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2 3 Feature
ABOUT
Picture Credits
Top Clockwise
Who do you love?
Gabs Stackpool
Bernard & Bernadette
Alex Higgett
Love & Film
The Apartment
The Lovers
James Bourne
Sometimes...
Ben Newman
The Kiss
Jemimah Kuhfeld
Memorial
Theo Berry
Love Hurts
Scott Whiteman
^
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July to September 2004
FROM THE SOPPY TO THE SCIENTIFIC,
AFFECTIONATE TO SEDUCTIVE, DECODE
FALLS IN LOVE AND TAKES YOU ALONG
FOR THE RIDE.
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24 FEATURE ALL A B O U T LOVE...
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July to September 2004
25 ILLUSTRATIONS BEN N E W M A N
2 6 Feature
LOVE HURTS
“WHAT CAME FIRST, THE MUSIC, O R THE
MISERY? PEOPLE WORRY ABOUT KIDS PLAYING
WITH GUNS OR WATCHING VIOLENT VIDEOS…
NOBODY WORRIES ABOUT KIDS
LISTENING TO THOUSANDS, LITERALLY THOUSANDS OF SONGS ABOUT HEARTBREAK,
REJECTION, PAIN, MISERY AND LOSS.
DID I LISTEN TO POP-MUSIC BECAUSE I WAS
MISERABLE? OR WAS I MISERABLE BECAUSE
I LISTENED TO POP MUSIC?”
NICK HORNBY. HIGH FIDELITY
hours after he polishes off the chorus our songwriter is at a gathering,
a party of sorts, discussing his
achievement with some fellow
wannabes (they want to form a
band, but they never will) – Cool! –
they say - Well, maybe I’ll play it
for you later – he smiles. And the
drink flows and this group of sixteen
year olds swoon and sway from the
alcohol and soon everyone is quiet,
and the host’s older brother’s guitar
has found its way into our young
songwriter’s hands. He impresses
the crowd with some stock renditions of their indie favourites.
(Wonderwall, Live Forever, High
and Dry).
And then some bright spark pipes
up – Play that new song you told
me about, y’know, the one you just
finished – and our songwriter
shakes his head and begins to
tremble. Because sat to his left is
the very subject of the song itself,
the girl who has ignored him pretty
much completely up until that
point, every day, every week, for
years. Go on! Play it! – they insist.
Go on - she chips in, the first words
she has ever said to him - play it
for us. And the songwriter gasps for
air – She would know! She would
know it was about her! She would
know and… and… - and in his
panic, he does the only thing he
can think of. I’ve got to go home he says. And he throws the guitar
aside and bolts for the door.
True story. What the hell was I supposed to do? As I said, sometimes
it’s easy to forget they’re just songs.
SAD AND BROKEN HEARTED
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dead! (My Heart Will Go On). Music
and love have somehow become
hopelessly intertwined. I’m sure
there are plenty of people out there
who can chart their relationships by
looking at their record collections
and how many of us have wallowed
in music after a break-up, drowning
our sorrows in the most miserable
lyrics we can find? It’s easy to forget that at the end of the day,
they’re only songs.
For a songwriter – and I at least
pretend to be one – knowing all of
the above makes for a fascinating,
and frightening prospect.
Fascinating because if music and
love are intertwined, if you can
make one, then maybe you can
make the other! And frightening?
Well, imagine this: A budding songwriter, a 16 year old who still can’t
hold down an F chord without
wincing, writes himself a song
about some girl he knows, about
some lost opportunity that he may
or may not have imagined. It’s not
a great song, he realises, but he
also realises it is his first and it is a
love song, of sorts. And just a few
WORDS
PAUL CUNLIFFE
Most music, certainly most popular
music, is about love, about people
falling into it (Can’t Help Falling In
Love) or out of it (You've Lost That
Lovin' Feeling) about wanting it
(Give Me All Your Lovin’), needing it
(Baby Love), losing it (Bye Bye
Love), or missing it (Where Did Our
Love Go?) Some songs are about
enjoying it (Love to Love You Baby)
or celebrating it (All You Need is
Love) and some are about just trying to figure out what it’s all about
(I Want to Know What Love Is).
