕ¯^‡i wP‡b| ZvB gvbyl AbaÕ n‡q †M‡jI †`Lvi evmbv Pz†K hvq bv|
gvbyl hLb g‡i hvq, -‡KvbÕ wVKvbv w`‡q hvq bv| †mLv‡b †m †Kgb _v‡K, ZvI Rv‡b bv|
ZvB Zvi AvcbR‡biv KjcÕbvi †e‡n¯Í I †`vRL ˆZix K‡i, -ARvbv we‡k¦ Zvi myL-kvbwZ
Kvgbv K‡i|
K‡e KLb gvby‡li mv‡_ gvby‡li †hvMv‡hvM mgúK© ¯’vc‡bi D`fveÕ‡bi ¯^cYÕ †`L‡Z kyiy
K‡i Rvwb bv| K‡Zv PovB DZivB cvi n‡q AvR gvbyl ‡gN`~Z †Q‡o we`y¨r-`~Z Avwe¯‹vi
K‡i‡Q, `~‡ii Avcb Rb‡K Kv‡Q Uvbvi Rb¨| ZvB †eva nq wPwViI cÖ‡qvRb dzwi‡q †M‡Q|
wPwVi g~j¨ eKZÕe¨ `yÕwU K_v, -Ò‡Kgb Av‡Qv Ó ? GÕ`ywU K_vq KvRI mv‡i, mgqI euv‡P|
Z‡e g‡bi Av‡eM DPQvm cÖKvk Kiv hvq bv| h‡Zv w`b `ywbqvq ‡mœnÕ, ‡cÖg fv‡jvevmv
_vK‡e, Z‡Zv w`b gvby‡li wPwV cvIqv-‡`Iqvi AvKvsLv _vK‡e|
†Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv Rvwb bv| Z‡e gy‡L h‡ZvB e‡jv, wPwV‡Z hZB wj‡Lv, Òfv‡jv AvwQÓ, Avgiv ZvÕ mn‡R wek¦vm Ki‡Z PvB bv| KviY, cviZ c‡ÿ AvcbR‡biv `~i †_‡K Òfv‡jv
†bBÓ e‡j KvD‡K D`weMbÕ Ki‡Z Pvq bv|
†`‡ki Ae¯’v †Zgb fv‡jv hvP‡Q bv| `ªe¨g~‡j¨i Da©MwZ, wbivcZZvi Afve QvovI Rxe‡b
cÖvY-PvbPÕj¨ †h‡bv †_‡g †M‡Q| N~wY© So, R‡jvPQvm, eb¨v, Avi Liv †`‡ki gvbylMy‡jv‡K
‡hbÕ bv¯Ívbvey` K‡i w`‡q †M‡Q| Rxe‡bi ¯úb`Õb ‡h‡bv †_‡g †M‡Q|
wcKz I ey`aÕ †Kgb Av‡Q ? †`‡k †KvbÕ w`b wd‡i G‡j wcKzi mv‡_ wK Avevi bZzb mgcÕK©
ˆZix Ki‡Z cvi‡ev ? ey`aÕ †Zv LuvwU we‡`kx| wKQz w`b ci Av‡iK Rb we‡`wkbx evsjv‡`‡k
Avmvi K_v| Z‡e †m we‡`kx fvlv wkLvi Av‡MB nq‡Zv Avm‡e|
me mgq wPwV wjLvi D``Õg Drmvn _v‡K bv| ZvB wPwV bv †c‡j g‡b wKQz K‡iv bv|
gv, GLb Avwm| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
176
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 10-8-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn ‡Zvgv‡`i gsMj Kiyb ! wZwb ‡h‡bv †Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K mym¦v¯’¨, myL-kvbwZ, wbivc`
AvbÕb`Õ `vb K‡ib|
g‡b nq K‡Zv w`--b ch©bZÕ †Zvgv‡`i wjwL bv| Gi Av‡M K‡e wj‡LwQ g‡b bvB| AvRKvj
A‡bK wKQzB g‡b _v‡K bv| Aek¨ KvR-K‡g©i ejvB bvB, -g‡b bv _vK‡jI †Zgb wKQz
Av‡m hvq bv| wK GKUv Mvb Av‡Q bv, - Òg‡b ivLvi w`b wMqv‡Q, GLb fzjvi †ejvÓ| e„`aÕ
eq‡m Ggb bvwK nq | GK evi fvZ †L‡q Avevi LvB‡Z Av‡m|
hvK, GLb †Zvgiv mevB ‡gvUvgywU fv‡jv Av‡Qv ‡R‡b Lykx njvg| †Zvgv‡`i †Zv me mgq
GK Rb bv GK R‡bi AmyL _v‡K| I‡`‡k †_‡KB GLb, Avi G‡`‡k _vK‡j wK Ki‡Z !
Avgiv Aek¨ Kv‡Ki mv‡_ cvjjv w`‡q †ivM-cÖyfW n‡q ‡MwQ| †QvUÕLv‡Uv †ivM Avgv‡`i
Kvey Ki‡Z cv‡i bv| Avgiv †iv‡Mi mv‡_ Kwi MjvMwj, g„Zz¨‡i †`LvB †PvL ivsMvwb | cuPvevmx wb‡q Kwi KvovKvwo, kKz‡bi mv‡_ Kwi `vsMv|
QvÎiv gvivgvwi K‡i me wek¦we`¨vjqmn cÖvq 100wU wkÿv cÖwZôvb ebaÕ| Avi msm‡`
msm`xq MYZÕbÎ wej cvk K‡i Iiv AvbÕb‡` MjvMwj XjvXwj Ki‡Q| wewPÎ GB
Dcgnv‡`k, -Av‡iv wewPÎ GB esvjv‡`‡ki gvbyl| MYZÕbÎ Avg`vbx K‡i Giv Lykx‡Z
evMevM| wKbZz G‡`‡ki gvbyl ÒeywS‡jvÓ bv MYZÕbÎ wK wRwbl ! nvRvi nvRvi wQbbÕg~j
evmZznviv fvmgvb gvbyl nv‡U-Nv‡U me©Î| wfÿv w`‡Z w`‡Z gvbyl AwZlVÕ| Giv †h‡bv Avi
GK RM‡Zi gvbyl| DjsM wkkyi `j, AfzKZÕ bi-bvixi wgwQj ‡nZvq ‡nvZvq, gv‡V-Nv‡U
me©Î|
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G‡`‡ki gvbyl Bs‡iR Avgj, cvwK¯Ívb Avgj, ‡kl‡gk evsjv‡`k, -meB †`L‡jv| wKbZz
†c‡jv bv _vj fiv fvZ, gv_v †MuvRvi VuvB| Giv eb¨vq Wz‡e, mvB‡K¬v‡b bv¯Ívbvey` nq| Giv
gkv gvwQi gZ evPPv dzUvq, -g‡iI| Giv gvbyl bv‡g Avi GK AvRe Rxe| gywó‡gq †jvK
ivR‰bwZK D`‡`‡k¨ G‡`i wUwK‡q iv‡L| Giv GK †kÖYxi ‡cvlv Rv‡bvqvi| hy‡M hy‡M Giv
dvuwKi wkKvi| wKbZz Giv iKZÕ ex‡Ri eskai, -mn‡R g‡i bv| Giv RbgÕ ev g„Zz¨ Kv‡iv
wbqbÎY gv‡b bv| Giv hLb hv‡K Lykx wRb`vev` ‡`q| mvgvb¨ wKQzi wewbg‡q Zviv †fvU
w`‡q MYZÕbÎ cvq| hw`I MYZÕbÎ Kx PxR Av‡Rv bv eywS‡jv evsjvi gvbyl, -bv we‡k¦i Ab¨
†KvbÕ ‡`‡ki gvbyl| wKQzw`b wPjjv-wPjwj K‡i mgvRZÕbÎ †M‡Q, Gevi MYZÕb‡Îi cvjv|
Gevi el©vi †Rvi bvB| G kÖve‡YI GKvav‡i e„wó bvB| Zv m‡Z¦I †Kv_vI eb¨v nP‡Q|
hvÎvcyi I eÖvggÕYcvov w`‡q ‡MvgZxi euva †fs‡M‡Q| ‡Zvgvi †QvUÕ Lvjvi cv GL‡bv mv‡iwb,
Av‡iv K‡qK w`b jvM‡e| Z‡e evoxi †`vZjv, wZbZjv I PviZjvq wKQz As‡ki KvR
mgvcZÕ cÖvq| wmuwo ‡e‡q DVvbvgv Ki‡Z Av‡iv wKQzw`b A‡cÿv Ki‡Z n‡e| Avgv‡`i
†`‡k‡Zv wjd‡Ui cÖPj‡b Lye Kg| hvI Av‡Q, Zv‡Z DV‡Z fq K‡i| we`y¨‡Zi hv Ae¯’v|
KLb wjdU AvU‡K hvq|
Zvgvbbv GLb fv‡jv K‡i nuvU‡Z cv‡i| ‡Zvgvi Lvjv, wkwi, Zgv, bvZvkv, I †gNjv MZKvj
kyKeª vi †M‡qwQ‡jv Kj¨vYcyi,- Zvgvbbv‡K †`L‡Z| GLb WªvBfvi bvB| gwZb we`vq| gwZb
bvwK †ekx †eZ‡bi PvKix †c‡q‡Q Ab¨Î| GLb GK Rb Av‡Q, -Mvoxi †`Lvkybv K‡i|
mcZv‡n `y-GKevi †Kv_vq cÖ‡qvRb n‡j hvIqv hvq| †m cv‡ki evoxi fvov‡Ui WªvBfvi|
Aek¨ Avgv‡`i ‡Zv †Zgb `iKvi nq bv|
11-8-1991: †`‡ki evoxi gmwR`Uvi KvR K‡Zv w`‡b †kl nq Avjjvn Rv‡b| G ch©bZÕ
gmwR‡`i Kv‡R cÖvq 1 jvL 30 nvRvi UvKv LiP n‡q ‡M‡Q| gmwR‡`i Qv`Uv GKms‡M
XvjvB †`Iqv †MjÕ bv| 1/3 Ask evKx i‡q †M‡Q| A_©vr evivb`v evKx Av‡Q| cvKv KvR
Ki‡Z kn‡ii PvB‡Z MÖv‡g LiP †ekx c‡o| Avgv‡`i evox‡Z B‡jKwUªwmwU Avbv n‡q‡Q|
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ev_iygUv Kiv ‡M‡jv bv| AvMvgx AMÖnvq‡Y †Póv K‡i †`L‡ev| Aek¨ hw` nvqv‡Z hw` †eu‡P
_vwK| PievKÕi †_‡K Pvbw`bv ch©bZÕ iv¯ÍvUv n‡q †M‡j XvKv †_‡K Avgv‡`i evox ch©bZÕ
`~iZ¡ A‡bKUv K‡g hv‡e| Avi hw` †gNbv-‡MvgZx cyjUv n‡q hvq, Z‡e mgq Av‡iv Kg
jvM‡e| ZLb †KD BP‡Q Ki‡j Avgvi Kei †RqviZ K‡i XvKv wd‡i G‡m `ycy‡ii LvIqv
†L‡Z Amyweav n‡e bv| Bjvnvev` wM‡q Lvevi cÖ‡qvRb n‡e bv, -wVKvbv LyuR‡Z n‡e bv|
PievKÕi-Pvbw`bv iv¯Ívq `uvov‡j ckwPg w`‡K cvKv gmwR‡`i cv‡kB _vK‡e Avgvi wVKvbv|
GLb mba¨v n‡q Avm‡Q| kÖve‡Yi †kl †ejv| AvKv‡k †gN bvB| Z‡e gv‡S gv‡S Si Si
K‡i iv¯Ív evwj-†fRv‡bv nvjKv e„wó nVvr K‡i Av‡m| bx‡Pi Mv‡Q dzj bvB| `yB GKUv
mymbz av cvZvi duv‡K †`Lv hvq| Z‡e Uvjxi PvjvUv ‡Nu‡l wKQz gvaexjZv dzj dz‡U‡Q| dz‡ji
Rb¨ Aek¨ Lye Kg gvby‡li Avd‡mvm|
ey`aÕ I wcKz‡K Avgvi †`vqv I ggZv w`‡q GLb ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 75KLMMOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXVI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 1-9-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv ‡h‡bv myL-kvbwZ‡Z, wbivc` I
AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
g‡b nq A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgvq wjwL bv| nq‡Zv wj‡LwQ, g‡b bvB| GLb‡Zv g‡b _v‡K bv
A‡bK wKQz| GB †h wKQzÿY Av‡M KjgUv Lyu‡R Lyu‡R nqivb njvg| A_PÕ KjgUv eyK
c‡K‡U †i‡L wQjvg K‡qK NYUv c~‡e©| GLb †h‡bv ¯g„„wZ wKQzB a‡i ivL‡Z Pvq bv| fvewQ
Ggwb K‡i nq‡Zv GKw`b meB fz‡j hv‡ev| fy‡j hv‡ev wb‡Ri bvgUvI| ‡hgb fy‡j ‡MwQ
A‡bK gvby‡li bvg, -hv‡`i bvg g‡bi Mfx‡i `vM Kv‡Uwb| Z‡e GKUv e¨vcvi ‡`‡LwQ,
mvgúªwZK NUbvMy‡jvB we‡kl K‡i g‡b _v‡K bv| bZzb cwiPq, bZzb msMÖn ¯g„wZ †h‡bv Avi
MÖnY K‡i ‡evSv evov‡Z Pvq bv|
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AwZ ‰kk‡ei NUbvczYwR ‡Zv g‡b nq ¯g„wZ fv‡jv fv‡e msiÿY K‡i Avm‡Q| bZz‡bi
†ejvq GZ Abxnv †KbÕ ? kyK‡bv dz‡ji gvjv wb‡q Lykxi AbZÕ bvB| bZzb ZiZvRv dz‡ji
gvjvwUi Ggb †njv†djv †KbÕ ? G †h†bv, -ÒVuvB bvB, VvuB bvB, ‡QvUÕ G Zix, Avgvi ‡mvbvi
av‡b wM‡q‡Q ‡m fwi|Ó
†Zvgvi Lvjv e‡j, Avwg wPwV†Z Gme ev‡R Kx wjwL G†Zv mgq a‡i ! Avwg ewj, -Avgvi
Kv‡Q ‡Zv mg‡qi `vg †bB| hviv Kv‡Ri †jvK, Zv‡`iB mg‡qi `vg Av‡Q| mg‡qi †KD
`vg w`K Avi bv w`K, G‡Z mg‡qi wKQz Av‡M hvq bv| †m Pj‡Q Avcb g‡b, -Zvi wbR¯^
MwZ‡Z, Zvi Pjvi ¯^vÿi †i‡L hvP‡Q †Zvgvi Avgvi mevi Ic‡i|
†Zvgvi Avggv G†Zv Kv‡Q, Zey Zv‡K A‡bK w`b hveZ †`wL bv| †`L‡Z BP‡Q K‡i| K†Zv
†mœnÕ ggZv †c‡qwQ Zuvi Kv‡Q| G hy‡M †Zv gvby‡li †mœn-ggZv K‡g †M‡Q| n‡Z cv‡i
Avgvi Kv‡QB GgbwU g‡b nq, -Avm‡j nq†Zv me wVKB Av‡Q Av‡Mi g†Zv| hw`I
cwi‡ek-cÖK…wZ Av‡bKUv e`‡j †M‡Q| †gN`~‡Zi e`‡j we`y¨r-`~Z G‡m‡Q| Z‡e G hy‡M
Kweiv gnvKve¨ wj‡L bv| `xwN Av‡Q wVKB, Òc`g&wU bvBÓ| Av‡Mi g†Zv wKQz bvB fve‡Z
g‡b ‡ek Kó jv‡M| Bjvnvev` †_‡K kvKZjv hvevi c_| kxZ, MÖxlgÕ, el©vi wewfbbÕ
c_My‡jv Av‡Rv Av‡Q| Z‡e †bŠKvq Avi GLb †KD P‡j bv| ‡bŠKvi e`‡j P‡j wiKkv|
†`‡k GLb †bŠKv bvB| Z‡e †kvbv hvq Lv‡j`v wRqv Avevi Lvj KvUv kyiy Ki‡e| m‡Li
åg‡bi Rb¨ nq†Zv `yÕPviUv †bŠKvI Avevi Avg`vbx n‡e| eQi wZb Av‡M bwb, mygx I
‡Zvgvi Lvjv mL K‡i †bŠKvq P‡o kvKZjv ‡_‡K Bjvnvev` wM‡qwQ†jv| Aek¨ ZLb
Lvjfiv cvwb wQ†jv bv, -wQ†jv bv mvKjv, kybw` kvcjv, kvjyK, -nq†Zv wKQz KPzixcvbv
wQ†jv|
2-9-1991: AvR †Zvgvi wPwV †cjvg, -ms‡M eve‡bi wPwVI †cjvg| ey`aÕi K_v wj‡L†Qv|
‡QvUÕ †ejvq Zvi evevI Ggwb Aw¯’i wQ†jv| Aek¨ cv‡qi Rb¨ Pig n‡Z cv‡iwb| Z‡e GUv
Rxe‡bi jÿY, -‡`vlbxq bq| Z‡e mZK© _vK‡Z nq| `ytmvnmx WªvBfviiv Lye `ª zZ Mvox
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Pvjv‡Z cQÕb`Õ K‡i, hw`I Zv SuzwKc~Y|© evnv`yix †`Levi Rb¨ `y`©vbZÕ evPPviv A‡bK mgq
e†ov‡`i KvR Ki‡Z Pvq| ZvovZvwo e†ov nIqvi AvKvsLv Zv‡`i Zxeª |
†Zvgiv Avgvi wPwV cvIwb e‡j `ytwLZÕ| Aek¨ Avwg wPwV †ekx wjwL bv| gv‡m `yBwUi †ekx
wjL‡Z cvwi bv| GL‡bv wjL‡Z cvwi e‡j Zv wjwL| nq†Zv GKw`b †Zvgvi gv‡qi g†Zv
AvwgI Avi wjL‡Z cvi†ev bv| Z‡e nv‡Zi wPwV bv †c‡jI g‡bi wPwV cv†ev| AMwbwgÎ †Zv
gvjweKvi Kv‡Q †g‡Ni gvidZ g‡bi wPwV cvwV‡qwQ†jv| hw`I †m †gN gvjweKvi †`‡ki
w`‡K hv‡e wK bv Zvi †Kvb wbkPqZv wQ†jv bv| c~‡ei nvIqv ckwP‡g bv †M‡jI Kwe bexi
Kv‡Q mvjvg Zvi gvid‡ZB cvVvq| g‡bi wPwVi wVKvbv fyj nq bv, -wi‡gvU Kb‡Uªv‡j P‡j|
†Zvgvi gv Lvjviv GLb †KD fv‡jv ‡bB| ‡Zvgvi gv‡qi †PvL, ‡Zvgvi †gRÕ Lvjvi
WvB‡ewUm, †mRÕ Lvjvi bvK, Avi †QvUÕ Lvjvi cv| Z‡e †Zvgvi eoÕ Lvjvi Ae¯’v GL‡bv
PjbmB| hw`I A‡bK bvwjk Av‡Q A‡b‡Ki Kv‡Q| Z‡e e„`aÕKv‡j kvixwiK Amy¯’¨Zvi
PvB‡Z g‡bi AkvbwZ †ekx Kvey K‡i| ‡Zvgv‡`i mv‡_ Avi K‡e †`Lv nq Rvwb bv| AjcÕ
mg‡qi A‡cÿv gvbyl‡K †ekx Kó †`q, `xN© mgq Zv‡K mnbkxb K‡i ‡Zv‡j| GUvB cÖK…wZi
wbqg | ZvB wejÕgeÕ n‡jI gb ‡g‡b ‡bq| bB‡j †h gvbyl nvm‡Z fz‡j †h‡Zv|
g‡b c‡o ‡Zvgiv hLb ‡gvnvggÕ`cyi wQ‡j| wcKz ZLb †Kej GKUy GKUz nuvuU‡Z cv‡i|
Avwg wM‡qwQjvg †Zvgv‡`i †`L‡Z| wcKz ‡divi mgq Avgvi wc‡Q wc‡Q AvmwQ‡jv| Avgvi
mv‡_ Avm‡Z bv †c‡i Zvi ‡m Kx Kvbbv| Avgvi g‡b Av‡Q, -†ZvgviI nq‡Zv g‡b Av‡Q,
wKbZz wcKzi g‡b bvB| g‡b _vKvUvB †h †e`bv |
GLb Avwm gv| ‡Zvgiv mevB Kyk‡j _v‡Kv ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 76KLMNOP
184
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXVII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 22-9-1991
Kj¨vbYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingÕZ ‡nvÕK| †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z,
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
†Zvgv‡`i wPwV K‡e †cjvg g‡b bvB| GLb A‡bK wKQzB g‡b _v‡K bv| my`~i AZx‡Zi
A‡bK K_v g‡b _vK‡jI wbKU AZx‡ZUv g‡b _v‡K bv| Z‡e we‡kl we‡kl wKQz wbKU
AZx‡Zi NUbv g‡b _v‡K| GB †hgb MZÕKvj wcKz Zvi RbgÕw`‡bi AKvj D‡Øva‡bi K_v
ej‡jv| Avwg ‡f‡ewQjvg w`bwU †eva nq Gevi nvwi‡q †M‡jv| Õ92 mv‡ji 12B †mc‡UgeÕi
ch©bZÕ euvP‡ev Kx bv fvewQjvg| ZLb Avgvi 79Zg el© Pj‡e| †eu‡P bv _vK‡j ZLb
Avevi wfbbÕ bv‡g MybwZ kyiy n‡e| RbgÕ-g„Zz¨i MyYv MyYwZ Ggwb P‡j|
gRvi e¨cvi, -Rxe‡bi Nwoi KvuUv c~e©vn‡Y I Acivn‡Y GKB wnmv‡e P‡j| Rxe‡bi
ga¨vnY¨Uv hw` wVK Kiv †h‡Zv, Zvn‡j nq‡Zv GKR‡bi RbgÕ-el©My‡jv‡K `yB fvM K‡i, c~e©vnYÕ RbgÕw`b I AcivnYÕ RbgÕw`b cvjb Kiv †h‡Zv| RxebUv ‡Zv AbÕbZÕ Kv‡ji
†iLvq GKwU web`yi g‡Zv| †Kv‡bv GKUv Rxeb†K ‡KD ‡KD RbgÕ-g„Zz¨i KvjcÕwbK
mxgv‡iLv †U‡b wKQzKv‡ji Rb¨ n‡jI ¯g„wZi `¦x‡c AvU‡K ivL‡Z Pvq| GUvI GK iKg
†Ljv| gvbyl wb‡R Zvi RbgÕw`b cvjb K‡i bv, -hw`I Ki‡Z gvbv ‡bB| Z‡e †KD †KD
K‡i _v‡K, -†hgb AvwgI Kwi| Avgvi fvB-†ev‡biv †KD RbgÕw`b cvjb K‡i bv| Zviv
Zv‡`i RbgÕ ZvwiL Rv‡b bv| Rvb‡jI Ki‡Zv wK bv †K Rv‡b|
Avgv‡`i mgq RbgÕw`b wb‡q, evi, gvm, mb ZvwiL wb‡q †KD gv_v Nvgv‡Zv bv| Z‡e †m
mgq miKvi RbgÕ-g„Zz¨i LvZv msiÿY Ki‡Zv| †KD †KD gv ev‡ci ev eq¯K AvZg&xq¯^R‡bi Kv‡Q ky‡b mb, gvm, GgbwK eviUvI g‡b ivL‡Zv| GUv ejwQ gymjgvb‡`i †ejvq|
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wnb`y‡`i †ejvq Aek¨ Kzwó wQ‡jv| Avgvi RbgÕ ZvwiLUv Avgvi gv‡qi Kv‡Q ‡kvbv, AMÖnvqY gvmi wZb w`b _vK‡Z| mbUv evev ej‡Zb 1320 evsjv, eviUv wQj e„n¯úwZevi
w`evMZÕ ga¨ivZ| evevi we‡q n‡qwQ‡jv 1317 evsjv m‡b| wKbZz Avgvi evev gv Zv‡`i
RbgÕ ZvwiL e‡j hvq wb| wKbZz Zv‡`i g„Zz¨ ZvwiL, GgbwK mgqUvI Avgvi Rvbv Av‡Q|
ZvB Zv‡`i g„Zz¨evwl©Kx cvjb Kwi| RbgÕ ZvwiLUv Rvbv _vK‡j KiZvg| Rvbv bv †_‡K eis
fv‡jvB n‡q‡Q| cÖwZw`b cvuP evi cuvPwU wewfbbÕ mgq Avwg Avgvi gv-evevi RbgÕw`b cvjb
Kwi| evevi g„Zz¨ n‡qwQ‡jv gvMwi‡ei mgq| Avi gv‡qi g„Zz¨ AvQ‡ii mgq| gv evev Df‡qi
RbgÕ jMbÕ Lyu‡R ‡eovB dRi, †Rvni, AvQi, gvMwie, Gkvq| †hgb K‡i Lyu‡R †eovB k‡eK`i igRv‡bi †kl `k w`‡bi wfZi|
AvR iweevi| MZÕ iweev‡i wM‡qwQjvg m¨vi ˆmq` †iv‡W| A‡bK w`b c‡i †Mjvg | mv‡_
†Zvgvi Lvjv wQ‡jv| wM‡qwQjvg eyey‡K †`L‡Z, -†L‡qI Gjvg| eyey ‡Zv GLb mvgvb¨ AveQv
AveQv ‡`L‡Z cvb| †Pv‡L hYÎbvI Av‡Q| Rxe‡bi AvbÕb`Õ hLb kywK‡q hvq, -gy‡Li
nvwm‡ZI ZLb Av‡eM DPQv‡mi †Quvqv _v‡K bv| nvwm-KvbbvUv ZLb `xN© w`‡bi GK
Af¨v‡mi cÖKvk| GB `„k¨Uv e‡ov KiyY| G ‡h‡bv me©nviv wiK‡Zi welÕbbÕ Qwe|
K‡qK NYUv Av‡M ‡Zvgvi mv‡_ ‡dv‡b K_v n‡jv| Rvnx‡`i †dvb bs-Gi Rb¨, †Zvgvi gvi
mv‡_ K_v ejvi Rb¨| gvby‡li †kl eq‡m A‡bK wKQzi cwieZ©b nq| †Kej KYVÕ¯^i
cwieZ©b nq bv| †Zvgvi bvbv gi‡bi w`b `yÕw`b Av‡M bvwK Avwgbvi gv‡qi KYVÕ¯^i kyb‡Z
‡c‡Zb| wKQz msL¨K gvby‡li KYVÕ¯^i evi evi ky‡b gw¯Í‡Ki †KvbÕ GK ¯’v‡b Mvu_v n‡q
_v‡K| ¯g„wZi wcb jvM‡jB †e‡R D‡V| GB fvbWviwU wKbZz ‡bnv‡qr †QvUÕ bq| G‡Zv
wewPÎ ¯^i wK K‡i ‡h, -‡K ‡mB fvbWv‡i _‡i _‡i mvwR‡q †i‡L‡Q, -†KD Rv‡b bv| hYÎ
bvB, -hYÎx bvB, wKbZz D_w_Z ¯^i Av‡Q | †Kej GK ¯’v‡b bq, enz ¯’v‡b, -wewfbœ fvY‡W|
Avwgbvi gvi KYVÕ¯^i wK †Kej Avwgbvi evcB kyb‡Z ‡c‡Zb ? Av‡Rv wK Avi †KD †m
KYVÕ¯^i jvjb K‡i bv ? gvbyl g„Zz¨i ciI enz w`b Zuvi KYVÕ¯^‡i †eu‡P _v‡K, -cÖwZaŸwbi
g‡Zv bq, †iK‡W©i Mv‡bi g‡Zv|
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Kx ej‡Z wM‡q wK ejjvg| ejwQjvg wcKzi RbgÕw`‡bi AKvj D‡Øva‡bi K_v| Avgiv
RvbZvg wcKzi RbgÕ ZvwiL 12B †mc‡UgeÕi| wKbZz †Zvgiv †KK KvU‡j 21B
†mc‡UgeÕi| wcKz evsjvq K_v ej‡jv, -we‡`kx evsjv, †kL gyRx‡ei Bs‡iRxi g‡Zv| wcKz
ej‡jv `yBUv birth day K‡i‡Q, -eySjvg bv| hvK, -Avgvi eySv bv eySvq wKQz Av‡m hvq
bv| wcKz †Zv hv ‡nvK evsjvq `v`v-`v`xi mv‡_ K_v ej‡Z cvi‡jv, ey`aÕ †Zv ZvI cvi‡jv
bv| Zey `yB we‡`kx fvB-†evb‡`i Rb¨ †i‡L †Mjvg eyKfiv Avkxe©v`| ‡MŠi‡ei Wvjv wb‡q
GB RbgÕw`b Zv‡`i Rxe‡b wd‡i wd‡i AvmyK nvRvi evi !
†KbÕ Rvwb bv, g‡b nq Avgvi evev-gvi gsMj-AkÖz †h‡bv Avgvq wN‡i †i‡L‡Q| mbZvb mviv
Rxeb evc-gvi msMx n‡q _vK‡j †Zv gv-evev mbZv‡bi Rb¨ Kvu‡` bv| Avwg Avgvi Rxe‡bi
mvgvb¨ mgqB evc-gv‡qi mv‡_ i‡qwQ, ‡ekxi fvM Rxeb †K‡U‡Q evc-gvi mvwba¨ Qvov|
ZvB evc-gv †Ku‡`‡Q Avgvi Rb¨ | †mB AkÖz-gsM‡ji-Avkx‡liv ZvB nq‡Zv mbZv‡bi Rb¨
Kvbbv n‡q iB‡jv Avgvi DZZÕivwaKvi| AvR †_‡K ‡ZwÎk eQi Av‡M jvKkv‡g GKwU
m‡`¨vRvZ wkky mbZvb‡K nvwi‡q †h Kvbbv-MsMvi AeZiÕY N‡UwQ‡jv, -gnv‡`‡ei RUvRvj
†f` K‡i Av‡Rv Zvi kxY©Kvqv ‡mÖvZ e‡q P‡j‡Q Avgvi Rxeb cÖvbZÕi cøvweZ K‡i| ÒZzwg
ab¨ ab¨ ‡n Ó!
GLb ivwL gv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 77KLMNOP
188
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXVIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 15-10-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK| †Zvgiv my¯¨’ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z, wbivc` I
AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
†Zvgvi ‡jLv wPwV K‡e †c‡qwQ g‡b bvB| eve‡bi †jLv †cjvg K‡qK w`b Av‡M| Avwg ‡Zv
GLb eB cwo bv| GKUv Le‡ii KvMR ivwL| me wjLvB cÖvq cwo| Avi cwo mKvj †ejv
GK cviv †KvivY kixd| Le‡ii KvM‡R wjLvMy‡jv me A_© eywS| †Kviv‡Y †jLvi me A_©
eywS bv| Zey cwo| GKevi cov †kl n‡j Avevi cwo, weiKwZ Av‡m bv| wKbZz Le‡ii
KvMR ev Ab¨ ‡jLv GKevi co‡j Avevi wd‡i co‡Z BP‡Q nq bv| bvgv‡Ri g‡a¨I ‡Zv
Avgiv GKB m~iv ev‡i ev‡i cwo| †KvbÕ †KvbÕ †jLv ev covi g‡a¨ hv`y Av‡Q, gay Av‡Q|
†m †jLvwU myb`Õi ev welq emZz Abb¨ e‡j bq| †mLv‡b cÖv‡Yi `i` Av‡Q e‡j| Avwg
GKevi cÖkYÕ K‡iwQjvg, -gv‡qi nv‡Zi ivbbv G‡Zv mym¦v`z ‡KbÕ ? DZZÕiUv AvwgB
w`‡qwQjvg, -gv‡qi nv‡Zi ivbbv e‡j| GUv wK me©Kv‡j me© Ae¯’vq _v‡K ? h‡Zv w`b
gv‡qi cÖwZ g‡bi Uvb mevi Dc‡i _v‡K|
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17-10-1991: wPwVUv wjL‡Z kyiy K‡iwQjvg K‡e g‡b bvB | g‡b bv _vKUv A‡bK mgq
fv‡jv| †Zvgiv †h evsjv‡`‡k K‡e G‡mwQ‡j, K‡Zv eQi ci G‡mwQ‡j, ‡Kvb gv‡m ‡Kvb
Zvwi‡L G‡mwQ‡j, -Zv g‡b bvB| Z‡e †Zvgiv hLb G‡mwQ‡j ZLb evsjv‡`‡ki kxZKvj
wQ‡jv| evox msjMbÕ IjU-Kgj MvQUvq Suv‡K Suv‡K dzj dz‡UwQ‡jv|
†Zvgiv hw` Avevi †KvbÕ w`b Av‡mv, Avwg bv _vK‡jI dzjMvQUv nq‡Zv _vK‡e| †`L‡j
†Zvgv‡`i wPb‡e| kxZKvj n‡j ZL‡bv MvQUv dz‡j dz‡j f‡i _vK‡e| dz‡ji fv‡i WvjMy‡jv
by‡q _vK‡e| AvkPh©, kxZ dzwi‡q †M‡jv Avi Agwb dzjMy‡jv w`‡b w`‡b weeY© n‡q, w`‡b
w`‡b kywK‡q Ae‡k‡l S‡i †M‡jv| Avi MvQUvi Kx Kvbbv| G Kvbbv mevB ky‡b bv| Avwg
kywb| we`vq jM‡Y cÖwZwU dzj MvQUv‡K mvbZÕbv w`‡q e‡j †M‡jv, - Ò†Ku‡`v bv, Avwg Avevi
Avm‡ev ! AvMvgx kx‡Z Avevi Avm‡ev !Ó| kx‡Zi Avi †ekx †`ix bvB| MvQUv m‡ZR
Av‡qvR‡b e¨¯Í| Z‡e gvby‡li †ejvq ‡eva nq wfbbÕ i~c| `k eQi ci KveyjxIqvjv
†RjLvbv †_‡K †ewi‡q G‡m †`L‡jv wgwb mwZ¨ mwZ¨B k¦kyi evox hvP‡Q| Gi Av‡M ingZ
wb‡RB †h K‡ZvUv eywo‡q †M‡Q †eva nq eyS‡Z cv‡iwb| `xN© Abycw¯’wZi `iyb enz w`‡bi
‡Pbv cwi‡ekI GKw`b AcwiwPZÕ n‡q hvq|
A‡bK mgq g‡b nq gv, Av‡Mi w`‡bi `yt‡Li w`bMy‡jvB †h‡bv fv‡jv wQ‡jv| AhvwPZ
cvIqvi my‡Li PvB‡Z `yt‡Li mv‡_ hy‡S AwR©Z m¦jcÕ myLI ‡h A‡bK AvbÕb‡`i | †m Rb¨B
†eva nq evRvi †_‡K †Kbv iyB gv‡Qi PvB‡Z wb‡Ri eokx‡Z aiv cuywU gvQwU `vg †`q ‡ekx
wkkyiv| †QvUÕ †ejv Avwg eokx wb‡q NyiZvg| e„wó ev`j gvbZvg bv| gvQ †ekx †cZvg bv|
`yB GKUv cuywU, ‡Usiv, †QvUÕLv‡Uv ‡e‡j, UvwK, - GB m‡ei Rb¨ wQ‡jv G cyKzi, Lvj, I M‡o
NyivNywi| GKw`b fv`ª gv‡m cv‡Ui fy‡ii Dci `vuwo‡q eokx †d‡jwQ| AcÖZ¨vwkZ fv‡e
GKUv ‡ek e‡ov wks gvQ eokx‡Z AvUKv‡jv| Avgvi †h Kx Lykx| GL‡bv †mB NUbvwU g‡b
n‡j †mB cyiv‡Yv w`‡bi †QvUÕ †ejvi AvbÕb‡`i †Quvqv Abyfe Kwi ¯úbw`ZÕ ¯g„wZ‡Z| A_PÕ
‡m wK ZzPQÕ NUbv, -Kx ZzPQÕ GKwU nvwm|
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cuvP eQ‡ii wgwb nq‡Zv fz‡jB wM‡qwQ‡jv ing‡Zi K_v| fz‡j wM‡qwQ‡jv A‡b‡KB| fz‡j
bvB kyay ingZ †mB cvuP eQ‡ii wgwb†K| ingZ †`L‡Z G‡mwQ‡jv †mB cuvP eQ‡ii
wgwb‡KB| mv‡o wZb kZÕ eQi ci Nyg fvsM‡j Kvnv‡di †jvKMywj fve‡ZB cv‡iwb G‡Zv
`xN© mgq Zviv Nywg‡qwQ‡jv| hLb Rvb‡Z cvi‡jv, ZLb Zviv Gevi wPiw`‡bi Rb¨ Nywg‡q
co‡jv| Avi RvM‡jv bv| †h cwi‡e‡k gvbyl jvwjZÕ, nVvr †mB cwi‡ekUv nvwi‡q †M‡j †m
Avi †ekxw`b evu‡P bv| cwi‡ek nVvr K‡i cvjUvq bv, ZvB i‡ÿ| Avgv‡K hw` fv‡jvevmÕ,
Z‡e Kuv‡`v bv ‡Kb !Õ, -GwU wcKzi K_v|
GLb Avwk¦‡bi †kl| `yM©vc~Rv Pj‡Q| AvR `yB w`b hveZ AbveiZ e„wó| e„wó Av‡iv Pj‡e, wbbgÕ Pvc Av‡Q| fv`ª †M‡jv, Avwk¦b †M‡jv, wKbZz kir G‡jv bv| Gevi fv`ª-Avwk¦bI el©v|
GLb †`‡k AvKvj Pj‡Q| we‡kl K‡i iscyi Ges DZZÕi es‡M Av‡iv K‡qKwU wRjvq
Abvnv‡i I Wv‡qwiqvq †ek wKQz †jvK g‡i‡Q| gqgbwms‡ni eb¨v `yM©Z GjvKvi gvbyl XvKv
kn‡i G‡m fxo K‡i‡Q| A‡b‡K VuvB wb‡q‡Q wek¦‡iv‡Wi dyUcv‡Z| e„wó‡Z G‡`i `yM©wZ
Pi‡g| XvKvi Lei fv‡jvB| Avgv‡`i AvZgxq-¯^Rb †KD bv †L‡q bvB| wek¦we`¨vjq I
K‡jR cvovi Lei fv‡jvB| †jLvcov ebaÕ K‡i Avgv‡`i mvnmx ‡Q‡jiv hy`aÕ hy`aÕ †Ljv
†Lj‡Q|
†Zvgiv Avgvi †`vqv wb‡qv ! ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 78KLMNOP
192
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXIX
XvKv, 8-11-1991
gv exby,
AvR †fv‡i †`Ljvg IjU Kgj MvQMy‡jv‡Z Kuzwoi AvMgb| kx‡Zi cvLxi g‡Zv Giv K‡qK
w`b ci Suv‡K Suv‡K dzU‡e| ZLb wcKz I ey`aÕi K_v †ekx †ekx g‡b co‡e| gvby‡li
gvivgvwi KvUvKvwU dy‡ji RM‡Z †KvbÕ e¨wZKªg NUvq bv| cvLxi RM‡ZI bv| kx‡Zi
cvLx‡`i evsjv‡`‡k Avm‡Z cvm‡cvU© jv‡M bv| we‡`kx n‡jI me †`‡ki miKvi Zv‡`i
wbivcZZvi e¨e¯’v K‡i| †Kej gvby‡li †ejv Zvi e¨wZKªg| gvbylB gv emybaÕiv‡K fvMeuv‡Uvqviv K‡i gvbyl‡K mxgv‡iLvq eb`x K‡i †i‡L‡Q| ZeyI mviv `ywbqvq dyj dzU‡e|
Amxg AvKv‡k cvLxiv D‡o †eov‡e| gvby‡li mv‡_ wgZvjx Kivi Rb¨ dzj Avi cvLx‡`i
K‡Zv AvKzj-weKzwj| wKbZz ZeyI gvbyl dyj wQu‡o, cvLx gv‡i|
†Zvgvi Lvjvi wPwVi cvZvq GKUz duvK †c‡q ZvB GKUz wj‡L w`jvg|
†Zvgiv dz‡ji RM‡Z †_‡Kv ! cvLxi mv‡_ †Zvgiv wgZvjx K‡iv !
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j|
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 79KLMNO
194
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXX
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 10-11-1991
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK|†Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z,
wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
MZKvj bwbi I mygxi Kv‡Q wPwV w`jvg| Al‡Uªwjqvi wVKvbvq I‡`i Kv‡Q Avgvi †kl
wjLv| GB wVKvbvq Avi ‡KvbÕw`b Avgvi wPwV hv‡e bv| GB wVKvbvq Av‡iv nq‡Zv K‡Zv
†`‡ki K‡Zv †jvK _vK‡e| Iiv Avcb R‡bi wPwV cv‡e, - IivI Avevi wVKvbv e`j Ki‡e|
Avevi wewfbbÕ wVKvbvq wPwV hv‡e, ev hv‡e bv| wKbZz Avgvi wVKvbv e`j nq bv| K‡Zv hyM
a‡i G wVKvbvq AvwQ !
Z‡e wVKvbv wPi¯’vqx bq| A¯’vqx wVKvbvi Kvj `xN© n«¯^ n‡q _v‡K| IUv w`b gvm eQi w`‡q
Avgiv MYbv Kwi| †Kvb wVKvbvq KZ Kvj evm Kijvg, GKUv †gvUvgywU wnmve ivwL| †h
wVKvbvq gvbyl †ekx w`b _v‡K, †mB wVKvbvi cÖwZ gvby‡li ggZ¡ †eva ev‡o| wVKvbvi ¯’vbwU
fv‡jv wK gb`Õ, †m cÖkYÕwU ‡MŠYÕ n‡q hvq| ZvB nq‡Zv Avgv‡`i jvgwWs bvgK A¯^v¯’¨Ki
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¯’vbwU hLb wPiw`‡bi Rb¨ †Q‡o Avmjvg, ZLb g‡b Kó jvMwQ‡jv| jvgwWs-Gi miKvix
evmvwU wQj Uvjxi QvIqv cvKv evox| cvKNi mn 5wU Kvgiv wQ‡jv| mvg‡b evMvb Kivi Rb¨
†`qvj ‡Niv GK wPj‡Z Rwg wQ‡jv| wKbZz A¯’vqx evwmb`viv †mLv‡b †Kvb dzj ev d‡ji
MvQ †ivcb K‡iwb| AvMvQvivB ZvB Mv‡Qi Afve c~iY Ki‡Zv | evmvi wfZ‡i GKwU Avg
MvQ wQ‡jv| MvQwU †ekx e‡ov wQ‡jv bv| Lye fv‡jv wQ‡jv ‡L‡Z, wglwU Avg| Avwg †mLv‡b
†`o eQi wQjvg| GK †gŠmy‡gi AvgB †Kej †L‡qwQjvg| cv‡k †ijI‡qi AvB WvewjDi
evs‡jvi GK av‡i GKUv e‡ov †cqviv MvQ wQ‡jv| cvKv cvKv mv`v †cqvivq MvQUv †Q‡q
_vK‡Zv| †KD †L‡Zv bv, ev`y‡iI bv| evmvi wcQ‡b wQ‡jv GKUv gvV| gv‡Vi c~e cv‡k †cvó
Awdm; mv‡_B wQ‡jv †cvó gvóv‡ii evmv| evmvi cv‡k wQ‡jv mvwi evuav †cu‡c MvQ| Mv‡Qi
cvKv †cu‡c Kv‡K †L‡Zv| †ijI‡qi ‡PŠn`w`i wfZi ¯’vbwU G‡Zv cwi®‹vi cwiQbbÕ _vKv
m‡Z¡I g¨v‡jwiqvi wW‡cv wQ‡jv| ZvB †mLvb †_‡K evsMvjx PvKz‡iiv cvjvB cvjvB Ki‡Zv|
†`o eQi _vKvi ci †mB ¯’vbwU †Q‡o Avm‡Z Kó n‡qwQ‡jv| †Pv‡L †evanq cvwbI
G‡mwQ‡jv| Avmvi c‡_ wZb eQ‡ii meyR †Zv wd‡i hvevi Rb¨ `mZyi g‡Zv PxrKvi
KiwQ‡jv| Zvi mv_x evwj, nvwo mgfzi Kv‡Q hvIqvi Rb¨ Kx Kvbbv|
wVKvbv mgeÕb‡a G‡ZvMy‡jv K_v ejjvg bwbi Al‡Uªwjqv ev‡mi K_v g‡b K‡i| weMZÕ †`o
eQi hveZ †m †mLv‡b Av‡Q| ‡QvUÕ Ckv‡Zi †Zv ¯g„wZi evjvB bvB, -†e`bvI bvB| e‡ov
n‡j evc-gvi Kv‡Q kyb‡e †m f~wglVÕ n‡qwQ‡jv †Kvb f~-‡Z| †Kej G‡ZvUzKzB| wKbZz Zvi
evc-gvi ¯g„wZ‡Z mviv Rxeb †eu‡P _vK‡e †`owU eQi KvUv‡bv wVKvbvi GKwU Agjvb Qwe|
Avi GB Qwei wewkó Ae`vb GB CkvZ| A_P CkvZB Zv Rvb‡e bv| †hgb K‡i AvR
nq‡Zv Rv‡b bv †Zvgvi wcKz ! Rv‡b bv Zv‡K we`vq w`‡q ixYvi Kx `viyb Kvbbv ! nvwo, gay
mgfz, evjxi K_v wK meyR AvR ej‡Z cvi‡e ? Avgiv gv-evevB †Kej Zvi mvÿx| Kx
wewPÎ GB `ywbqvi gvqv !