Some are wonderfully positive (How
Sweet It Is to Be Loved by You)
many achingly negative (Love
Hurts).
The really interesting thing about
love songs is that most of them are
kind of desperate. Sometimes
they’re desperately sad (Love Will
Tear Us Apart), sometimes desperately unhappy (Love Don’t Live
Here Anymore). More frequently
they present a slightly more sinister
proposition: complete and total
devotion (Saving All My Love For
You) for the rest of time (I Will
Always Love You) even after you’re
PHOTOGRAPHS BY GAL, ORIT & THEO HARPAZ
FAMILY
THEO’S MEXICAN VACATION
Todos Santos
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Baja Del Sur
San Jose Del Cabo
2 8 Feature
CRAZY
IN LOVE
LOVE! IT’S NOT ALL HEARTS & FLOWERS YOU KNOW. IN FACT IT’S GOT NOTHING
TO DO WITH YOUR HEART AT ALL AND EVERYTHING TO DO WITH THE CHEMICALS
IN THE BRAIN. THE CONTENTIOUS ISSUE OF SCIENCE AND LOVE.
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through evolution.
We are all familiar with the drive for sex,
we can explain this as a need to reproduce, but scientists have recently found
out that the pursuit of romance is also a
drive within us, like a hunger. It’s this
drive that allows us to focus on one particular person in order to stay with them
for long enough to form a relationship.
When we find that person our brains
release certain chemicals including
phenylethylamine (PEA), dopamine and
norepinephrine which together act like
ancing us out. This could be because
nature wants us to eliminate our differences long enough for us to get it on! And
we can thank our loved-up ancestors and
their genes for our drive to have sex and
find love. Those that were into sexual
activity and companionship were more
likely to reproduce and parent healthy offspring which were more likely to survive these qualities have been passed down
adrenaline making our hearts beat faster.
The release of these hormones are only
triggered by this special person so our
loved one becomes the focus of our attention and our desires just like a drug. As we
fall further in love oxytocin is released
which is linked to sexual arousal. These
chemicals are not as dramatic as the
chemicals released in the first flush of lust
but they are more addictive and part of
the reason we want to keep being around
this one person. In 1999 Marazztiti also
showed that levels of serotonin, which
has a calming affect, were below normal
in those in love as well as those with
obsessive compulsive disorder which suggests that people in love are indeed, a little bit crazy.
So to those people not in love I say don’t
get down - after all its just a bunch of
chemicals doing their job, but to those in
love - enjoy it, it's kind of nice being nuts
isn't it?
ILLUSTRATIONS BY ALEXANDRA HIGGETT
enough to mate and become a parent.
Research has shown that the more the
partners idealise each other the closer
they are and this can guide them through
any conflict. Not only do we become more
like the lovely person our partner perceives us to be but we become more like
our partners in terms of sex drive.
Recently Donatella Marazziti of the
University of Pisa found that levels of
testosterone (the sex hormone responsible
for sex drive and aggression) dropped in
men and rose in women, effectively bal-
WORDS
GABRIELLE STACKPOOL
Have you ever looked back on an old relationship and cringed? How could you have
missed their annoying habits? That grating high pitched laugh, their way of questioning everything you do, the way they
always choose what films you go and see,
their smelly feet, and their frizzy ginger
hair? How could you have ever found
them desirable? Well, according to new
findings by scientists Dr Andreas Bartel
and Professor Semir Zeki from University
College London, you can be forgiven for
your lack of judgement. The pre-frontal
cortex and the neural circuits associated
with social assessment are suppressed –
in other words parts of your brain responsible for judgement are temporarily
switched off, making us ‘blind’ to our partners faults. All logical reasoning concerning our loved one seems to fly out of the
window when we are in love; adjacent
areas of our brains that deal with trust,
fear and planning also seem to be
switched off - explaining to some extent
why we choose inappropriate partners
and why some people can fall for conmen
or women. Our brains effectively dumb
down, making us rush headlong into a
sexual relationship, but then happily other
factors work to make us stay with that
person long enough to remain in love and
sustain a relationship. When this initial
blissful ignorant state is over, or the honeymoon period as many call it, areas of
our brains that have been ‘switched off ‘ –
gradually return to normal levels and are
switched back ‘on’. There’s a very good
biological reason for this - if we didn’t
suppress our judgment in the early stages
then our overly analytical brains would
never allow us to take risks and you might
end a relationship too soon or not even
try. That’s not much fun is it?