11-11-1991: gvby‡li GKwU gvÎ wVKvbvB wPi¯’vqx nq, †m n‡jv cicv‡ii wVKvbv| GB
wVKvbv KL‡bv fyj nq bv| Z‡e †m wVKvbvq †m †Kgb Av‡Q Rvbvi †KvbÕ my‡hvM nq bv|
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Avcb R‡biv h‡Zv w`b g‡b iv‡L ev g‡b ivLvi g‡Zv AvcbRb _v‡K, Z‡Zv w`b Zv‡`i
Kzkj Kvgbv K‡i| †mLv‡b wPwV hvq bv| webv Zv‡ii msev` cvVv‡bvi AvKzjZv _v‡K, DZZÕ‡ii Rb¨ Av‡cÿv bvB, -GK Zidv me|
wPwV bvgK ‡h KvMRwU Avwg †Zvgv‡`i cvVvB, G‡Z wPwVi welq-emZz wKQzB _v‡K bv|
Leinxb Lei-KvM‡Ri g‡Zv|
AvR Rvnx‡`i evmvq ‡dvb K‡iwQjvg mba¨vi ci| †Zvgvi gv‡qi Le‡ii Rb¨| †dvb
a‡iwQ‡jv ggx| Avwg g‡b KiwQjvg †eŠgv| mg‡evaÕbUv ZvB DjUv-cvjUv n‡q †MwQ‡jv| gv
I †ewUi KYVÕ¯^iUv g‡b nq Lye †ekx mgvbZÕivj| ‡mUv fv‡jv| Z‡e AmyweavI Av‡Q|
hvK, eyey eZ©gv‡b XvKvq| gqgbwmsn †gwW‡Kj K‡j‡R ev‡N-wms‡n jovB | K‡jR ebaÕ|
ZvB ggx XvKvq| we-Gb-wc I AvIqvgx jx‡Mi QvÎ g¯Ívbiv GLb wd«-óvBj Kzw¯Í Kmir
Ki‡Q| gv-kvqvjjv, GLb evsjv‡`‡ki me wek¦we`¨vjq mcwil‡` ebaÕ| Avi wkÿKiv
KjKx‡Z myLUvb w`P‡Q| Avnv gwi, Kx ‡mvbvi †`k ! Òivg †Mj ebev‡m, †enzj¨v nB‡jv
ivwoÓ| kvn AvwRR Lv‡j`vK†K ‡KvivRvb evwb‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv| wKbZz AwfbqUv †Zgb R‡g
DV‡Q bv| cÖwZwnsmv gvby‡li ¯^vfvweK ey`wa†K bó K‡i †`q| eZ©gvb Gikv`†K wbm‡ZR
Ki‡Z we-Gb-wc miKv‡ii me kKwZ wb‡qvwRZÕ| iscy‡ii Dc-wbe©vP‡b we-Gb-wc RvZxq
cvwUi Kv‡Q ‡Mvnviv †n‡i‡Q| Lv‡j`v ZvB nvuwo-cvwZj fvsM‡Z kyiy K‡i‡Q| _vK, - †`‡ki
Ae¯’v fv‡jv bv| fv‡jv nevi mgfvebvI bvB| Z‡e Avgiv fv‡jv AvwQ| †Zvgv‡`i mevB†K
‡mœnÕ w`‡q Avi gsMj Kvgbv K‡i ivwL|
BwZ, †Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 80KLMNOP
198
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXI
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 4-12-1991
19‡k AMÖnvqY
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn ‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Zuvi A‡kl ingZ el©Y Kiyb ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ,
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
g‡b nq A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i wPwV cvB bv| AvwgI wjL‡Z cvwi bv| †Zvgv‡`i †`wLbv
A‡bK w`b| hv‡`i †PvL Av‡Q, gv‡b hviv †PvL w`‡q †`L‡Z cvq, Zv‡`iB †Kej †`Lvi
AvKvsLv _v‡K| †PvL †`Lvi wgUvq, - †`Lvi AvbÕb`Õ †`q| †`‡ni cÖwZwU AsM-cÖZ¨s‡Mi
wbR¯^ cwigÕYWÕj Av‡Q| †mLv‡b Zvi wbR¯^ myL-`ytL wb‡q Ae¯’vb K‡i| ‡mŠi RMr †hgb
Zvi wewfbbÕ MÖn DcMÖn wb‡q Ae¯’vb K‡i, me cÖvYxi Ae¯’vbI GKB| gvby‡li gZ Aó
AsM Ab¨ †Kvb cÖvYxi Av‡Q wKbv Rvwb bv| Z‡e G‡ZI gvbyl mbZzó bq| KjcÕbv w`‡q
ˆZix K‡i‡Q cix| cvLv _vKv m‡Z¡I Giv k~Y¨-i‡_ P‡o| ‡ekx Do‡Z Do‡Z KøvbZÕ n‡q
‡M‡j k~Y¨-i‡_ P‡o| GB Avgiv †hgb nuvUvi K¬vbwZ Gov‡Z `~i hvÎvq bvbv iKg hvb
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e¨envi Kwi| Av‡Mi w`‡bi gvbyl bvwK cv‡q †nu‡U gKKvq †h‡Zv, mgq jvM‡Zv Avgvi Rvbv
g‡Z eviÕ eQi|
gvbyl GL‡bv gvbe †`‡n cvLv ms‡hvRb Ki‡Z cv‡iwb e‡U, Z‡e b‡fvhv‡b Qq eQ‡ii c_
AwZKªg Ki‡Z GLb jv‡M Qq NYUv| wKbZz cix‡`i cvLv _vKvq k~Y¨ i_ `yN©Ubv NUvq bv|
ejwQjvg, †`Lvi AvbÕb‡`i K_v| gvbyl †`L‡Z bv ‡c‡j wK `ywbqvi me AvbÕb`B wg‡Q n‡q
†hZÕ ? ‡eva nq bv| we‡kl K‡i hv‡`i †`Lvi mbPÕq Av‡Q Zv‡`i †ejvq nq bv| ¯g„wZ
AZx‡Zi ‡`LvMy‡jv†K †ivgš_b K‡i| wKbZz Kv‡ji PKª †mLv‡b w¯’i n‡q Av‡Q| GB †h
GLb IjU Kg‡ji MvQ `yÕwU dz‡j dz‡j f‡i †M‡Q| cÖwZ eQiB Gfv‡e f‡i hvq| †Zvgiv †h
evi G‡mwQ‡j, ZL‡bv MvQMy‡jv Ggwb dz‡j fiv wQ‡jv| †mB dz‡ji mv‡_ Zzwg wQ‡j| wcKz
wQ‡jv, ey`aÕ wQ‡jv, -wQ‡jv eveb| GLb †Zvgiv †KD bvB| wKbZz eZ©gvb dzjMy‡jvi mv‡_
AZx‡Zi †Zvgiv †ivgwš_Z n‡q Avgvi †Pv‡L †`Lv `vI| GLv‡b eZ©gvb †Zvgiv bvB| ZvB
†`Lvi AvbÕb`Õ ‡Kvbw`b dzwi‡q hvq bv| GB mZ¨ wb‡q evKx Rxe‡bi KÕUv w`b KvwU‡q w`‡Z
cvi‡ev| G myb`Õi `ywbqv †`Lvi AvbÕb‡`i mbPÕq AdziÕbZÕ| ZvB †eva nq †Zvgvi gv
†Pv‡Li Sv‡gjvq Avi †h‡Z Pvb bv|
5-12-1991: wcKz I ey`aÕ GLb K‡Zv e‡ov n‡q‡Q ? †Q‡j‡g‡q‡`i eqm evo‡j Zviv
‰`wnK I gvbwmK fv‡e †e‡o D‡V| gv-evev Lykx nb| wKbZz Zviv ax‡i ax‡i `~‡i P‡j †h‡Z
_v‡K| ZvB cÖvK…wZK wbq‡gB †eva nq gv‡qi gb†K gvZ…‡Z¦i myav w`‡q f‡i ivL‡Z wb©w`ó
GKUv mg‡qi e¨eav‡b Avi GKwU mbZv‡bi AvMgb N‡U| G †hgb Avgvi mvg‡b IjU
Kgj MvQUvq 7/8 gvm AšÍi dy‡ji †gjv e‡m| Kv‡j mbZvb bv _vK‡jI †g‡qiv Amg‡q
‰`wnK I gvbwmK fv‡e eywo‡q hvq| gvZ…‡Z¦i myavi mv‡_ wkkyi mgúK© AwZ wbweo| ZvB
nq‡Zv me© Kwbô mbZvbwU†K e‡ov n‡jI ‡Kv‡ji mbZv‡bi g‡Zv †`‡L| e‡oviv †h nvwi‡q
hvq Zv bq| Z‡e Zviv _v‡K wfbbÕ AvswM‡K| †QvUÕLv‡Uv gv-evev n‡q e‡m Avi wK ! H †h
Wordsworth Zvi ¯¿x m¤ú‡K© ÒShe” KweZvi †kl jvB‡b wj‡LwQ‡jv, -ÒA perfect
woman nobly planed to warn, comfort and command.”| ‡Q‡j†g‡qiv e‡ov
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n‡q †M‡j Ggwb nq| †mB k~Y¨Zv c~iY K‡i Aek¨ bvwZ-bvZbxiv | GB Kvi‡Y †jvK e‡j
Òcy‡Zi PvB‡Z bvZxi `i` †ekx”| wKbZz Rxe‡bi ˆkk‡ei AvKl©Y AwZ Zxeª| gvbyq Zvi
wb‡Ri ‰kke †Luv‡R Zvi †Q‡j†g‡q‡Z, bvZx-bvZbx‡†Z ch©vq Kª‡g| ZvB nq‡Zv gi‡Yi
c‡iI Ke‡i gvbyl bvZxi nv‡Zi gvwU Kvgbv K‡i| †QvUUÕ `yÕwU nv‡Zi `yB gz†Vv gvwU| dz‡ji
AN¨© bq, `yB gz†Vv gvwU, -†h gvwU w`‡q †m ˆZix| GB `yB gz†Vv gvwUi g‡a¨ ‡h‡bv Rxe‡bi
†kl cig cvIqv|
bwbi Kv‡Q kybjvg †Zvgvi kixiUv fv‡jv bv| Zzwg hLb †`‡k G‡mwQ‡j, ZLb †Zvgvi kixi
fv‡jv †`‡LwQjvg| nVvr K‡i †mB AmyLUv Avevi †`Lv w`‡jv ‡KbÕ AvjjvnB Rv‡bb|
Avjjvni `iev‡i †`vqv Kwi wZwb †h‡bv Avgvi gv‡K fv‡jv K‡i †`b| A‡bK mgq gvbwmK
`ye©jZvi my‡hv‡M AmyL †Ru‡K e‡m| Zzwg mKv‡j Nyg †_‡K D‡V Ges iv‡Z Nygvevi Av‡M
wemwgjjvni mv‡_ m~iv dv‡Znv ( Avjnvg`ywjjjvn) c‡o ey‡K wZb evi c‡o duzK w`‡e| GB
DwQjvq Avjjvn †kdv w`‡Z cv‡ib|
wcKzi wPwV †c‡qwQ, -Bs‡iRx wPwV| fvwM¨k wKQzUv Bs‡iRx wk‡LwQjvg| myBwWk wjL‡j wKbZz
wec‡` co‡ev| myBwWk fvlv †kLvi Rb¨ ¯‹z‡j fwZ© nIqv jvM‡e| †Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K †mœnÕ
ggZv w`‡q, - mevi Rb¨ †Lv`vi `iev‡i Kzkj Kvgbv K‡i Gevi ivwL|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 81KLMNOP
202
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 7-1-1992
Kj¨vbxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjøvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ, wbivc`
I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
g‡b nq A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i wPwV cvB bv| nq†Zv †c‡qwQ, g‡b bvB | GLb‡Zv
A‡bK wKQyB g‡b _v‡K bv| Avwg ev‡i ev‡i wPwV cwo bv| Z‡e ‡KvbÕ †KvbÕ cy‡iv‡Yv wPwV
co‡Z BP‡Q nq| Avwg hLb jvgwWs wQjvg, -evev GKwU †cvóKvW© wj‡LwQ‡jb| Lye †QvUÕ
†QvUÕ wjLv, -A‡bKMy‡jv csZwZ| wPwVUv A‡bK w`b msiwÿZÕ wQ‡jv Avgvi Kv‡Q| wPwVUv
wjLv wQ‡jv cqvi Qb‡`i KweZvq| evev wPwV Lye KgB wjL‡Zb| jvKkv‡gi wVKvbvqI Ggwb
GKUv wPwV wj‡LwQ‡jb, †mUv c`¨ bq, -M`¨| H wPwVUvI ‡Kv_vq nvwi‡q †M‡Q| evevi g„Zz¨
n‡q‡Q A‡bK eQi Av‡M, wKbZz wPwV `y‡Uvi K_v GL‡bv †eu‡P Av‡Q ¯g„wZ‡Z| †mB Kjg
bvB, AvsMyj bvB, wPwVI bvB, †eu‡P Av‡Q kyay ggZvUzKz| †mB my`~i AZxZ †_‡K †mB we‡`nx
AvZg&vi ggZv GL‡bv wK Luy‡R †eovq Avgv‡K ?
hvK, wPwV bv †c‡jI ‡Zvgv‡`i Lei cvB, -‡dv‡b K_v ewj| AvR `yÕw`b hveZ e„wó, -wUc
wUc wekÖx e„wó, †iv` bvB, -†Nvjv‡U AvKvk, Kb K‡b evZvm| MZKvj mKv‡j †KvbÕ e„wó
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wQ‡jv bv| wek¦‡iv‡W †eov‡Z wM‡qwQjvg| AvR †h‡Z cvwiwb, -e„wói Rb¨, mviv w`b N‡i
emv| Ckv‡Zi AmyL †m‡i‡Q, -GLb fv‡jv| evey cvk Ki‡Z cv‡iwb, - i~wnI ‡dj K‡i‡Q|
‡`vwb I bvZv ‡KvbÕ iK‡g cvi n‡q‡Q| †jLvcov ‡eva nq AvKl©Y nvwi‡q †d‡j‡Q|
†jLvcovi Rb¨ Kó Ki‡Z nq| K‡ói cÖwZ‡hvMxZvq ‡n‡i ‡M‡j †jLvcov nq bv| webv K‡ó
A‡bK wKQz cvIqv †M‡jI, -†jLvcov cvIqv hvq bv| †jLvcov ‡kLv‡bvi Rb¨ GK mgq
me †`‡kB wkÿK‡`i ‡eZ gvivi e¨e¯’v wQ‡jv| Bs‡iRx‡Z GKUv cÖev` Av‡Q, ÒSpare the
cane and spoil the child. Ó| †eZgviv AgvbweK n‡jI gvbe ˆZixi Rb¨ †ÿÎ we‡k‡l
Acwinvh©| me ‡ivM Jl‡a mv‡i bv, - ‡Kvb †Kvb †ÿ‡Î Acv‡ik‡bi cÖ‡qvRb nq| Mqin
‡eZ wbeviY K‡i A‡bK wkkyi ‡jLvcovi ev‡ivUv evwR‡q‡Q| fq wRwbmUv AKviY bv n‡j
gsMjRbKI e‡U| Z‡e fxZz nIqvUv fv‡jv bv|
(16B ‡cŠl):
AvR KÕw`b hveZ kxZ RuvwK‡q e‡m‡Q| evsj‡`‡k kx‡Zi †ZR ‡eva nq †ekx, -‡hgb
M¨v‡mi AvMy‡bi †ZR †ekx| KviY Rvwb bv| Z‡e kx‡Zi †h wWMÖx‡Z kx‡Zi †`‡ki gvbyl
†n‡m †L‡j ‡eovq, -†m wWMÖx‡Z evsjv‡`‡ki gvbyl G‡K ev‡i KuzKwo‡q hvq| 13/14
wWMÖx‡ZB GB †`‡ki †KvbÕ †KvbÕ AbPÕ‡j g„Zz¨i Lei Le‡i †ewi‡q‡Q| `y-wZb w`b e„wó
†MjÕ| e„wó wn‡gj nvIqv kx‡Zi mv‡_ wgZvjx K‡i‡Q G †`‡ki e¯Înxb, AvkÖqnxb Amnvq
Mixe ey‡ov I wkky‡`i givi Rb¨|
IjU-Kgj MvQUv QbbÕQvovi gZ `uvwo‡q Av‡Q| kyK‡bv dz‡ji cvucwoMy‡jv ivwk ivwk S‡i
wewQ‡q _v‡K A‡Sv‡i Siv Kvbbvi g‡Zv| Avi m`¨‡dvUv dzjMy‡jv ZvwK‡q _v‡K AeyS wkkyi
g‡Zv|
kxZUv GLbI †e‡oB P‡j‡Q, -wWMÖx bvg‡Q| Mvu‡qi gvbyl wWMÖx †ev‡S bv| R¡‡ii wWMÖxUv
wKQzUv Abygvb K‡i ey‡S †bq| R¡‡ii wWMªx Dc‡i DV‡j wec`, Avi VvYWvi wWMÖx bx‡P bvg‡j
wec`| ZvB `ywbqvi wWMÖx wVK ivL‡Z Avgiv m`vB e¨¯Í| AvR KÕw`b hveZ †Mvmj Kwi bv|
†Mvmj Kivi Rb¨ †KB ZvMv`v †`q bv| we‡j‡Z bvwK GK mgq gvbyl †Mvmj Kiv†K cvc
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g‡b Ki‡Zv| cvcB e‡U| G‡Zv wn‡g †Mvmj Kiv AvZg&-nZ¨vi bvgvbZÕi| wcKy I ey`aÕ wK
†Mvmj Ki‡Z Pvq ? †QvU†ejv kx‡Zi w`‡b †Mvmj KivUv `¯Íyi g‡Zv GKUv mvn‡mi cixÿv
wQ‡jv| cyKz‡ii VvYWv cvwb‡Z Szc K‡i c‡o Wze w`‡q DV‡Z cvi‡j evnvev cvIqv †h‡Zv|
Avi GKUv muvZvi w`‡q Avm‡Z cvi‡j †Zv ev‡ci †eUv|
evox †_‡K ‡LvKb †ÿ‡Zi Pv‡ji gywo w`‡q G‡m‡Q| A‡bK gywo| gywo LvB, -cÖwZw`bB
ey`‡ai K_v g‡b c‡o| ey`aÕ ‡h gywoi wUbUv wb‡q nuvU‡Zv, †m gywoi wUbUv †Kv_vq ! IjUKg‡ji dz‡jiv G‡m‡Q, gywo G‡m‡Q, -A‡bK gywo, wKbZz ey`aÕ bvB, gywoi wUbUvI †`wL bv|
Rv‡bv gxby, CkvZI gywo Lye cQÕb`Õ K‡i| GKUv GKUv K‡i wbR nv‡Z gy‡L w`‡Z cv‡i|
GUv wKbZz Kg evnv`yix bq ! Avwg †mw`b Zvi nvZ †_‡K gywoi evwU †U‡b Avbv‡Z PxrKvi
w`‡q AÁvb| †Zvjcvo KvYWÕ| †h‡bv gywoi Rb¨ AvZg&-nZ¨v| myB‡W‡b ‡Zv ‡eva nq gywo
bvB| _vK‡jI UvUKv fvRvi MbaÕ bvB|
AvR GLv‡b ivwL gv| †Zvgiv mevB Avgvi ggZv I †`vqv wb‡qv !
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 82KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXIII
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 28-1-1992
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z,
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b n‡jv ‡Zvgv‡`i wjwLbv| †Zvgv‡`i wPwVI cvB bv| †Zvgv‡`i ‰KwdqZ Av‡Q|
†Zvgiv e¨¯Í| †Zvgv‡`i bvbv msmvwiK Sv‡gjv| Avgvi †Kvb ˆKwdqZ bvB| mKj cÖk‡Yi
GK DZZÕi| Avwg Aÿg, -AvcviM| Kv‡Ri †ejv AvcviM n‡jI, AKg©Y¨ ‡`nUv‡K wUwK‡q
ivL‡Z LiPv †ekx| Ilya-cZZÕi, `vgx Lvevi, Av‡iv K‡Zv Kv‡R LiPv|
hvK, -Bs‡iRx bZzb eQ‡ii cÖ_g gv‡mi †kl w`‡K †Zvgv‡K wjLwQ, -hw`I K‡qK w`b Av‡M
†_‡KB wjL‡ev wjL‡ev KiwQ| wjLv n‡q D‡Vwb, -hw`I cÖwZw`b AbZÕZt cuvP mvZ evi
†Zvgv‡`i K_v g‡b c‡o|
CkvZ Avgvi Lye fKZÕ| Dcwi cvIbvi cÖwZ meviB †jvf †ekx _v‡K| G‡Z †KvbÕ `vex
_v‡K bv e‡j | gv-evevi †mœn-Av`‡ii Dci mbZv‡bi AwaKvi Av‡Q, -†c‡qI _v‡K| ZvB
nqZÕ mbZv‡biv gv-evevi †mœnÕ-Av`‡ii †Zgb `vg †`q bv| Avi cvIqv hvq mn‡R| mnR
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jf¨ `ª‡e¨i †Zgb K`i nq bv| ZvB K_vq e‡j, -ÒNiKv gyiMx `vj eiveiÓ | ZvÕQvov Gi
g‡a¨ GK‡N‡qgxI Av‡Q| my‡L _vK‡Z _vK‡Z gvbyl my‡Li Abyf~wZ I AvbÕb`Õ `yB-B nvwi‡q
†d‡j| ZvB †eva nq Av‡Mi w`‡bi ivRviv †kl Rxe‡b Ai‡Y¨ P‡j †h‡Zv|
AvRKvj bvwK Av‡gwiKvq wKQz msL¨K hyeK-hyeZx wKQzKv‡ji Rb¨ Ai‡Y¨ nvwi‡q hvq|
†hgb ‡gviM gyiMxiv gv‡S gv‡S Nvm Lvq| GB Kvi‡Y AvRKvj (gvgvi evox bq) Lvjvi
evoxi cÖwZ wkkyiv †ekx AvMÖnx| Lvjvi †mœnÕ-Av`‡ii Dci †KvbÕ `vex bvB| Dcwi cvIbv|
ZvÕQvov Lvjvi †mœn-Av`i wb‡f©Rvj, -G‡Z wKj Po bvB| Z‡e gv‡qi wKj Po ‡L‡jI
wkkyiv gv‡K Qv‡o bv| wKbZz †h Lvjv wKj-Po †`q, †m Lvjvi evox wkkyiv hvq bv| Avwg
CkvZ‡K †Rvi K‡i BPQvi weiy`‡a LvIqvB bv, Jla wMjvB bv, -me nyKzg cvjb Kwi| ZvB
Avgv‡K †Q‡o gv‡qi †Kv‡jI †h‡Z Pvq bv| Z‡e GK_v me mgq mevi †ejvq cÖ‡hvh¨ bq|
GLv‡bI wkky‡`i cQÕb`Õ-AcQÕb`Õ Av‡Q| ggZvi mKj NuvwU ezwSev wkkyiv Zvi g‡bi Kwócv_‡i hvPvB Ki‡Z cv‡i|
†Zvgvi Kv‡Q wPwV wjL‡Z em‡jB h‡Zv me ev‡R K_v wjwL| IjU-Kg‡ji dzjMy‡jv GLb
Avi bvB| wKQz wKQz kyK‡bv dzj GL‡bv †euvUvq Rwo‡q Av‡Q, -gvqv Qvo‡Z cv‡iwb| ‡hgb
K‡i `ytwLbx gv g„Z wkky‡K ey‡K Rwo‡q iv‡L, - †hgb K‡i gvbyl AZxZ w`‡bi my‡Li ¯g„wZ
n„`‡q a‡i iv‡L| IjU-Kgj MvQUvi K_v GKUz †ekx †ekx ewj, -nq‡Zv cÖwZw`b MvQUvi
mv‡_ K‡qK evi `„wó wewbgq nq e‡j| Mv‡Qi Rxeb Av‡Q, mzL-`ztL Av‡Q, wKbZz fvlvq
cÖKvk Ki‡Z cv‡i bv| Zvi cÖKvk N‡U weKv‡k| Mv‡Qi ‰kke, ‡hŠeb I eva©K¨ Av‡Q |
Mv‡Qi mv‡_ gvby‡li Rxeb I g‡bi mgúK© AwZ wbweo| AvkÖqnxb gvby‡li †kl AvkÖq
MvQZjv| Z‡e MvQUv e‡ov nIqv PvB| cvLx‡`i Aek¨ †QvUÕ MvQ n‡jI P‡j|
IjU-Kgj MvQUvi mv‡_ mL¨Zvi Av‡iv GKwU KviY, MvQwU mv‡_ wcKz I ez`‡ai wKQzKv‡ji
¯g„wZ Rwo‡q Av‡Q| MvQwU ‡h‡bv Av‡Rv gv‡S gv‡S wRÁvmv K‡i, -ÒIiv ‡Kv_vq ? ‡Kgb
Av‡Q ?Ó|
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†h †KvbÕ †Pbv gvby‡li mv‡_ mvÿvZ n‡j Avgiv mevB me mgq GKwU cÖPwjZ evK¨ e¨envi
Kwi, -Ò†Kgb Av‡Qb?, -Av‡QvÓ ev AvwQm?Ó DZZ‡i Ò fv‡jv Ó ej‡jB †kÖvZv Lykx nq|
ZvB GKvbZÕ †Zv †evKv bv n‡j, -ÒfvÕjv †bBÓ †KD e‡j bv|
†Zvgvi gv †Kgb Av‡Qb ? A‡bK w`b Av‡M GKevi Ibv‡K †`L‡Z wM‡qwQjvg ‡gvnvggÕ`cyi
Rvnx‡`i evmvq| †mw`b el©v wQ‡jv| A‡Sv‡i e„wói cvwb‡Z iv¯Ív-NvU mqjve n‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv|
w`b GLb cvj‡U †M‡Q| gvbyl‡li g‡bi ‡Kvgj e…ZwZMz‡jv ‡h‡bv kywK‡q †M‡Q| Gi g‡a¨I
g‡bi ‡mB mzcZÕ evmbvMy‡jv wKQzÿ‡bi Rb¨ n‡jI g‡bi gv‡S ‡Zvjcvo K‡i D‡V| †mw`b
Rvnx` wb‡R wM‡q Kvco-†Pvco wfwR‡q †i÷z‡ibU †_‡K PvBbxR Lvevi G‡bwQ‡jv Avgvi
Rb¨ !
Zey ewj, †Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv gv ! wg‡_¨ K‡i ej‡jI ‡Zvgiv wj‡Lv †Zvgiv fv‡jv Av‡Qv, kyb‡j fv‡jv jv‡M| fv‡jv bvB fiv `ywbqvq GKUz fv‡jvi Rb¨ gvby‡li cÖv‡Yi Kx e¨vKzjZv|
wcKz I ey`aÕ‡K fv‡jvi gvjv civ‡q w`jvg, -kyKvq bv †h‡bv !
†Zvgvi mevB†K Av‡iK evi Avgvi eyK fiv ggZv I cÖvYXvjv †`vqvb‡Z AvR GLv‡b ivwL|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j|
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 83KLMNO
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXIV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 21-3-1992
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv, my‡L _v‡Kv, wbivc` I
AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
†Zvg‡`i K‡Zv w`--b wjwLwb| ZvB e‡j †Zvgv‡`i K_v‡Zv Avi fywjwb| cÖwZw`b K‡qK evi
†Zvgv‡`i g‡b c‡o, -we‡kl K‡i, cÖwZevi bvgv‡Ri †k‡l †gvbvRv‡Z| G‡Zv w`‡b wcKz I
ey`aÕ nq‡Zv Av‡iv e‡ov n‡q‡Q, Av‡iv A‡bK K_v wk‡L‡Q| CkvZ wKbZz GL‡bv K_v
ej‡Z cv‡i bv| wKbZz wPKbv n‡jI `ivR Mjv| m¤efZt kyKbv gvby‡li Mjvq AvIqvR
`ivR _v‡K| mÖlUv †eva nq †`‡ni NvUwZUv Mjv w`‡q cywl‡q †`b|
Avgvi ‡`‡n GKUv bZzb e¨vwa ‡`Lv w`‡q‡Q| ‡Kvg‡i Wvb cv‡k e¨_v| em‡Z Kó nq, Uvb
c‡o, -ZvB wjwL bv| AvR GK mcZvn hveZ †nvwgIc¨vw_ Jla LvB, -wKQzUv fv‡jv †eva
Kwi| WvKZvi e‡j mvBwUKv, -GK ai‡Yi evZ e¨vwa, -mvi‡Z mgq jvM‡e| ZvÕQvov G
eq‡m GB †ivM †Zgb †Kvb AcÖZ¨vwkZ e¨vcvi bq| Avwg GLb Avi evB‡i †eov‡Z hvB bv|
AwaKvsk mgq ky‡q ky‡q KvUvB| ky‡q _vK‡ZB fv‡jv jv‡M| †ivRvi gvm| Avwg Aek¨
†ivRv ivwL bv| bxPZjvq †Kej mygxB †ivRv iv‡L| GLb ˆP‡Îi cÖ_g w`K, -Mig GL‡bv
RuvwK‡q e‡mwb| †klivÎ I GK mKvj†ejvUv Avivg`vqK VvYWv _v‡K| emÕb‡Zi hvB hvB
fve| IjU-Kg‡ji dz‡jiv me we`vq wb‡q‡Q| bx‡P GLb ‡KvbÕ dzj bvB| Qv‡`i Dci
nq‡Zv ‡KvbÕ †KvbÕ dzj _vK‡Z cv‡i| Avwg†Zv Qv‡` DwV bv, -†`wLI bv| Z‡e cÖwZw`b
Kv‡Ri †g‡q‡K dzjMv‡Q cvwb †`Iqvi ZvMv`v w`‡Z kywb| Avwg bx‡P e‡m KjcÕbvi †Pv‡L
dzj Mv‡Q cvwb ‡`Iqv †`wL, -†`wL wKfv‡e dzjMvQMy‡jv cvwb‡Z Z…lYv wgUvq|
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N‡i emv GB Rxeb| G GK GK†N‡q Rxeb| †`‡ni AciMZv‡Zv gb eyS‡Z Pvq bv| wKbZz
w`‡b w`‡b g‡bI RoZv †`Lv †`q|
GB ˆP‡Îi 1ZvwiL, -Avgvi gv‡qi g„Zy¨evwl©Kx †M‡jv| †Zvgvi evevi g„Zy¨evwl©Kx †M‡jv
weMZ 16B †deiyqvix| GB RbgÕw`b Avi GB g„Zy¨evwl©Kx e¨KwZ we‡k‡li Avcb Rb‡`i
Pjgvb AbÕbZKv‡ji Pjvi c‡_ wKQzKv‡ji Rb¨ GKUv Òfzwj bvBÓ `vM †K‡U †`qv, -g‡bi
†mZz ˆZix Kiv, -†mvRv K_vq ¯giY Kiv|
g„‡Ziv g„Zy¨evwl©Kx‡Z AvbÕb`Õ cvq wKbv, cvjb bv Ki‡j g‡b e¨_v cvq wKbv Rvwb bv, Z‡e
mÿg e¨KwZiv RbgÕw`b cvjb K‡i AvbÕb`Õ cvq| Mixe‡`i†Zv RbgÕ-g„Zz¨ wb‡q wPbZvfvebvi evjvB bvB, -ZvB G e¨vcv‡i Zv‡`i †KvbÕ †KŠZ~nj bvB | Iiv abx‡`i KvYWÕKviLvbv †`‡L Lykx| Zgvi RbgÕw`b 24‡k gvP©| H w`b cÖ‡qvR‡b Kv‡iv Kv‡iv wKQz cqmv
LiP n‡e| Avgvi RbgÕw`b Avgvi evev-gv †KvbÕw`b cvjb K‡iwb| †mKv‡jI GB dvjZz
LiPvi †iIqvR wQ‡jv| GLb Aek¨ Avwg wb‡RB Avgvi RbgÕw`b cvjb Kwi| Gev‡i Aek¨
Avgvi mevi ‡QvU mbZvbB Avgvi RbgÕw`b AvaywbK Kvq`vq cvjb K‡i‡Q, -‡gvgevwZ
R¡vwj‡q Ges †KK †K‡U| †mw`b †h‡bv Avgvi Rxeb †_‡K 7Uv `kB ev` c‡i wM‡qwQ‡jv|
79 Gi 7Uv ÿwY‡Ki Rb¨ jywK‡q wQ‡jv|
hvK, GLb ivwL gv| †ekxÿY e‡m _vK‡Z gvbv| ‡Zvgvi wcKz, ‡Zvgvi ey`aÕ‡K Av‡iK evi
†`L‡Z BP‡Q K‡i| bmx‡e _vK‡j †`Lv n‡e| bv n‡jI Avc‡mvm _vK‡e bv| Avwg ‡Zv
Zv‡`i wbZ¨B †`wL, -†hgb K‡i †`wL Qv‡` bv D‡VI Qv‡`i dzjMvQMy‡jv‡K| †Zvgiv mevB
my‡L kvbwZ‡Z _v‡Kv !
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
* mgq †c‡j eve‡bi Kv‡Q c‡i wjL‡ev|
* Zgvi wVKvbv: Zgv, 5g ‡kÖYx, MziyM…n, evox bs 11, moK 2, ‡mKUi-4, DËiv g‡Wj
UvDb, WvKNi: AvRgcyi, XvKv, evsjv‡`k
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXV
(Bqv ie)
XvKv, 26-4-1992
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvn ZvÕjvi A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ ‡`‡n I wbivc`
AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b hveZ †Zvgv‡`i wjwL bv| wjLvi g‡Zv kvixwiK Ae¯’v wQ‡jv bv| wjL‡Z n‡j
e‡m _vK‡Z nq, wKbZz e‡m _vK‡Z cviZvg bv, em‡j Kó n‡Zv| AvR K‡qK w`b hveZ
em‡Z cvwi, -GLb Avi Kó nq bv| emvi mv‡_ wjLvi mgúK© †Zgb wKQz bv _vK‡jI nvZUv
†h‡bv we‡`ªvn K‡iwQ‡jv|
†`kUv cyy‡o QviLvi n‡q hv‡”Q, AvMyb bq, -†iv‡`| †mw`b KvM‡R †`Ljvg GKUv bZzb bÿÎ
Avwe®‹vi n‡q‡Q hvi DZZvc m~‡h©i PvB‡Z 33 MyY †ekx| Avgv‡`i m~‡h©i DZZvc bvwK w`‡b
w`‡b K‡g hvP‡Q, -ZeyI G‡Zv DZZvc Zvi| AvR †`o gvm hver e„wó bvB| Lv‡j`v wRqvi
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LvjKvUv Kg©m~Pxi ci †_‡K e„wó ebaÕ| ‡h †`‡ki b`x‡ZB cvwb _v‡K bv, †m †`‡k Lv‡j
cvwb Avkv Kiv AvnvgKx|
Z‡e G‡`k Ggb AvnvgKx Kvwnbx A‡bK Av‡Q| Kzwgjjvi Kmev _vbvq Kgjv mvMi bv‡g
GK weivU `xwN Av‡Q| G `xwN Lbb Kiv n‡qwQ‡jv wÎcyiv iv‡R¨i gnvivbx Kgjv ‡`exi
bv‡g| A‡bK Mfxi ch©bZÕ Lbb K‡i hLb cvwb DV‡jv bv, ZLb †jv‡K bvbvb K_v ej‡Z
jvM‡jv| ivbx Acqv| ivYxi g‡b K‡ói mxgv bvB| GK iv‡Z ivYx ¯^c‡Y †`L‡jv gv MsMx
ej‡Q -ÒZzwg hw` `xwNi ga¨¯’‡j mvÿxi* cv‡k `uvovI, Z‡e Avwg cvwb †`‡ev !Ó| ciw`b
ivYx †jvKRb wb‡q wM‡q `xwN‡Z bvg‡jv| Avi Agwb cÖej †e‡M cvwb DV‡Z AvigfÕ
Ki‡jv| ivYx cv‡o D‡V †M‡j cv‡Q cvwb DVv ebaÕ n‡q hvq, -‡m Rb¨ ivYx cv‡o D‡V G‡jv
bv| `xwNi ga¨¯’‡j `uvwo‡q iB‡jv| cv‡o nvRvi nvRvi gvbyl WvKvWvwK Ki‡Z jvM‡jv, ÒivYxgv D‡V Avmyb, D‡V Avmyb !Ó| ivYx D‡V G‡jv bv| eyK Rj, Mjv Rj, -Zvici ivYx
Wz‡e †M‡jv A‰_B R‡j| Zvici KZv hyM P‡j †M‡Q| Kgjv mvMi GL‡bv Av‡Q| MÖxl‡gi
mg‡qI GB Kgjv mvM‡i Kvbvq Kvbvq cvwb fiv _v‡K| Kgjv mvM‡ii cvwb AwZ ¯^PQÕ I
my‡cq| cÖev` Av‡Q Kgjv mvM‡ii cvwb cvb Ki‡j †c‡Ui cxov fv‡jv nq | Avwg hLb
Avmv‡gi wkjP‡i PvKyix Kwi, ZLb Avgv‡`i †cvóvj mycvi †R.Gb.Myc‡Zi Rb¨ WvKMvox‡Z
K‡i cÖwZw`b GK Kjmx Kgjv mvM‡ii cvwb †h‡Zv| †R.Gb.MycZÕ wQ‡jv wWm‡ccwmqv
†ivMx|
†mB mgq GB AbPÕj wÎcyiv gnviv‡Ri Rwg`vixi Aax‡b wQ‡jv| GLb ¯^vaxb evsjv‡`‡ki
AbZf©yKZÕ| GKKv‡j Kzwgjjv †Rjv Banks and Tanks Gi Rb¨ cÖwm`aÕ wQ‡jv| GLb
GB me `xwN I cyK‡y ii Aw¯ÍZ¦ wejycwZi c‡_| GLb Ò‡ejv †h c‡o G‡jv, Rj†K Pj !Ó
e‡j †g‡qiv Kjmx Kvu‡L `xwN I cyKz‡i Rj Avb‡Z hvq bv| Ò`xwNi †mB Rj †mB kxZj
Kv‡jv, Zvnvwi †Kv‡j wM‡q giY fv‡jvÓ, e‡j bv| ÒMjvq Kjmx evBbav R‡j WzBe¨v gi‡ZÓ
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mygxi evevi ‡gvnvggÕ`cy‡ii evmvq GKUv WÖv‡g ‡cuvZv gvaexjZv wQ‡jv| bv wQ‡jv cvZvi
evnvi, bv wQ‡jv dzj| Avi gvaexjZvq ‡h dzj nq ZvI RvbZvg bv| g‡b KiZvg jZv jZvB
†Kej, ÒZgvj Ziyi †Kv‡j †`v‡jÓ| GB MvQUv evmv †Q‡o hvevi mgq mygx‡K w`‡q
wM‡qwQ‡jv| Avgv‡`i N‡i G‡mI A‡bK w`b a‡i eb`x wQ‡jv| eQiLv‡bK Av‡M MvQUv
UegyKZÕ K‡i gvwU‡Z cuy‡Z ‡`qv n‡qwQ‡jv| G eQi MvQUv cvZvq I dz‡j f‡i †M‡Q|
GgbwK cvZv I dz‡j †mw`b GKUv WvjvI †fs‡M c‡owQ‡jv| gvaexjZvq dzj †`Ljvg,K‡Zv my›`i iO-‡ei‡Oi dzj| mevq dzj dzUv‡Z cv‡i bv| Ò†h cv‡i †m Avcwb cv‡i, -cv‡i
†m dzj dzUv‡ZÓ| Avagiv mymzbav MvQUvqI dzj dz‡U‡Q A‡bK| MbaÕivR MvQUvq K‡qKUv
dzj dz‡U GLb Avi dzU‡Q bv| GLb †fvMb-wewjqv bvB | G‡Zv e‡ov MvQUv wkwi †K‡U
†dj‡jv| MvQUv‡K Avwg GLbI fywjwb|
†`‡ki Lei †Zvgv‡`i †`evi g‡Zv wKQz bvB| Z‡e gvbylMy‡jv A‡bKUv Avav cvM‡ji g‡Zv
n‡q ‡M‡Q, -Gi Dci Avevi cÖPÕYWÕ Mig| †Zvgvi gvi GKvbZÕ AvKvsLv †Zvgiv GKevi
†`‡k G‡m hvI| CkvZ wQ‡jv Avgvi GKvbZÕ fKZÕ, wkkyKv‡j †hgb wQ‡jv wcKz| wKbZz
wcKz†Zv †KvbÕw`b †ekx mgq Avgvi msM cvqwb| CkvZ †c‡qwQ‡jv| Avgvi †Kv‡j DVvi
Rb¨ wK AvKzj AvMÖn| wKbZz †k‡li w`‡K ‡Kvg‡i e¨_vi Rb¨ †Kv‡j wb‡Z cviZvg bv| bwb
Avgv‡K GKwU e‡ov d‡Uv evuav‡q w`‡q †M‡Q| Avgvi †Kv‡j CkvZ,- Ckv‡Zi gy‡L
†gvbv‡jmvi nvwm| gvbyl†K Kvu`v‡j gvbyl †KbÕ G‡Zv myL cvq Rvwb bv|
‡Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv gv ! †Zvgvi wcKz I ey`aÕ †Kgb Av‡Q ! ey`aÕ‡Zv Avgv‡K †gv‡UB
cQÕb`Õ K‡i bv| †Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ iB‡jv eyKfiv ggZv I cÖvYXvjv †`vqv|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
* mvÿx: `xwN ev cyKzi KvUvi mgq ga¨Lv‡b gvwU bv ‡K‡U ‡h wXwc wcivwg‡Wi gZÕ DuPz ivLv
nq gvwUKvUv cwigv‡ci Rb¨ Zv‡K mvÿx e‡j, - msKjK
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXVI
(5)
XvKv, 30-5-1992
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK| †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ I
wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
‡Zvgv‡`i wPwV †cjvg| cojvg| AvR my`xN© `k eQi ch©bZÕ †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q KZÕ wPwV
wj‡LwQ, -Avi †ZvgivB ev K‡Zv wPwV wj‡L‡Qv, Zvi wnmve Rvbv bvB|
hviv fvM¨evb gvbyl, Zv‡`i wjLv g~j¨evb,- Zv‡`i wjLv msiwÿZÕ _v‡K| AfvMv‡`i wjLv
†KD msiÿY K‡i bv, Kiv cÖ‡qvRb g‡b K‡i bv| ZvB e‡j G †jLvi ‡Kvb `ytL bvB| wjLvi
†P‡q ke`Õ †ekx fvM¨evb| ke`Õ C_v‡i †eu‡P _v‡K| ¯’vqx‡Z¡i w`K w`‡q ke`Õ wjLvi ‡P‡q
‡ekx kKwZkvjx| gnvwe‡k¦i C_vi QvovI GB ke`Õ gvbe gw¯Í‡Ki e¨bRÕbvq enzKvj †eu‡P
_v‡K| GB †hgb A‡bK w`‡bi cwiwPZ GKUv gvbyl‡K enzKvj A‡`Lvi c‡iI Zv‡K Zvi
KYVÕm¦i w`‡q †Pbv hvq| gvby‡li g„Zz¨i c‡iI Zvi KYVÕm¦i GKvbZÕ cwiwPZ R‡bi g‡bi
C_v‡i AvRxeb †eu‡P _v‡K| RxweZ e¨KwZi ¯g„wZi ZbÎx‡Z ¯úk© jvM‡j Zvi g‡bi C_v‡i
A‡`Lv gvbzlwU kvew`K i~c wb‡q nvwRi nq| me gvbz‡li KYVÕm¦i GK bq| my`xN© Rxe‡b
K‡Zv gvby‡li mv‡_ GKRb gvby‡li cwiPq N‡U| cwiPq n‡jB kvew`K K_vi Av`vb-cÖ`vb
nq| GB kvew`K K_vMy‡jvi ¯^i GK, -AwfbbÕ bq| e¨KwZi kvew`K ¯^i ¯^ZbÎ fv‡e Ab¨
GKR‡bi ¯g„wZi C_v‡i †Kgb K‡i msiwÿZÕ nq,- G GK AvkPh©¨ e¨vcvi| Z‡e GgbwU
NwblVÕ e¨KwZi mv‡_ A‡bK w`‡bi mvbwb‡a¨i d‡jB N‡U _v‡K| ÿwb‡Ki cwiwPwZ g‡bi
C_vi a‡i iv‡L bv| n„`qc‡U Qwe AswKZ bv _vK‡j, ¯^i AvkÖq cvq bv| Avi ¯g„wZi
C_v‡i ¯^i msiwÿZ bv _vK‡j, Qwe K_v e‡j bv| wbe©vK Qwe kzay †P‡q _v‡K|
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G‡Zv K_v ejjvg ey`aÕi K_v ky‡b| †m bvwK Avgvi Qwei mv‡_ K_v e‡j| wKbZz G QwewUi
†KvbÕ K_v, gv‡b Avgvi KYVÕ¯^i Zvi ¯g„wZi C_v‡i msiwÿZ bvB| ZvB Avgvi Qwei
AeZ©gv‡b Avgvi KYVÕ¯^i w`‡q Avgv‡K wPb‡Z cvi‡e bv|