Interestingly, when we are idealized by
our partners, research suggests that we
actually grow to become more like the
person our partner perceives us to be – so
we actually create the relationship we
wished for. With each partner responding
to the others approval, lovers become
closer to the ideal. The idealisation stage
is essential if we are to stay together long
2 9 Feature: STORY BY HOLLY SMALE
IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN IN ME. IT HAS BEEN SITTING IN THERE, WAITING: TAPPING
ITS TOES WITH FRUSTRATION, WAITING TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED, HUMMING
WITH IMPATIENCE. EVERY BOOK I HAVE READ, EVERY FILM I HAVE SAT
THROUGH, EVERY RADIO I HAVE TURNED ON HAS FED IT, WATERED IT AND
NURTURED IT UNTIL IT IS THERE: FULLY GROWN AND KICKING AGAINST MY
INSIDES IN EAGERNESS TO BE RELEASED. OR SO I THOUGHT. EVERY TIME I
TRIED TO PUSH IT OUT, IT WOULD SCREAM, STRUGGLE, CLING ON. IT WOULD
SHAKE ITS HEAD: NO, NO, I AM NOT COMING OUT, I AM NOT READY, THIS IS
NOT MY TIME. AND I WOULD TAKE HOLD OF THE BEDPOSTS - PUT A STICK
BETWEEN MY TEETH - AND PUSH. YES: YOU ARE COMING, I WANT YOU NOW.
I HAVE BEEN PREPARING FOR YOU FOR YEARS. AND YOU WILL ARRIVE: YOU
MUST. I CANNOT WAIT, YOU MAY NEVER COME. AND THEN? AND THEN I WILL
BE ALONE, I WILL DIE, AND YOU WILL DIE INSIDE ME: DRIED AND CRIPPLED,
WITHOUT EVER HAVING TAKEN A BREATH. I CANNOT BE FORCED, IT WOULD
SAY. I AM HERE; I AM WAITING. BUT DO NOT PUSH ME, YOU CAN NOT THREATEN ME. I HAVE NO USE-BY DATE AND I WILL NOT GET TIRED. I WILL BE AS
FRESH IN A YEAR AS I WILL BE IN TWENTY - AND I CAN BE READY TODAY - BUT
YOU MUST NOT RUSH ME. YOU THINK YOU ARE READY, BUT YOU ARE NOT. I
KNOW WHEN IS RIGHT, AND I WILL BE THERE. BUT I FELT IT GROW HARD. IT NO
LONGER CURLED AND CIRCLED INSIDE ME, RUBBING ITS SIDES AGAINST MY
CHEST, NUZZLING MY STOMACH. IT NO LONGER LIFTED MY INSIDES AND
THRILLED ME WITH NUDGES AND WINKS. IT WENT HARD, BITTER, SILENT: A
BALL THAT WEIGHED AND PRESSED, GREW STILL AND STAGNANT. AND I
STOPPED PUSHING. IT HURT TOO MUCH, AND EV ERY TIME THE BALL GREW
DARKER, SHARPER. FINALLY I FORGOT IT. A LINE, A WORD, A RIFF WOULD
BRING IT BACK - THE JAGGED EDGES PRESSING OUTWARDS FOR A MOMENT AND I WOULD FLINCH. THE BALL WOULD MOMENTARILY SINK FURTHER. THEN
MY BACK WOULD TURN, MY HEAD WOULD LIFT AND IT WOULD BE OVER: IT
WOULD QUIETEN TO A MURMUR AND THE KICKING WOULD STOP. THIS IS NOT A
WAR, IT WOULD SIGH: BUT YOU HAVE WON IT, I WOULD ANSWER. AH, I
SOBBED. FOR SOME PEOPLE IT WILL NEVER COME, OF COURSE, OF COURSE: FOR
ME IT HAS DIED, IT WILL NEVER UNCURL. IT IS AS IT WAS MEANT TO BE. SO I
RESTED AND THE STRUGGLE WAS OVER. THERE WOULD BE NO MORE PUSHING.