1-6-1992: †Zvgiv ej‡Qv †`‡k Avm‡e| K‡e Avm‡e Rvwb bv| Av‡`Š Avm‡e wKbv Rvwb
bv| KviY MigUv †Zvgv‡`i c‡ÿ ‡_‡K bq, -wcKz I ey`aÕi cÿ †_‡K| G‡`‡k †Zv Kg
†ekx me djB cvIqv hvq| AfveUv eySv hvq †Kej †`k †Q‡o P‡j †M‡j| Z‡e GL‡bv
G‡`‡ki gvwUi k‡l¨, d‡j, gvQ gvs‡m, Zwi-ZiKvix‡Z ‡h ¯^v` cvIqv hvq, Ab¨ †Kvb †`‡k
Zv cvIqv hvq wKbv Zv Rvwb bv| Aek¨ meMy‡jvi ejwQ bv| KviY evsjvi gvwU‡Z djvdjI
wewfbbÕ AbP‡j wewfbbÕ ¯^v‡`i nq| †gNbvi Avi c`g&vi Bwj‡ki ¯^v` wfbbÕ| ivRkvnx
w`bvRcy‡ii Avg I wjPz Gcv‡ki Avg-wjPzi PvB‡Z ¯^v‡` DbbÕZ| Aek¨ Gcv‡ii †KvbÕ
†KvbÕ Mv‡Qi Avg ivRkvnxi PvB‡Z Kg gv‡bi wQ‡jv bv| GLb Gcv‡i †mB me Avg †`Lv
hvq bv| GK mgq Gcv‡i KZÕ iKg Avg wQ‡jv bvbvb bv‡g| GLb †mme AvgI bvB, bvgI
bvB|
weÖwUk Avg‡j wKbZz ivRkvnx Av‡gi K_v Avgiv kywbwb| kybZvg gvj`vBqv Av‡gi K_v|
gvj`vn GLb fvi‡Z| QvZ‡Ki KgjvI GLb fvi‡Z| †Zvgiv GLb myB‡W‡b ‡hme Avg
wK‡bv, †mMy‡jv †eva nq fvi‡Zi| gvj`‡ni Avg ivRkvnxi Av‡gi PvB‡Z ¯^v‡` DbbÕZÕ
gv‡bi| Av‡M kybZvg kÖve‡b gvj`vBqv Avg †ei n‡Zv, †`kx Avg dzwi‡q †M‡j| Avg
mgeÕb‡a G‡Zv K_v ejjvg †Zvgvi wPwV‡Z wcKz I ey`aÕi Avg LvIqvi m‡Li K_v †R‡b|
†`kx Avg‡Zv GLb †kl n‡Zv P‡j‡Q| KuvPv Avg GLb Avi cvIqv hvq bv| ivRkvnxi Avg
GL‡bv evRv‡i Av‡mwb| Aek¨ wjPz GL‡bv Av‡Q †Zvgvi Lvjv e‡j‡Q, - GL‡bv hw` †Zvgiv
Avm‡Z, -C`, Avg, Rvg, wjPz meB Kg †ekx ‡c‡Z| †Zvgiv †Zv †`‡k A‡bK w`b hveZ C`
K‡iv bv| h‡ZvUzK Rvwb, XvKvq GLb mevB GKv cÖKvi fv‡jvB Av‡Q|
†Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K ggZv w`‡q Gevi GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXVII
(5)
XvKv, 18-7-1992
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
gv,- ‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvÕK| †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myLkvbwZ I wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv ! gv, -‡Zvgvi wPwV †c‡qwQ| Lykx njvg| Lykx njvg
†Zvgiv fv‡jv Av‡Qv †R‡b| GLb Avgvi Kv‡Q XvKv Avi myB‡W‡bi `~iZ¡ ‡h‡bv GK n‡q
†M‡Q|
†Kv_vqI hvB bv, Kv‡iv mv‡_ †`Lv nq bv, -cÖ‡qvRb nq bv e‡j| Avi Avgvi g‡Zv AKg©
Avcb Rb‡Zv KgB Av‡Q hviv e‡m e‡m Avgvi mv‡_ ÒAvEbbvÓ Avjvc Ki‡e| ÒAvEbbvÓ
Avjvc K_vUv †Zvgvi Lvjvi AvwemKvi| gv‡b †Zvgvi bvbxi fvB‡cv Avby fu~Bqv bvwK AKg©v
wQ‡jv| †KvbÕ KvR Kg© Ki‡Zv bv| e‡m e‡m (Aek¨ †Zgb KvD‡K †c‡j) †enz`v MjcÕmjcÕ KiZÕ| evmvq Avgv‡K Kv‡iv mv‡_ †Lvk MjcÕ Ki‡Z †`L‡j, ev webv Kv‡R e‡m
_vK‡Z †`L‡j, -Avby wgqv Dcvwa w`‡q evwaZ K‡i| ZvB Avgvi h‡Zv MjcÕ GLb wKQzÿ‡Yi
Rb¨ wek¦‡iv‡W| GLv‡b A‡bK AKg©v ‘AvbywgqviÕ mvÿvr cvIqv hvq| Avevi K_vi cÖms‡M
cwiPqI n‡q hvq| BwZg‡a¨ GB AKg©v `‡ji g‡a¨ bZzb AvwemKvi wmivR fu~Bqv| eqm
Avkxi Dc‡i, -WvB‡q‡ewU‡mi †ivMx| †Q‡j KbUªvKUvi| Rs evnv`y‡ii evoxi ckwPg cv‡k
evox K‡i‡Q, cvuP Zjv evwo| nuvUvnvuwU Ki‡j bvwK WvB‡q‡ewUm †iv‡Mi Dckg nq| ZvB G
f`ª†jvK Kó n‡jI jvwV fi K‡i mKvj-weKvj wek¦‡iv‡W Av‡mb| KPQÕ‡ci g‡Zv nuv‡Ub,
nv‡Z jvwV _v‡K| Zvi †QvUÕ †Q‡j Av‡gwiKvi bvMwiK, -BbwRwbqvi| Pvi †g‡q, -mevB
wkwÿKv| †jvKwU we. G. cvk| ivqcyiv nvB¯‹z‡ji wkÿK wQ‡jb, -ivRbxwZI wKQz wKQz
Ki‡Zb| †jvKvj †ev‡W©i ‡ggevi n‡qwQ‡jb, -BDwbqb †ev‡W©i ‡Pqvig¨vb wQ‡jb| GB
†jvKwUi mgeÕb‡a ‡Zvgv‡K G‡Zv K_v ejvi KviY K‡jR Rxe‡b wZwb †Zvgvi Aveevi
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mncvVx wQ‡jb Ges cwieZx©Kv‡jI mvgvwRK I ivR‰bwZK Kg©KvY‡Wi ga¨ w`‡q Zuvi
NwblVÕ mgúK© wQ‡jv| Ibvi evwo ivqcyivi Kv‡QB, `xZcyi f~Tv evox| G‡K †Zvgvi evevi
ebaz, Avevi es‡ki w`K w`‡q Zvi Dci es‡ki w`K w`‡q f~Tv| †LZv‡ei AvIZvq †Zvgvi
mevB c‡ov e‡j Zvi mv‡_ Avgv‡iv †ek LvwZi R‡g‡Q|
wPwVi wkibv‡g †h msL¨vUv w`jvg GwU Aviex msL¨vq cuvP| cvuP Aÿ‡i Avjjvni bvg, -cvuP
Aÿ‡i ‡gvnvggÕ` (mvt), -cuvP Aÿ‡i Bmjvg| GB cuv‡Pi AvK…wZ Rx‡ei AbZÕKiY ev
n„`wcYWÕ| GB cuv‡Pi wfZi Av‡iv A‡bK wKQz| wek¦vmx‡`i AbZÕKiY Avjjvni Avik|
ZvB GB Aviex cuvP msL¨vwU‡K Avwg c‡Îi wk‡ivbv‡g ¯’vcb K‡iwQ| Avkv Kwi †Zvgiv GUv
cQÕb`Õ Ki‡e| †Zvgvi Lvjv wK mv‡a ÒAvbywgqvÓ Dcvwa w`‡q‡Q| Avgvi †jLvi aiY
†`‡LB‡Zv eyS‡Z cvi‡Qv| †KvbÕ Kv‡Ri K_v bvB| h‡Zv me ev‡R| Z‡e `ywbqvq gvbyl ev‡R
K_vB†Zv ‡ekx e‡j| Rxe‡b Kv‡Ri K_v‡Zv ‡ekx _v‡K bv| KvR K_vi MwZ†iva K‡i,
mshZ K‡i| hviv †ekx K_v e‡j, Zviv Kg KvR K‡i| ZvB ky‡bwQ Rvcvbxiv Lye Kg K_v
e‡j| Iiv Kgx© RvwZ| Z‡e K_v Kv‡Ri †cÖiYv †hvMvq| Z‡e gRvi e¨vcvi, - wb‡R wb‡R
KvR Kiv ‡MjI, wb‡R wb‡R K_v ejv hvq bv, - ej‡j ‡jv‡K cvMj e‡j| wKbZz K_vMy‡jv
hw` A‡b¨i gy‡Li nq, -G‡Z ‡`vl bvB, -†hgb Avgiv eB cwo, Mvb MvB|
GLb Kv‡Ri K_v ewj| bwbiv †Lv`v Pv‡n ‡Zv †mc‡UgeÕ‡ii †k‡li w`‡K †`‡k wdi‡e|
‡Zvgiv K‡e Avm‡Qv ? Z‡e Avgv‡`i ‡`‡k GKUv K_v cÖPwjZÕ Av‡Q, AjcÕ ‡kv‡K KvZi,
AwZ †kv‡K cv_i| GB †`L‡Qv bv Avgiv Zgv‡K GK gvm bv †`L‡j Aw¯’i n‡q hvB, -Avi
†Zvgv‡`i K‡Zv Kvj hveZ †`wL bv| Zey †KbÕ †Zvgv‡`i Rb¨ Aw¯’i nB bv ? AwZ kx‡Z
Zij cvwb RgvU †eu‡a hvq| GUvB nq‡Zv Rxe‡bi ag©| ZeyI ‡Zv g‡bi gwY‡KvVvq Avkvi
cÖ`xc ‡R¡‡j ivwL| Avevi †`Lv n‡e, -Avevi eid Mj‡e| Avevi dzj dzU‡e| Avevi I‡jvU
Kgj MvQUv dz‡j dz‡j †Q‡q hv‡e| Avevi †mB gywoi wUb wb‡q ey`aÕ Avgvi AvswMbvq
nuvU‡e| Gevi ivwL gv| Avevi K‡e wjL‡Z cvi‡ev †K Rv‡b ! †Zvgiv mevB eveb, gxby, wcKz
I ey`aÕ, mevB Avgvi ggZv wb‡qv, -Avkxe©v` wb‡qv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov ‡Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXVIII
(5)
XvKv, 17-8-1992
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK| †Zvgiv Zuvi K…cvq my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myLkvbwZ I wbivc` AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ †Zvgv‡`i †KvbÕ Leiv-Lei cvB bv| nq‡Zv †c‡qwQ, g‡b bvB| GgwbB
nq, g‡b _v‡K bv| GgbwK mKv‡j wK †L‡qwQ, weKv‡j Zv g‡b c‡o bv| ‡f‡e-wPb‡Z ej‡Z
nq| Z‡e wKQz wKQz NUbv ¯g„wZ‡Z wPi¯’vqx n‡q _v‡K, -giYB †eva nq Zv gy‡Q w`‡Z cv‡i|
¯g„wZi fvYWv‡iiI †eva nq GKUv mxgve`aÕ aviY ÿgZv Av‡Q| fvYWvi c~Y© n‡j
AwZwiKZÕUv Dc‡Q c‡o hvq| Rxe‡bi GKUv we‡kl mgq †_‡K ¯g„wZi weKvk NU‡Z
_v‡K| cÖ_g w`‡K we‡kl we‡kl NUbvMy‡jvB †Kej ¯g„wZ aviY K‡i| A_©vr Zvi cQÕb`Õ
g‡Zv n‡jB Zv a‡i iv‡L| eqm e„`wai mv‡_ mv‡_ ¯g„wZi aviY ÿgZv ev‡o, Ges msMÖn
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evo‡Z _v‡K| G mgq we‡kl NUbv QvovI mvaviY ZzPQÕ NUbv ¯g„wZ‡Z ¯’vb K‡i †bq|
¯g„wZkKwZi DbbÕwZ I AebwZ gvby‡li eq‡mi Dci wbf©ikxj| Aek¨ †KvbÕ gvby‡li †kl
eq‡mI ¯g„wZkw³ cÖLi _v‡K| Z‡e G‡`i msL¨v Lye Kg| Avevi me gvby‡li ¯g„wZkKwZ
GK gv‡ci bq|
G‡Zv K_v ejjvg †KbÕ ? †KvbÕ ‡KvbÕ gvbyl ev wRwbl‡K ev‡i ev‡i †`L‡Z ‡`L‡Z ¯g„wZ‡Z
Ggb `vM †K‡U hvq, hv KL‡bv gy‡Q bv| Avevi †Kv‡bv emZz‡K AjcÕ mgq †`Lvi ci †m
emZzwUi hw` mgq e¨eav‡b A‡`Lv‡Z cwieZ©b N‡U, Z‡e cÖ_g †`Lvi emZzwU‡K Avi
¯g„wZ‡Z Lyu‡R cvIqv hvq bv| Aek¨ eZ©gvb hy‡M gvbe†`‡ni Ggb weeZ©b‡K d‡Uv‡Z a‡i
ivLvi †Póv Pj‡Q| ZeyI nvwm-Kvbbv K_v‡K a‡i ivLvi e¨e¯’v Av‡Rv †Zgb GKUv nqwb|
ey`aÕ GLb †`L‡Z †Kgb n‡q‡Q ! gywoi wU‡bi ey`aÕ K‡e KLb nvwi‡q †M‡Q †K Rv‡b!
nVvr K‡i wKQz nvwi‡q †M‡j Kó nq| wKbZz ÿ‡q ÿ‡q jq n‡q †M‡j †Zgb Kó nq bv|
ZvB nvwi‡q ‡h‡Z w`‡Z PvB bv| AMZ¨v w`‡ZB hw` nq, -Z‡e nVvr K‡i bq| Z‡e Av‡iv
Mvb, Av‡iv K_v evKx _vK‡Z gvbylwU nVvr P‡j ‡M‡j Avgv‡`i K‡ói mxgv _v‡K bv| Avi
Sybv cvKv ey‡ovwU g‡i †M‡j, Zvi iy‡ni gvMwdivZ Kvgbv K‡i Avgiv ¯^w¯Íi wbtk¦vm †dwj|
G giY wK my‡Li giY, bvwK Kvg¨ !
19-8-1992: †Zvgv‡`i †`k myB‡W‡b bvwK wUwf‡Z Biv‡Ki hy`‡ai Qwe wkky‡`i †`Lv
wbwl`aÕ wQ‡jv| ky‡b g‡b K‡iwQjvg Avnv wK wkky-`i`x ‡mvbvi †`k ! †m †`‡k bvwK gveveviI wkky‡`i kvmb Ki‡Z gvbv| Avgvi g‡b n‡Zv ckwP‡gi †`kMywj eywS m¦M©ivR¨| †mB
ckwP‡gi GKwU †`k embxqv GLb biK| nZ¨vi nvZ †_‡K bvix wkkyivI †invB cvP‡Q bv|
†m `„k¨ †`‡L kqZvbI GKevi _g‡K `uvov‡Zv| ‡Lv‡gbx wiM¨vb†K kqZvb ej‡Zv| †Lv‡gbx
†eu‡P _vK‡j eyk‡K ej‡Zv, -The great SATAN| BivK ckwPgv mvsevw`K‡`i Zvi †`k
†_‡K ewn®‹vi K‡i w`‡q‡Q| Giv kqZv‡bi †Pjv|
wkkyi †Kv‡bv RvZ-ag© †bB| Ggb wK ckyi wkkyI ggZvi `vex`vi| AvR embxqvi wkkyivI
mviweqvb wnsmÖ cky‡`i nvZ †_‡K iÿv cvP‡Q bv| G `ytLx emybaÕiv‡K mvbZÕbvi cik ‡`q
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wkkyiv| embxqvi bvix I ‡mB wkkyi Kvbbvq †Ku‡c DV‡Q Avjjvni Avik| ‡Zvgv‡`i gvbe`i`x myBwWmiv Kx Ki‡Q Rvwb bv| †m †`k †_‡K †`qv nq kvbwZi b‡ej cyi®‹vi| h‡Zv me
fYWvwg ! #
Ki‡Wvfvq K‡qK kZÕ eQi Av‡M ‡¯úwbk ee©†iiv Ggwb fv‡e bvix-wkky wbwe©Pv‡i nZ¨v
K‡iwQ‡jv gymwjg‡`i, ‡h gymwjgiv wQ‡jv †m †`‡kiB gvbyl, Avi eZ©gvb BD‡iv‡ci
wkÿvMyiy| eZ©gvb embxqvbiv ‡m ‡`‡kiB gvbyl, -mv‡eK hy‡Mvkøvwfqv GKwU DbbÕZ ivlUª,
‡hLv‡b 1984 mv‡j wek¦ AwjgwcK AbylwVZÕ n‡qwQ‡jv| G‡`i Aciva Giv gymjgvb| Z‡e
Giv Zzi‡®‹i g‡Zv †Muvov gymjgvb bq| Zey†Zv Giv iÿv †c‡jv bv| myb`Õi embxqv GLb
QviLvi n‡q †M‡Q| wWbvgvBU w`‡q embxqvi †K›`ªxq gmwR` Dwo‡q †`Iqv n‡q‡Q| †m †`‡k
bvix-wkky‡`i AvZ© PxrKv‡i wK †Lv`vi Avik Kuv‡c bv ? Avwg Le‡ii KvM‡R †m †`‡k‡i
wbh©vwZZ bvix-wkky‡`i Qwe ‡`wL| Kvbbvq Avgvi eyK ‡d‡U hvq| ewj, -Ò†Lv`v Zzwg G
AZ¨vPvi Avi K‡Zv mB‡e e‡jv ? | `vb‡ei MÖvm †_‡K gvbyl†K euvPvI| Avgvi wcKz ey`‡ai
g‡Zv nvRvi nvRvi wb®úvc Kvbbv wK `qvgq ‡Zvgvi Avik ch©bZÕ †cuŠQvq bv ?Ó| ‡`vqv
K‡iv gv, - ‡Kej ey`aÕ wcKzi gv bq, -mviv embxqvi nZfvM¨ wkky‡`i gv n‡q Avjjvni
`iev‡i †`vqv K‡iv, -Ò‡Lv`v, Zzwg embxqvi wkky‡`i iÿv K‡iv, -mviv we‡k¦i wb®úvc
wkky‡`i euvPvI!Ó|
A‡bK K_v ejvi wQ‡jv, -Avi cvijvg bv|
‡Zvgvi ey`aÕ I wcKzi Rb¨, -Zv‡`i wbivcZZvi Rb¨ Avjjvni `iev‡i Av‡e`b †i‡L AvR
GLv‡b BwZ UvbwQ| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
# ixWv‡ii ms‡kvab: biI‡q †`q kvbwZi b‡ej cyi®‹vi, myB‡Wb ‡`q Ab¨ PviwU
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 88KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – LXXXIX
(5)
XvKv, 28-12-1992
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni ingZ ewl©Z ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv myL-kvbwZ‡Z, wbivc` I AvbÕb‡`
_v‡Kv, -my¯’¨ _v‡Kv !
A‡bK, A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ †Zvgv‡`i wjwL bv| Avi nq‡Zv wjL‡Z cvi‡ev bv| KÕw`b Av‡M
Avgvi 80Zg RbgÕw`b †M‡jv, -‡ek aygavg K‡i| Z‡e †mw`b wjwj wQ‡jv bv| ‡Zvgiv wQ‡j
bv, -‡Zvgiv enz`~i _v‡Kv| Zey ‡Zvgiv GB w`bwU ¯gib K‡i‡Qv, -eveb †dvb K‡iwQ‡jv‡|
wjwj†Zv Kv‡QB wQ‡jv MZevi GB w`bwU‡Z, -†m †hvM w`‡qwQ‡jv| Gevi Av‡mwb, -nq‡Zv
Avm‡Z cv‡iwb, -nq‡Zv ev g‡b-B wQ‡jv bv| g‡bi Kv‡Q `~iZ¡ †KvbÕ evav bq, -‰bKU¨I
Aeva my‡hvM bq|
wPwV†Zv mevi Kv‡Q wjLv nq bv| hviv `~‡i _v‡K, -A‡bK w`b hver †`Lv mvÿvr nq bv,
Zv‡`i Kv‡QB gvbyl wPwV wj‡L| wb‡R wjL‡Z bv Rvb‡jI Ab¨‡K w`‡q wjLvq, -wjL‡Z
†R‡bI AcviMZvq Ab¨‡K w`‡q wjLvq| Avwg wjL‡Z Rvwb, -cvwiI, -Avi †ZvgivI `~‡i
_v‡Kv, ZeyI †Zvgv‡`i †KbÕ G‡Zvw`b wjwLwQ bv, -Gi ˆKwdqr Avwg wb‡RB Luy†R cvB bv|
‰kw_j¨ I wb®ú„nZv †h‡bv Avgvi †`nÕ-gb Ry‡o e‡m Av‡Q| Nyg-Nyg-Nyg| wek¦‡Rvov GKUv
Ny‡gi AvPQv`b †h‡bv Avgv‡K AvPQÕbbÕ K‡i †i‡L‡Q|
eveb Avgv‡K GKUv †gvUv LvZv wK‡b w`‡q wM‡qwQ‡jv MZevi †Zvgiv hLb †`‡k G‡mwQ‡j|
GK eQ‡i †m LvZvwU wnwRwewR wj‡L †kl K‡iwQjvg| fvewQjvg Avevi †Zvgiv G‡m nqZv
Avi GKwU LvZv wK‡b w`‡e| †Zvgiv †Zv Avi G‡j bv| hvK, wjwj Avi GKwU LvZv wK‡b
w`‡qwQ‡jv| G LvZvUvqI wKQzUv wj‡LwQjvg, -bvg w`‡qwQjvg ÒwPwoqvLvbvÓ| wKbZz A‡a©K
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wj‡L Avi GMy‡Z cvwiwb| AvR K‡qK gvm hveZ wjLv ebaÕ| KvMR Kjg Av‡Q| nvZI
†gvUv‡gvwU mPj Av‡Q| bvB †Kej AvbÕb`Õ I myb`Õ‡ii myi-Qb`Õ|
hvK, GLb †cŠlgvm, -kxZ †Ru‡K e‡m‡Q| Gevi el©v bvB| kx‡Z meRx bó nqwb| evRv‡i
cÖPiz kx‡Zi meRx cvIqv hvq| Aek¨ `vg Kg bq| IjU Kgj MvQwUI dz‡j dz‡j †Q‡q
†M‡Q| Avwg GL‡bv mKv‡j wek¦‡iv‡W †eov‡Z †ei nB| ‡Zvgvi LvjvI GLb wek¦‡iv‡W
†eov‡Z hvq, -Wvqv‡ewUm Zvov‡Z|
evox‡Z gvmvwaK Kvj ch©šÍ fvsMv-Movi KvR Pj‡Q| bZzb K‡i Mvoxi M¨v‡iR nP‡Q| nP‡Q
†mdwU-U¨vsK, -cvwb wbmKvk‡bi †Wªb| jvMv‡bv n‡q‡Q Gqvi-KbwWkb| †Zvgiv hw` MÖxl‡g
Av‡mv, -Z‡e N‡ii wfZi Mi‡g †Zgb Kó cv‡e bv| Aek¨ evB‡i Mig wbqbÎY Kiv hv‡e
bv|
GLb Avwg gmwR` I wek¦‡ivW Qvov †Kv_vqI hvBbv| GB wek¦†iv‡W †eov‡Z †eov‡Z GKwU
bZzb gvby‡li mv‡_ cwiPq n‡jv| †jvKwUi bvg wmivR f~Tv| Kzwgjjv ivqcyiv ¯‹y‡ji gvóvi
wQ‡jv| eqm Avwki D‡©a| Kzwgjjv wfK‡Uvwiqv K‡j‡R †Zvgvi evevi mncvVx wQ‡jv|
ciewZ©‡Z ivR‰bwZK AsM‡bI bvwK †Zvgvi evevi mv‡_ ‡gjv‡gkv wQ‡jv| kvKZjv f~Tv
cwiev‡ii A‡b‡Ki mv‡_ Zvi cwiPq Av‡Q| wek¦‡iv‡Wi Kv‡QB Zvi e‡ov ‡Q‡j cuvP Zjv
evox K‡i‡Q| ‡mI cÖwZw`b mKv‡j wek¦‡iv‡W †eov‡Z Av‡m| I‡K †`L‡jB †Zvgvi evevi
K_v g‡b c‡o|
ky‡bwQjvg †Zvgvi gv kvKZjv ‡M‡Qb| GLb av‡bi †gŠmyg wKbv ZvB| ZvÕ QvovI nq‡Zv
GK‡N‡qgx fv‡jv jv‡Mbv| †KvbÕ †KvbÕ gvbyl Av‡Q hviv wb‡R †`‡kI ci‡`kx| kyK‡bv
cvZv K‡Zvw`bBev MvQ†K AvuK‡o a‡i ivL‡Z cv‡i| Rxe‡bi Pjvi c‡_ mgvb Zv‡j Pj‡Z
bv ‡c‡i Aÿ‡giv KªgvMZ wcwQ‡q co‡Z co‡Z GK mgq Kv‡djv †_‡K wewQbbÕ n‡q A`„k¨
n‡q hvq|
GLb kxZ Pj‡Q| emÕbZÕ Avm‡e| Avm‡e MÖxlgÕ| hyM hyM a‡i Ggwb Pj‡Q, Pj‡e| wKbZz
bZzb emÕbZÕ wK †M‡jv emÕb‡Zi wVKvbv Lyu‡R cvq ? Gev‡ii IjU Kg‡ji dzjivwk wK
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†M‡jv ev‡ii S‡i cov dzjMy‡jvi †KvbÕ Lei Rv‡b ? ‡gvnvggÕ`cy‡ii †mB †QvUÕ wcKzwU
†Kv_vq nvwi‡q †M‡jv,- †KD †Ui †c‡jv bv| Ggwb K‡i nvwi‡q †M‡Q gywoi wUb nv‡Z
ey`aÕwUI| gRvi e¨vcvi hviv nvwi‡q †M‡jv Zv‡`i †Kvb `ytL bvB| nvwi‡q hvIqv wgwbi Rb¨
`ytL kyay KvewjIqvjvi| wgwbi mv‡_ nvwi‡q †M‡Q GK hyM Av‡M †Q‡o Avmv Zvi †QvUUÕ
LyKxwUI| m„wói GwK me©bvkv AvbÕb`Õ ! wbR‡K w`‡b w`‡b, c‡j c‡j, aŸs‡mi gy‡L mu‡c
wbR ARvb‡Z Dbgv‡`i g‡Zv Qz‡U P‡j‡Q wejycwZi c‡_|
AvR GK gv‡mi Dci n‡jv bwb †`‡k G‡m‡Q, -G‡m‡Q CkvZI| Z‡e †M‡jv eQ‡ii CkvZ
nvwi‡q †M‡Q| CkvZ GLb nuvU‡Z cv‡i| KL‡bv KL‡bv evB‡i hvevi evqbv K‡i| Z‡e
MZÕev‡ii g‡Zv †Kv‡j DVvi evqbv a‡i bv| GLb nvuU‡Z cv‡i, m¦vejgex n‡q‡Q|
kybjvg Rq †`‡k G‡m‡Q, -ggxI ‡eva nq evmvqB Av‡Q| Rq G‡m‡Q AjcÕ wKQzw`‡bi
Rb¨| hvevi Av‡M nq‡Zv †`Lv K‡i hv‡e| Zgv GLb evmvq| ÒG Rxe‡bi h‡Zv gayi
w`bMy‡jvÓ †Kv_vq nvwi‡q †M‡jv|
Avevi K‡e wjL‡Z cvwi Rvwb bv| Avi GKevi †Lv`vi `iev‡i †Zvgv‡`i mevi Rb¨ gsMj
Kvgbv K‡i Gevi BwZ UvbwQ| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 89KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XC
(5)
XvKv, 30-3-1993
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvnvi A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨ ‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
K‡Zv w`b ch©bZÕ †Zvgvq wjwLwb| †Zvgv‡`i GKwU ARynvZ Av‡Q Kg©e¨¯ÍZv| Gevi
AvgviI GKwU e‡ov ARynvZ wQ‡jv †Pv‡Li Qvwb KvUv| wKbZz AbaÕ wgjUb Ò‡civWvBR
jmUÓ Kve¨ iPbv K‡iwQ‡jb| Aek¨B wZwb wbR nv‡Z wj‡Lbwb| wZwb gy‡L gy‡L ej‡Zb, Ab¨ Av‡iKRb wjL‡Zv| Avgvi‡`i †`‡k AvRI A‡bK †jvK Av‡Q hviv wjL‡Z Rv‡b bv|
Ab¨‡K w`‡q AvcbR‡bi Kv‡Q cÎ wjLvq| Z‡e Gme c‡Î g‡a¨ †Mvcbxq wKQz wjLv hvq bv|
Avi gZjeevR wjLK n‡j wec`I n‡Z cv‡i| ZvB ey`wagvb g~L© n‡j †m GKRb†K w`‡q
wPwV wjwL‡q, Ab¨ Avi GKRb‡K w`‡q cwo‡q Zv Wv‡K cvVvq| †jLvcovi †ejvq AbaÕ I
g~‡L©i g‡a¨ †Kvb cÖ‡f` bvB| hvK GLb Avwg Avi AbaÕ bB| `yB bq‡b †`L‡Z cvB, hw`I
Møv‡mi mvnv‡h¨. - Qvwb KvUvi ci GB Avgvi cÖ_g wPwV wjLv|
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†`‡k bvwK Gevi evgcvi dmj d‡j‡Q| Z‡e Zv Lv‡j`vi Lvj KvUvi e‡`Šj‡Z bq|
AwaKvsk Lv‡j cvwb bvB, gvQI bvB| †bŠKvi cvU ‡Zv A‡bK Av‡MB D‡V ‡M‡Q| Z‡e
Avgv‡`i wbe©vPbx GjvKvi mvsm` gbRyi gybkx e‡ov jÿxQvov| Zvi wbe©vPbx GjvKvq Gevi
Kvni ! Z‡e fvM¨ fv‡jv, -Ab¨vb¨ GjvKvq fv‡jv dm‡ji `iyY Pv‡ji `vg ev‡owb| Z‡e
K„l‡Ki nv‡Z †Zv bM` UvKv _v‡K bv| hv‡`i Kªq ÿgZvB bvB, `ªe¨g~‡j¨i Kg†ekx‡Z
Zv‡`i jvf wK ?
†Zvgvi e‡ov gvgv Gevi gKKv hv‡”Q| Z‡e ‰cZ…K mgúÕZwZ wb‡q weev` GL‡bv gxgvsmv nq
wb| Avevi ‰eV‡Ki cvquZviv Pj‡Q| eyey GL‡bv †`‡kB Av‡Q| wZwb †`‡k _vK‡ZB cQÕb`Õ
K‡ib| XvKv Zuvi Kv‡Q Kvivev‡mi g‡Zv| e„`aÕKv‡ji AK©gY¨ Rxe‡b gvbyl mnPi †Luv‡R|
wKbZz e„`aÕ‡`i mvbwb‡a¨ †Zv Kv‡Ri †jv‡Kiv †ekxÿY _vK‡Z Pvq bv| evPPviv _v‡K †jLv
cov wb‡q| e‡oviv e¨¯Í _v‡K hvi hvi Kv‡R| hZ gykwKj ez‡ov‡`i| ZvB AZx‡Zi e„`aÕ‡`i
Rb¨ evbcÖ‡¯’i e¨e¯’v wQ‡jv| GKv‡j Aek¨ †Lv`v fKZÕiv ag© PP©v K‡i mgq KvUv‡bvi
GKUv DwQjv ‡Lvu‡R| †kl eq‡m G‡`‡ki gvby‡li gKKv MgYI Ggwb GKwU DwQjv| GK
wX‡j `yB wkKvi| Aek¨ A‡bK UvKv LiP nq|
GeviI bwb evwo G‡m A‡bK UvKv LiPv K‡i‡Q| Gqvi-KbwWkb jvwM‡q‡Q, M¨v‡iR
K‡i‡Q| AviI A‡bK wKQz h‡ZvÿY nv‡Z UvKv _v‡K, Z‡Zvÿb KvR Ki‡e| hvevi mgq
Lvwj nv‡Z hv‡e| GUvI †Kvb gvby‡li GKUv AvbÕb`Õ| AvwgI Lykx wQjvg, fvewQjvg MÖxl‡g
†`‡k G‡j N‡i Mi‡g ‡Zvgv‡`i †Zgb Kó n‡e bv|
ey`aÕ eveyi MvQ †_‡K Avi Avg cvov n‡jv bv| hvK cÖwZ eQiB†Zv Mv‡Q Avg d‡j| ey`aÕ
Avm‡jv bv e‡j Avg MvQ dj †`Iqv ebaÕ K‡i bv| G‡`‡k †Zv ey`aÕ eveyi Afve bvB |
Giv ‰ekvL ‰R¨lVÕ gv‡m Avg Kzovq| AvgMv‡Q wXj †Quv‡o| Mv‡Q P‡o Avg cv‡o|
myB‡W‡bi ey`aÕ GKw`b †`‡k Avm‡e, MvQ †_‡K Avg cvo‡e| Avwg bv †`L‡jI K‡Zv
†jv‡K †`L‡e, -ej‡e GKUv myBwWk evjK evsjv‡`‡k Avg cvo‡Q| Av‡M †_‡KI wKbZz
Mv‡Q Pov wk‡L Avm‡Z n‡e| I nu¨v, Z‡e Mv‡Q bv P‡oI Avg cvov hvq| wXj Quz‡o, miy
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jgev euvk w`‡q AvNvZ K‡iI Avg cviv hvq| ey`aÕ‡K Avg cvovi ‡KŠkjMy‡jv wkwL‡q
†Mjvg|
Avgvi N‡ii cv‡k RvgMvQwU‡Z ‡gŠgvwQ evmv †eu‡a‡Q| GKevi †K‡U GK †cvqvi Dc‡i gay
†c‡qwQ| wKQzw`b ci Avevi KvUvi Avkv ivwL| †Zvgv‡`i ILv‡b †Zv gay mzjf|
evsjv‡`‡kI gay cvIqv hvq, wKbZzz AwaKsvkB †fRvj| Avwg hLb Avmv‡g PvKix KiZvg
ZLb Avmv‡g wPwbi `v‡g LvuwU gay cvIqv †h‡Zv| wKbZz mPviPi ‡KD gay †L‡Zv bv|
†ZvgivI †eva nq Lye GKUv LvI bv|
†h ‡`‡k cÖPzi ¯^Y© cvIqv hvq, †m †`‡ki gvbyl †eva nq evsjv‡`‡ki g‡Zv ¯^Y© wb‡q G‡Zv
gvivgvwi K‡i bv|
AvR eve‡bi 12 Zvwi‡Li wjLv G‡ivMÖvg †cjvg| ‡jLvcov wb‡qB Zvi mviv Rxeb †M‡jv|
GUvB †evanq Zvi AvbÕb`Õ| Aek¨ †jLvcov AvgviI wcÖq wQ‡jv| hv‡`i Ab¨ †KvbÕ KvR
K‡g©i ejvB bvB,- A_PÕ †jLvcov Kivi †hvM¨ZvI bvB, Zviv e‡ov Amnvq| KvR Avi Nyg
GB `yB‡q Rxeb| wKbZz hv‡`i KvR bvB, NygI bvB, Zviv nZfvM¨|
Gevi ivwL| Avevi K‡e wjL‡Z cvwi ‡K Rv‡b !
†Zvgiv mevB Rb¨ †`vqv Ges †mœnÕ iB‡jv ! ‡Zvgvi †mB ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv - 90KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCI
(5)
XvKv, 26-7-1993
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv mevB my¯’‡`‡n, myL kvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bK w`b ch©bZÕ †Zvgv‡`i wjwLbv| ‡Zvgv‡`i wjLv cvB, DZZÕi w`B bv| Avgvi Rxe‡b
‡eva nq GB GK A`fzZ bxieZv| †h Kv‡R gvbyl AvbÕb`Õ cvq bv, KvRUv mnR n‡jI Zvi
Kv‡Q †evSv ‡V‡K|
g‡b c‡o eveb ‡eva nq ZLb bUi‡Wg K‡j‡R c‡o| †KvbÕ †KvbÕ mgq GKwU AsK wgjv‡Z
wM‡q ivZ †fvi K‡i w`‡Zv| nq‡Zv †mLv‡b AvbÕb`Õ †c‡Zv ev ¯^fve-myjf †R` Zv‡K
AbycÖvwYZ Ki‡Zv| `ze©j b`xMy‡jv Zv‡`i Pjvi c‡_ evav †c‡j MwZ cwieZ©b K‡i, wKbZz
DbgÕZZÕ b`x †KvbÕ evav gv‡b bv| MwZc‡_ mKj evav P~Y©-weP~Y© K‡i c_ K‡i †bq,
KxwZ©bvkv bvg aviY K‡i| G Zvi GK AvbÕb`Õ| wKbZz GB i~c Zvi me mgq _v‡K bv|
`ze©j b`xI †KvbÕ †KvbÕ mgq cÖgZZv n‡q D‡V| cÖej ‡mÖv‡Zi waKKv‡i, euv‡Ki e¨eavb
nªm¨ Ki‡Z gwiqv n‡q D‡V, fvsM‡Z _v‡K mggy‡Li evav, wgwjZ nq Avcb ‡mªvZ avivq bZzb
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c‡_| Av‡Mi evuKv MwZ c_ GK cv‡k c‡o _v‡K ‡mªvZnxb giv MvO n‡q| Avevi cÖgÕZZv
b`xI ‡mªvZnxbZvq P‡i P‡i f‡i D‡V| cÖgÕZZv c`g&vi KxwZ©bvkv bvg GLb BwZnv‡mi
LvZvq|
gvby‡li RxebUvI G b`xi g‡Zv| Avwg ‡h‡bv GKUv giv MvO| kyay AmwZZ¡UzKz wb‡q wU‡K
AvwQ Kv‡ji mvÿx n‡q MwZnxbZvi wbivbÕb‡`| GK mgq K‡Zv wPwV wjLZvg, wjLv †h‡bv
dyiv‡Zv bv| K‡Zv Kx wjLZvg| Lv‡g Wej ó¨vgc jvMv‡Z n‡Zv| wK wjLZvg, -‡m wPwVi
fvlv wK wQ‡jv, -AvR g‡b bvB| kyay g‡b Av‡Q A‡bK wKQz wjLZvg| weivgnxb †jLv,
AdzibZÕ K_v| A_©nxb K_v A_©gq n‡q D‡V, ‡`q Avb‡›`i †Quvqv| †mB AvbÕb`Õgq ‡mªvZ
hLb ‡_‡g hvq gv, ZLb Rxe‡bi AbwZg myi †e‡R D‡V|
ZvB AvR Avwg †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q wjL‡Z e‡m nv‡Z Kjg wb‡q e‡m _vwK| †jLvi †h‡bv wKQz
bvB| †evev Kvbbvq eyKUv fvi D‡V ! cÖwZw`b mKv‡j RvMvi Af¨vm wQ‡jv, - Af¨vm wQ‡jv
ivZ RvMvi| GL‡bv mKv‡j GKevi RvwM, wKbZz weQvbv Qvwo bv| ky‡q _vwK| GLb
wek¦‡iv‡WI Avi †eov‡Z hvB bv| dR‡ii bvgv‡RI gmwR‡` hvB bv| w`biv‡Zi AwaKvsk
mgq †Kej ky‡q Nygv‡q KvUvB|
27-7-1993: evuPvi ZvwM‡` gvbyl n‡b¨ n‡q QzU‡Q w`K-wew`K Ávbk~Y¨ n‡q| wKbZz g„Zz¨i
nvZ †_‡K †KD †invB cvP‡Q bv| ‡KD w`‡bi MyYwZ wnmv‡e Avgv‡`i avibv g‡Z mgq n‡j
g‡i, †KD Amg‡q g‡i| Amg‡q giv gvbylMy‡jvi Rb¨ †eu‡P _vKv me gvbyl `ytL K‡i | Avi
mgq n‡q †M‡j giv gvby‡li Rb¨ †KnB AvšÍwiK `ytL cÖKvk K‡i bv| KviY GKwUB|
c„w_ex‡K †`evi g‡Zv Zvi wKQz _v‡K bv e‡j| ZvB myb`Õi wkkzwU g‡i ‡M‡j mevB `ytL
cvq| ZiZvRv †Rvqvb †Q‡jwU g‡i ‡M‡j mevB Avc‡QvQ K‡i| gv ‡eu‡P _vK‡j mviv Rxeb
Kuv‡`| A_v©r, - c„w_exi hv‡`i cÖ‡qvRb dzwi‡q ‡M‡Q, Zv‡`i we`v‡q gvbyl †kvK K‡i bv|
AvR gywb‡ii dvumx n‡q †M‡jv| gv-evc †eu‡P Av‡Qb| gv-evevi GKgvÎ cyÎ ab gywbi|
Aciv‡ai Rb¨ K‡Zv gvby‡liB dvumx nq| gywb‡ii g‡Zv Aciva A‡b‡K K‡i, wKbZz duvmx
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nq bv| me‡jiv †eu‡P ‡_‡K hvq, -AvB‡bi `YWÕ `ye©‡ji Nv‡o Pv‡c| wKbZz wbqwZi A‡gvN
weavb gv‡S g‡a¨ msnvi `YWÕ wb‡q Awef~©Z n‡q ms‡kvab K‡i| wmivR wmK`v‡ii NvZK
†kL gywRe mcwiev‡i wbnZ n‡jv gnvKv‡ji wbg©g wbqwZi wb‡`©‡k| wRqvDi ingvb gi‡jv
Zv‡ni mn K‡Zv gvby‡li iK‡Zi FY †kva Ki‡Z| wKbZz mevq Ggwb Zv‡`i Ly‡bi FY
†kva Ki‡Z cv‡i bv| †h FY ‡kva K‡i DËim~ixiv| emwbqvi wkky‡`i AvZ© PxrKvi C_v‡i
Rgv n‡q Av‡Q| we`xY© n‡q †b‡g Avm‡e eRª-wb‡N©v‡l kKwZgÕZZÕ BD‡iv‡ci kKZÕ
NuvwUMy‡jv aŸsm K‡i w`‡Z| nq‡Zv mgq jvM‡e| GK kZÕ ev `yB kZÕ eQiI n‡Z cv‡i|
mgqUv Avgv‡`i Kv‡Q e‡ov ‡VK‡jI gnvKv‡ji wnmv‡e mvgvb¨| Kvievjv NUbvi enz eQi
ci Dgwgqv esk FY †kva K‡iwQ‡jv|
cÖwZ w`b K‡Zv †jvK g‡i| mevi g„Zz¨ wb‡q gvbzl K_v e‡j bv, -Avc‡mvQ K‡i bv| †h g„Zz¨
gvbyl‡K AevYwQZÕ Ae¯’vb †_‡K gyKwZ ‡`q, Zvi Rb¨ ‡KD Avc‡QvQ K‡i bv| †m g„Zz¨i
i~c myb`Õ‡ii i~c |
†`‡k Gevi Avevi eb¨v n‡q‡Q, -Z‡e 88-Gi fqvj i~‡c bq| Gevi †bcvj, fviZ I
Av‡gwiKvq bvwK Zxeª eb¨v n‡q‡Q| fvi‡Zi eb¨vq evsjv‡`k AvKªvbZÕ nIqvi AvksKv
Av‡Q| ‡`‡ki Ae¯’v GL‡bv fqven i~c aviY K‡iwb|
ey`aÕ I wcKz†K fvjevmv w`‡qv ! ‡Zvgiv wb‡qv ggZv I †`vqv !