BUT SLOWLY, SOMEWHERE IN MY DARKENED PART - WHERE I NEVER LOOKED SOMETHING WAS BEGINNING TO STIR. SOMETHING WAS UNRAVELLING, LIFTING
ITS HEAD, RUBBING ITS EYES, CLEARING ITS THROAT. QUIETLY, IT WAS
UNFOLDING. I DIDN’T SEE IT. I WAS WAITING FOR THE PAIN OF NEWNESS, THE
STRUGGLE INTO EXISTENCE, THE SHARPNESS AND THE PUSH. AND THIS WAS
GENTLE, COAXING: THIS HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. IF I WASN’T SCREAMING THEN IT WASN’T COMING, AND I KEPT MY HEAD TURNED. NO, NO I SHOUTED: I KNOW WHAT IT IS, I HAVE WAITED FOR YEARS, I HAVE WANTED IT FOR
YEARS, AND THIS IS NOT IT.
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BLOND HUMAN VOLCANO
Story Liam Gallimore-Wells
Layout Charlie Watkins
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THE GREATEST
LOVE STORY
EVER TOLD –
AN OFFICE
CLERK, AN
ELEVATOR
GIRL, AND
NO KISSING:
JAKE WEBB
APPLAUDS...
THE APARTMENT
JACK LEMMON AND SHIRLEY MACLAINE CLASSIC
FEATURE
LOVE O N SCREEN
catch up with his superiors, but he’s not
happy with what he feels he’s become
forced into to do so, while below Fran’s
‘Watch the doors please, blasting off!’ banter, you can tell she deserves more than
this, and knows it. Unlike romantic comedies these days, their relationship doesn’t
follow any sort of first-date-sleep-togetherfall-out-make-up formula. It’s not until a
couple of viewings that you realise they
don’t so much as hold hands throughout
the whole thing. But you root for them,
and gladly accept the patently not
inevitable happy ending.
This is partly for their characters, and after
the sleeping pill episode, we see Bud for
who he really is: kind,
thoughtful, caring,
and willing to lay himself down for love.
Fran, meanwhile, is
any man’s dream girl:
funny, wise, heartstoppingly beautiful,
sweet and sentimental
enough to have her
heart broken, but
tough enough to come
out fighting. But it’s
also for what they’re
up against: the cold,
creeping life their colleagues have made for
themselves. The world
of the film may be
cynical; they’re anything but.
That said, it’s a brilliantly smart and witty
world, too. Wilder and
Diamond create a
story where everything happens for a reason, where every joke sparks off a whole
language of word-play, where the slightest
aside or off-screen incident can send events
hurtling down unexpected routes. Even as
Fran lies slumped on his bed, Bud thinks
she’s just asleep and mimics the owner of
the bar he’s just returned from: ‘O-U-T:
Out!’
The film’s Christmas setting explains its frequent appearance in the festive tv schedules, and it won a handful of Oscars,
including best film.It is often called a masterpiece. But it occupies a curious position
now: slightly forgotten or mislaid, alwaysalways- mentioned as an afterthought to
Some Like It Hot. Still, its value goes
beyond ‘top 100 comedies’ lists.