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 91KLMNOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCII
(5)
XvKv, 28-8-1993
Kj¨vbxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK| †Zvgiv †h‡bv my¯’‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ,
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv| ‡Zvgv‡`i wPwV Avm‡Z AvRKvj A‡bK †`ix nq| Avgvi wPwVI
†eva nq †Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q †ek †`ix‡Z †cuŠ‡Q| hw`I AvRKvj Avwg wPwV Lye KgB wjwL,
Gfv‡e wPwVi MwZ†eM K‡g Kivi KviY AbymÕbavb Ki‡ZI g‡b Pvq bv| XvKv wR.wc.I ‡Z
†cvó Kiv GKUv wPwV †cŠuQ‡Z Pvi w`b jv‡M| G †h‡bv Ò‡Nvovq Pwoqv g`© nvwUqv PwjjÕ Ó|
Avgvi g‡b c‡o Avwg hLb cÖ_g PvKzix Kwi Avmv‡g, ZLb weªwUk Avgj| Avmv‡gi A‡bK
Pv evMvb| Avi †mB Pv evMv‡bi g¨v‡bRvi _vK‡Zv GKRb mv`v Pvgovi Bs‡iR| †m mgq
we‡jZ _v‡K WvK Avm‡Zv Rvnv‡R cÖwZ c‡biÕ w`b AbZÕi| WvK bvg wQjÕ Fgn Mail |
H Fgn Mail Avmvi LeiUv Le‡ii KvM‡R Rvwb‡q †`Iqv n‡Zv| H wbw`©ó w`‡b WvK bv
‡c‡j Bs‡iRiv ZzjKvjvg KvYWÕ NwU‡q em‡Zv| †UwjMÖvg K‡i Mfb©vi †Rbv‡i‡ji ˆKwdqZ
PvIqv n‡Zv| H weªwUk miKvi weªwUk kvwmZÕ fvi‡Zi †h †KvbÕ ¯’v‡b Af¨bZÕixb WvK wZb
w`‡bi g‡a¨ wewji e¨e¯’v wQ‡jv| Ònvq‡i wmivR Kx LvbvÓ| ‡kL mv`x bvwK GK mgq †KvbÕ
`~i †`‡ki GK ebayi evox‡Z K‡qK w`‡bi Rb¨ †gngvb n‡qwQ‡jb| ebay mv`xi Rb¨ cÖwZ
†ejvq fv‡jv fv‡jv Lvev‡ii e¨e¯’v K‡iwQ‡jb| wKbZz ebay h‡Zv eviB †ekx †ekx fv‡jv
Lvevi nvwRi K‡ib, mv`x `xN© wbtk¦vm †d‡j e‡jb, -Ònvq, wmivR Kx Lvbv !Ó ebay jRRvq
g‡i hvb| fv‡eb, -bv Rvwb wmiv‡Ri Lvbv Av‡iv K‡Zv my¯^v`y | hvevi †ejvq mv`x ebay‡K
wmiv‡R Zvi evox‡Z wbgbÎY K‡i †M‡jb| wKQzw`b ci ebay wmiv‡R G‡m mv`xi evox‡Z
†gngvb n‡jb Ges †mLv‡b wKQzw`b _vK‡jb| fve‡jb, -Gevi †`L‡ev wmiv‡Ri Lvevi
†Kgb gRv| wKbZz Kx AvkPh© ! mv`x Zvi Rb¨ GKw`bI `vgx Lvevi e¨e¯’v Ki‡jb bv GB
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ebaywUi Rb¨| ebaywU g‡b g‡b ÿzYbÕ n‡jb| fve‡jb, -GB KvOvjx Lvev‡ii Rb¨ wK Avgvi
evox e‡m mv`x Avc‡mvm Ki‡Zb| GKw`b †jvKwU e‡jB †dj‡jv, - Òebay GB KvOvjx
Lvbvi Rb¨B wK Avcwb Avgvi evox e‡m Avc‡QvQ Ki‡Zb ?Ó mv`x DZZÕ‡i ej‡jb Òn¨vu,
GB Lvbvi Rb¨B| GB Lvbv cvBwb e‡j ZvovZvwo Avcbvi evox †_‡K P‡j Avwm| Gi `zÕwU
KviY, cÖ_gZt GB K‡i Avcwb Avgvi Rb¨ Avw_©Kfv‡e ÿwZMÖ¯’ n‡Zb| w`¦ZxqZt ¯^vfvweK
Lv`¨ bv †c‡q Avgvi ¯^v¯’¨I ÿwZMÖ¯’ n‡Zv| Avgvi wmiv‡Ri Lvbv †L‡j Avcwb Avgvi Dci
†evSv n‡eb bv, Ges ¯^v¯’¨I wVK _vK‡e|Ó weªwUk Avg‡j WvK wefvM Avgvi Kv‡Q mv`xi
wmiv‡Ri Lvbvi g‡ZvB g‡b c‡o| evox †_‡K `~‡i hviv _v‡K, Zviv ey‡S GB WvK wefvMwU
Zv‡`i, we‡kl K‡i Mixe‡`i K‡Zv e‡ov ebay|
wPwV wjL‡Z emjvg, wKbZz wPwVi K_v wKQzB ejv n‡jv bv| Aek¨ ‡Zvgvi Lvjvi wPwV‡Z me
Lei cv‡e| †Zvgv‡`i we‡jZx gvbeZvev`x‡`i fYWvgx †`‡L nZevK n‡q †MwQ| ckwPgv‡`i
K‡Zv gvwngvB †Zvgiv KxZ©b Ki‡Z| GL‡bv nq‡Zv K‡iv †hgb K‡i Avgv‡`i Lv‡j`v
evsjv‡`kx gvK©v MYZÕY‡Îi Avnvgwi| GB wek¦ wPwoqvLvbvq gvbyl cÖRvwZ Kx wewPÎ Rxe !
Gevi Avgv‡`i evsjvq †KvbÕ †KvbÕ GjvKvq ¯’vbxq fv‡e eb¨v n‡q‡Q, †Zgb gvivZg&K wKQz
nqwb| ˆn ‰P bvB| gvbyl hLb `ytL‡K wbqwZi weavb e‡j †g‡b †bq, ZLb K‡ó QUdU K‡i
bv| Rxebx kKwZ nvwi‡q †M‡j gi‡Z ‡ekx Kó nq bv| ZvB †Zv †eva nq †Zvgiv enzw`b
†`Lwb e‡j nv nzZvk K‡iv bv| eveb †`o eQi †R‡j _vKv Kv‡j †Pv‡Li cvwb S‡i S‡i AkÖy
fvYWvi dzwi‡q †M‡Q| AvR Avevi wcKyi K_v g‡b co‡jv| mygx e‡jwQ‡jv | †Zvgiv jYWÕb
‡_‡K P‡j hvevi mgq wcKz bvwK e‡jwQ‡jv, -ÒAvgiv P‡j hvPwQ| †Zvgiv hw` Avgvq
fv‡jvev‡mv Z‡e Avgvi Rb¨ Kuv‡`v bv ‡KbÕ ?Ó kZÕ `ytL-K‡óI bvwK mygxi gvi †KvbÕw`b
†Pv‡L cvwb Av‡m bv| mygxi gv e‡jb, ÒAvgvi KóUv ‡fZ‡i AvMyb n‡q R¡‡j, cvwb n‡q †PvL
w`‡q †ei nq bv | G †h K‡Zv e‡ov Kó !Ó
AvR Avwg GLv‡b ivwL gv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCIII
(5)
XvKv, 26-9-1993
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv my¯’¨ _v‡Kv ! myL-kvbwZ,
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
AvR eve‡bi 16 †mc‡UgeÕ‡ii wjLv wPwV †cjvg wcKz RbgÕw`‡bi K_v kybjvg| MZÕ eQi
wcKz †dv‡b K_v e‡jwQ‡jv| Gevi †dv‡b †Póv Ki‡Qv, K_v ej‡Z cv‡ivwb| wis n‡q‡Q, †KD
a‡iwb| ZvwiLwUi K_v Avgv‡`i g‡b wQ‡jv bv| Z‡e †dv‡b evB‡i †_‡K wis nP‡Q †kvbv
†M‡jI wiwmfv‡i wis nq bv| wiwmwfs mvB‡W †dvb Lvivc _vK‡j Aci w`‡K wis ‡kvbv hvq|
Avgv‡`i †dvbUv cÖvq mgq Lvivc _v‡K | Avi Avgv‡`iUvB e‡j †KbÕ, evsjv‡`‡k wWwRUvj
†dvbI A‡bK mgq Lvivc _v‡K| †dv‡bi AebwZ GLb Pi‡g| Avi †dv‡bi K_vB ev e‡j
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wK n‡e| wPwVi Ae¯’vI Z‰_ePÕ| Gevi Aek¨ eve‡bi †jLv wPwVUv `k w`‡bi gv_vq
†cjvg| Ab¨ mgq cÖvq gvm Lv‡bK †j‡M hvq|
GLb el©v †kl n‡q G‡m‡Q| ZeyI GB Avwk¦‡bI ejv-KIqv QvovB nVvr K‡i wewó bv‡g|
c_Pvixiv QzUvQzwU K‡i| GB GK Zvgvkv| ey‡ov‡`i Kvey K‡i †ekx| GLv‡b AvenvIqvi
cÖPÕYWÕZv bvB | MÖxlgÕ-el©v gvZvgvwZ K‡i GLb K¬vbZÕ| RbgvlUÕgx‡Z kxZ wkkyi RbgÕ|
w`‡b w`‡b e‡ov n‡q †cŠ‡l †hŠeb cÖ`vc©b Ki‡e| evsjv‡`k wKbZz GLb kxZ eyox bvB|
Av‡Mi g‡Zv kl¨nxb gvV me©nviv e„`avi wQbbÕ Kuv_v weQv‡bv bq| †Kej iwe kl¨ bq, mv‡_
avbI mgvb Zv‡j kx‡Zi gv‡V mey‡Ri eb¨v env‡q †`q| G GK wewPÎ cwieZ©b evsjvi
gv‡V|
ej‡Qv, -‡Zvgiv bvwK Gevi †`‡k Avmvi †Póvq Av‡Qv kxZ †gŠmy‡g| †eu‡P _vK‡j †`Lv
n‡e| `ywbqvq wKbZz me gvbyl GKB eq‡m g‡i bv| wmivRv f~uBqvi K_v †Zvgvq Av‡M e‡jwQ
wK bv Rvwb bv| GLb†Zv †Zgb g‡b _v‡K bv| ZvB †KvbÕ †KvbÕ mgq ejv-K_v Avevi ewj|
wmivR f~Tv †Zvgvi Aveevi mgcvVx, myn„` Ges mg eqmx| wek¦‡iv‡W gv‡S gv‡S †`Lv n‡j
†Zvgv‡`i mevi Leiv-Lei Rvb‡Z Pvq| eqm †eva nq Avgvi †P‡q 4/5 eQi e‡ov n‡e|
jvwV QvwZ wb‡q GL‡bv Lyi Lyi K‡i nuv‡U| Avi †Zvgvi evev AvR K‡Zv eQi cicv‡i|
Z‡e `xN©vqy nIqvUv me mgq my‡Li nq bv| ‡eu‡P _vKvi AvbÕb`Õ dzwi‡q †M‡j g„Zz¨B †mLv‡b
Kvg¨| cicv‡i wK Av‡Q †KD Rv‡b bv| ZeyI gvbyl ciRxe‡b GKUv AvbÕb`Õgq my‡Li
Rxeb Kvgbv K‡i gb‡K cÖ‡eva ‡`q| Ab¨_vq BnRxe‡bi AvbÕb‡`i ÿYMy‡jv †e`bv gwjb
n‡q ‡h‡Zv| emÕb‡Zi Avkvq cvZv Siv MvQMy‡jv myL-¯^c‡Y we‡fvi _v‡K| Ave`yjjvn
f~Tvi we‡`nx AvZg&v wK KL‡bv my`~i myB‡W‡b KvD‡K Luy‡R ‡eovq ? †KD wK Zuvi †mœnÕ¯ck© Abyfe K‡i ? Zvui KbYVÕ¯^i wK C_v‡i †f‡m †eovq bv ? Avgvi Kv‡b †Zv Av‡Rv
ev‡R! Agwb nq‡Zv A‡b‡Ki Kv‡bB ev‡R | GB KYVÕ¯^i a‡i a‡i nq‡Zv GKw`b Zuv‡K
†c‡q hv‡ev| ej‡ev, -Ò‡Kgb Av‡Qb?Ó Ggwb K‡i †c‡q hv‡ev Av‡iv A‡bK†K| †m Kx GK
gnv wgjb| ZvB A‡bK mgq g‡b nq, -K‡Zv mnR mij gnvcÖqv‡Yi c_ !
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wKQzw`b n‡jv eyey XvKvq G‡m‡Qb| †dv‡b GKw`b K_v n‡qwQ‡jv| hvB hvB K‡i †`Lv Ki‡Z
GL‡bv hvIqv nqwb| Avgvi †KvbÕ KvR bvB, A_PÕ mgqI bvB| GB GK wewPÎ Rxeb| wPwV
wjL‡ev wjL‡ev K‡i wjLv n‡q D‡V bv| G GK gnv ¯’weiZv, -A_©nxb g~j¨nxb GK Rxeb|
B`vwbs nzgvqzb Avng‡`i †jLv avivevwnK bvUK Ò‡Kv_vI †KD †bBÓ Zzgyj Av‡jvob m„wó
K‡i†Q| bvUKwU mgvcwZi c‡iI †ik _v‡gwb| bvUKwUi cÖavb bvqK bvwqKvi f~wgKvq
Awfbq K‡i‡Qb Òev‡Ki fvBÓ bv‡g Avmv`yRRvgvb b~i Ges †gvbv bv‡g mzeY©v| G
e¨wZKªgag©x bvUKwU wb‡q Le‡ii KvMRMy‡jv †g‡Z D‡V‡Q| wj‡L‡Q A‡bK mgúv`Kxq I
Dc-mgúv`Kxq gbZÕe¨| bvUK wb‡q Ggb bvUKxq weÁvcb Gi Av‡M evsjv‡`‡k N‡U‡Q wK
bv Avgvi g‡b c‡o bv| nq‡Zv GB GKgvÎ bvU‡Ki e‡`Šj‡Z nzgvqb Avng‡g`, b~i, I
mye©Yv bvU‡Ki RM‡Z enzw`b ¯giYxq n‡q _vK‡e| ‡mKmcxqvi-Gi K_vq G wek¦UvB GKUv
bvU¨kvjv| GLv‡b mevB Awfbq K‡i| wKbZz Zvi K_v g‡Zv mevB ÒThen is heard no
moreÓ nq bv| †hgb nqwb Shakespeare wb‡R|
†Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K ‡mœnÕ-cÖxwZ Rvwb‡q GLv‡b †kl KiwQ| me †k‡l wcKz I ey`aÕi cÖwZ
iB‡jv A‡kl †mœnvkxl| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv -93KLNMOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCIV
b2
(5)
XvKv, 23-10-93
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv mevB my¯’‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ‡Z,
wbivc‡` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
†Zvgv‡`i Kv‡Q wPwVUv Av‡iv Av‡MB †cvó Ki‡ev ‡f‡ewQjvg| wKbZz wjL‡Z e‡m fvejvg
bwbi Kv‡Q wPwVUvB Av‡M wjLv DwPZ| KviY wmsMvcy‡i G‡m wPwV bv ‡c‡j gb Lvivc K‡i|
mvaviYZt cÖwZ gv‡mi †kl w`‡K wmsMvcy‡i Av‡m| AvR‡K Zvi Kv‡Q wPwV †cvó Kijvg|
Zey ‡`ix n‡q †M‡jv| cv‡e wK bv Rvwb bv| nvj Rvgvbvq wPwVi gvidZ †hvMv‡hvM e¨e¯’vi
AebwZ N‡U‡Q| `vg evo‡jI gvb K‡g‡Q, -G ‡`‡ki Z…Zxq †kÖYxi †ijhvÎxi g‡Zv|
Av‡Mi w`‡bi gvbyl cÖ‡qvR‡b wPwV wjL‡Zv, we‡kl cÖ‡qvR‡b †UwjMÖvg Ki‡Zv| cieZ©x‡Z
wKQz wKQz wPwVi K‡jei evo‡Z kyiy K‡i, -‡cvóKv‡W© msKzjb nq bv e‡j Lv‡gi cÖPjb nq, hv‡Z gb Lz‡j A‡bK wKQz wjLv hvq, Ges †MvcbxqZv iÿv nq|
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GLb gvbyl e‡ov GKUv †cvóKviW e¨envi K‡i bv| f`ª mgv‡R †cvóKviW APj| GLb
Aek¨ wPwVcÎ msev` Av`vb cÖ`v‡bi gva¨g wnmv‡eI Lye Kg e¨en…Z nq| `ywbqv ‡Rvov
†Uwj‡dv‡bi Rvj Qwo‡q ‡`Iqv n‡q‡Q, -Zwor ms‡ÿ‡c msev` Av`vb I cÖ`vb n‡q hvq|
cqmv †ekx jvM‡jI mgq I cwikÖg evu‡P|
hvK, eZ©gv‡b †`‡ki AveInvqv ‡gvUvgywU Avivg`vqK| e„wó GL‡bv †kl nqwb| Z‡e Mi‡gi
†`ŠiZg&¨ K‡g‡Q| AwZwiKZÕ e„wócv‡Zi Kvi‡Y kvK-meRx A‡bK `ylúÖvc¨| Ges hv wKQz
cvIqv hvq, - `vg AwZ Pov| GLb gv‡Qi Avg`vbx wKQzUv †e‡o‡Q, hw`I `vg K‡gwb| †gvUv
Pv‡ji `vg bv evo‡jI wgwn Pv‡ji `vg evov| eZ©gv‡b miKvi bvwK ‡cvjvI‡qi Pvj we‡`‡k
icZvwb Ki‡Q| Aek¨ G‡Z Mix‡ei wKQz Av‡m hvq bv| wek¦‡iv‡W †eov‡Z †ei n‡j ‡`wL
kZÕ kZÕ wQbbÕg~j gvbyl, - bvix wkky Mv`vMv`x n‡q †Lvjv AvKv‡ki bx‡P †iv`-e„wói gv‡S
evm K‡i| Zv‡`i †Kvb mgm¨v bvB| AbbÕ-e¯¿ AvkÖ‡qi hv‡`i †KvbÕ wbkPÕqZv bvB,
Zv‡`i‡Zv †KvbÕ mgm¨vB bvB| mgm¨vUv GKgvÎ mÖóvi !
mgm¨v Qvov gvbyl evuP‡Z cv‡i bv| †h me †jv‡Ki mgm¨v bvB, euvPvi ZvwM‡` Zviv mgm¨v
ˆZix K‡i †bq| GB †hgb Av‡gwiKvi †cÖwm‡WbU wK¬YUÕb K‡i‡Qb| KvR wb‡q †g‡Z _vKv
†Kej gvby‡li bq, me Rx‡eiB m¦fve Rxeb-ag©| gb`Õ fv‡jv hvB †nvK, KvR GKUv Zvi
PvB| `ywbqv`vix †nvK ev Av‡Liv‡Zi Rb¨ †nvK, gvbyl Anin KvR K‡i hvP‡Q| jvf
†jvKmv‡bi cÖkYÕUv ‡MŠYÕ| Rxe‡bi GB Kg©¯ú„nvi BwZ Uvb‡Z cv‡i GKgvÎ g„Zz¨ | GKRb
nq‡Zv ej‡e, -†jvKUv AK©gv, †Kej Nywg‡q KvUvq| wKbZz NygI ‡h GKUv e‡ov KvR, hviv
Ny‡gi ewo Lvq Zviv eyS‡Z cv‡i|
hvK GLb ‡Zvgvq wKQz e¨KwZMÕZÕ Lei RvbvB| †mw`b ‡gvnvggÕ`cyi †MwQjvg eyey‡K
†`L‡Z| Gi K‡qK w`b Av‡M wZwb †c‡Ui cxovq Amy¯’¨ wQ‡jb| †`Ljvg Dbvi kixiUv †ek
†fs‡M †M‡Q| †Zvgv†`i K_v wRM†Mm Ki†jb, -†Zvgiv †Kgb Av‡Qv, †Zvgiv †`‡k Avm‡e
wKbv| g‡b n‡jv †h wKQzUv wb®ú„n fve| mZ¨K_v ej‡Z wK, -†Zvgiv †h `„wó‡Kvb wb‡q
RxebUv†K fv‡ev, Avgiv GB eq‡m Gi D‡©a| Avgv‡`i Rb¨ †Zvgv‡`i †KvbÕ Amyweav †nvK,
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-Zv Avgv‡`i Kvg¨ bq| GK Rxe‡b mvgvb¨ mgq AwZ g~j¨evb, Avevi we¯Íi mgqI †KvbÕ
g~j¨ enb K‡i bv| mygxi evev bvB, wKbZz Zvi GKUv K_v Av‡Rv g‡b c‡o| kvgx I bwb
hLb jYWÕb †_‡K Awóªwjqvq †M‡jv, ZLb mygxi evev e‡jwQ‡jb, -ÒIiv hvevi c‡_
GKw`‡bi Rb¨ n‡jI ey‡ov gv-evev‡K †`‡L †h‡Z cvi‡Zv ! Iiv c‡i †`‡k G‡jv | wKbZz
mygxi mv‡_ Zvi ev‡ci †`Lv n‡jv bv|
24-10-1993: GLb ‡Zvgvi ARxgcyivi Lvjvi Ae¯’v ‡ekx fv‡jv bv| gv‡b kh¨vkvqx bv
n‡jI Wv‡qvwewUm-Gi Pig Ae¯’v | Z‡`vcix Av‡Q M¨vmwUÖK| `y-GK w`‡bi g‡a¨ †`L‡Z
‡h‡Z cvwi|
G UzKz wjLvi ci Kjg †Q‡o ‡i‡eKv‡K †`L‡Z †Mjvg 11Uvi mgq| wdijvg 1Uvi mgq|
G‡Zv e‡ov kixiUv Kvey Ki‡Z g„Zz¨`~‡Zi A‡bK mnKvix, A_©vr DcmM© wbhyKZÕ Ki‡Z
n‡q‡Q| Rxeb†Zv g„Zz¨i Kv‡Q mn‡R nvi gv‡b bv| †ngj‡Ki wel Kvh©Kvix Ki‡Z
m‡KªwUm‡K wKQzÿY nuvUvnuvwU Ki‡Z n‡q‡Q| m‡KªwUm g‡iwQ‡jv mÁv‡b| g„Zz¨i c~‡e© Zvi
†kl K_v wQ‡jv, -ÒAvgvi GK cokx Avgvi Kv‡Q GKwU gyiMx cvIbv Av‡Q, -G cvIbv
†Zvgiv †kva K‡i w`I!Ó| Avgvi Kv‡Q †Zv K‡Zv R‡bi K‡Zv cvIbv | G cvIbv †kva
Ki‡e †K ?
†Zvgv‡`i mevB‡K cÖvYXvjv †mœnÕ-cÖxwZ I ky‡fPQv w`‡q AvR GLv‡b ivwL|
‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv -94KLNMOP
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCV
(5)
XvKv, 1-12-1993
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK ! †Zvgiv mevB my¯’‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !|
`yB wZb w`b Av‡M †Zvgvi G‡ivMÖvg †cjvg| Zvi Av‡M eve‡bi wPwV ‡c‡qwQjvg| †Zvgv‡`i
A‡bK K_v Rvbjvg| †Zvgv‡`i †`‡k Avkv n‡jv bv G kx‡Z| A‡b‡K Avkv K‡iwQ‡jv
‡Zvgiv Avm‡e, -A‡bK eQi ci Avm‡e| Avm‡Z cvi‡j bv e‡j †KD †KD Kó cv‡e|
†Zvgiv †h Kó cv‡e bv Ggb bq| AvMvgx Ry‡b Avm‡e e‡j gb‡K mvbZÕbv w`‡e| AvgivI
w`‡ev| GUvB `ywbqvi ag©|
AvR wW‡mgeÕ‡ii 1 ZvwiL | wW‡mgeÕ‡ii Gi~c 1 ZvwiL Gi Av‡M A‡bK †M‡Q, - c‡iI
A‡bK Avm‡e| wKbZz mg‡qi Zvi bvg wVK _vK‡jI Zvi cwiKªgvi cÖwZwKªqv RxeRM‡Z GK
_v‡K bv| bv Aeq‡e, -bv gb-gvbwmKZvq| 93-Gi wW‡mgeÕ‡ii GK eQ‡ii wkkywU 94-Gi
wW‡mgeÕ‡i Luy‡R cv‡e bv| †m wPiÕZ‡i nvwi‡q †M‡Q ! Ggwb K‡i mgq Rxeb †_‡K GKwU
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GKwU K‡i w`b †K‡o †bq Avi GKwU w`b w`‡q| AvR‡Ki k~Y¨¯’vb c~iY K‡i AvMvgxKvj|
GK mgq k~b¨¯’vb c~iY Ki‡Z AvMvgx Kvj Avm‡e bv, -‡m k~Y¨¯’vb `Lj K‡i wb‡e g„Zz¨|
w`‡bi bvg, gv‡mi bvg, Ges FZzi bvg wd‡i wd‡i Av‡m| GLb wW‡mgeÕi gvm| GB
wW‡mgeÕ‡i Avgvi RbgÕ| wKbZz Avgvi Rxe‡bi AvkxwU wW‡mgeÕi †Kv_vq nvwi‡q ‡M‡jv Zv
†KD Rvb‡e bv, wPb‡e bv| KviY GB wW‡mgeÕiMy‡jvi Kv‡iv mv‡_ Kv‡iv wgj bvB|
wcKz nq‡Zv A‡bK e‡ov n‡q ‡M‡Q| e‡ov n‡q ‡M‡Q ‡`vwb, i~cv, - GLb†Zv wPb‡ZB cvi‡e
bv| Avgiv ey‡ov‡`i nq‡Zv wPb‡Z †Zgb Kó n‡e bv| mZZÕi Gi Dc‡i wM‡q †KvbÕ †KvbÕ
gvbyl wKQzKvj Vuvq `vuwo‡q _v‡K| axi cwieZ©bUv jÿYxq n‡q D‡V bv| ZvB eq‡mi
AbygvbUv me mgq mwVK nq bv| A‡b‡K Avgvi eqÕmUv A‡bK D‡a© Abygvb K‡i| g‡b K‡i
k‡Zi KvQvKvwQ| Avwg nvwm | nq‡Zv ev G‡`i Abygv‡bi eqmUv †c‡qI †h‡Z cvwi| wKbZz
†mUv wK my‡Li n‡e ?
eve‡bi eqmx Avgvi fvM‡b mwdK †mw`b Avgv‡`i evmvq G‡mwQ‡jv| `vwo †i‡L‡Q, -mv`v
a‡ea‡e me `vwo| nVvr eyKUv †Qr K‡i DV‡jv| we‡qi Avm‡b emv wgwb‡K ‡`‡L
KveyjxIqvjv ing‡Zi g‡Zv| Avgv‡`i es‡ki gvby‡liv eq‡m mPivPi Ab¨vb¨‡`i g‡Zv
wbqg †g‡b P‡j bv| AjcÕ eq‡m gyiyewei m¤§vwbZ AvmbwU `Lj K‡i †bq| ZvB cvKv `vwo
Pzj wb‡q A‡bK eQi †eu‡P _v‡K| Avgvi evevi Pjwjk eQi eq‡m `vwo cvK‡Z kyiy
K‡iwQ‡jv| hw`I wZwb †KvbÕw`b `vwo Pv‡Pbwb, wKbZz †eu‡PwQ‡jb 85 eQi| wLwRi (Avt)
Gi g‡Zv, -mv`v aea‡e Pzj-`vwo| wKbZz ev‡ci †Pv‡L mbZv‡bi cvKv `vwo-Pzj
†e`bv`vqK| †KvbÕ gv-evcB mbZvvb†K ey‡ov †`L‡Z Pvq bv| Avgvi `vwo-Pzj cvKv †`‡L
gv kswKZ wQ‡jb, cv‡Q Avwg Av‡M g‡i hvB| gv ej‡Zb, - ÒZzwg wK Avgvq gvwU w`‡e bv !
†Zvgvi nv‡Zi gvwU Avwg me mgq †h Avjjvni Kv‡Q †`vqv Kwi|Ó AvR wUwf‡Z †`Ljvg
iscyi †Rjvq 153 eQi eq‡mi GK e„`aÕ‡K| A‡b¨i Kuv‡a fi w`‡q GL‡bv wKQz wKQz nuvU‡Z
cv‡i| gy‡Li K_v A¯úó| Zvi e‡ov †Q‡j 95 eQi eq‡m gviv †M‡Q|
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9-12-1993: GL‡bv kxZ RuvwK‡q e‡mwb, -hw`I AvR AMÖv‡bi 25 ZvwiL| kybjvg
MÖvg‡`‡k bvwK †ek kxZ| †QvUÕ GB evsjv‡`kwU‡ZI ZvcgvÎv GKB nv‡i _v‡K bv|
Al‡Uªwjqvq bvwK GKB mg‡q wecixZ FZz weivRgvb| eZ©gv‡b Avgv‡`i embZÕ KLb Av‡m
KLb hvq Zv Vvni Ki‡Z cvwi bv| eZ©gv‡b Avgv‡`i †`‡k hv‡K kxZKvj ewj, †Zvgv‡`i
myB‡W‡b †eva nq MÖxlgÕ FZzi Z~j¨, -hw`I emÕb‡Zi Rb¨ gvm eiv``Õ Kiv Av‡Q| Avm‡j
G‡`‡ki Qq FZyi †KvbÕUviB †Zgb `vcU bvB| hw`I †KvbÕ †KvbÕ mgq el©vjM‡Y eb¨vi
`vcU †`Lv hvq| mv_xnviv IjU Kgj MvQUvq GeviI cÖPzi dzj dy‡U‡Q, wKbZz ZvovZvwo
S‡i co‡Q kxZ †Zgb ZxeÖ bv n‡jI |
eveb †mw`b †dvb K‡iwQ‡jv| †Zvgviv bvwK wW‡mgeÕ‡ii 15 Zvwi‡Li g‡a¨ Avm‡e| Avwg
Aek¨ GL‡bv wek¦vm Ki‡Z cvwiwb| Z‡e wPwVUv 15 Zvwi‡Li Av‡M †cvó Ki‡ev bv| ‡Zvgvi
gv GL‡bv XvKvq Av‡Qb| Ibvi ¯^v¯’¨ A‡bKUv †fs‡M †M‡Q| gv‡S gv‡S Amy¯’¨ n‡q c‡ob|
XvKvq †gvUvgywU mevB fv‡jv Av‡Q| Zgv MZKvj jvjgvwUqv †_‡K wjwji evmvq †M‡Q|
eveb, wcKz, ey`aÕ I †Zvgvi Rb¨ iB‡jv Avgvi eyK fiv ggZv, -Avi Avjjvni `iev‡i
†Zvgv‡`i Dci Zvi ing‡Zi Rb¨ AvKzj cÖv_©bv| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 95KLNMOP
250
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCVI
XvKv, 26-3-1994
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Zzwg Avgvi †`vqv I †mœnÕ wbI| AvR †Zvgvq wjLjvg bv| KjgUv †ek †eqviv| nv‡ZI †Rvi
cvB bv| †`vqv K‡iv †h‡bv wjL‡Z cvwi| wcKz I ey`aÕ‡K A‡bK A‡bK ggZv w`I !
†Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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gnv‡dR cvZv- 96KLMNOP
252
anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCVII
(5)
XvKv, 2-6-1994
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
Avjjvn †Zvgv‡`i Zvi A‡kl ingZ `vb Kiyb| Avwg†Zv gv GLb Avi Av‡Mi g‡Zv wjL‡Z
cvwi bv| nv‡Zi AvsMyj †h‡bv kKwZnxb | Zey Avjjvni †bqvgZ‡K A¯^xKvi Ki‡Z cvwi
bv| A‡bK †ejv n‡q †M‡Q| msMxiv me G‡K G‡K P‡j †M‡Q| G cv‡i‡Z Avwg †h‡bv
G‡Kjv| Ò‡Kg‡b Kv‡U †gvi mvivwU †ejvÓ|
ggxi we‡qi Drme G gv‡mi 10 ZvwiL| †Zvgiv nq‡Zv Lei †c‡q‡Qv| Kb¨v we`vq 14
ZvwiL| my`~i AvwgwiKvq Giv cvwo w`‡e| we`vq †Kej wcZ…M„n †_‡K bq, gvZ…f~wg †_‡KI|
†Zvgiv †Zv A‡bK w`b Av‡MB cvwo w`‡q‡Qv| `xN© Abycw¯’wZi d‡j †hgb ev‡ci evwoi K_v
gvbyl fz‡j hvq, - ev‡ci ‡`‡ki K_v fzj‡Z e‡m| we‡kl K‡i †hvMv‡hv‡Mi Aemvb N‡U|
Bs‡iRx‡Z GKwU K_v Av‡Q bv, - Out of sight out of mind | hvK, G weevn Drm‡e
‡Zv †Zvgiv Avm‡e bv| nq‡Zv evYx cvVv‡e| g‡bi AvKvsLvi PvB‡Z UvKvi cÖkYÕUv e‡ov|
cwZi c~‡Y¨ mZxi c~Y¨, bB‡j LiP ev‡o| GB Li‡Pi †ejvq G †`‡ki gvbyl UvKvi mbav‡b
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we‡`‡k eb-ev`v‡i n‡Y¨ n‡q Ny‡i ‡eovq| ÒG `ywbqv †MvjÕK avbav fvB, -UvKvq evbav GB
msmviÓ|
K'w`b hver ‡eRvq Mig | ‰Rl&‡Vi Avg KuvVvj cvKv‡bvi Mig| Z‡e Gevi †`‡k †`kx Avg,
-Ggb wK ivRkvnxi AvgI bvB| wKbZz ZvB e‡j Av‡gi Afve bvB| ckwPg evsjvi Kj¨v‡Y
c~ieÕ evsjvi evRvi Av‡g fwZ©| `vgI †Zgb †ekx bq| ey`aÕ fvB G‡jv bv e‡j GBevi
†`‡k Avg dj‡jv bv| AvMvgx ‰Rl‡V dj‡Z cv‡i, -ey`aÕi Avmvi Avkvq| †m‡Zv K_v
w`‡q‡Q| Z‡e Avwg Zvi mv_x _vK‡ev wK bv †K Rv‡b ?
†Zvgvi †gRÕ I †mRÕ, -`yB LvjvB eoÕ iK‡gi Amy¯¨’ | ggxi we‡qi Drm‡e †hvM w`‡Z
cvi‡e bv| G `zÕR‡bi wcQ‡b `mZzigZ `yÕwU ga¨eZ©x †kªYxi we‡qi Drm‡ei UvKv LiPv n‡q
‡M‡Q| †Zvgvi Lvjv‡`i `vg †e‡o †M‡Q| g„Zz¨‡ZI GKUv mvbZÕbv _v‡K,- hLb †m webv
hZ‡b, webv wPwKrmvq †e‡Nv‡i g‡i bv| †Zvgv‡`i nq‡Zv †ekx w`b Avi wPwV wjL‡Z cvi‡ev
bv| Rxe‡b †Zv Kg wPwV wjLjvg bv, -Zey †h‡bv g‡b nq, -AviI K‡Zv K_v wjLvi wQ‡jv|
g‡bi K_vi mv‡_ GKUv †Uc †iKiWvi jvMv‡bv †M‡j gvby‡li Rxe‡bi K‡Zv e¯Ívq e¯Ívq
wPwV wjLv n‡q †h‡Zv !
Gevi ivwL gv| AvMvgx w`‡bi fimv KB| Zey Avkvi †kl bvB| ZvB Avkv Kwi AveviI
wjL‡ev| wcKz I ey`aÕ‡K wR‡Ám K‡iv, - Avgvi K_v g‡b Av‡Q wK ? gvbyl †Zv g‡i bv
h‡Zv w`b Rxwe‡Zi ¯g„wZ‡Z _v‡K|
†Zvgiv mevB Avgvi †mœnÕ-ggZv I †`vqv wb‡qv ! †Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCVIII
(5)
XvKv, 17-8-1995
gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ewl©Z †nvK! †Zvgiv mevB my¯’‡`‡n, - myL-kvbwZ,
wbivc`, I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bKw`b ci ‡Zvgv‡K wjLwQ| wjL‡Z PvB‡jI nvZ P‡j bv| Amy¯’¨ nIqvi Av‡M wKQzw`b
ÒwPwoqvLvbvqÓ wKQz wjLwQjvg| nVvr K‡i †_‡g †Mj nvZ | G eq‡m wKQz Ki‡Z wM‡q mdj
nIqv hvq bv| KviY eva©K¨ gvbyl‡K Ggb GKwU ch©v‡q wb‡q ‡hLv‡b mvgvb¨ AmyL-wemyL
Zv†K kvixwiK I gvbwmKfv‡e Kvey K‡i †d‡j|
Gevi ‡`‡k e„wó bvB, el©v bvB, -eb¨v bvB| Z‡e gv‡S gv‡S †h e„wó nq bv Ggb bq| Z‡e
†m e„wó‡Z Avlvp kÖve‡Yi A‡Svi aviv †bB| †h†nZz el©v †bB, ZvB gvQI †bB| gvQ fv‡Z
hviv Af¨¯Í Zv‡`i Rb¨ `yw`©b| †`‡k GLb gv‡Qi AvKvj| GB Bwj‡ki ‡gŠmy‡gI GKwU
e‡ov Bwj‡ki `vg kZÕ UvKvi Dci| Gevi †`‡k Avg d‡j bvB| wKbZz ZvB e‡j Av‡gi
Afve wQj bv| BYwWqvi Av‡g GL‡bvI evRvi mqjve| Avgvi Amy‡Li DwQjvq we¯Íi Wve I
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Avg Avgvi N‡i bvRivbv c‡o‡Q| Avgvi PvB‡Z Zgvi jvfUv n‡q‡Q †ekx | Avgvi Amy‡Li
DwQjvq Gevi Avgvi N‡i me AvZg&xq-¯^R‡bi kyfvMgb n‡q‡Q| Kv‡Qi AvZg&xq †KD ev`
hvqwb|
eyey GLb kvKZjv| Avwg wKQzw`b Av‡M evox †MwQjvg| †divi c‡_ †`exØvi G‡m kybjvg
Dwb evox Av‡Qb| GLb †Zv †`‡k we`y¨r Av‡Q, cvLv Av‡Q| ZvB Mi‡g we†kl Amyweav nq
bv| Z‡e †`‡k gvQ bvB, -Avi gvQ bv n‡j †Zv evsMvjxi Avc‡Qv‡Qi †kl bvB| kZÕ iKg
†L‡qI Z…cwZ bvB| ‡Zvgvi wPwV cÖvq cvB| wcKyi wPwVI †c‡qwQjvg| Avwg wKbZz nv‡Z
wjL‡Z bv cvi‡jI g‡b g‡b †Zvgv‡`i mevi wPwViB DZZÕi wj‡L ivwL| ey`aÕ K‡e wjL‡Z
cvi‡e †K Rv‡b !
Zmwjgv bvmwib‡K wb‡q ckwPgviv gvZvgvwZ kyiy K‡i‡Q| †m GLb †Zvgv‡`i myB‡W‡b
cvwj‡q wM‡q †eu‡P‡Q| ckwPgviv KzKzi‡K Lye fvjev‡m| †m †`‡kB Zv‡K gvbvq fv‡jv|
gymjgvbiv KzKiz we‡Ølx bq| Z‡e KzKiz bvcvK !
18-8-1995: gv, ‡Kg‡b K‡i G‡K G‡K cvi n‡q †M‡jv Rxe‡bi 80wU eQi ! P‡j hvIqvi
mv_x‡`i K_v hLb fvwe, ZLb g‡b nq K‡Zv w`b †eu‡P AvwQ| Avwg cv‡o `uvwo‡q Zv‡`i
P‡j hvIqv †`LwQ| Avevi hLb †QvUÕ †ejvi mv_x‡`i, -hviv †QvUÕ mg‡qB A‡`Lv n‡q
‡M‡Q, -K_v g‡b cv‡o, -ZLb g‡b nq G †h‡bv †mw`‡bi K_v| GKevi ILv‡b †M‡jB eywS
†`Lv n‡q hvq| wKbZz †mLv‡b †Zv ev¯Í‡e wKQzB bvB| GLb GK `yB K‡i w`bMywb, -fvwe
KLb †K Rv‡b nv‡Zi GB KjgwU L‡m co‡e| wPwV wjLv †_‡g hv‡e| †Zvgiv Avi wPwVi
A‡cÿvq _vK‡e bv|
†Zvgvi mevB‡K Avgvi cÖvYfiv ggZv Rvwb‡q Ges Avjjvni `iev‡i †Zvgv‡`i gsMj
Kvgbv K‡i AvR GLv‡b ivwL| ‡Zvgvi ey‡ov †Q‡j
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – XCIX
(5)
wmsMvcyi, 23-10-94
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxbz,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK| †Zvgiv mevB my¯’¨‡`‡n, myL-kvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
A‡bKw`b †_‡K †Zvgvq wjL‡ev wjL‡ev K‡i wjLv n‡q D‡Vwb| mvivw`b ky‡q ky‡q KvUvB|
NygvB, -Nyg ‡h‡bv Avi dzivq bv| KL‡bv KL‡bv g‡b nq G Nyg †_‡K †eva nq Avi RvM‡ev
bv| G‡Z Aek¨ `ytL nq bv| Mv‡Qi †h cvZvq njy` iO a‡i‡Q, -Si‡Z Zvi cÖej evZv‡mi
cÖ‡qvRb nq bv| mvgvb¨ evZvm bvov w`‡j S‡i c‡o| †Zvgv‡`i myB‡W‡b bvwK gv‡S g‡a¨
`yÕGKRb ey‡ov eyox GKvKx wbR©b N‡i g‡i c‡o _v‡K| A‡bKw`b c‡i ‡LuvR nq| G‡`i
nq‡Zv ev mbZvb _v‡K bv| _vK‡jI ey‡ov evev gv‡qi Lei iv‡L bv| Avgvi g‡b nq GUv
¯^vfvweK| Avw` hy‡M †eva nq GgbwU wQ‡jv| Avgv‡`i Kv‡Q nq‡Zv kyb‡Z Lvivc jvM‡e|
wKbZz GKUv wRwbm hLb cÖ_g Pvjy nq, -ZLb ‡mUv‡K Lvc LvIqv‡q wb‡Z mgq jv‡M| c‡i
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m‡q m‡q Af¨¯Í n‡q hvq| †hgb Avgvi †ejvqB ewj| eveb me mgq Avgvi Lye KvQvKvwQ
_vK‡Zv| ¯‹zj Rxeb †kl nIqvi ci †m `~‡i mi‡Z kyiy K‡i| Zv‡K Kv‡Q ivL‡Z PvB‡j Kx
n‡e,- †m ‡Zv PvB‡Zv bv| Ae‡k‡l †R‡j ‡M‡jv,- cy‡iv †`owU eQi GKw`‡bi Rb¨ Zv‡K
†`L‡Z cvBwb| G mgq eyS‡Z cvijvg Zv‡K K‡ZvUzKz ‡mœnÕ Kwi|
AvNv‡Zi Zxeª R¡vjv wPiKvj _v‡K bv| †m †Rj ‡_‡K G‡jv, -Avgv‡K Lykx Kivi Rb¨ Ki‡jv
A‡bK Kó-mvabv| mdj n‡jv| wKbZz Avgvi g‡b n‡jv †m †h‡bv Avgvi Ges AvZg&xq¯^RÕb †_‡K w`‡b w`‡b `~‡i m‡i hvP‡Q| GB GK†ivLv †R`x mbZvbwU †mœnÕ-ggZvi ebaÕb
w`‡q Kv‡Q a‡i ivLvi Rb¨ †Zvgv‡K Kj¨vYxqv gv K‡i N‡i Avb‡Z †P‡qwQjvg| †kl ch©bZÕ
mdjI n‡qwQjvg| G e¨vcv‡i Zzwg Avgv‡K †h mvgvwRK gh©v`v w`‡q‡Qv,-†m F‡Yi K_v
Avwg ‡KvbÕw`b fyj‡ev bv| wKbZz †Zvgv‡K †Kb`ª K‡i GKw`b Avgvi AvnZ AvZg&vi bxie
Kvbbv Avgvi AbZÕiUv†K gw_ZÕ-`wjZÕ K‡iwQ‡jv, -Zvi †ik GL‡bv wgjv‡q hvqwb| ZvB
wb‡Ri AÁv‡Z wKQz AvZ©bv‡`i evlcÕ ‡ewi‡q Av‡m|
AvR K‡Zv eQi a‡i †Zvgiv †Pv‡Li Avov‡j| e„`aÕ eq‡m gvZvwcZv mbZv‡bi KvQ †_‡K
mvaviYZt hv Avkv K‡i, ‡Zvgv‡`i KvQ †_‡K Avgiv Zv Avkv Kwi bv| KviY Zv †Zvgiv
w`‡Z cvi‡e bv| AbZÕZt c‡ÿ Gw`K †_‡K we‡ePbv K‡i n‡jI, -G e„`aÕ eq‡m Avgv‡`i
†QvUÕLv‡Uv fzj ÎywUMy‡jv ÿgvmyb`Õi †Pv‡L †g‡b wb‡Z cv‡iv ! bB‡j Zzwg gv n‡e †Kgb
K‡i!
AvR GLv‡b ivwL| Avi KL‡bv wjL‡Z bv cvi‡j `ytL K‡iv bv !
†Zvgiv mevB †`vqv wb‡qv, - my‡L _v‡Kv !
BwZ, ‡ZvgviB ey‡ov †Q‡j|
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anhöriga i utlandet
brev – C
(5)
wmsMvcyi, 21-1-1995
Kj¨vYxqv gv gxby,
‡Zvgv‡`i mevi Dci Avjjvni A‡kl ingZ ‡nvK| †Zvgiv mevB my¯’‡`‡n, myLkvbwZ I
wbivc` I AvbÕb‡` _v‡Kv !
eve‡bi 8 Zvwi‡Li wPwV 20 Zvwi‡L †cjvg| DbbÕZÕ we‡k¦ wPwVcÎ AvRKvj †cø‡b hvq|
wKbZz MbZÕe¨ ¯’‡j ‡cuŠQz‡Z G‡Zv mgq jv‡M †KbÕ eywS bv| †Uwj‡dvb msev‡`i evnb
nIqv‡Z wPwVc‡Îi gvb K‡g †M‡Q| G‡Z LiP †ekx n‡jI mgq evu‡P, wKbZz gb f‡i bv|
Li‡Pi AsKUv weeªZ K‡i iv‡L| Z‡e hv‡`i KvR-Kg© bvB, -Avi msev` cÖ`v‡bi KvRUv
†Zgb Riyix bq, -Zviv gb f‡i K_v cv‡i, -hw`I ZvrÿwbK DZZÕi cvIqv hvq bv, - Ges
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Elsinore
I ett tornrum av sten, bakom galler av järn
och en tillsluten port av solidaste trä
med en smärta som gror som en svulst i hans bröst
står han och sneglar mot Sveriges kust
i dyster bergrundan av sin ömkliga lott
att försmäkta på Elsinore slott
En gång var han lycklig och fri och dansant
en damernas gunstling så skönt och galant
en prins utan högmod, en välkommen vän
såväl i palats som de enklaste hem
den siste man trott skulle få tyna bort
i tornet på Elsinore slott
Han red ut i världen i ungdomens dar
och såg med bestörtning hur orätt det var
av folket gick under sjukdom och svält
för att härskarnas girighet saknade gräns
Men den insikten borde han nog inte fått
för den förde till Elsinore slott
Han sålde sin boskap, sin mark och sitt slott
och allt det han tjänade skänkte han bort
men den som får gåvor vill ofta ha mer
och när hjälpen tar slut blir den nödställde vred
så han skördade ont av det goda han sått
därför bor han på Elsinore slott
En prins utan pengar bemöts av förakt
av alla de andra som tillhör hans klass
an ädling som vågar ta folkets parti
blir hälsad med kyla och ögon av is
för där ondskan får råda är godhet ett brott
så han sändes till Elsinore slott
Så nu lever han i livslång exil
förskjuten av fattig, föraktad av rik
vågorna glittrar i rött och i guld
när skymningen sänker sig vid Öresund
han sneglar mot Sverige, han ser inget hopp
Ingen friges från Elsinore slott
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