Like the best stories, The Apartment is
wholly of its time, but the plot could be taking place right now. For better or worse,
Friends, Sex and the City, Ally McBeal and
a million J-Lo movies can be traced back to
its tale of life, love and working in New
York. None of them do it like this, though: a
romantic comedy with heart and soul, and
a love story with fists and teeth.
‘FOR BETTER OR
WORSE, FRIENDS,
SEX AND THE CITY,
ALLY MCBEAL AND
A MILLION J-LO
MOVIES CAN BE
TRACED BACK TO
ITS TALE OF LIFE,
LOVE AND WORK
IN NEW YORK...’
ILLUSTRATION BY MR.G
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July to September 2004
‘If you leave something in a drawer’, the
saying goes, ‘it will either rot or ripen.’ The
Apartment can stand as example of the latter. In 1945, Billy Wilder watched David
Lean’s Brief Encounter and was intrigued
not by the main characters but by the
friend whose house they meet in. But it
was not until the late 1950s that he and
co-screenwriter I.A.L. Diamond, having just
completed Some Like It Hot, returned to
this idea. It is not clear who came up with
the clever twist: the owner of the apartment
is loaning his place to his bosses, in return
for a swift foot up the corporate ladder.
Jack Lemmon plays the owner in question:
C.C. Baxter (but you can call him Bud), an
affable sort of guy working for Consolidated Life,
a vast insurance company
in New York. Almost
everyone has the wrong
idea about him: his bosses think they can keep
him shivering on a park
bench while they conduct
their tete-a-tetes with various Consolidated secretaries and switchboard
operators, while his
neighbours think he’s
nothing but a ‘good time
Charlie’ and a love rat‘easy come, easy go’. The
lonely sort of irony here is
seemingly lost on everyone bar the audience, but
all the same, it plays as a
comedy of errors until the
plot darkens and thickens.
Bud, it turns out, is developing a hearty crush on
Fran Kubelik, an especially loveable elevator
girl. This should be fine- and boy, do we
hope it will- he even scores a date with her.
But she stands him up, while taking a slow
cab back to his apartment with
Consolidated’s director, the very married
and very loathsome Mr Sheldrake. They’ve
been having an affair for a while but this
time, he promises her, the divorce is imminent. We can see the truth. She can’t. In a
typically beautiful bit of plotting, Bud discovers the truth, and soon after discovers
Fran slumped in his bedroom on Christmas
Eve, Sheldrake long gone and an empty
bottle of sleeping pills in her hand.
Predictably, Wilder and Diamond came
under a lot of fire for this particular move,
and for the rest of the story in general. It
has been called cynical time and again,
saved, apparently, only by the sympathetic
performances from Lemmon and Shirley
Maclaine as Fran. This is partly right.
That nearly fifteen year gestation period is
well timed: The Apartment could not have
been made until the late fifties. Its look and
language is pure Eisenhower, yet it runs
deeper than that: just a few years before
Kennedy and The Beatles, America is
booming. There is money to be made, dates
to be won, Martinis to be sunk. But corporate New York can be a lonely, vicious, andyep- cynical place. Bud may be keen to
Buy the Apartment for the ridiculously low
cost of a fiver from HMV and Fopp while
stocks last.
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W H O DO
Y O U LOVE?
COS EVERYBODY NEEDS SOMEBODY.
No, it’s not just because he played Doctor
Who! It's because of his eccentricity, the
way he seems to see things in life in that
slightly different way to everyone else. He
is a very funny person with a host of vivid,
sometimes almost whimsical expressions
and views on life.
LEE BARROWS ON TOM BAKER
LEE
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People we love
Comedians
Bill Bailey
Peter Kay
Bill Hicks (dead)
Dave Gorman
Authors
Dave Eggers
Paul Auster
Nick Hornby
Lynn Reid Banks
Harvey Pekar
Ian Banks
Musicians
Rufus Wainwright
Laura Veirs
Josh Ritter
Elliot Smith (dead)
Jeff Buckley (dead)
Jim White
Kathryn Williams
Sufjan Stevens
Miles Davis
Poets
Pablo Neruda
Ben Okri
Artists
Ella Brown
Holly Smale
Alexandra Higlett
Lee Barrows
Film-makers
Sophia Coppola
Michel Gondry
Gus Van Sant
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Luise Rainer. Discovered on the stage in
Europe by MGM talent scouts and shipped
to Hollywood as the 'new Garbo' in 1935.
Less than 10 years later her career was
over, but her mark was indelible - two
'Best Actress' Oscars, and her personal
and artistic integrity intact. An indomitable
woman who refused to kowtow to the
men who controlled her every move, she
shunned the celebrity and artifice of
Hollywood and all it represented, to forge
her own way through the 20th century....
still intrepid now, in her 10th decade.
CRAIG CARRUTHERS
SHIRLEY
CRAIG
A person I really love is my best friend who lives in Upstate
New Jersey. We met when we were 10 years old in the playground of our Junior School in Hertfordshire. She was threatening to punch another girl whose little gang I was in.
Suddenly my friend Joann passed out and was carried into
the school by the Headmaster, flopped in his arms, eyes
rolling and I felt so sorry for her. A year later we became the
best of friends. We had so much in common. We had both
lived in Africa as children, our fathers were both Army
Officers and we were both determined to turn the world on
its heels. We did in the 60's. And some! To this day, 43 years
later we still love each other and have each others children to
stay. She is now a master gardener and does voluntary work
in an Aids Hospice in New Jersey in her spare time, and all
this with 3 children to bring up on top of having been in a
wheelchair before her hips were replaced a few years ago.
Interestingly she only told me a couple of years ago that she
had just pretended to pass out in the playground all those
years ago. Nice act with the rolling eyes Joann!
CLAIRE PEARCEY
CLAIRE
LUKE
ATASHA
I love my mate Pat. He’s the
man, my oldest mate, and the
funniest fucker I’ve ever met.
‘Talent’ is his middle name, but
so is ‘lazy insecure fool’. He’s a
selfish bastard, who can infuriate the hell out of me and make
me wanna smash his face in
but when we’re in the zone, he
makes me laugh so much I
want to cry. We’ve composed
music, written comedy scripts,
been in a band and performed
on stage together, and I’m gutted that he’s in Bristol and I’m
now up in London.
LUKE KEEN
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July to September 2004
Why stop at one love when there's a whole world out
there. My first crush was on a boy called Peter whose
father looked like Danny Kaye. Yes, it really was that
long ago! Boy, was that man talented (Danny Kaye, I
mean NOT Peter's father). Then, when I reached my
teens, Steve McQueen could do no wrong. It was the
curl of his lips, I think. There's no other movie star
out there today who can match him for looks, sex
appeal or cussedness. How I howled when he died.
Just two ladies stand out for me. Sophia Loren –
beauty, talent, majesty! Liza Minelli – beauty, talent,
lack of majesty! Then to cap it all, just when I think
the world has no more surprises in store for me, who
should I "discover" but the greatest, most sexy actor
of them all, GERARD DEPARDIEU. Utterly, utterly
mad about the man. Can anyone think of more
diverse films to appear in than Georges Danton and
Le Closet? Of course, the real love of my life is the
father of my children
SHIRLEY STACKPOOL
PHOTOGRAPHS BY JAMES
ARA
MY BEST MATE AND SISTER
JO. FOR LENDING ME
CLOTHES, FOR COOKING
MY DINNER, FOR CHAUFFEURING ME AROUND TOWN AND
FOR ONE PARTICULAR INCIDENT WHEN SHE CAME TO
MY RESCUE AND FOUGHT OFF
AN INTRUDER IN MY FLAT. HE
WAS COWERING BY THE END
OF IT AND SORRY HE EVER
SET FOOT IN THE BUILDING!
A CONSTANT
SUPPORT AND, MOST IMPORTANTLY, ALWAYS UP FOR A
GOOD LAUGH.
TARA KAY
INTERVIEWS
GABRIELLE STACKPOOL
3 3 Feature
I loooove Keith Richards, as much as
you can love someone you’ve never met.
I love him for that formidable talent that
has had a massive impact on me &
many others so often. Keith is a great
musical force way beyond the Stones.
A humble, generous gentleman with a
razor sharp intellect who oozes wit,
sensitivity & originality. It helps that he
looks fantastic especially back in the
70’s; the hair, eyes, mean ole cheekbones & unsurpassed natural style. Add
to that longevity & stamina and, as for
stage presence... Mick who?!
NATASHA PULLIN
35 Feature
LOVE LETTERS
HEARTFELT CONTRIBUTIONS
IT AIN’T ALL HEARTS AND FLOWERS...
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THREE PICTURES...
from my recent sojourn in
Pembrokeshire that got me thinking
about love and the way we, human
beings, try to preserve it. This
Dolmen (1) was once the entry to a
bronze age burial ground - it must
have taken a huge effort to erect
and maintain. The cross and flowers
(2) were tucked among boulders at
the top of a hill. People preserving
their love for those who have passed
away through acts of remembrance
lest their love fade and dissipate. Is
this love, or the fear of being forgotten? Do/did these bronze age and
modern mourners preserve these
monuments purely out of love, or
did they hope that by doing this,
somebody would then do the same
for them, and that they to would be
remembered? Just how far is love
simply the fear of being alone and
forgotten? How different then to the
pebble heart (3) built by a pair of
young lovers on the beach - the tide
washed it away in a matter of minutes, but their love continued.
Theo Berry
LOVE - THE BOND (4)
All mothers have a special bond
with their children, some stronger
than others. My mother claims the
love she feels for me is so powerful
she couldn't possibly describe it
with a few worthless words. This
intangible love was apparent from
the day I was born. She has given
me her all and she loves me unconditionally. Even when she hates me,
she loves me. I am priveledged to
be part of this special bond and feel
I have captured this connection in
my photograph of my friend and her
new born. Sophie Holmes
THE KISS (5)
This image contains two things
simultaneously: the spontaneity of
both being kissed and giving a kiss.
Klimt’s Kiss is very male dominant:
but this picture feels balanced
between both people. It combines
the immediacy of kissing with the
fragility of what makes that
moment: what draws people
together towards a kiss or keeps
them apart.
Jemimah Kuhfeld
SONG OF LOVE
Love is a gambler and a critic
a tender fool with wings
the philandering professor
and the careless bird that sings
Love is the rite of passage
the doorway and the drought
the darkness of the morning
and the threadbare clothes without
Love is the night of hunger
and the passing of all dreams
the tempers frayed with feeling
and minds breaking at the seams
Love is the chamber of horrors
and the freedom flailing arms
the tattooed soul of violence
and the raging sea becalmed
Love is the holy promise
in Augustine's golden book
the salt and seal of fortune
and the pale desiring look
Love is the lasting testament
to the restless heart of man
the endless time of reckoning
and the devil's only plan
Love is the seat of learning
and the hook upon the tree
the colours in the shadow
and the eyes which cannot see
DREAM MAN
Every night you drink my blood
through sheets, panty paraphernalia
and sanitary wear.
When I wake, swooned and drained
I see you everywhere.
You are
The smoke my mouth breathes out
on a cold day.
The shadow that attaches itself to
my body as I walk past light.
The ether of my solidity.
Remembering and calling you
my mind wanders simultaneously
bumping into memories and future
dreamsWill we fuse and collude some form
of present reality?
I crawl into the morning, leaving
behind your time;
I feel you in my coffee
steam
as I drink in the experience of being
someone else’s drink.
Tania van Schalkwyk
18th November, 2002: Bristol
Love is last and love is first
Love is death and love is birth.
John E. Vistic
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